The sound of opening the door made Zhang Zhe's body stiffen, afraid that she would wake up and see herself, Chen Chen didn't move, and he let out a long sigh of relief. Zhang Yuan stood at the door and looked at him, he came, indicating that it was late. The warm sunlight shone into the room outside the window, and the quilt was warm and warm.

It was time for him to leave. He lowered his eyes and looked at the person in his arms, kissed her forehead reluctantly, and got up gently.

Zhang Zhe lost a lot of weight, and his collapsed cheeks looked very haggard. The slender body does not seem to be tall, like a pine tree full of termite holes, the branches are withered, the yellow needles are withered on the ground, and a slight wind and rain can make it break off its waist and never stand up again.

He looked at Zhang Yuan quietly, said thank you, glanced back at Chen Chen, who was still asleep, and turned to leave.

Zhang Yuan looked at his slightly shaky back and not solid steps, and his heart began to feel uncomfortable. Obviously, he used to coax that family, he felt that Zhang Zhe was being bullied, but now without them, Zhang Zhe still couldn't be happy. He caught up and grabbed Zhang Zhe: "Brother, I will take care of my sister, you take your time." Zhang Zhe reluctantly let out a smile, said thank you and walked out.

It was a long night's sleep. After opening his eyes, it was already dark, and Zhang Yuan was watching "The Exorcist" in the living room, holding a pillow to cover half of his face. Seeing Chen Chen wake up, he pulled Chen Chen to join. Two people stare at the screen with pillows, screaming together to relieve their fear in a terrifying place. The frenzied slamming of the door suddenly sounded, and the two people threw away the pillow and screamed and hugged each other, and no one dared to open the door. An angry voice came from outside the door: "Are you imprisoning people in your house?" What to shout? Zhang Yuan felt that he was a big man, he had to be strong, he opened the door with a swoop, and the neighbor began to scold angrily, and his saliva sprayed Zhang Yuan's face, and he hid back in disgust.

Finally, Chen Chen went over and apologized for five minutes, she turned on the light and looked at Zhang Yuan: "Do you dare to go back later?" ”

Zhang Yuan pulled Chen Chen's placket with one hand like a puppy, hugged the pillow with the other, and shook his head desperately. Chen Chen poured a glass of water and handed it to him, patting him on the head.

Zhang Zhe will not be afraid, and he may not be afraid and will not say. Being abandoned since childhood made Zhang Zhe have too many emotions suppressed in his heart. He rejects people for thousands of miles, but once he can impress him, he doesn't know what he should keep for himself, he pours out everything in one go, gives up what he wants, gives up his dignity, and it doesn't matter if he gives up everything. Can he really bear it like this?

Zhang Yuan saw that Chen Chen was silent, and begged her pitifully: "Sister, I sleep in the living room, don't drive me away, I really don't dare to go, it's so dark outside." Chen Chen came back to his senses and patted him: "Let's go buy food together, and then watch a movie for a night, how about it?" ”

"Hooray!!" Zhang Yuan threw away the pillow in his hand, cheered and blew, put on his coat and dragged Chen Chen out of the door.

When the day dawned, Zhang Yuanhe and Chen Chen leaned together, and the TV was still playing the movie they had chosen, and the two of them were already asleep. There were suspicious water stains hanging from the corners of Zhang Yuan's mouth, and he chirped his mouth from time to time.

The more he slept, the hotter it became, and Zhang Yuan suddenly felt that this winter was a little unusually hot. He smashed his mouth, opened his eyes and wiped the corners of his mouth.

Chen Chen curled up in a ball and did not move. Zhang Yuan suddenly felt that something was wrong, and reached out to push her. His body was so hot that he suddenly reacted that Chen Chen had a fever.

Zhang Yuan sat up and shook her: "Sister, sister, how are you?" Her eyes opened a slit, glanced at Zhang Yuan and closed them again.

Zhang Yuan carried her to the bed, not knowing whether to call the emergency number.

I've been uncomfortable last night, and when I fell asleep with Xiaoyuan, her head was getting heavier and heavier. I feel dizzy and dizzy, and when I open my eyes, I feel like I have to use all my strength. It would be nice if you really slept like this. The relaxed willpower let go in the next second, as if falling into the darkness and never having to wake up again.

After receiving a call from Xiaoyuan, Zhang Zhe rushed over as fast as he could. Chen Chen was lying on the bed with his eyes closed, a towel on his forehead, and ice cubes to cool down.

"Brother, otherwise, let's get first aid, I can't feed the medicine." Xiaoyuan anxiously reported the situation to Zhang Zhe.

"You go downstairs and buy a bottle of high-counting liquor. Give me the medicine. Zhang Zhe said as he took off his suit, covered it with the quilt, and ran out.

Sweat wet her hair, Zhang Zhe squatted on the ground and gently brushed the hair on her face, leaned on her ear and whispered comfortingly: "I'm here, I'm here." Her furrowed brow relaxed.

After adjusting the water temperature, Zhang Zhe poured the powder into the water and blended evenly, slowly raised her head and leaned on her body, wanting to feed her the medicine. But she was so confused that she refused to open her mouth at all. Zhang Zhe hesitated for a moment, raised his head and drank the medicine, put it in his mouth, gently pinched her face, and fed her little by little. ‘

The powder is not bitter, but Chen Chen always said that it had a strange smell before. The uncomfortable taste flowed into her mouth, and she resisted a little, snorting slightly with a slight frown.

Zhang Zhe held her chin and whispered: "Be good, don't vomit, drink it, it won't be uncomfortable for a while." “

Chen Chen was still frowning, but he swallowed it anyway.

Xiao Yuan walked in with the liquor, handed it to him, walked out and closed the door. Zhang Zhe gently unbuttoned her clothes, the handkerchief was sticky to alcohol, and carefully wiped it back and forth on her body to cool down.

In just two months, she was so thin that she could see her ribs. Wang Qian should have chased her away when she stood at the door, and Chen Chen would listen to him explain why he didn't admit their relationship. But how can there be ifs, it was because he didn't get rid of her strongly, and he also casually perfunctory 'I'll apologize tomorrow'. Zhang Zhe has never complained about himself so much.

Zhang Zhe opened the door and walked out, and Xiao Yuan waited at the door: "How is it?" ”

"It's not so hot, take the bed quilt again, it's good to sweat." The sleeves of his shirt were rolled up on his arms, and he was sweating slightly.

Xiao Yuan hugged the quilt and handed it to Zhang Zhe: "Brother, you stay and take care of your sister." I went to the office to see if my brother needed help. I also don't understand how to take care of patients. ”

Zhang Zhe took the quilt, his eyelashes fluttered, and he nodded slowly. He was a little scared, afraid that Chen Chen would open his eyes and see her, but he still wanted to stay, and he couldn't see her, so he was even more uneasy.

Zhang Zhe hugged the quilt and pressed it against her, and Chen Chen muttered something in a whisper like a dream. He lifted the quilt and lay in, and hugged her carefully. Chen Chen leaned into his arms and called his name softly:

"Zhang Zhe."

"I'm here."

"Don't leave me, don't, don't leave me." She frowned and whispered.

"No, I'll always be here, and I'm not going there." Tears dripped down the corners of her eyes in her hair, Zhang Zhe answered gently, tucked the quilt, hugged her tightly to keep her warm, and gently patted her back.

Suddenly less scared. In a dark space, only I was not so afraid. Chen Chen began to continue to relax, and fell asleep in a daze.

She couldn't tell whether it was reality or a dream, she could only feel that the warm body was familiar, and it was leaning against her.

If you open your eyes and face reality, then escape for a while. She closed her eyes tightly and fell into a deep sleep under the dual effects of the drug and dizziness.

When I opened my eyes, the light from the street lamp shone through the window and reflected on the bed. In the dim light, each piece of furniture casts a long shadow, silent in the thick darkness like a sculpture that has been silent for hundreds of years. It turned out to be all fake, there was no Zhang Zhe, there was only himself in the house, and Xiao Yuan didn't know when he was leaving. She got out of bed, didn't turn on the light, and walked around the edge of the room in the dark. "Zhang Zhe", she shouted softly, opened the door and walked out.

When Zhang Zhe came back with food, the door of the house was open, and he was shocked. There was still room for warmth on the bed, but she was gone.

"Chen Chen!!" Zhang Zhe threw down his things and ran out of the door like crazy.

Zhang Zhe anxiously shouted her name and searched around, shuttling back and forth in the small community. No, not everywhere. Zhang Zhe began to be a little scared, and his voice became choked.

"Chen Chen, where have you been?" He bent over on his knees, his overwhelmed heart beating wildly in his chest.

"Zhang Zhe?" A faint voice sounded behind her, and Zhang Zhe turned her head sharply, and she sat on the edge of the flower bed on the side of the street with her back to the road. She folded her arms and lowered her head, calling him softly.

Seeing her figure, Zhang Zhe breathed a long sigh of relief, his hanging heart slowly fell back into his chest, he walked over, squatted in front of her, and asked softly: "Why do you sit here and don't go home?" She was barefoot in slippers, her flaxen-colored uppers were dirty and dusty, and her arms were leaking out, a little purple from the cold. Chen Chen was weak for the first time, as if she couldn't withstand any wind and waves, she stared at Zhang Zhe, and fear was written on her face. Zhang Zhe couldn't tell whether she was afraid of leaving by herself or coming back by herself.

"I remember dreaming of you, and I came out to look for you." She lowered her voice and replied cautiously. The overwhelmed expression made her face vulnerable for the first time.

The heart seems to have pierced a hole, since they were together, have they really protected her? It seems that she is standing in front, facing Wang Qian alone, and facing troubles that should not belong to her at all; As she had always done, she was alone in this empty city for everything, and then protected him by the way. And her own hesitation eventually became a catastrophe that she needed to face, hiding behind her with peace of mind, and avoiding the problems she should have faced without guilt. For her, whether she is the other half she can rely on, or a useless man who can only drag her down.

Zhang Zhe didn't want to do this.

"Look at you, you don't wear a coat or a pair of socks when you go out in such a cold weather." Zhang Zhe blamed her in a low voice, took off his clothes and wrapped them around her. Zhang Zhe turned his back to her: "Come up." Chen Chen hesitated for a moment and lay on Zhang Zhe's back.

His back was wide and solid, but it was trembling slightly, and her tears wet his clothes and moistened his skin.

Zhang Zhe trembled, didn't say anything, just silently continued to walk forward.

In the end, who is who is in the world, Zhang Zhe is not very clear. The world did not give him much kindness, and all the abandonment and rejection had long taken root in his heart. He rejects the whole world, and all the people have become bad people that he hates, but he can't help but want to please the world and find a little warmth that may exist. He bent down to learn the rules of this world, trying to fit into this world that had never given him much kindness, but he couldn't figure out what was wrong, he couldn't find a place where he could feel at ease, trapped in a closed circle, Chen Chen rushed in without hesitation. She is alone in a strange city, facing all the dangers and unknowns, and she also chooses to accept Zhang Zhe's ambiguous life, choose to tolerate, and then stay by his side.

"Let's go pack up and come home with me, shall we?" Zhang Zhe asked softly: "Don't leave me, I don't want to lose you." Together, they don't mean as much as you do to me. “

Chen Chen hummed softly and didn't speak.

The heating at home was turned on, and Zhang Zhe put hot water and sat next to Chen Chen: "Take a hot bath to warm up?" ”

Chen Chen was silent and hugged Zhang Zhe, "I finished the exam, and it will take a month for the results to come out, so I will accompany you well, okay?" “

She was rarely so gentle. Chen Chen always looked lazy outside, and when facing Wang Qian, he always had a ruffian face. I have never been so gentle as now, Zhang Zhe felt as if his heart had melted into a puddle of water, flowing warmly in his chest, just like that, just like this.

The next morning, when Chen Chen opened his eyes, Zhang Zhe had already woken up and was staring at her. Chen Chen reached out and touched his face, wanting to sit up. Zhang Zhe reached out and pulled her into his arms.

"Be with me for a while", Zhang Zhe took her hand and put it around his waist and hugged her, "I thought I would never have the opportunity to hold you again." ”

Zhang Zhe's voice was full of fear and trembled a little. Chen Chen hugged his waist and tried to comfort him, "I'm actually very cowardly." I'm all pretending. ”

"I know, I'm sorry." Chen Chen didn't say anything, the pillow sucked up Zhang Zhe's tears, and she didn't see him crying.

On the day the list was released, Chen Chen began to be nervous from the moment he opened his eyes. I was restless, and I didn't speak. Zhang Zhe saw it in his heart and didn't know how to comfort her.

After eating, Chen Chen squatted in front of the computer and swiped the web page, and began to try to log in after the score entrance was opened, there were too many people who were admitted to graduate school, and there were countless people who worked hard for this number for a whole year, and the query entrance kept collapsing. Chen Chen's heart was beating hard, and he looked at the prompt of the page crash and pressed F5 over and over again. Chen Chen nodded, but his heartbeat did not ease in the slightest.

Zhang Zhe got up and walked into the kitchen, wanting to make a cup of green tea for her, but when he came out, the computer was turned off, Chen Chen supported the table with his elbows and was silent, Zhang Zhe guessed most of it. Chen Chen smiled: "Did you soak it for me?" I haven't had tea in a long time. As she spoke, she stood up and took the glass, put her legs on the sofa, nestled in a small ball, sniffing from time to time, trying to restrain her tears.

Zhang Zhe felt distressed, what was the use of being so strong, he had armor to protect himself all the time, his self-esteem and strength became the only place to be proud, and he had to give up even the right to cry. He walked over and took Chen Chen's water cup: "I'm here, you don't have to hold it alone, we can take the test again next year." He gently arranged her hair, his voice as low and gentle as ever, and Zhang Zhe began to blame himself for his inability.

Chen Chen raised his head and smiled: "425 points, Zhang Zhe, I can go to graduate school." She still had tears on her face.

Zhang Zhe was stunned and didn't react at all.

Chen Chen stood up suddenly, jumped around excitedly on the sofa, and shouted at Zhang Zhe: "Zhang Zhe, I can go to graduate school!" ”

Zhang Zhe stood on the edge of the sofa and stretched out his hand to protect her: "You come down, be careful of falling." The expression on his face was pampered and satisfied.

Only you will like to choose what you want, not the easy one.

She jumped off the couch and ran back and forth on the floor barefoot, and Zhang Zhe began to think about buying a carpet.

"Zhang Zhe Zhang Zhe, I invite you to go out to play, I invite you to go out to play." Chen Chen excitedly pulled Zhang Zhe back and forth.

"Do you want to go to a lively place, or do you just want to celebrate?" Zhang Zhe asked with a smile

"Celebrate, I'm going to celebrate!"

"Then my mom goes out to buy food and then comes home to celebrate, I like to stay with you."

As soon as Zhang Zhe's words fell, Chen Chen pulled him out.

Chen Chen took the wine glass and drank it one by one. The bottle of red wine poured over the table, Zhang Zhe picked up Chen Chen's unstable wine bottle from time to time, she took out a small bottle of liquor, raised her head and drank half of it, Zhang Zhe only had time to grab the small half bottle.

"Zhang Zhe, I can finally go to graduate school. Zhang Zhe. Woo. Chen Chen began to touch his tears without warning.

"You deserve it, you earned it for your own hard work. Fool, cry for what. Zhang Zhe wiped her tears in distress and comforted her.

"You don't understand, you don't understand. From the time I got a private degree, all the mistakes in my life began. My boss, who was optimistic about me, said that I didn't have enough education and refused to sign a contract; I did a good job because I didn't have enough education and refused to renew my contract, and even when I was with the boy I liked, his father would accuse me of not being worthy of him for his education. You don't know what life I've been living all these years, I can go to graduate school, Zhang Zhe, I can go to graduate school, I'm so happy. Woo... Chen Chen held his mouth, his voice was full of lowness, and he fell into Zhang Zhe's arms.

The music coming from the stereo was Zhang Xinzhe's "Accompaniment", only a small half of the candle on the table was left, the wine bottle was poured, the red wine flowed to the ground, Zhang Zhe gently hugged the sleeping Chen Chen, his heart was sour.

'With you by your side, everything is simpler, and I finally know that I am not alone... ’

With a splitting headache, Chen Chen sat up with his forehead on his shoulder. Zhang Zhe happened to come over with a cup

"Awake? Drink the milk. Zhang Zhe was wearing a white crewneck sweater, facing the sun, smiling clean and warm. He sat lightly on the edge of the bed, "Is it uncomfortable?" As he spoke, he put his hand on her forehead.

"My head hurts a little. I didn't do anything yesterday... Chen Chen asked, curling his neck.

"Yes, you tore all my clothes and made me obey you." Zhang Zhe replied with a smile

"Don't lie to me, I don't have to tear your clothes, you will cooperate with me." She looked confident.

Zhang Zhe laughed: "Yes, I will not only cooperate, but also take the initiative." You drank too much and fell asleep and didn't do anything. Get up and eat something and drink milk first."

"Zhang Zhe, that, I'm going home for the New Year." Chen Chen told Zhang Zhe his plan in a hurry.

"Well, if you want to take something home, I'll take you to buy it in the afternoon." She didn't say to take herself home, Zhang Zhe's eyes darkened, and she didn't say anything.

"What are you going to do?" Chen Chen asked cautiously.

"I go to Zhang Xuanna, and it's like this every year. Don't worry about me. Zhang Zhe thoughtfully touched her head, as gentle as before.

Chen Chen didn't say a word, and he couldn't help it.

After completing the consignment, Zhang Zhe sent her all the way to the security checkpoint. Chen Chen sorted out Zhang Zhe's scarf, touched his face and said goodbye apologetically: "I'm sorry, leave you here by yourself." I came back on the fifth day of junior high school. You take good care of yourself, call me immediately if you feel unhappy, I'm always there. Zhang Zhe nodded, reassuring Chen Chen that he knew.

Zhang Zhe watched Chen Chen leave emptyly, and he couldn't say anything in his heart. It turns out that parting is really so hard, even if it is only a few days, it makes people feel sad.