Chapter 47: The man Shen Man loves
"Manman, are you okay........" Guan Ying hurriedly went to help Shen Man, and yelled at the prince: "What kind of nerves are you!" ”
The prince finally stopped moving, looking at Shen Man who fell to the ground, I didn't care about the pain, I reached out to pull Shen Man, but she didn't choose my hand, she grabbed Guan Ying and stood up from the ground, there were not many people in the coffee shop at this time, but all eyes were already focused on us.
"Zhang Yixi, I'm asking you one last time, do you want to go to Shanghai?" Shen Man looked at me with oppressive eyes and said.
"No, no." This time my answer is without thinking.
Shen Man didn't have any words, didn't have any expression, turned to leave, Guan Ying and the prince followed her left and right.
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The neon lights outside the coffee shop were flickering alternately, and the extravagance and prosperity of the city were condensed into small silhouettes in my eyes, and in a blur, I saw Shen Man walking towards his car.
The prince pulled Shen Man: "You stop ........ me"
Shen Man turned his head in amazement and looked at the prince, in the past six years, the prince had never been so rude in front of Shen Man.
"Tell me, do you like Zhang Yixi?"
The air suddenly froze and suffocated, and the prince's emotions were out of control, and he so brutally tore open the wound that lurked between the three of us.
Shen Man was in place, and I quietly looked at the prince who was confronting Shen Man......... I know that today's incident has ignited the pent-up emotions in his heart, and Shen Man's care and care for me over the years has not only puzzled him, but also puzzled me........
"I'm tired...... Let me go! Shen Man said that he wanted to break free from the prince, but the prince caught it even more firmly.
"You make me clear, or I won't let you go." The prince's attitude became more and more resolute.
Shen Man nodded, and said after a long time: "I regard you and Yixi as my younger brothers, if it is you who are in trouble today, I will do the same to you........"
After a pause, Shen Man continued: "I have never been favoritist to you, it's just that you are different from Yixi, you don't need me to worry too much, so ........ Please let me go. ”
The prince let go of Shen Man like this, I believe Shen Man's explanation, she likes me, but she doesn't like it for men and women, otherwise she wouldn't have tried her best to promote me and Wang Mengmeng, I believe that we are a pure sister and brother relationship.
Shen Man and Guan Ying got into their respective cars and left in an instant, only me and the prince were left on the scene, and I didn't want to stay here for a second longer due to the cold wind.
When the prince came to me, he smiled meaningfully and asked, "Do you believe what Senior Sister just said?" ”
"Why don't you believe it?" I asked rhetorically.
The prince lit a cigarette to himself, waved his hand, and said, "But I don't believe it." ”
"You have to believe it, because it's true."
The prince suddenly laughed as if he had laughed maniacally, and without saying a word, he turned and walked towards his chariot.
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This is a night I experienced, I changed bus after bus, through the whole city, I looked blankly at the hustle and bustle outside the car window, suddenly felt that the past 6 years, has become unreal, my life seems to have never been a trace of Shen Man, and I am not me........
The double row of street lights had been extinguished for a row, and the light suddenly dimmed, I looked out the window, and after one more platform, I would arrive at Mando Square, and I didn't know if Mo Han was still there.
The raindrops hit the car window, distorting the world outside the window, and the cold wind blew down the raindrops, and everything around me was so clear and blurred in my vision.
The radio in the car indicated that I had arrived at the terminal, I stepped out of the car in a trance, and the cold raindrops suddenly fell on my face, and I instantly woke up and accelerated my pace towards the mall.
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The mall has closed down, and I look at the closed door, and I feel a sense of loss in my heart, and the wind is blowing even more chill......... I can't tell if my choice is right or wrong, but maybe it's the best outcome, at least Shen Man doesn't have to work hard for me, and I'm free.
The rain that kept dripping on my head was suddenly cut off, I looked up, a white umbrella fell on top of my head, a faint fragrance came from me, I turned my head to look back, it was Mo Han, she was helping me with the umbrella.
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We were walking on the wet pavement again, the umbrella was small, and I put my arm around Mo Han, and the two of us were next to each other.
"Yixi, what do you think love is?" Mo Han asked me softly.
I looked at the rain outside, and I didn't know how to answer for a while, in fact, since Lin Xi and I broke up, I don't believe in love anymore, the so-called love is just a fiction made up by boring people, men and women are together completely out of instinct, instinctive happiness, instinctive pain, instinctive self-defeat, and finally depressed, at least with Lin Xi, I follow this pattern.
"Love should be two people who are together and warm to each other, happy more than painful, and what you see when you remember it is not all black and white." After a long time, I replied.
"Do you understand love as a process without results?"
I shook my head and said, "I'm not so pessimistic, it's just that love in reality is too easy to die, how many people can really sublimate love into marriage?" Even if very few get married, love no longer exists at that time, and I think love and marriage are a pair of contradictions that are difficult to coexist. ”
Mo Han nodded thoughtfully, and then said after a while: "I agree with your point of view, love should be a process of mutual warmth." ”
"Not everyone thinks so, the reason why you identify with me is because we have commonalities, we have all been hurt in love, so we are more eager to be warm."
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After I finished speaking, Mo Han and I fell into silence very tacitly, maybe I didn't have anything, but I gave her help when she was the most helpless and lonely, and gave her the warmth she wanted, which is the greatest luck for me.
I sent Mo Han back to the hotel in the rain again, so far, Mo Han and I just maintain a couple relationship that cares about each other and warms each other, this is very simple, although I thought about letting Mo Han move in with me, but it is not suitable for now, I don't know Mu Han, maybe she rejects this kind of cohabitation relationship.
Sometimes, it doesn't have to be Xing to maintain a relationship, I enjoy this feeling now, as long as I can warm each other for love, I feel enough, I am not greedy.
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When I got home, the darkness engulfed me again, and I asked myself over and over again, am I really willing to end my sister-brother relationship with Shen Man like this? In fact, there is no room for reversal between us, this time Shen Man's words and deeds have already shown that she is really tired, and the prince, why doesn't he believe in my relationship with Shen Man, so many years Shen Man and I have never done anything out of the ordinary, not even a word out of line.
I still firmly believe that Shen Man only has a sister-brother relationship with me, because she told me that she loved a man, this man is very great in her heart, although I asked repeatedly, she did not tell me who it was, but I knew that it must not be me, because I have been living under her protection.
I think I'll have to find a time to tell the prince about this, I don't want him to misunderstand my relationship with Shen Man.
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