I don't know when the sunset hangs lazily in the air, bursting out a touch of red, the hot wind blowing in my face makes me a little trance, a little dizzy, Chen Qingyi's words, reminds me of the years when I used to set up a stall...... I didn't speak for a long time, just followed Chen Qingyi's steps, and before I knew it, we had come to the end of the road, and if we turned a corner, and walked another way, it would be the end of this small city.

"Would you like to walk, one more road, there will be a small hill and a small lake." I said to Chen Qingyi.

"Why not."

I nodded, took Chen Qingyi, and walked to the end of another road.

.......

After two minutes we came to the end of the road, and also to the foot of the hill, and after a little winding mountain road, we came to the little lake of which I had spoken.

Chen Qingyi and I sat down on a flat stone, and the hustle and bustle was isolated outside the mountain.

The breeze rippled with the weeds, the fragrance of the flowers filled with the wind, the last touch of sunlight dyed the lake sparkling, I looked at the lake for a while, I seemed to see the scene when I was a teenager, sitting side by side on a small bench with my grandfather fishing, even if it was just a small fish with a thumb length, I would show off with my grandfather, every now and then, grandpa would always touch my head and praise me for being great! Many times, he is my playmate, but also my audience, affirming my every trivial effort and success, I really want him to continue to affirm me, affirm my great achievements, but the years have knocked him down...... All I can do is to be nostalgic, just sad, why does life give us life, but also give death, what is the meaning of such a cycle? I don't understand!

Chen Qingyi around me has been very quiet, I think we who have been living in the city of striving for fame and fortune, suddenly enjoy such quietness, we will have some understanding, but whether her understanding is the same as mine, I don't know.

I jumped down from the rock, found a flat and smooth stone shard, and with gentle force, threw it towards the surface of the river......

The stone flakes jumped lightly on the sparkling surface of the lake, splashing the water, and after a moment of splendor, everything returned to calm, and then dead silence!

I found another stone shard and threw it at the surface of the lake again....... Looking at the constantly jumping stone chips, I seem to see my whole life, there are troughs, there are **, there will be gorgeous, but also gloomy, but in the end, just like this stone piece, it will eventually submerge into the water.

No matter how splendid my life is, the end is still death, and after a hundred years, no one can find any traces of my life, so what is the meaning of my life? Is the so-called meaning a living process? However, such a process is just a continuous paving for death, so can I think that the meaning of life is for death?

......

"Zhang Yixi, can you teach me to play water rafting?" Chen Qingyi quietly walked up to me with her mobile phone and said to me, she seemed to have just filmed the whole process of my play.

"Do you think it's fun?" I asked Chen Qingyi, who was very interested.

"I haven't played it, so for me, it means the unknown, and as long as it's unknown, I think it's attractive." Chen Qingyi explained.

I smiled and said, "Okay, then I'll teach you." As I spoke, I found a smooth stone chip and handed it to Chen Qingyi.

"The body should be slightly tilted, pinch the stone chip with your thumb and middle finger, with your index finger behind, and pluck it with your index finger when throwing, increase rotation, and throw it at a 20-degree angle, you try." I said the essentials and helped Chen Qingyi adjust her posture.

Chen Qingyi took a deep breath, looking expectant and nervous, and she said to me, "Zhang Yixi, can you help me take a picture?" ”

"Hmm." As I spoke, I took her phone, turned it onto the video function, and motioned for her to throw it away.

Chen Qingyi nodded and threw out the stone shard in his hand, but because of the wrong force and angle, he didn't jump directly into the water, and I said to myself: "It's really miserable, I died just after birth!" ”

"What do you say?" Chen Qingyi thought I was laughing at her, frowned, and asked.

"It's nothing, you still can't play?"

"Of course, I'm going to have to jump." Chen Qingyi said that she was looking for a stone chip on the ground, and when she found one, she said to me, "Zhang Yixi, help me shoot." ”

"Well, keep patting, you throw it."

Chen Qingyi patted her chest, took another deep breath, and threw the stone chip in her hand again, her comprehension was very strong, and only for the second time, she made four jumps.

Chen Qingyi looked at the surface of the lake with an even splash, clapped her hands happily, and jumped: "Hey, Zhang Yixi, you see me playing in the water...... Awesome, right? ”

I nodded, and smiled in accord with her, her happiness was so simple at the moment!

Chen Qingyi eagerly took back the phone from my hand, she replayed what she had just done, and said to me with excitement and joy: "I must treasure this video......

I smiled and shook my head, after all, there were no words, at the moment I was happy, and Chen Qingyi was not on the same line, I went back to the place I had just sit, lit a cigarette, and looked at the afterimage left by the sunset in the sky and was sluggish for a while, for the past, present, and future, I have no power to think, or I have thought thoroughly, life is nothing more than after the ups and downs, to meet death, when you magnify the perspective infinitely, life is nothing more than that! In an instant, I felt like I had an epiphany that I had seen through my life.

......

I don't know how long she was relatively silent with Chen Qingyi, she finally asked me: "Zhang Yixi, have you ever thought about going back to live in your small town?" ”

"No, I don't know later." I replied.

Chen Qingyi nodded and said, "I seem to like it here, if I can, it would be nice to live in such a small city and be accompanied by mountains and rivers!"

Looking at Chen Qingyi's serious appearance, I smiled and teased, "What, you are in the drama and want to be the daughter-in-law of our small town?" ”

Chen Qingyi replied with a smile: "Why not, as long as you want, I will marry you......"

"Poof~~! Do you play for real? I laughed.

"Fake ....."

After Chen Qingyi finished speaking, we looked at each other and smiled, I shook my head and lit a cigarette for myself, Chen Qingyi's way of entertaining people is really special, a woman like her who is loved by thousands of people, I don't need to think through my brain, and I know that the town is not where she lives, and I am not her marriage partner, but after her teasing, my mood is not as dull as just now!

......

The sunset faded, the night came, my phone rang, breaking the silence of the night, I took out my mobile phone from my pocket and looked at it, it was Shen Man calling.

"Hey, Mr. Shen." I answered the phone and said to Shen Man, now I have the habit of calling her Mr. Shen.

"Well, where are you, I want to communicate with you about the recent work arrangements as soon as possible." Shen Man kept his voice fast and said.

"I'm back in my hometown."

"Ah, why did you go back to your hometown?" Shen Man's tone was a little surprised, in fact, in the 6 years we have known each other, I have been home no more than 5 times a year, and now I suddenly went home, of course she was surprised.

"My grandfather is sick."

"Seriously?" Shen Man asked in a concerned tone.

I sighed softly and replied, "It's not good, advanced bowel cancer!" ”

Shen Man on the other end of the phone was silent for a long time before he said, "Oh, then you stay at home for a few more days, you need a vacation, I'll give you approval!" ”

"Hmmm......"

Shen Man didn't say more, and hung up the phone, this behavior surprised me, she has always been meticulous, she didn't even have a word of blessing, I was a little angry, I was a little angry, because when I took her home to play before, grandpa was so good to her!