"You can't divorce this marriage for anyone's sake!" I believe that this is my mother's heartfelt words, but I want to cry in pain, why my life is so selfless, although I have already accepted my fate, but at this moment I still can't suppress the pain.

"You say, can you catch it back?" Mom's emotions became more and more excited.

I shook my head: "I can't chase it back, Qingyi has made up her mind." ”

"If you can't chase it back, I'll go and tell her, even if you don't want this old face, I will persuade her to come back!" Mom said and took off her apron.

I endured and remained silent...... Her reaction was as I expected.

When the mother was about to leave, she was dragged back by the father: "Don't force the child anymore, okay?" They are already adults, and such a big thing as a divorce must have been well thought out, isn't it embarrassing for you to go to Qingyi now? ”

Mom froze in place.

Dad's emotions were out of control, and he said angrily: "Think about it yourself, if we hadn't forced it again and again, Zuo Lan ...... Can Zuo Lan have a car accident? ...... My son's heart is already bitter enough, why are you still so numb under such a bloody lesson? ... If you are so insensitive, sooner or later you will have to force things out! ......”

My mother stayed in place for a long time, and after looking at me for a long time, tears couldn't help but flow out.

My tears couldn't stop falling, for the first time in my life, I tasted being understood, and I really needed this understanding at this moment, otherwise I was really not sure if I would have collapsed!

Dad patted me on the shoulder and said, "Later, you can go back by yourself after eating, and then come and pick him up when you think about how to tell Pipsqueak." ”

.......

I told Pippi that I had just received a call from Chen Qingyi that she was going on a business trip and would not come back until half a month later, leaving him at his grandparents' house for the time being.

Maybe it was me and Chen Qingyi who didn't show any hints of divorce before, and Pippi didn't realize that I was coaxing him, although reluctantly, he still accepted it.

.......

Driving out of the community, I ran wildly on the road, I had too many emotions to vent, I didn't understand more and more, what did I do in this life, why I couldn't control my own life, why I used to advocate freedom the most, but I was put on the heaviest shackles?

I'm already living on my knees, why won't you let me go? Creator, why do you want to be such a perverted fish and flesh on your defenseless people?

Where in this world can there be any utopia, the so-called utopia, is just a paralyzing drug that keeps a mortal like me alive, but I am still crazy obsession, crazy faith...... Ridiculous, ridiculous!

.......

I drove to the rooftop we named "Utopia by Candlelight" to debunk the lie I had made up with my own hands.

Standing on this rooftop again, I was surprisingly angry, wishing I had a hammer in my hand and hysterically destroying everything here.

In fact, I didn't do anything, I was full of anger, but I stood quietly by the guardrail, I was already living on my knees, I couldn't hold the hammer that could break all the foam, I had to endure it...... There is no deadline to endure.

I lit a cigarette and turned around, I no longer looked at the empty world under the rooftop, but I found a lot of cigarette butts on the ground, I didn't need to identify it, I knew that this was the same brand of women's cigarette that Angel often smoked, the cigarette butts last time had been cleaned by me, and now there are so many cigarette butts, which proves that she has been here recently, more than once, but so what? We have long lived in two worlds.

The wind in mid-air made me stand unsteadily, and the soot that I didn't have time to bounce away was blown away by the wind, and these were blown like my complicated life, which was no longer under my control.

I am a coward who has seen through the vanity of utopia, but I dare not debunk it, still expecting it to give me the last consolation in some corner of this world.

I snuffed out the cigarette butt in my hand, not wanting to linger here, I was afraid that I would see through the vanity of this place too clearly, and I needed this belief to sustain myself to live.

.......

A week later, Chen Qingyi prepared everything, she took her family and Lin Xi to Shanghai together, ready to take a flight to Ireland, I as my ex-husband and Han Feng and they went to Pudong Airport to see her off, this is the first time we got together after the divorce, but the reunion was because of the parting.

During the send-off, everyone was a little silent, after all, Chen Qingyi's departure was due to the breakdown of our marriage.

Ye Yiyi sighed to Chen Qingyi: "I didn't expect you to leave!"

Chen Qingyi smiled, but was somewhat bitter: "There are too many unpredictable things in life, I believe that this is a relief for each other, right, Yixi?" ”

I nodded, and without further words, I was not relieved by the breakdown of my marriage.

The prince sighed: "Your divorce is expected, but it was imagined a little earlier, but the separation is so quiet, but it is unexpected, and it can indeed be used as a model for divorced couples....... What is a realm? This is the realm of you, and joy and anger are invisible! ”

Chen Qingyi and I glanced at each other and didn't say anything about the prince's unobtrusive evaluation, so it made no sense to say anything at this time.

When Chen Qingyi was about to leave, I said to her, "Take care of yourself over there." ”

Chen Qingyi nodded, choked up: "You too, and you must take care of Pippi, if one day he knows that we are divorced, you have to tell him that I love him, and in my heart he will always be my precious son....... It's just that I don't have the chance to be his mother anymore in this life! ”

"I understand."

Chen Qingyi opened her arms to me and hugged me before parting, I gently hugged her and whispered in her ear: "Have a good trip." ”

Chen Qingyi let go of me, took out a huge envelope from her bag and handed it to me.

I didn't pick it up, and asked suspiciously, "What is this?" ”

Chen Qingyi handed me the envelope and said: "This is a house I bought for Pippi in Shanghai, I bought it a year ago, and inside the envelope is the real estate certificate, and there is a bank card, also for Pippi, which contains 2 million ...... I know it's cheesy to express my love for Pipsqueak with something materialistic, but there's no other way for me as a mother...... I really love, love him so much.......! Chen Qingyi couldn't finish crying before he finished speaking.

I felt sour in my heart, stuffed the envelope back into Chen Qingyi's hand and said: "Thank you for taking care of Pippi for more than a year, but materially, I can give Pippi the best, you should keep these, there are too many places to spend money in Ireland!" ”

Chen Qingyi resolutely stuffed the envelope into my hand and said: "I know you have a strong ability to make money, but there are always accidents in life, and there are thorns in business. ”

I finally stopped refusing, for the sake of Pippi, in order for Chen Qingyi to leave steadily!

The boarding announcement at the airport kept ringing, Chen Qingyi walked a long way, and then turned back to me and shouted: "Zhang Yixi, you must make Pippi happy, and you ....... yourself"

"Definitely....... You want to be happy, and we all want to be happy! I waved my hand at Chen Qingyi and choked up and shouted.

Chen Qingyi nodded, and finally didn't look back..... At this moment, she completely disappeared from my sight with all the pain and joy of the past.