The trembling shouting, the hysterical shouting, in exchange for the truth torn the brain, all the self-deception in the past, all shattered, and I could no longer lie to myself.

Because of my young stupidity and willfulness, I caused the most terrible shadow of my sister's childhood, which is indelible to this day. But I cowardly rejected this memory, did not dare to recall it again, and even selectively forgot it.

Sister...... I'm sorry for you.

I cried out as if I had broken down, and my heart was dripping blood, turning into tears.

And now, because of my sister's paranoid love, because of the dark experience of being young, she doesn't care about herself anymore, for me, she can give anything, I am the whole of her life, the only driving force, and it has been cast into the ending again.

For me...... For home?

I hate myself.

"We don't have a home, who family will look after us?"

"An An, it's useless to be a sister."

My sister's words suddenly flashed in my mind, word by word, piercing my heart, and behind the persistence, how much hardship and coldness she had experienced.

I collapsed on the ground in pain, Shen Lingyu gently hugged me, silently comforted, I was suddenly glad that Shen Lingyu's rational handling just now, she only asked a few key words, and Xue Jiaming was not allowed to say more details, otherwise I would really be impulsive and couldn't stop it.

And what's the point of my impulsiveness, it's just to hide the cowardly venting anger, to cover up the truth that I don't dare to remember, the facts have happened, the saddest thing is my sister, she just overdid the performance and crying, it may be that the nightmare of childhood stimulated her brain again, everything my sister did was for, I must accompany her now.

"I'm sorry, I was too impulsive just now and talked a little too much to you." I sat on the sofa tiredly, Shen Lingyu thoughtfully helped me wipe my tears, and shook my head indifferently.

In fact, Shen Lingyu didn't know the truth about her sister at all, and she couldn't think of these unspeakable pains, but I rudely scolded her and vented my emotions.

Maybe I already regarded her as a close person in my heart, so I didn't hide my embarrassed side.

"Yourou woke up in a while, you accompany her well, don't ask again, it's easy to irritate her." She reminded gently, her eyes full of pity.

"I know, thank you for that......" I lay on her weakly, so tired, I fell asleep.

Lying in Shen Lingyu's arms like this, I fell asleep, the recent successive blows made my brain so tired, even if I sleep, it was a nightmare, and my brain was chaotic and turbid.

When I woke up, it was still Shen Lingyu who called me, she said that my sister might have woken up, I opened my eyes and felt still tired, and saw Shen Lingyu's clothes were messy, as if she had been caught by me.

"You're probably too tired and having nightmares." She explained calmly.

I hurriedly tidied up my embarrassed face, pushed open the bedroom door, and my sister just woke up, her face was full of exhaustion and misery, and her gentle eyes were red and swollen pitifully.

"An An! You don't blame my sister, you don't blame me, right! When she saw me, she ran over excitedly, nervous.

I immediately hugged her tightly and comforted her in a low voice: "I don't blame you, sister, it's all my fault, I made you uncomfortable and scared, let's go home." ”

A word of fear made the person in her arms tremble nervously, as if a nightmare flashed, and she gasped hurriedly: "Sister is not afraid, for the sake of An'an, sister is not afraid of anything, I am your strong sister." ”

She was nervous and a little incoherent, and I knew that this time I broke my sister's story, and I stimulated her, remembering the nightmare of her childhood, and she was afraid that I would not forgive her.

But you're my sister, so who do I have to blame you.

"It's okay, sister, it's all over, let's go home." I could only hug her tightly and repeat the comforting words over and over again, and I didn't dare say more.

"Home? Right! An An, we can have a home! She suddenly pushed me away excitedly, picked up the bag at the bedside, hurriedly took out the purse from it, and grabbed me tremblingly, as if she was excited about the biggest thing in her life.

"What's got a home?" I suddenly breathed hard.

"Here, An An, we have money now, my sister has saved enough money for you, it's all in this card, we can buy a house, we can have a home." She pulled out a card from her purse and said with excitement and trembling.

One card......

There was a bang in my head! His face was as white as paper.

And so it was, and so it was......

A card completely pierced the last line of defense in my heart, a card, I went back to the moment when I was a child, my sister was dressed in a mess, but she smiled and handed me the roast chicken, and I took it stupidly at that time.

The same thing happened again, and my hand was already trembling and pinching my sister's arm, glaring at her like crazy.

"Sister, why do you ...... like this?"

She hesitated for a moment, her eyes instantly lost focus for a second, and she looked at me blankly: "An An, we have a home, I can finally have a home......

A family, such a humble request, for our brothers and sisters who depend on each other, is so unclimbable, and even pay the price of blood, why is this!

"I'm your strong sister, I'm fine, An An, I'm fine, you blame me." She wiped her tears tremblingly, saying that she didn't cry, and the tears had already popped out of her eyes.

I directly held her in my arms and said firmly in her ear: "Sister, resign, let's go home, I will support you, I don't need you to work anymore, I don't need anything, I just want my sister." ”

As soon as I resigned, the person in my arms suddenly hugged me, wow, crying loudly, and her emotions collapsed.

All the selfless giving, all the paranoid love, no matter how unbearable, I am not qualified to blame, and no one is qualified to accuse my sister of my family's affection for me.

She was humbled to the earth, but she was higher than the heavens.

Sister, let's go home.

……

"Xianrou resigned, I finished talking to Xue Jiaming, he won't contact Xianrou again." Shen Lingyu wiped the sweat from her forehead and comforted me.

It's the first time I've seen her, a rich lady, but after she got home, she actively helped me tidy up my room and helped my sister move all the things to me.

Too much emotional stimulation made my sister physically and mentally exhausted, and when I got home, I let her sleep for a while.

"Lingling, I want to thank you today." I reached out to help her wipe her sweat, she held my hand, and looked at me with emotion: "Xiao Nuan, in fact, I didn't help you with anything about your sister and brother, all I can do is just accompany you, you lose your temper with me because you have me in your heart, and it's good to be able to accompany you like this." ”

A heartwarming sentence made me feel a little better, and she then reminded: "Let Qianrou recuperate for a while, if Suxin comes, you don't need to tell her." ”

Shen Lingyu is right, no one needs to tell this matter.

Looking at my sister's simple and even pitiful luggage, she finally moved to my house, and we were finally reunited, but our hearts were desolate.

There are eight sufferings in the world: birth, old age, sickness, death, resentment, love and parting, and can't ask for it.

I originally hoped for an ordinary or even mediocre life, but it seemed that I was going through the trials of life's suffering, which made me powerless to hate, because hate also tormented people's hearts. Could it be that the beginning of being adopted by Buddhism is the beginning of Buddhahood?

This Buddha's fate, this torture in the world, I can't walk, I'm just an ordinary body, ordinary wisdom, I can't do enlightenment, I can't see through the red dust.

I feel bad, I miss her.

Maybe it was because of the heart and the pain in her heart, her phone was connected instantly, and I could hear the familiar voice on the phone missing.

"Husband, is it uncomfortable to listen to your voice? Sick? ”

Am I sick? I'm worse than sick.

"Annie, I want to see you." I spoke my thoughts in a weak tone, and I said it bluntly.

"Okay, you wait for me at home."

I was lying in the newly cleaned room, Shen Lingyu left, Su Xin said that there was something to do in the past few days, and the sister who moved in, experienced an emotional breakdown, has been in a deep coma, I covered her with a quilt several times, she didn't have a trace of movement, she was too tired.

In this whirlpool, my closest person, my sister, was also swept in, and there was pain and sorrow together, when will it end?

Before I knew it, there was suddenly a soft body beside me, and she lay silently in my arms, and I smelled the familiar fragrance.

She is the mistress of the house and she has the keys to the house.

"Honey, what's wrong with you? The face is so bad. She hugged her in concern.

I carried her directly into her arms, soft, even elastic, holding her soft little hand, sticking it to her face, and sighing weakly: "My sister moved here and resigned." ”

It should have been a good thing to move here, but all my performances were seen by Diane, and our affectionate tacit understanding, even if she couldn't guess, she knew that something bad had happened to her sister.

She was silent for a while, lowered her head and kissed me, and comforted me gently: "We are a family, no matter what happens, we can rely on each other, husband, your Anne will not leave, she will always be the hostess." ”

Won't leave.

It was like a shot in the arm that lifted my spirits, separation, pain, and I have experienced too many such emotions recently, but Diane gave me firm support and answers.

Maybe this is a tacit understanding.

"The hostess hasn't come back for so long, and the house feels too quiet." I smiled faintly, and when I saw her and her beautiful big eyes, I would always sweep away the haze.

"How quiet is it? Did the rascal miss the hostess? She smiled mischievously, and her smile and love words may be my greatest comfort.

"Think, I think every day, you always beat me and punished me before, and now I want to punish you too." Saying that, I hugged her into my arms and pressed her under her, her face was slightly red, and she shyly held her mouth and said: "Hooligans, I am the boss in the family, you want to break the family rules and bully me?" ”

"Well, the way to punish is to create a voice that belongs to the family." I put my hand in her collar, she didn't stop it, and suddenly looked at me gently: "You've been tired lately, and I've missed you too, but I don't want you to be too tired." ”

I was indeed a little tired, so I put down my hands and lay down beside her, and hugged her to sleep for a while, but she suddenly climbed on top of me and smiled mischievously.

"You're so tired, so I'll do it this time."

My little pink hands unfastened my collar.