Have you turned into a rain?

Follow in my footsteps

Dance with me in this strange city

- Xu Niansheng

Lin Zisheng drove a person to pick up Xu Niansheng.

That day, from the moment Nian Sheng stepped out of the door of the old house where she had lived for fifteen years, the sky began to drizzle until she arrived at the city where she is now.

hypocritically felt that this rain not only fell on everything, but also drenched her whole heart.

Before getting into the car, Niansheng pretended to look back inadvertently, the one-meter-high fence made of stones, the wooden door was closed, the peach blossoms in the yard had already bloomed, and she could no longer see the flowers blooming and falling in the next life.

Along the way, it was Lin Zisheng who was talking about her current situation. Although Xu Niansheng looked out the window, she heard everything Lin Zisheng said, and she didn't miss a word.

The voice was so unfamiliar that Nian Sheng couldn't grasp a trace of familiarity in his memory.

Lin Zisheng said that he was on a business trip and was sorry that he couldn't come with him. Lin Zisheng said that in the future, she will have a younger sister. Lin Zisheng said that in the future, we must get along well.

Lin Zisheng said for a while, and then stopped for a while, but he wouldn't ask Xu Niansheng anything, maybe he guessed that Niansheng wouldn't answer, so as not to be embarrassed.

Nian Sheng stared at the rain outside the car window, tears streaming down her cheeks, wetting the New Year's clothes her father bought for her last year.

At this moment, Nian Sheng really realized that the life she lived with her father could not be returned after all.

His father was the best carpenter in the village, and occasionally carved some gadgets for Xu Niansheng to play with.

He always looked extremely serious, holding a knife in one hand and a wood in the other.

Niansheng squatted on the ground to look at him, and said some nonsensical things, saying that Agui from the same village climbed a tree to catch bird eggs and fell down, said that he saw a green dragonfly when he went to the river to wash clothes yesterday, and said that he went to Grandma's to buy vegetables and gave her an extra potato......

Every time, Niansheng described it lightly, and he listened quietly and didn't ask anything. Now that I think about it, although those days were poor and hard, they were extremely beautiful.

It's a pity that many things can only be known when we look back on them.

I will probably regret how I live, regret it to the point of heartache, beating my chest, all thoughts are discouraged, I can't do anything, and in the end I can only accept my fate, and I can only tell myself to "cherish the present".

After a journey of about 400 kilometers and five hours, Nian Sheng arrived at her new "home", which was further north than her hometown.

Yes, since then, the place where she grew up before the age of 15 can only become "home".

The moment she was led into the door by Lin Zisheng, a girl wearing a red dress with long hair ran over and hugged Lin Zisheng and called her mother.

She said in an extremely gentle voice: "When my mother is away, are you any obedient?" ”

The little girl looked up: "Yes, the homework is finished." I'm going to play with Brother Zexi. ”

She smiled: "No, you didn't promise your mother that you would stay at home and play with your sister." ”

The girl shook her mother's hand, pouting and coquettishly expression, which was an intimacy that Xu Niansheng could not learn in his life.

However, Niansheng has no hatred for Lin Zisheng, but it is impossible to have the wordless love that her father has for her.

Niansheng also wondered that after getting along with Lin Zisheng for many years, he still couldn't get close calmly.

It wasn't until his child was born that he realized that it was not that he didn't love, but that his heart was full of rejection and mustard caused by being abandoned, which was a knot that could never be untied with the death of his father.

When Nian Sheng was stunned, the little girl came over and took Nian Sheng's hand at the signal of Lin Zisheng.

He shouted angrily, "Sister! My sister is so beautiful. It's like Mom! ”

The day after her aunt said that Xu Nian grew like Lin Zisheng, she went to the barber shop to cut off her hair that had been a little longer, and returned to her ear-length short hair.

Now that she finds out what a stupid thing this is, Lin Zisheng's mark on her body, she can never erase it.

There is more cruel about blood relations, the filial piety culture formed by the Chinese nation for thousands of years is deep-rooted, and it is constantly sung that 'filial piety comes first', carrying many innate, seemingly irresistible famous sayings, such as not being close to relatives, not being human; If you are not obedient to your relatives, you must not be a son.

However, there are few famous sayings and aphorisms about the obligations and responsibilities of parents, and too many parents only know 'birth' and do not know 'nurturing'.

Nian Sheng stiffly followed the little girl into the living room, sat on the sofa, let go of her hand, and then eased up again. I casually looked around, four bedrooms and two living rooms, spacious and bright.

Lin Zisheng said: "Niansheng, I'm tired after a day's ride!" Let's take a shower and rest for a while. ”

Nian Sheng walked into the bathroom, closed the door, and slowly sat on the ground.

"Guan'er, I want to get along with my sister in the future, you know?"

"Got it!"

"Good baby."

Tears kissed Niansheng's cheek without any anger, she must have missed him too much.

My father is a man who doesn't talk much, and every time Niansheng goes out to play with his friends in the same village when he is a child, he sits in the yard and works, he will come to a faint sentence and want to get along with everyone.

Every word he said was full of power for Nian Sheng.

So no matter how much Agui laughed at her for being a child without a mother, she was always smiling.

It wasn't until later that Agui finally couldn't stand her laughing so ugly, pinched half of her face and said, Niansheng, I will climb a very high tree to catch bird eggs, do you want to go together.

But there are exceptions to everything, and once, when a group of children were playing by the stream, forgetting who had spoken ill of their father, she pressed his head into the water as soon as her brain was hot.

When everyone was stunned, Agui reacted quickly and stopped her brain fever in time.

Yes, it can be said that she is a child without a mother, but she cannot speak ill of her father.

"Sister!!" A shrill shout completely pulled Nian Sheng back from memory to reality.

hurriedly turned off the shower and wiped his head with Lin Zisheng's newly bought towel.

Zeguan said: "Mom has prepared a meal, come out quickly!" ”

After a while, Lin Zisheng's voice came again, "Guan'er, don't rush my sister." ”

Then there was a burst of their frolicking sounds, as if Song Zeguan hugged Lin Zisheng from behind and tickled her.

At the dinner table, Lin Zisheng said to Niansheng: "Eat more vegetables, I don't know if it suits your taste." ”

Song Zeguan then sandwiched a chicken wing and put it in the Niansheng bowl, "Sister, try the Coke chicken wings made by your mother, they are delicious." ”

Lin Zisheng cast an approving look at Song Zeguan, and Song Zeguan responded with a sweet smile.

As an outsider, Nian Sheng couldn't help but wonder why she came here, whether she was desperate, whether she hated her uncle and aunt's hypocritical faces, or wanted to see what the happiness pursued by Lin Zisheng looked like.

After eating, Nian Sheng stood in the room prepared for her by Lin Zisheng, the room was not big or small, with white walls, a bed covered with floral sheets, and a neat desk.

I also imagined what it would be like to come here, maybe it was extremely embarrassing and restrained to each other, or it was cold and polite to each other.

However, the truth is always unexpected, their enthusiasm and ordinary, even the acting is so realistic, as if they have never missed 15 years between them.

All this, the contrast of the birth of the mind is even more unnatural.

Song Yishu came back from a business trip and bought gifts for everyone. When he returned, it happened to be Nian Sheng's door.

He is about forty years old, with a tall figure, still maintaining a good appearance, wearing a light-colored shirt and dark trousers, looking mature and stable.

Nian Sheng looked at him and smiled, and he patted her head kindly: "Nian has grown so tall." You can't blame your uncle for not picking you up, right? ”

Before she could think of how to answer, Song Zeguan ran out of the room and said happily: "Dad, Dad, where is my gift!" What about my gifts! ”

Take a closer look, Song Zeguan is a little more like Song Yishu, with a hooked nose and smiling but sharp eyes.

The British "Sun" newspaper once published the personality secrets represented by the six nose types analyzed by Simon, a British face analysis expert. Among them, the hooknose type rarely goes with the flow, they have the courage to pursue goals, and they are usually rebellious.

In the following years, Song Zeguan did confirm the analysis of experts.

"I have to open the gifts with my mother after eating." After Song Zeguan heard Song Yishu's words, he entered the kitchen with his mouth open.

After eating dinner and reading the gifts, Song Yishu and Lin Zisheng discussed the matter of Niansheng's enrollment.

Song Yishu: "Niansheng may not be used to it when he first comes here, and he is afraid that he will not be able to keep up with his studies, so it is good to stay a level to familiarize himself with the environment." ”

At that time, Niansheng, who had been in a hurry to grow up, insisted on going to the first year of high school.

She said glutinously and firmly: "No, no need to repeat grades, I can keep up with my studies." ”

Lin Zisheng was suspicious: "Are you sure about Niansheng?" The textbook here is still a little different from what you read before. ”

Nian Sheng nodded: "Sure." ”

When I grow up, even if I can't choose the life I want, at least I don't have to live the days when I was adopted.

As everyone knows, a moment of persistence is a long-term warmth and hardship in the future.

Sometimes, we can laugh heartlessly with others, but we can only hide in the corner and lick our wounds alone.

Autumn is getting closer, and the night is slowly lengthening.

Nian Sheng was half-lying on the bed, looking at the moon outside the window, gray and gloomy, without the brightness and cleanliness seen in the village.

Sometimes, the moon is like a human face, and it will have different colors in different places.

"Sister, I'll come in!" Before the knocking on the door stopped, Song Zeguan flashed in.

Nian Sheng immediately sat up straight and looked at her.

"Sister, I like that gift from my father very much, can you exchange it with me?" Song Zeguan's hands rested on the sides of his thighs, and he didn't take anything.

"You don't need to change it, it's on the table, you can take it." Nian Sheng smiled at her.

"Thank you, sister!" The corners of Song Zeguan's mouth rose, and instantly sank again, "He's my father, not yours." My dad is amazing. ”

Song Zeguan held the double-sided embroidery in his left hand, turned around, put his right hand on the doorknob, and suddenly, turned his head again, and said in a gentle tone, "Sister, go to bed early." ”

"So are you." Niansheng blinked, the children in the city are different from the village, and the speed of changing their faces is relatively fast.