088 Left or Right?
The conversation between them can also become so pale, as if they were strangers. I haven't seen it for a few days, as if it was tens of thousands of years away.
Ye Junxuan understood that it was all his fault, and that he had hurt her too deeply. The knot between the two of them should also be untied by him on his own initiative.
He calmed down for a while, gently held Su Han's hands, looked into her eyes and said, "Hanhan, I'm sorry, I didn't know it was our child, it was me who was not good ......"
Is it still useful to say this now? Will she forgive him? Such a big mistake that even he himself could not forgive himself. Still, he hoped she would give him a chance.
Su Han really withdrew his hands and didn't say anything.
Her alienated action made Ye Junxuan's heart half cold.
"Han, how can you forgive me?" Ye Junxuan knew that Su Han was angry. He pounded his left chest, and his emotions were much more impulsive than just now, and he said with self-reproach: "I'm sorry, I'm really sorry." ”
A thousand words, but he could only say sorry to her. He wished she would beat him and scold him, whatever he wanted, but he was most afraid that she would ignore him like she was now.
Su Han just smiled palely on the side.
How could she forgive him? He said it himself, and asked her to roll with the child...... This sentence has already doomed her future life to have nothing to do with him. She didn't need him to care about herself, and if so, it was only out of sympathy.
She doesn't need anyone's mercy, she's alive and she'll be doing well... She still has friends, family, and so many people and things worth loving with her heart, why should she wronged herself to love an impossible person?
She's going to be fine, she's going to be fine. She's just getting started... There are too many beautiful landscapes that have not been browsed, and you can't affect the mood of the trip for the sake of a sad scenery. Well, she can definitely be relieved.
"I won't bother you anymore." She suddenly said this cold sentence, although it was against her will. She didn't dare to disturb him anymore, she was not qualified, she was afraid that she would be hurt.
Ye Junxuan was stunned for a moment. Her tone was so cold and hard, she was still angry with him, and she hadn't forgiven him yet.
Yes, he made such a serious mistake, how could he expect her forgiveness... There were some mistakes that could not be made, and he hurt not only her, but also their baby. How can he help her share her pain?
"You... Can't you give me another chance? Ye Junxuan's tone was a little lost. He was on the verge of despair, and he didn't know how to atone for his mistakes. If she is willing to forgive him and give him a chance to start over, he will definitely hold on to it, love her well, and give her all his love.
"Han, forgive me......" His expression was painful, and he didn't know what to do if he didn't get her forgiveness.
Su Han turned her head coldly, her eyes were full of sadness and hopelessness, she didn't know what kind of mood she should use to face this man. She misses him, and she can't deny that she still loves him, but the price of this love is so heavy, she really doesn't dare to love anymore, if she loves again, will she be bruised all over her body? In this love-hate decision, she is caught in a dilemma.
After a long time, a ruthless word poured out of Su Han's mouth: "Don't let me look down on you." ”
Ye Junxuan was silent. She said, looking down on him? How could she say such a thing to him?
"Sympathetic returns, I'm not unusual." Su Han's voice was already a little trembling. She obviously didn't want to act so cold and hard, and she wanted to cry.
It turned out that camouflage indifference was so useful, and she only found out today. Really protect yourself very well.
She hoped that he could come and comfort her, tell her that none of this had happened, that he was still him, and that they could continue their happiness...
He probably wouldn't have understood her heart. She can forgive him for not knowing, she can forgive him for his indifference...... However, she could not forgive him for his lack of single-mindedness.
The person he loves is not her. The reason why he turned back was because he felt guilty, sympathy, and pity.
"It's not sympathy, it's not." The misunderstanding between them is too deep. Ye Junxuan shook his head and explained in a deep voice, "Hanhan, I really want to treat you well, as long as you are willing to forgive me, we can still ...... as in the past."
What nice words to say, as in the old days... Can they really go back? Can those good days really be repeated?
She felt that as long as two people had each other in their hearts, they would be close to each other no matter how far apart they were, but if someone else appeared, even if they hugged each other tightly, their hearts would be extremely far away.
"What about her?"
Su Han's question made the two of them silent for a while. This is the last thing she wants to ask, and it is the question that must be asked.
"She?" Ye Junxuan was stunned for a moment. She, what she?
"Hmm." Su Han replied very softly.
How reluctant she was to think that the person Ye Junxuan loved was Liang Ruoqing, not Su Han.
How will she accept this outcome? What if he saved her by transfusing blood, what if he told her to be sorry, what if he was remorseful...... Can this be changed?
As long as she remembered that Xuan liked that woman, and he "fell in love" with her because she looked like Liang Ruoqing, she felt so sad and sad.
She doesn't want to be anyone's stand-in, nor does she allow any stain in the relationship, the love she wants is pure, the only one, it doesn't have to be so vigorous, but it must be two people who trust each other and are dedicated to each other.
Coming to this point, her heart really hurts. Whoever you trust is to give someone a knife, and I don't know when he will stab you in turn.
She once believed in him so much, so much that their love was real, but in the end, it was just a tragedy. She never knew that falling in love with someone would hurt so much, love, would be such a heavy feeling. This happiness was too short-lived, it had just arrived, and it didn't even have time to say hello before it hurried away......
After the silence, Ye Junxuan somewhat understood what Su Han meant-the little girl was jealous because of Liang Ruoqing. He felt very sour, but he was also a little relieved, at least it showed that she still cared about him, right?
"Hanhan, you're so stupid..."Ye Junxuan took her hand again, this time, he didn't meet her refusal. With a smile on his cheeks, he said to her gently, "I said that to anger you that day, that was not my intention...... My heart, don't you understand? ”
If he had someone else in his heart, he would have left with that woman a long time ago, and he would not have appeared by Hanhan's side now. He was very sure that he loved Su Han, not Liang Ruoqing.
"I don't believe it." said coldly, but there were tears in the corners of Su Han's eyes.
How was she going to trust him? He said that except for Liang Ruoqing, he would not love a second woman. He abandoned her because of Liang Ruoqing, isn't that enough?
He and Liang Ruoqing have known each other for so long, and she has only known him for two months, in his heart, she can't compare to that woman at all.
Ye Junxuan was also stunned for a moment. He explained it this way, why did she still not believe in herself? "Hanhan, why? Why don't you believe me? ”
"I don't believe it, I just don't believe it......" Su Han still couldn't help crying, she didn't pretend to be strong, she was so tired.
She didn't want to trust him anymore, and every time she did, it hurt so much. The woman named Liang Ruoqing, she is so beautiful, so dignified and elegant, thousands of times more beautiful than Su Han, and Liang Ruoqing also had a long and unforgettable past with him. Su Han is just a substitute after all......
"Hanhan, don't be like this, don't cry... I'll be sad to see you crying. Ye Junxuan took a tissue from the bedside table and wiped away her tears, no matter what she did for her, as long as she felt comfortable.
"Don't touch me!" He didn't expect that his hand would be resisted by her.
Seeing her like this, Ye Junxuan was only disheartened again and again, but he still kept smiling: "Okay...... I don't touch you. ”
Her indifference made him feel extremely painful. She refused to forgive him, and still refused to ......
"Hanhan, may I ask you a question?" Ye Junxuan barely squeezed out a smile and asked tentatively.
Su Han didn't speak, and he didn't dare to look into his eyes.
"Do you still love me?" His voice was already a little lonely.
This is a heavy question, how will she answer...
She loved him, but she couldn't say it. She didn't want to just tell him that.
"Won't you tell me?" There was longing and sadness in his eyes.
Su Han tilted his head to the side. She didn't dare to look at him anymore, his eyes conveyed the expectation in his heart, and that timeless affection would make her fall completely. He is the man she likes, how can she escape his sight and his love......
"Otherwise. If you love, kiss my left cheek, if you don't love, kiss my right cheek...... Good no good? His tone was so calm that he even kept smiling.
Su Han was already crying uncontrollably. She wanted to be strong, but she couldn't. These are memories that belong to them, why should he say it now...
Ye Junxuan took her into his arms. "Don't cry, crying makes me feel distressed."
Su Han didn't resist anymore, but couldn't stop crying. At this moment, how much she needs his shoulders and his support, she doesn't want to be strong anymore.
"Hanhan, I love you......"
He kissed her, from the tip of his nose to his cheek, and finally to her lips. He kissed softly, sucking with the gentlest force, and gradually sticking out the tip of his tongue against her reluctant lips. "Trust me, I really love you, I really love you......"
"I didn't say I believe you!" She cried and pushed him away.
"If I dig my heart out, will you believe me?!" He was in a hurry, he was really in a hurry, he was really afraid that she wouldn't understand herself like this.
Ye Junxuan stood up very impulsively, because he got up too suddenly, he couldn't help but feel dizzy for a while - he had donated a lot of blood and stayed awake all night, in fact, he was extremely tired now.
"You, what's wrong with you? ......" Su Han still couldn't hide his concern after all. She was really startled to see him holding his forehead in pain.