Chapter 1 meets again

<<< I thought of him in a white shirt, sitting on the piano chair and playing softly, my heart seemed to be grabbed, I couldn't cry, I couldn't shout, I could only whisper his simple and beautiful name over and over again, as if as long as I did this, Wang Yuan would appear in front of me, just like the first time I met, he was so ......<<

Just hesitated for a while, then picked up the pen and gently wrote a paragraph:

"You are my carefully maintained dream, and I am tired of enjoying this unapproachable light.

You are a good dream for me, and everything will be good tomorrow.

You are the dream I woke up from, the wound to my bones, the unattainable dream of my cold life, and the hometown that I can't return to in the deep-rooted soil.

You are an indelible memory from the bottom of my heart......"

It's like choking on something in your heart, and it hurts to breathe, and it hurts even more if you don't breathe. Tremblingly, he folded the paper in half, cautiously walked to a "mailbox" not far away, and put the paper in...... Wang Yuan said that at next year's birthday party, he will take out a few letters from here and read them...... Look, in order to get acquainted with Wang Yuan, I can only pray for next year's luck like an ordinary fan.

I still couldn't help it, turned around and left, ran into a small alley and cried, my heart seemed to be torn apart by someone, that person was Wang Yuan, and it would only be Wang Yuan......

The 23rd birthday party ended with a song "Sleep" released on November 6, 2017, during which he also sang a short section of "Because I Met You", and the fans next to me kept shouting Wang Yuan, and gradually, his voice was drowned out...... Compared with his youthful appearance before, he is now more mature, and his intentional or unintentional words can always make fans scream. The phrase "I love you" is like a prick in the heart with a needle...... Wang Yuan is no longer my Wang Yuan, how nice is the phrase Wang Yuan who belongs to Morning Star, or Morning Star who belongs to Wang Yuan...... But what qualifications do I have now to say that Wang Yuan belongs to me? The fate with him was shattered by my own hands.

I first met him on his birthday in 2012, he was born in 2000, I was only a year younger than him, he was not so famous at that time, it was completely owned by Morning Star, it belonged to my Wang Yuan......

Oh, sorry, I forgot to introduce myself.

My name is Lin Xingchen, the former morning star, and now Lin Xingchen.

Feeling a little weird? Who the hell am I? Ladies and gentlemen, these two names are me, and you have to remember that a good story is about details, everything, and you know the cause and effect of this story when you see it at the end.

What the? Say I deserve it? It is impossible to be with Wang Yuan? Pretty much...... But, friends, this is my story after all, please respect me, this is my right and the moral standard you should be. Well, if that hadn't happened back then, we'd probably always be together...... Always together? No kidding. Because I did something that particularly annoyed him......

His life is destined to be ordinary, and we are not on the same path after all.

After calming down a little, I took out my mobile phone from my pocket, put on the headphones, and the light piano prelude slowly sounded......

There was a faint sadness, full of sweetness, and a little grievance, until Wang Yuan's still a little green mint voice sang, and his heart began to be confused......

Her tenderness caressed the hillside

As the sun sets

Who is it, sad

Don't let the raindrops fall, excuses

I couldn't help but look back

It's parting time again, the alley

Hold on tight for the last minute

His, chest

Fingertips must slip off ......"

The wooden knife slashed down the years that could not be returned, who turned his head and smiled lightly, and his eyes were as loose as if he were gone?

I thought of him in a white shirt, sitting on the piano chair and playing softly, my heart seemed to be grabbed by someone, I couldn't cry, I couldn't shout, I could only whisper his simple and beautiful name over and over again, as if as long as I did this, Wang Yuan would appear in front of me, just like the first time I met......

Unfortunately, when I was already crying, he didn't show up......

Slowly stood up, wiped away tears, and continued to walk freely.

I don't know how many people I bumped into along the way, and I forgot how many times I apologized, but I just looked up at the few poor stars like a corpse.

This reminds me of Wang Yuan's eyes, which are so bright and gentle like a pool of water, and throwing a small pebble can set off a wave...... Everyone must admit that Wang Yuan has a pair of very clean and clear eyes.

Unconsciously walked to a familiar place, and there was no one around...... It used to be a "secret base" for me and Wang Yuan. I also forgot when, because of what I found this place, it's okay not to say it, it's not the theme of our chapter after all, is it?

It is often said that curiosity kills cats, but there is a desire to push me inside for a while, even to see it...... Surprisingly, there was already a person inside......

The word "heart like ashes" is very suitable to describe me now, and when I saw this person, I thought that the place that belonged to me and Wang Yuan was occupied by others......

The moonlight was quietly sprinkled on his body, but his back was very desolate, and there were several bottles of beer of unknown origin beside him...... It's like the protagonist of a stage play is sad about something.

He...... Could it be Wang Yuan? It is not ruled out that this is a bum. But apart from me and Wang Yuan, who can find such a hidden place? I couldn't believe that this drunk man in front of me was the boy who was smiling like sunshine on the stage not long ago.

"Morning Star...... "He spoke, his voice was very hoarse, but it was what I wanted to hear the most...... It was a mint sound that belonged to Wang Yuan......

I walked over slowly, just to hear better.

He picked up the bottle, and the beer rolled up and down with the Adam's apple to reach his stomach, and I began to feel a little sorry for him, and wanted to snatch his bottle, but I didn't dare, even if he was a good-tempered Wang Yuan......

"I miss you so much...... Did You Know...... I hurt so much......" His pretty fingers were pointing to the place where his heart was beating, "you come back...... Is it good ......?"

Come back? Wang Yuan...... Do you think I can come back like this? Even if you were going to forgive me, I wouldn't forgive myself...... How I want to hold you from behind and tell you I've always been there. But I'm not the morning star, it's not the morning star you hold in the palm of your hand and you're afraid of breaking, I'm a stranger to you now, I'm Lin Xingchen now......

"Didn't you say that the sky would be with me when it fell? Is it that our family Morningstar is finally going to give up on me...... Are you okay to come back......"

Stupid Wang Yuan, stupid Wang Yuan, how could Morning Star be willing to give up on you? Even if she died, she still told you to eat well, sleep well, and take good care of yourself......

He tilted his head slightly, and I saw his near-perfect face, his heart seemed to skip a beat, and he took a step back uncontrollably, tears involuntarily rolled down his cheeks, it was really too long and too long to look at him seriously......

"Morning Star?" He turned his head and looked at me through the moonlight.

I subconsciously ran back, but stumbled into the warm arms...... A foul smell of alcohol mixed with his shirt......

I struggled desperately, only to get a harder hug......

"Don't leave me...... Please......"

With just one sentence, all my defenses collapsed......

"Wang Yuan......" I called his name carefully. But he let me go......

"You're not the Morning Star...... he frowned, trying to see better, "are you or not?" Isn't it my Morning Star......"

I wanted to say "I am your morning star" countless times in my heart, but I still couldn't say it after all.

"Tell me, aren't you...... Isn't it, my Morning Star...... He's dead? His eyes darkened, and the stars vanished.

"I'm sorry ......"

I can't tell the truth, I can't forgive myself...... Wang Yuan, as you know, Morning Star, committed suicide by jumping off a building two years ago......

"Stay with me...... Good no good...... Help me find my Morning Star......" he hugged me again, "If you find Morning Star, please tell her...... Wang Yuan never hated her...... Wang Yuan didn't blame her...... Wang Yuan still loves her...... Wang Yuan...... Miss her...... I miss her so much......"

This night, Wang Yuan was like a child, tired of crying, and fell asleep.

Wang Yuan...... Morningstar knows you don't blame her, but she still can't let it go......

Took out the mobile phone from his pocket, unlocked it with his fingerprint, and opened the contact to call Wang Junkai.

"Wang Yuan! Where are you! Come back soon! "Hearing it, Wang Yuan secretly ran out......

Adjust his breathing and tell him about Wang Yuan's situation, because he had just cried, his voice was very trembling......

It wasn't until I took Wang Yuan to a nearby bus stop that I sent the location to Wang Junkai......

This is a memory that belongs to me and Wang Yuan, and I don't allow anyone to disturb me......

After waiting for about half an hour, I saw Wang Junkai, who was wrapped in clothes with three layers inside and three layers outside, and he bowed to me after receiving Wang Yuan from me.

"Thank you......"

"You're welcome."

They left, but I was thinking about Wang Junkai's lips...... Good faith? Wrong. Molding? Not right either. Morning star......

Before I knew it, I was back at the "secret base", picking up the wine bottle that Wang Yuan hadn't finished drinking and pouring it in a big gulp, my throat hurting hotly, as if I had been liberated......

Wang Yuan, I still can't stop loving you......

I slept groggily until the next day, when someone suddenly appeared next to me and startled me.

"Sorry...... I didn't mean to......" He reached out and pulled me up from the ground.

"You are? Who? "My head is still under the influence of alcohol.

"I'm Wang Yuan......"

Wang Yuan......