I lit a cigarette and smoked a little bitterly, my grandfather's death made me feel extremely depressed, and I didn't want to say too much at the moment, even if I hadn't seen Chen Qingyi for months.

"Remember the first time you brought me to town?" Chen Qingyi asked me.

"Hmm."

Chen Qingyi said with some embarrassment: "It's been more than 3 years, time flies so fast!" ”

I didn't have words, my heart was very sad, in fact, at that time, my grandfather's life had already begun to count down!

"That evening you took me to the river to get a float."

I recalled, but I didn't seem to have it, and I said, "I don't remember much." ”

Chen Qingyi didn't mind my forgetfulness, she took out her mobile phone from her purse, and she broadcast me two videos, one of which was me playing in the water, and the other was about her, which is very true.

"What do you think?"

"I'm a little surprised that you still have these clips." I said.

"I've changed my phone several times, but every time I do, the first thing I do is transfer the video to the new phone, which is a good memory for me, at least since then, I haven't had a chance to play again." Chen Qingyi said with some regret.

I didn't say anything, just snuffed out the cigarette butt in my hand, and looked out the window a little blankly.

"Let's get out of the water, right now." Chen Qingyi proposed.

"It's raining."

"Can the rain stop you? Zhang Yixi, this is not like you, not like the fearless and daring you who once did! Chen Qingyi looked at me and said.

"I'm really not in the mood!"

"The evening when I first met my grandfather, you took me out for a swim...... Now that grandpa is gone, let's go to the water again, which can be regarded as a special way to see off from the beginning to the end, what do you say? Chen Qingyi said very seriously.

......

Chen Qingyi and I drove to the small lake, and when I stood here again, I was inevitably touched by the scene, and it was like a dream for more than three years.

The rain was dripping on the surface of the lake, the wind was a little hoarse, and I seemed to hear a wail: "The river is chaotic in my heart, I look up and want to pick a cloud, I look back but see that the snow has no trace, I don't ask if I pass by the figure of life and death, and the red dust is vast and the white hair is deep ........"

I lit a cigarette, Chen Qingyi held an umbrella, looking at the dark but turbulent lake because of the rain, we unconsciously approached each other's bodies.

I remember feeling life here, and to this day I still don't understand why we were given life, but we ended up with death. What is the significance of such a cycle? Is it really in the red dust, life and death are not a matter of question?

The more I thought about it, the heavier it became, and the more I thought about it, the more painful it became...... It's as if I'm in purgatory!

"The night here is not as beautiful as the evening!" Chen Qingyi sighed.

"It's raining tonight."

"Perhaps, if it was a sunny day, there would be a moon, and the moon would not be as dark as it is now, right?"

I looked up, and dark clouds covered the whole sky, and behind the dark clouds, I seemed to see the lonely star, unaccompanied and lonely all my life.

Chen Qingyi lowered her body and picked up a smooth stone chip from the ground, and when she lowered her body, the umbrella broke away from me, and the cigarette in her hand was extinguished by the rain in a blink of an eye.

The stone flakes jumped and continued on the surface of the lake, and no matter how much they struggled, they finally sank into the lake.

"Zhang Yixi, if you give the stone chips enough power, do you think you will jump to the other side of the lake?"

I pondered for a long time and said, "No, because you can't see the other side, you never know how much power you have to give to the stone chips, give less to sink to the bottom of the lake, give more, maybe fall into another lake!" ”

"If someone who has been to the other side leads you, you will use the most appropriate strength to send the stone chips to the other side!"

I smiled in amazement, "Have you ever made it to the other side through the darkness?" ”

"I've been there, and Ireland is my other side...... I'm coming back this time to take you and Pippi to Ireland! Chen Qingyi looked at me with sincerity in her eyes.

"That's your other side."

"It's ours, it's our family...... Don't stay in this place where you hurt anymore, okay? ...... I can't bear to see you like this! ”

"I don't need sympathy."

"It's not sympathy, it's love, I love you, I love Pippi....... I wish we could be reunited as a family, these days, I have opened a seaside hotel, a toy store, a bar, and I know that Pippi loves toys and you like to drink...... I have used the wealth you have given me to create a little paradise for us in Ireland, and we will be happy away from the disturbances of the country! Chen Qingyi grabbed my arm and looked up at me expectantly.

I suddenly felt tired, tired of my current life, but I didn't say anything, I still had things in my heart that I couldn't let go.

"Get out of here and give everyone a happy ending." Chen Qingyi's voice was already choked.

I remembered the gentleness that Chen Qingyi gave me....... I remembered the pain caused by Angel's marriage, and I saw the image of the prince angrily slashing my arm with a fruit knife.......

"Grandpa will murder me, but Chen's mother won't....... Chen's mother also said that if I get a lot of little red flowers, she will send me a full set of Iron Man! Pippi's words rang in my ears again.

The betrayal of a friend, the calculation of an enemy, the parting of a lover........ I'm really tired, I'm shaking, I want to escape, maybe going to Ireland really would be a perfect ending.

"Let's go to Ireland, we don't need to rush to remarry, we can try to fall in love and try a new life like many young people....... Even if there is no love in the end, even if we can't be together, we are just friends and neighbors, which is much better than staying in China now! ”

I stared at Chen Qingyi for a long time, and finally said, "Give me some time." ”

"Hmm......" Chen Qingyi nodded heavily.

.....

Leaving the dark lake, I felt the Irish sea breeze, smelled the beer and the sea, and the rows of windmills on the seaside, and we were a family of three, walking leisurely under the sunset of the windmills...... At this moment, I am finally less tired....... I know that the scales in my heart have tipped in.

Back at the residence, Chen Qingyi and Pippi slept together, I was alone, I don't know what Chen Qingyi in the next room was in at the moment, but I was in reverie and made a choice.

I know that I can't give Chen Qingyi a sense of security in China, so she is determined to divorce me, and I also remember that she once whispered to me beside my pillow begging me to give up my domestic career and immigrate abroad together, I know that she can't let go of her love for me and Pippi, so she is compromising and waiting for me to compromise....... But after the compromise between the two parties, will we really have the passion for love and life?

But I'm really tired, tired and want to escape, as Chen Qingyi said, even if we don't have love in the end, we still can't be together, just being friends and neighbors is much better than staying in China now!

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Today's two more, don't make up the third one, Kavinka's awesomeness, the two more have been written very hard, sorry!