Life is not only about the immediate and reluctant, but also about poetry and the distance.

But we will always be confused by the trivialities in front of us.

Yu Xiaowan's marriage has indeed brought me excitement, the peaceful life in Xianghai Town is so comfortable, but after coming to City A, the bustling and dazzling metropolis makes people yearn for it, but under the prosperity, everywhere is showing you what is the reality of powerlessness.

Recently, there is a word called Beishangguang who doesn't believe in tears, probably that's it.

"Hehe, it's not bad to know Brother Huolu." Li Chenxi's face flushed with drunkenness, and he smiled drunkenly.

"Don't praise me, don't you want to borrow money." I teased in a pretending seriousness.

"Brother Huolu, have you ever thought about the future of you and your senior sister, or your own future?" He suddenly asked seriously.

He threw out a heavy topic, a topic that I never dared to think about, in the future? That's right, I'm too heartless, earning a little salary is enough for self-satisfaction, hippie smiling face does not seek progress, such a man, in the eyes of women, can not see the future.

Diane is just a student, she doesn't know how to read these yet, she likes it, she loves it, if the reality is in front of her, nothing dares to say that it is permanent.

"Hey, I've thought about it too, you should know that senior sister is a rich little princess, I'm poor and don't even have a family, and the money for tonight's wine is all from you, but these different identities are born with them, I can't change it, I can only say that I don't have the ability to give her the future now." I'm talking about some loss, maybe it's because I'm in a bad mood, because when people are drunk, they think about unhappy things.

"So, you don't dare to give her a future?" He asked.

"Of course I dare." I answered him decisively.

People always say that true love is learning to let go, and I think that's just not loving enough, a hypocritical excuse. It's better to be as open as Liu Qing is to Mu Chenfeng, but I don't love it. Because man's heart is self-interested.

I can admit that I can't let go of my feelings for Diane at all, otherwise I wouldn't have risked being exposed, staying here all the time, and even getting involved in the affairs of the rivers and lakes.

"My feelings for my senior sister have no impurities and are very innocent, unless she...

"Do you think her character is so easily thwarted by reality?" Li Chenxi interrupted me and asked.

"She is innocent in her heart, and she won't, but because she is too simple, she may be blind." I was probably too drunk and cranky.

"But you've taught her a lot." His words stunned me for a moment.

Yes, Diane has been with me for so long, and there has indeed been a change, it seems that she often messes with me unreasonably, and her tantrums are quite unreasonable, but this is all in the fight of life, or a kind of arrogant emotional exchange, and in some key things, she will take the initiative to understand me, use her not smart enough way, to understand me, and even behave strong.

She's changing, because she cares, and because the person she gets along with is me, she's learned to grow.

"Brother Huolu, you are a person, you don't look serious, but you are very kind in your heart, you have a grateful heart, and you are grateful and attach importance to the feelings around you, so you also subtly influenced the senior sister, you know her so well, it's rare not to know that with her arrogant personality in the past, since she has you in her heart, she won't say a word at all about me, a former suitor, but because I am good friends with you, she is accommodating and considerate of you and maintains our circle of friends."

Li Chenxi's words made me instantly sober and excited, and I impulsively wanted to go to Diane Anne now, this silly girl will always give me silly touches.

"Then I'm keeping you by my side now, isn't it a tiger for trouble?" I laughed and despised him.

"You're right to think so, if you make a mistake behind your back one day, I'll make up for you right away."

We both laughed and had a drink. He suddenly asked: "By the way, the last time we fought each other, what did you mean by taking that medicine, your body... ”

"Chinese medicine pills, I have been weak and sick since I was a child, and practicing martial arts is also for good health, and my heart will not be able to stand it if I vigorously use martial arts, and I will not delay other things." I explained with a calm face.

"Then you are really hard enough, I always feel that you still have a lot of hiding, and now look, you can't use this body." He said helplessly for me.

He mentioned Bai Qianqian to me, saying that today was going home from vacation, and he saw Bai Qianqian far away from the school gate, getting into a rich and handsome car, and acting very low-key, but it happened that Li Chenxi was eating fried skewers on the side of the road.

Once you happen to have a chance, you can always see the other side of a person, Bai Qianqian is obviously a friend of this rich and handsome, otherwise she can't be so low-key.

Liu Jun's spare tire has already been formed, I can't persuade it, and I don't plan to bother with this matter.

The topic is back to the girl, youth, can't do without these things, I wanted it to become a pure memory, but the world wants to dye it dirty.

A topic of artillery friends, I chatted with Li Chenxi non-stop, he told the story of all kinds of artillery fire in the school, the relationship between the characters was rotten, and he also said that in the corridor of the library, I saw a used Durex, hehe, young man, he really dared to fight.

"I'm simple, but my youth coincided with chaos." He sighed with emotion that made me want to kick him.

"But this is the university, it's the same all over the country, you, just have a dirty mind, so you only pay attention to these unbearable pictures, so many innocent stories, why don't you remember it." I put on the posture of a passerby.

"Remember a fart, it's all in, otherwise how can someone love to watch romance, because pure love doesn't have it, so it's only fantasies that need it. University is the grave of youth, and I have slept in it forever for four years. He sighed again, this sour and cheesy remark looked like he learned it from a chicken soup text.

"I see that you are in this state now, you are lacking love, what's the matter, is it difficult for Li Nanshen to find a girl? A large sea of flowers is waiting for you to pick. I laughed at him.

"Then you have to call, do you think I like Senior Sister just because she's beautiful? I like her simplicity, especially her eyes, which are so transparent and smart, and they are completely her heart. Li Chenxi said with a look of yearning.

"Fuck, shut up, now you're out."

I don't know how long I drank, Li Chenxi fell down first, he still couldn't drink, but looking at his comfortable face, he was drunk and lying down before me.

I helped him lie on the bed, looked at the time, it was not too late, so I called my sister and talked to Li Chenxi about so much reality, I really want to persuade my sister not to fight so hard.

"An An, you... You haven't slept yet. As soon as my sister answered the phone, her tone was drunk, and the surroundings were very noisy.

"Sister, why are you drinking?"

"Before the holiday, everyone was very happy, so they drank a little." She tried her best to suppress her drunkenness and speak clearly.

"Oh, then you drink less, or I'll pick you up, I don't worry about you going home drunk." I said worriedly.

"No need, it's a waste to take a taxi so late, I can go back myself, and I'll see you in two days." She refused again on the grounds of waste, and it was not the first time that she had been thrifty.

My words also got stuck in my mouth and I couldn't say it. My sister's hard work is all for me, and I am not qualified to persuade her.

"Sister, don't work too yourself, okay?"

"My sister is happy now."

Lying on the bed, all the trivial worries were all rushed into the dream by the thick drunkenness, and before I had time to think about it, I closed my eyes.

In my dream, I seemed to be back to my youth, back to the small bed in the orphanage, and I and my black sister hugged each other and watched the bustling world on TV, curious and yearning.

"Sister, this building is so high, will we live in it in the future?"

"In the future, it will be An An and my home, and my sister will make you a lot of money, so that you can eat chicken every day and grow fat."

"Okay, sister! I want to eat it now. ”

"Huh? Now... Would it be better to wait a few more days. ”

"No, I want to eat it now."

"Okay, then I'll buy it for you now."

Right now?

I was in a daze, subconsciously tightened, clenched my fists excitedly, and the beautiful picture suddenly shattered, and my heart hurt a little at the moment of shattering.

But in the next second, the dream seemed to continue, and in the warm room, a gentle figure wearing an apron hurried out of the kitchen.

"Oh, don't worry, the dish isn't finished yet."

"Rub your shoulders, the people's teachers have paid too much for the motherland, I am a socialist massage, you can't refuse."

"Press it, press it, hand... Don't touch your hands, don't stretch into my clothes, I hate it, you're really not serious for a moment. ”

"I like your posture of resisting with your lips, but your body cooperating with me in socialist work."

"Don't make a fuss, the dish isn't finished yet, it's a little later, okay." The gentle figure walked into the kitchen again.

"Eat a little more, and make it sweet for you." She tacitly picked me up with the food.

"Why are you so good to me, just a few days after moving here, you entered the state of hostess."

"Isn't it supposed to be nice to you?" Her face was calm and she couldn't see her expression.

"Don't be like this, I want to repay as soon as I am moved, but I am poor and penniless, how can I repay it."

"You're very good to me, what do we talk about in return."

"So, I can only repay with my body!"

"Ah~ I hate it, let me down, the meal hasn't finished yet, why are you not serious again."

"As a sign of sincerity, I have decided to leave you with the most important place in the house."

"What position."

"Mistress."

"Okay." She smiled calmly.

The two people in the dream laughed and fell on the bed, taking off each other's clothes one by one, and a vague murmur came from their ears: "Xiao Nuan, let's get married." ”

Get married!

The picture was shattered in an instant, and I woke up in a cold sweat, panting again and again, and subconsciously looked at the time: 3:33.

I don't know when the corners of my eyes fell, tears slipped down, it was very cold, like a cool breeze whistling outside the window, it was pitch black.

Dreaming of juvenile things in the middle of the night, not dreaming of idlers, only dreams.