I finally understood why Su Xin covered my face with a piece of paper and only looked at my eyes, because I was wearing a night coat last night, and only these eyes were exposed, so that she saw these eyes in a weak blur and called out the name An An.

At the time, I thought that she felt that she was seriously injured and dying, and said the strongest longing in her heart, but now I know that these eyes are so deep in her heart.

"Then your boyfriend, where is he now? I've never heard you mention him. "I didn't want to silence the atmosphere, let alone let her see the excitement in my heart and forcibly suppress her trembling hands.

Su Xin's eyes were stunned for a while after hearing this, without any expression, very empty, not at all like her usual smiling and polite.

Is that also a disguise?

We live in the world, always with too much disguise, never dare to show the real self, people are so contradictory, want to be understood, but afraid of being seen through, contradictory disguise themselves.

The atmosphere fell silent again, in fact, I shouldn't have asked these words, but as a passerby, I have to ask to cover myself, I am now the manager of the store.

She was in a daze for a long time, and finally said lightly: "He's dead." ”

"I'm sorry." I apologize, but there are countless complicated emotions in my heart, and I am so depressed that I want to find a place where no one is now, and gasp for breath.

"I'm sure he's not dead, he's just missing, and he'll definitely come back." The calm tone couldn't hear the waves, but tears had already flowed from the corners of Su Xin's eyes, quietly brushing the blush, and her emotions exploded calmly.

"So, you've been waiting for him?" I continued to ask her like a passerby, but I knew in my heart that her waiting was just an obsession and comfort in my heart, and everything would not come to fruition.

"I waited for him for three years, and I had three years of long hair, and a master once told me that people's green silk is love silk, and when there is no one in their hearts, they can only be scattered with the wind, so since he left, I have been coiling up my hair, but the time of waiting is getting longer and longer, and the hair is getting longer and longer, I... I can't stop it... The last words, she choked up, the cry was irrepressible after all, the sad cry was catharsis, catharsis of her self-deception, her powerlessness, and she was not allowed to wait any longer.

"I can't stop it... I can't stop it... She wept and murmured, as if to blame herself, for her longer and longer hair, and for her mournful cry, and let the tears on her face wet the pillow.

How hard it is to wait, Shen Lingyu's obsession, maybe I don't feel it deeply enough, but now, the person in front of me is Su Xin, Su Xin, who used to want to hold her in my arms every moment, and the heart-wrenching cry seems to make me understand more.

I trembled and handed her the tissue, my emotions were almost uncontrollable, my eyes were moist and blurry, and I just pretended to answer the phone and escaped from the ward.

That's right, it's an escape.

I couldn't comfort her, not even myself, and the moment I closed the door, I couldn't stop crying.

The green silk is not cut, and the love silk is constant. Su Xin, how long do you have to be obsessed.

The hair was too long to coil up, so I had to tie it up high, just because I didn't want to spread it out and let the long hair drift in the wind.

I took advantage of the fact that there was no one in the corridor, secretly smoked a cigarette, and calmed down the excited and messy emotions, and returned to the ward, Su Xin was still crying, as if this was the time for her to vent her emotions, so she was not in a hurry to contact the Confucian people, just for this short time of catharsis alone, the wound was very painful and uncomfortable, and she couldn't control her longing.

I suddenly felt that Shen Lingyu had been waiting for a few years, was it the same? Occasionally crying alone, crying very sad and desperate, but after crying, I have to continue to wait.

I gently wiped her tears, she didn't refuse, just cried weakly, her eyes were full of misery, and her eyes were red and swollen from crying.

I think, maybe I'm the only one who knows, these people around me, Su Xin is the deepest and most difficult to disguise.

Pretending to be an identity and pretending to be emotional, even in the dark night, you have to disguise your gender to fight for your life with others, the real self is probably the poor girl crying helplessly in front of her.

I don't know how long it took, the crying slowly stopped, only a slight sobbing sound, looking very pitiful, she gradually recovered her mood, turned her head and wiped her tears, very unlike letting others see her embarrassed appearance.

"I want to drink water." She turned her head, although her crying face had been wiped clean a lot, the red and swollen eyes and tear stains were still obvious.

"The doctor said you can't drink it for the time being, so bear with it for a while." I comforted, crying so many tears, she must be thirsty now.

Su Xin didn't speak again, just lay quietly, stretched out her hand to pull the quilt, but her lower abdomen hurt very much, she couldn't do anything, I wanted to help but she was embarrassed in her eyes, refused, and tossed for a long time before she completely wrapped herself in the quilt.

I realized that she was shy that she was wearing nothing inside, and wanted to wrap it up tightly, not wanting me to help.

"I'm sorry to say this to you because I miss him so much." Su Xin's tone was apologetic, but her eyes were full of sadness and helplessness.

"It's okay, it's not the first time." I sighed, and she immediately looked at me questioningly, and I explained, "This happened once before you, you because of the eyes, and she because of my face. ”

My words aroused Su Xin's curiosity, and the sadness in his eyes was forgotten for a while. Maybe the way to comfort others is to tell stories, tell the same experience, and she will be in the mood to listen.

"She is very similar to your experience, both of them are about to get married, her boyfriend left suddenly, disappeared without any news, not even a word, she also waited for almost three years, insomnia and drinking, she waited very hard and sad, but she has been unwilling to give up, and even used the way of travel, to ask around for news of her boyfriend, I heard that her last trip, was to her boyfriend's hometown, still no news. When she came back, she saw me and stopped traveling because I looked alike to her boyfriend. I recounted slowly, Su Xin's eyes seemed to be sympathetic and sympathetic, and asked me curiously: "Then how is she now, you and her... ”

"She was very ambiguous and concerned about me at the time, after I knew the truth, I explained everything to her, she was close to breaking down, and then I slowly helped her recover, and now she is fine, the knot in her heart is untied, and she has a boyfriend." After I finished speaking, Su Xin flashed a trace of surprise, and I continued: "The wait is really painful, I have seen it with my own eyes, maybe you should also change your lifestyle." ”

Su Xin let out a long sigh, I saw her smile today, and she often wore a gentle smile on weekdays.

"She's my boss, Shen Lingyu, you've seen it too."

"Boss Shen?" She blurted out in surprise, she didn't expect people with similar experiences to be around.

"yes, look at her now, everything is fine." I comforted.

"No wonder, I feel that she looks at you differently, it turns out that it's because of this." Su Xin whispered in surprise, as if she was thinking about something.

It turned out that Shen Lingyu looked at me differently, and she could see it, it should have been Mingzhu's girl who told her.

The atmosphere became quiet again, a similar experience, it seems that she can't get out of her sad mood, she will only immerse herself in it, I can't help it, she is too kind in her heart, and Shen Lingyu's matter can easily make her emotional.

Maybe she should be digested for a while, and was about to leave, she suddenly sighed faintly: "I really envy you and Anne, when you go out to play, she sees delicious and fun things, and she will always mention you, and she doesn't even pay attention to herself, I think, you two have a deep relationship." ”

I was suddenly stuck in my throat, my heart was numb, such words, coming out of her mouth, it was really a helpless feeling, I couldn't cry or laugh.

I smiled and didn't answer, her eyes looked at the clock on the wall, and finally said what to say: "Then Annie, do you know that you are from the rivers and lakes?" ”

I didn't expect Su Xin to say it so directly, and he didn't even mean to test me.

"She only knows the surface." My expression became serious, and so did my atmosphere, because the next words were the dilemma I had to solve at the moment.

"How much do you know and why did you save me?" She continued to ask simple and direct questions, which had something to do with her depressed mood.

"The Jianghu people in City A, the struggle between the two doors, I have heard of it, I don't know the others, I didn't know that you were from the rivers and lakes before, I only found out last night, as for me, I guess in the mountaineering, you can see it." My words indicate the identity of the passerby.

"Store Manager Lin, thank you for saving me, but I want you to tell me what happened last night." She was a little surprised by the clarity of her eyes, her lack of hostility, and the fact that she did not question me.

I thought it would take a lot of rhetoric to cover up all the doubts she had when she woke up, but it seemed that things were easier to say.

"It's a coincidence, Yun Xiyan was introduced to me by a friend, I broke my ribs at the time, she helped cure me, and then I met her a few times, she said that someone assassinated her, Sister Xiyan is too benevolent and very good to me, so I want to help secretly." I briefly explained the antecedents.

"The person who suddenly appeared that night to break the siege was you." Her words were concise and clear, I nodded, and asked her, "By the way, I thought you seemed to be injured that night, what's wrong?" ”

As soon as she finished speaking, Su Xin instantly blushed, red quickly, her eyes were very embarrassed, I was stunned, which also made her shy? It was nothing that night.

"Oh, it was really a coincidence that day, I went out to eat in the middle of the night, I saw Sister Xiyan's car, I felt that something was wrong, and I happened to meet it, and then I saw that you seemed to be injured and couldn't fight, so I ran out to relieve the siege." I explained it truthfully.

She blushed and nodded, believing my words, and hesitated for a while before she said shyly: "That night I... I suddenly had a stomachache... Here comes that. ”

Forehead... Coming to Auntie?