Chapter 12: I can't love if I want to love (46000 recommended votes)

Wei Chengshu wanted to say something, but Pei Shuyi spoke at this time, "Chengshu, it's enough for my eldest brother and aunt to have here, you can go back first." ”

Wei Chengshu had no choice but to nod when he heard this, and after greeting a few people, Wei Chengshu left.

Huo Huiyuan saw that the time was almost up, and she said to Pei Tingqing: "It's so late, Shuyi is also going to rest, Tingqing, you go back first, and my mother stays to accompany Shuyi." ”

"It's okay, I'll stay here." Pei Tingqing naturally wanted to take care of and accompany Pei Shuyi personally, but when he saw Huo Huiyuan hesitating, he persuaded again: "Didn't Dad go back tonight?" Mom, if you're not at home, Dad will be upset. ”

Huo Huiyuan didn't plan to tell Pei Zongyou about Pei Shuyi's injury, Pei Zongyou has rarely cared about Pei Shuyi in recent years, there are many things about children, Pei Zongyou doesn't ask, Huo Huiyuan won't take the initiative to tell him, she nodded when she heard this, "Okay, then mom will go back, and I'll ask Steward Fang to send you a change of clothes later." ”

"Hmm."

Huo Huiyuan didn't leave immediately, but brought a basin of warm water from the bathroom, and took a towel to wipe Pei Shuyi's body, but she felt that Pei Tingqing was present and it was inconvenient, so she said to Pei Tingqing behind her: "You go to the inner room to make your own bed." ”

Pei Tingqing also understood what his mother meant, he answered and walked to the inner room, sat on the bed with one leg propped up, his arm on his knee, Pei Tingqing turned his head to look at the flickering lights outside the window.

Distraught and difficult to calm down.

He was sure that he was in love with Pei Shuyi.

From the beginning of being good to her as a brother, the bits and pieces of getting along day and night in the past two years have surfaced in front of him, until she blocked the knife for herself in the peach blossom forest, just now she said that she felt heartache for him, and he finally saw his heart clearly.

When did it start?

It was probably when she was fifteen years old that he bathed her, looked and touched her all over her body, and when he sat on the bed with her over a quilt, and when she leaned on him, he became lustful for her.

Men always have sex first, feel for a woman physically, and then sublimate to love, and he once tried to restrain his desire for Pei Shuyi, in order to suppress the love that has not yet grown.

That's why he started having girlfriends, but he couldn't have feelings for those girls anyway, and he wasn't even interested in holding each other's hands, let alone kissing and having sex.

A year has passed, not only has he not stifled his feelings for Pei Shuyi, but he has even become more and more intense, and now it is not so easy to withdraw.

But if he doesn't pull away, will he let it develop?

No.

Pei Shuyi is his sister, this is a fact that cannot be changed.

Pei Tingqing's other leg was also bent on the bed, he hugged his head and buried it in the crook of his arm, feeling pain in his heart.

Originally, it was a beautiful thing to fall in love with someone, and love was also beautiful, but it was a sin for him, and he didn't even have a position to pursue.

"Tingqing." Huo Huiyuan's gentle voice sounded in his ears, and Pei Tingqing raised his head at this time.

Huo Huiyuan saw that her son's eyebrows were pale, she walked over and put her hand on Pei Tingqing's shoulder, "Are you too tired?" Actually, think about it, you're only 19 years old, but your mom has made you bear so much. ”

Pei Tingqing shook his head and quickly returned to his usual indifference, "I'm fine, Mom, go back and rest early." When Shuyi sleeps, I'll sleep. ”

"Thank you for your hard work, Mom will come back tomorrow." Huo Huiyuan could see that Pei Tingqing had something on his mind, but he didn't tell her, a mother, that according to her son's temperament of being stuffy in everything, she couldn't ask anything.

Huo Huiyuan sighed in her heart, walked over and stood there hugging her son's shoulder, she kissed her son on the forehead, "Mom went back." ”

"Hmm."

Huo Huiyuan let go of Pei Tingqing, she opened the door and left, and after a while, Pei Tingqing walked to Pei Shuyi's hospital bed, sat at the head of the bed and asked in a low voice: "Are you sleepy, do you want to sleep now?" ”

"I've been sleeping for a long time in the afternoon, and now I don't feel sleepy." Pei Shu sat there sideways and looked at Pei Tingqing, "Big brother, I want to see Conan." ”

Pei Tingqing raised his hand and touched Pei Shuyi's head helplessly, "Wait for me for a few minutes." After he finished speaking, he walked out, and after a while, he really came back with his laptop.

Pei Tingqing put the table on the hospital bed, and after helping Pei Shuyi find Conan, he let Pei Shuyi sit there comfortably and half-leaned there to watch, while he sat at the head of the bed.

Seeing this, Pei Shuyi moved some positions to the other side of the bed, and after waiting for a while, Pei Tingqing still didn't move, she frowned and asked suspiciously, "Big brother, why don't you sit up?" ”

In the past year or so, the eldest brother has often accompanied her to watch, especially when she has menstruation, after he took the medicine for her, the two of them sat together under the same quilt, which was used to Pei Shuyi.

"I ........." Pei Tingqing Zhishang didn't want to get close to Pei Shuyi, but he couldn't control his feelings, hesitated for a moment but got up and walked over to lock the door of the ward, and then turned back and took off his shoes and went to bed.

Pei Shuyi naturally leaned on Pei Tingqing's shoulder, but Pei Tingqing's muscles stiffened suddenly, and it took him a while before he bent his arm and hugged Pei Shuyi to his chest, making her more comfortable lying down.

At that time, Pei Shuyi wanted to learn how to see the murderer, Pei Tingqing's answer was to rely on intuition, Pei Shuyi didn't have that intuition, Pei Tingqing said that she was too stupid, so there was a high IQ by her side, and Pei Shuyi didn't bother to use her brain.

In this episode, Xiaolan used karate to restrain the murderer, Pei Shuyi was particularly envious, she liked karate since she watched Conan, but she had never had the opportunity to learn it before, "After I am injured, I will also learn karate, which is beautiful and powerful, so that if I meet those people in the future, the other party will not hurt me." ”

"There won't be a next time." Pei Tingqing said distressed and unquestionable, put his palm on the top of Pei Shuyi's head, lowered his eyebrows and stared at her, "But you can learn if you want, go every Saturday and Sunday in the future, and the eldest brother will accompany you." ”

Pei Shuyi was very happy to hear this, "Okay, I have to study hard, I can't surpass my eldest brother in all aspects, and I must be better than my eldest brother in karate." ”

"Silly."

"Call me stupid again?"

Pei Tingqing couldn't help but smile, and a touch of arc on his lips curled, "Okay, I won't say it." ”

The two didn't talk for a while, staring intently at the computer screen, and when they talked about the relationship between Xiaolan and Shinichi, Pei Shuyi sighed, "Big brother, do you say Xiaolan will be with Shinichi?" They're childhood sweethearts, and I like this kind of relationship. ”

Pei Tingqing's temperament is weak, he doesn't have much interest, and he rarely indulges in anything, but he raised his eyebrows disapplaudedly for Pei Shuyi's investment, "How can I know if I can be together, I can only wait for the ending." ”

"But I guess we can't wait in this life, this kind of anime can be serialized for hundreds of years, and the original author has some Jiang Lang talents, repeating the modus operandi, many times it's just a few people and scenes."

He still has to go on, seeing that Pei Shuyi, a loyal fan of Conan, is unhappy, Pei Tingqing changed the topic, "Instead of discussing superficial love and love, let's reason who the biggest boss is." ”

"How is love and love superficial?" After Pei Shuyi finished speaking, she suddenly turned her head to look at Pei Tingqing, "Does the eldest brother mean that you know who the biggest boss is?" Tell me quickly. ”

"I was going to say it, but seeing that you want to know so much, I deliberately didn't want you to know."

Pei Shuyi: "..........."

After a while, her dark eyes rolled, and she suddenly stretched out her hand to scratch Pei Tingqing's itch, "If you don't say it, if you don't say it, hey...........", but it turned out to affect the wound on her own back, and she suddenly screamed in pain.

Seeing this, Pei Tingqing hurriedly placed Pei Shuyi again, and didn't care about anything else, so he lifted her hospital gown from behind, "The price of dishonesty, show me if it's cracked." ”

In the next second, a large patch of snow-white skin came into view, and Pei Tingqing even forgot to look at the location of Pei Shuyi's wound, and his eyes suddenly dimmed.

A cold sweat broke out on Pei Shuyi's forehead, "How is it?" It hurts big brother. ”

Pei Tingqing came back to his senses at this time, and after a hurried glance, Pei Tingqing put down the hem of Pei Shuyi's hospital gown, stroked Pei Shuyi's face with his palm, and said gently: "It's okay, if you can't stand the pain, I'll go get you some painkillers." ”

He was about to get out of bed, but Pei Shuyi reached out and grabbed him, "I'll bear with it, I can't always rely on medicine." I'm not that delicate, if I can't survive this little injury, then what big can I achieve? ”

Although Pei Tingqing doted on Pei Shuyi very much, he hoped that the woman he liked would be tougher, so he didn't insist anymore, turned his head and asked funny: "What big do you want to achieve?" ”

"I told my big brother that I want to be a cartoonist." Pei Shuyi said wistfully, and stretched out her hand to the computer screen, "In the future, I will also create a famous comic work like Conan." ”

Pei Tingqing nodded, "Well, big brother is your first reader." ”

Pei Shuyi laughed happily, but unfortunately there is no paper and pen here, otherwise she would want to draw a comic male protagonist based on her eldest brother now.

Pei Tingqing saw that it was already 1 o'clock in the morning, he took down the table and computer, "Okay, can you sleep?" ”

"Hmm." Pei Shuyi lay down, Pei Tingqing leaned over to cover her with the quilt, looked at the two rows of fan-like eyelashes in his closed eyes, trembling like feathers tugging at his heartstrings.

Pei Tingqing still didn't hold himself, leaned over and put his hot lips on Pei Shuyi's forehead, and said in a low voice, "Good night, my little angel." ”

Pei Shuyi was accustomed to the intimate demeanor of her eldest brother, a sweet smile appeared on her lips, and her eyes were still closed, "Good night, big brother." ”

Pei Tingqing stretched out his hand and stroked Pei Shuyi's face heavily, then turned off the light and walked to the inner room.

Pei Shuyi outside this night slept peacefully, but Pei Tingqing kept his eyes open in the dark and stayed awake all night.

In the next few days, Pei Shuyi spent most of her time in the hospital, Pei Tingqing spent most of her time with her, and several of her classmates and Wei Chengshu also came a few times.

Wei Chengshu wanted to accompany Pei Shuyi more, but because of Pei Tingqing, Wei Chengshu was forced to leave every time he couldn't stay for ten minutes.

On this day, Huo Huiyuan came to accompany Pei Shuyi, Pei Tingqing went back to make a soup for Pei Shuyi and sent it over, and Li Jiayao called him halfway and asked him to meet in the tea restaurant.

Pei Tingqing drove over, entered a private room and sat opposite Li Jiayao, and Li Jiayao is 28 years old, with a fair and beautiful face, such a delicate and beautiful appearance sometimes makes people feel that it is difficult to distinguish between male and female.

He is now the leader of the underworld in T City, Pei Tingqing is young but only lives below Li Jiayao, many times Li Jiayao has to give Pei Tingqing some face, just like this meeting.

Li Jiayao took a sip of tea, "Tingqing, you also know that the eight people who hurt your cousin last time were not directly managed by me, and they didn't know your identity, and they provoked you, and I had already dealt with them before you did it." ”

Compared with Pei Tingqing in his youth, Li Jiayao's voice is relatively low, but he is not very old but he is a well-known figure in the underworld of T City, which shows his strength and capital.

And because the Pei family chaebol belongs to the white way, Pei Tingqing's involvement in the underworld is hidden from many people, and even Pei Zongyou doesn't know, and most of Pei Tingqing's source of funds is to do illegal transactions.

Pei Tingqing knew that Li Jiayao's words were true, and he had a better relationship with Li Jiayao than he had with Wei Chengshu, so he nodded when he heard this, "Hmm." ”

Li Jiayao poured a cup of tea for Pei Tingqing, his fingers were snow-white and slender, and he was wearing a black sweater on his upper body, which made his complexion fairer and fairer, and the posture of pouring tea was particularly elegant, "Is there anything wrong with your cousin?" If not, I'll go and visit. ”

Pei Ting refused lightly, "No, I will be discharged from the hospital in the afternoon." ”

Li Jiayao didn't insist anymore, sat there leisurely, and talked about business, "Do you have time lately?" There's a deal abroad, and I'm not at ease with handing it over to someone else, so I want you to go there in person. ”

Pei Tingqing drank tea and asked concisely, "How long will it take?" ”

"About a month."

Pei Tingqing frowned, and said after a few seconds: "I'll think about it and give you an answer in a few days." ”

"Okay."

Pei Tingqing raised his wrist and saw that it was almost noon, he hung his coat in the crook of his arm and stood up, "I'll leave first, and I'll ask you to have dinner another day." ”

Li Jiayao then got up, the two walked out together, Pei Tingqing drove home in the car, went into the kitchen to make catfish tofu soup for Pei Shuyi, and when the catfish was fried in the oil pot, Huo Huiyuan came back.

Pei Tingqing frowned, "Mom, why are you back?" Wise as him, his face was a little heavy after thinking of it, "Because Wei Chengshu has passed, you are back?" ”

"Chengshu said that he wanted to be alone with Shuyi for a while." Huo Huiyuan walked over and stood beside Pei Tingqing, looking at the catfish in the oil pot, "Mom can see that you are too protective of Shuyi, and you don't want other boys to get close to Shuyi, but Shuyi always wants to make friends, I think Chengshu's kid is very good." If Shuyi likes them, her mother doesn't object to them. ”

Pei Tingqing was stunned when he heard the actions of his subordinates, and turned the catfish over again, "Do you think Chengshu's background can be worthy of Shuyi?" ”

"The concept of mother's door is not very strong." Huo Huiyuan said and turned her head to look at Pei Tingqing, "And you don't care much about your background, do you?" Otherwise, you wouldn't be friends with Chengshu. ”

Besides, Chengshu doesn't have any wealth now, but it doesn't mean that he won't get ahead in the future. Take the original Pei family as an example, it was also self-made step by step to the present, why do you dislike Chengshu's background? ”

Of course he didn't dislike any background, he just didn't want to hear Huo Huiyuan match Pei Shuyi with Wei Chengshu or other men, his tone was a little bad, "So what does mom mean, she is going to marry Shuyi so soon?" She was only 16 years old. ”

Pei Tingqing pursed her lips, Huo Huiyuan knew that this was a precursor to Pei Tingqing's anger, she sighed, "You yourself have high requirements for your future wife, even if you choose a husband for Shuyi, you are picky." Forget it, Mom is worrying too early, let's see Shuyi herself. ”

Pei Tingqing was silent.

Huo Huiyuan found something strange, "When did you learn to cook, why don't you know." ”

"There's so much you don't know." After all, it was his mother, Pei Tingqing couldn't be angry with her, he had already made the soup while the two were talking, and served half a bowl to Huo Huiyuan, "You taste it." ”

Huo Huiyuan tasted it, the taste was really delicious, "It's delicious, sure enough, my son can do the best in whatever he learns." ”

Pei Tingqing filled a whole bowl for Huo Huiyuan, and the other part was packed in a lunch box, "I'll send it to Shuyi." ”

Huo Huiyuan ate what her son made for the first time, drank the soup intently, and responded vaguely, "Hmm." ”

Pei Tingqing drove to the hospital, but when he carried the lunch box in his hand into the ward, Pei Shuyi was not inside.

He asked the medical staff to find out that Wei Chengshu had left with Pei Shuyi, and the medical staff did not know where he went.

Pei Tingqing nodded, a flame ignited in his chest, but he still said lightly to the medical staff on his face: "The patient's injury has not healed yet, can he be discharged from the hospital casually?" And it was taken away by a non-patient's family, if something happens, can you afford it as a small nurse? ”

"I ..........." the nurse tried to explain, but on the other hand, Pei Tingqing couldn't tolerate such careless subordinates, so he directly interrupted the young nurse, "Take the initiative to submit your resignation." ”

The nurse was stunned.

Pei Tingqing narrowed his slender eyes slightly, "What, do you want me to call the head nurse in person?" ”

A nurse in her twenties was scolded by a teenager who ran away crying in tears.

After all, it was indeed a dereliction of duty on the part of the nurse, Pei Tingqing was not moved, and returned to the ward calmly.

He took off his shoes and lay on Pei Shuyi's hospital bed, and did not call Pei Shuyi to come back, and during this period, Pei Shuyi did not call or send him a message.

Pei Tingqing thought of what Huo Huiyuan said, his heart gradually cooled, and he lay motionless all afternoon, the setting sun spilled through the glass window, shining on his face, and his eyebrows were covered with a layer of desolation and loneliness.

The sound of the door being pushed open came, and Pei Tingqing still closed his eyes, as if he was asleep.

When Pei Shuyi came in and saw her eldest brother, she buried her head and called out to him weakly, "Big brother." ”