Is it hypocritical not to cry?

Su is remembering the conflict between herself and her colleagues at the front desk last time, obviously the other party is at fault, but her colleagues feel that she bullied her. What's more, men like this kind of weak girl.

In daily work, whether it is a system or a plan, it is a public matter, but colleagues feel that she is looking for nothing to do, not understanding and not cooperating.

In life, there is no such thing as a person who is always sunny, just as there is a sun and a moon.

Sue is not a self-denying person, she is used to turning pressure into motivation, and then into self-punishing persistence, and even begins to work hard like self-abuse.

"Can't a woman just work for the sake of her work? Do you have to be soft for the sake of a man? The garbled words flashed in Su Shi's mind one after another, alas, annoying.

Su knew that he was moved by Chengfeng, but he kept persuading himself not to be tempted.

Whether she is sad or sad, she is used to collecting emotions.

Sometimes I feel sorry for myself.

Well, praising yourself will not destroy the planet. Su decided to give him a call and make an appointment to talk to him. But as soon as the mobile phone touched the letters on the table, Su Yes's hand retracted.

In fact, if a strong woman gets sick with Sister Lin, she will be more involved in the play than anyone else. It's just that Sue hasn't tried it.

When negative emotions such as grievance, anger, sadness, sadness, stress, loneliness, and helplessness come, if they cannot be dealt with normally, the emotions will accumulate in the body, only to full load, this is the feeling of tiredness!

There is also a diary, in order to reduce the extra burden on yourself, to have more space to load these emotions have slowly become a tormenting bedtime habit, forcing yourself not to think too much and write more.

Not causing trouble to others is indeed equivalent to not giving others the opportunity to get close to yourself. So strong people are sometimes withdrawn. Because he was withdrawn, he couldn't get help, and in the end, he had to be strong on his own.

Don't ask for help from colleagues at work, don't complain to friends in life, these beliefs exist in Su Shi's mind.

Chengfeng once inadvertently said to her, don't think too much about yourself, as if you can do something to others if you complain.

In the end, I'm still too good at pretending. It's as if you're not smart or strong in front of others, and others won't ignore you.

A lot of bad feelings often come to Su Yes's mind at some point in the moment of insomnia.

If complaining gave him the opportunity to get closer to him, then Su didn't need it.

She made up her mind that she was only a few weeks away from the ten-year covenant, either to go to heaven with him from now on, or to start looking for paradise on her own.

The decision of the previous second is still no match for a message in the next second.

Chengfeng sent a message to invite her downstairs for tea. Su came back when he rushed out in slippers, and dressed himself up again, although he only changed into a pair of high heels in front of the mirror.

Two people sat at opposite ends of the chairs in the tea room. In the middle is a kettle that is boiling steam.

Chengfeng flicked the tea leaves with his fingers, consciously or unconsciously, as if he could pick out something from them.

"You're looking for bugs!"

"Hehe, no, that, I'll send you something, right?"

"What?"

He took off the ring on his little finger, and the silver-white ring ring appeared even more dazzling in the light, "For you!" ”

"I don't want your own ring." Su Shi hesitated for two seconds before replying, "This is a symbol of your unmarried, no, celibate, single position." ”

"Isn't it uncomfortable for you not to laugh at me once?" His hand to give the ring stood in the middle of the table, not moving forward or back.

"What a joke, isn't this ring very fashionable lately? Colleagues say it's beautiful! Besides, don't you mean to wear it that way? How can it become a mockery! ”

"Yes and no." It's not handsome at all, "It's true that I mean to wear it on someone else's finger, but I deliberately wore it to anger you, I didn't expect it, you weren't angry, I hurt myself." ”

"Angry with me? What do I have to be angry about, hahaha! Sue's laughter was more of a cover-up, "You're really funny." ”

"You see, you're angry with me again, and I've repeatedly told myself to keep my temper in check, otherwise the two of us won't talk for more than a minute, and we'll definitely turn into a quarrel again."

"Look at your good attitude today, I'm not angry, I don't quarrel with you." Sue's mouth actually reveals sweetness.

"Then you take it!" He pushed the ring down the line in the middle of the table to Su Shi again.

"But why should I take it? I'm not a bachelor, and even if I'm single, I have to pick my own styles. This time it was her turn to be puzzled.

"I didn't tell you to wear it, I wanted to keep it with you, if one day, I mean if," Chengfeng's head lowered even more, almost as if he were looking for something lost under the table, "and if so, then I'll tell you how to use it later!" ”

"I'm sorry, I can't accept this, whether now or in the future, I won't accept it." Su didn't know where the courage came from, maybe she misinterpreted the meaning, maybe she just hated that he couldn't see the sentence she wanted to hear and say it to his face.

"You're still refusing?"

"I really can't accept this gift, I'm sorry." Su Yes's eyes were firm, and the anger that made him stronger and stronger.

"You give me a reason, a reason, a reason to reject it, a reason to reject me, okay?"

"I have someone in my heart!" This was true, but he did not dare to look directly at him and say it.

"Who?"

"You don't know it, don't guess, I don't want to hurt you. I should have told you earlier. ”

"I know you have someone in your heart, but I thought I could take his place in your heart. Don't want to hurt me? Do you think you're going to call me no harm now? ”

"But if I don't say it, I'm hurting myself!"

"Sue is you know? I have told myself tens of thousands of times not to provoke you, because every time I get along with you, I will be hurt beyond recognition, as small as a sentence, as big as a work matter, you always look self-righteous, always so aggressive, but instead of not loving your pain, I still choose to approach you, close to you to hurt myself again and again. ”

He didn't finish talking and left, nor did he lose his temper again, but kept staring out the window, and Su on the other side didn't answer, but turned to the moonlight outside the window as his gaze shifted.

Since the day has made people tired, I hope that the night in the moonlight can lovingly contain my deep and unknown feelings.