Chapter 17: If You're Not Happy Enough

<<< sudden braking caused me to fall into the front seat, and in an exclamation, I was grabbed by the arm and hit my head on the warm chest. For a moment, I wanted to hold on to the person in front of me, no matter what, I wouldn't let go of him, I wouldn't let go of anything. <<<

Hey guys, meet again. Before the story, I want to tell you a word: if you miss someone, go and see him, without hesitation and without regret.

Not long ago, I had an illness, Wang Junkai sent me to the hospital, and because of an interview for a TV series, Wang Yuan finally paid for it. When I was sent back, Wang Yuan's seemingly confessional words are still playing back in my mind. No why, I like everything about Wang Yuan, including when he dislikes me and rejects me, I like it for no reason.

"You know, Morning Star is very important to me......" With a magnetic mint voice, he told Morning Star, who is now Lin Xingchen, that she is very important to him. That night, I didn't sleep well, and the girl's heart was beating rapidly in my chest. You see, he still cares about my feelings, doesn't he?

Today, in order to celebrate the success of his interview, Wang Junkai invited us to eat and drink for nothing. Although I said that I went to a hot pot restaurant in Chongqing, I couldn't help but want to laugh when I looked at Wang Junkai's enthusiasm for the mandarin duck pot in his eyes and finally put the meat in the clear soup in great disappointment. As a Chongqing native, I can't eat spicy food because I don't want to have acne. And Qianxi couldn't rush over to eat and drink because he had something to do in Hunan, so the only people who came to eat hot pot were me, Wang Yuan, Wang Junkai and his assistant teacher.

To be honest, life is sometimes so unsatisfactory. The more you want to get it, the farther and farther away it will be from you; And the more things you know, the more things you will be afraid of; What you think, turns out to be what you think. Like me, I am grateful to God, and I am full of resentment towards God, grateful that He gave me a sunny boy in my lonely and vulnerable moments, and resentful that He told me at the end that this boy did not belong to me.

All my bad is because of him, all his good is because of me, he is very good and very good, but I am not worthy of him. Thinking of this, all the good moods gradually became low.

I don't know when there was more food in the bowl when there was nothing just now, and it wasn't until the pair of chopsticks belonging to Wang Junkai appeared in front of me again that I really came back to my senses.

Wang Junkai took a pair of clean chopsticks and stuffed them into my hand, and raised his eyebrows at me a little childishly, "Eat quickly, if you don't eat again, there will be no more." ”

I looked at Wang Junkai for a while before I said thank you.

And Wang Yuan, he just lowered his head and ate the things in the bowl, and didn't speak, that's all.

Time passes quickly.

On the way back, the assistant teacher drove the car, Wang Junkai sat in the co-pilot, and Wang Yuan and I were in the back seat. At first, Wang Junkai and Wang Yuan would talk about topics such as acting and music creation, but later on, even the air in the whole car was silent, quiet and terrifying.

Maybe it was because he was tired from work today, Wang Yuan fell asleep on the back of the chair.

I leaned my head against the window, and the pedestrians and all the scenery fell backwards in my eyes, and then slowly drowned out in the endless darkness. It's like those memories that I can't grasp firmly no matter what, and finally slowly slip through the gaps between my fingers. At night, Chongqing is quiet without the noise of the day.

The car stopped at a red light. Outside the window, a young couple walked to the opposite side holding hands, and the boy held the packaged Chongqing noodles in the other hand, probably the girl's favorite food. For some reason, I looked at Wang Yuan's delicate side face, his long eyelashes trembling slightly, as well as gentle breathing and heartbeat, like a sleeping prince waiting for him to kiss him awake. And the princess he was waiting for was not me, and I didn't need you to tell me, I would also be self-aware.

Once, every night in Chongqing, Wang Yuan would always pack some snacks that Morning Star liked before returning home. Because of this, when Morningstar is willful, he can put the food in her mouth while she is not noticing, and say, "If you eat my things, you are not allowed to be willful, you can't spit it out, or I will be angry." Whenever he crossed the street, Wang Yuan would hold Morning Star's hand tightly, and the tenderness in his eyes was like the boy outside the car window at this moment.

After the car started again, I reluctantly took my eyes off Wang Yuan. Before looking out of the window, he happened to meet Wang Junkai's eyes, and the scene was like being discovered by peeping, and he was stunned for a while before he returned to his seat in a bit of a panic and sat down. A helpless sigh was faintly heard.

There was a billboard about Wang Yuan not far ahead, and I just wanted to look more closely, but it was accidentally blocked by a car. I looked at the people in the car with some anger, not just because they were blocking the billboard, as I guessed, the people in the car were all holding the support signs of Wang Yuan and the two of them. If I could, I would have told them how dangerous this car chase was, and how disgusting it was to their dear teenagers. It's not that I'm vicious, I'm meant to be, the truth is, they hate illegitimate children.

When I was about to open my mouth to ask the assistant to stop, the sudden heaviness of my right shoulder made my brain go blank, and I turned my head to see Wang Yuan resting his head on my shoulder. Later, Wang Junkai told me that I was frozen there and motionless, and those who didn't understand the situation thought I was a wax figure. Anyway, I was afraid that if I shook slightly, Wang Yuan, who was so tired that he fell asleep, would wake up immediately. Chenxing was reluctant to let Wang Yuan get tired, and so did Lin Xingchen.

I asked Wang Junkai to open the car window, and the March wind was refreshing, with the fragrance of wildflowers and the smell of freshly turned earth, gently brushing his face.

This made Wang Yuan, who was originally frowning, relax slightly.

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The 15-year-old morning star was lying on the bed, and the WeChat voice on his mobile phone was sent out one by one. When 16-year-old Wang Yuan sent a voice message, the girl hugged her mobile phone and smiled stupidly.

"I'm on my way back now, I'll be home in about ten minutes, and I'll take you out for a walk later."

It didn't take long for Morningstar to call.

"Huh? What's wrong? ”

"It's okay, I just miss you."

"Can't help but call me? Hey, Morningstar, you're such a jealous kid. The person on the other end of the phone laughed inexplicably, and he didn't have to think about it to know that it must be a very sunny smile.

Morningstar was just about to refute what the phone call had to do with jealousy, when the deafening sound on the phone scared her. When the girl came back to her senses, what she heard was Wang Junkai's cursing and Wang Yuan's painful voice.

"Wang Yuan......?" The girl cried a little, and her tears couldn't stop falling, "Wang Yuan? ”

"Huh?" When she heard the boy's voice, the girl's hanging heart relaxed, and she hurriedly asked him if he was hurt.

Wang Yuan comforted the girl softly, telling her that he was fine, and then sighed, "The illegitimate child just drove into it, and now he is still shouting for us to get out of the car...... Don't cry, I'm really fine, I'll be distressed if you cry again...... I can't solve it here for a while, today, I probably can't take you out for a walk, you go to bed early...... Well, good night. ”

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Still in a state of recollection, the sudden brakes caused me to fall into the front seat, and in the midst of an exclamation, I was grabbed by the arm and hit my head on the warm chest. For a moment, I wanted to hold on to the person in front of me, no matter what, I wouldn't let go of him, I wouldn't let go of anything. But, that's just what I thought.

"Are you alright?" Wang Yuan asked me in a very gentle voice, I shook my head cautiously, the man in front of me, one arm was around me, the other arm was propped up on the back of the chair in front of me, and I was sitting on his laps shamelessly.

"Can you still get up?" He gently touched my head.

"Legs...... It's soft, I don't have the strength...... "Wang Yuan's sudden gentleness made me a little uncomfortable, it was from Lin Xingchen's discomfort. When I looked up at him, he smiled a little self-deprecatingly, as if he had recognized the facts, and then put me in the seat next to him and didn't say anything more.

"Xingchen, are you hurt?" Wang Junkai turned to me and asked, I didn't see the concern in his eyes, or rather, my attention was not on him at all. I just kept looking at Wang Yuan, watching all the time, including when I shook my head at Wang Junkai and told him that I was fine, just looking at Wang Yuan, that's all. When I reacted and remembered that it was polite to watch him speak, what I saw was loss. I didn't understand why he looked the way he did, and I didn't have any intention to understand why. I just want to know if Wang Yuan is injured, and the gentle Wang Yuan is still not there. After confirming that Wang Yuan was fine, the assistant also dealt with the matter of the illegitimate child blocking the car just now, and also found the tracker hidden under the car. Wang Junkai shook his head helplessly, and Wang Yuan snorted coldly.

It wasn't until a familiar view appeared outside the window that I realized that I had arrived at the entrance of the community. The car door opened, but Wang Junkai, who was sitting in front, got out of the car first, and I opened the car door and thought about whether I should get out of the car.

"Get out of the car, stupid? You're a girl, and it's not all right to walk back alone so late, since I invited you out to dinner, then I have to keep you safe, right? After that, he took my hand and pulled me out of the car. He said as if it was a matter of course to send me home, and he had to accept the idea of Wang Yuan sending me back. I can't refute Wang Junkai, and I don't want to embarrass him too much.

However, at the moment when I closed the car door, when I watched Wang Yuan's hand on the door handle slowly put down, I regretted it, regretted not rejecting Wang Junkai just now, and didn't shake off Wang Junkai's hand.

Believe me, people are selfish, you say that I am not qualified to be with Wang Yuan, say that I should not treat Wang Junkai like this, or say that I am a dirty garbage. People are selfish, including Wang Yuan, including Wang Junkai, and you. Which of you dares to say that you are not selfish?

Since this is the case, I had to clench my fists slightly, and walked with Wang Junkai on this short road, and only stopped when I reached the staircase, and he said that he just watched me go up downstairs. Part of it is that he has to go back to the company early to familiarize himself with the itinerary for the next few days, and part of it is afraid of media hype.

"Go to bed early, good night."

"Hmm. Good night. ”

When I got home, I closed the door, as if I had been cut off from the outside world all of a sudden, and the day of chaos slowly ended in this form.

Lying on the bed after taking a shower, he wanted to send a message to Wang Yuan, but he was afraid of disturbing his rest, and in desperation, Wang Junkai updated his circle of friends:

"I thought I was good enough to be good enough for you and her to see me. However, I was wrong, as long as that person is still there, I will never be able to enter your world, and I will not be able to exist in your eyes, even for a short second. ”

Seeing this, I immediately understood why I was so disappointed to see him in the car. But I just like Wang Yuan, this can't be changed, my heart is very small, and I can only use it just enough to love someone.

When the word Wang Yuan was displayed on the screen, I admit that I was stunned and it took a long time to press answer.

"Hello?"

“…… What's wrong? ”

"Did it wake you up?"

"No...... Are you home? ”

The person on the other side was gone, the night was very quiet, I could hear the sound of women talking and taking pictures, "whoosh", probably Wang Yuan closed the curtains.

"Is it illegitimate out there?"

"The people who stopped in front of our car just now, and some of them squatted downstairs with Xiao Kai...... They didn't bother you, did they? ”

"Nope."

"Well, got it. It's not early, you go to sleep first, good night. ”

"Good night."

I hung up the phone, and my heart was at peace that I hadn't felt in the past few months. Wang Yuanhe ...... Are you caring about me......

This night, dreamless, I slept soundly. It has a lot to do with Wang Yuan's good night.

Dear Youth,

If you're not happy enough,

And don't lock your brow deeply,

Life is short,

Why do you still need to cultivate bitterness?