Gong Wenxuan expressed his apologies to me, expressed his guilt and regret, expressed his self-blame over the years, and said that he had been living in repentance all these years and was not happy at all.

But I didn't want to hear this, so I said to him impatiently and indifferently: "Your repentance is your business, and your unhappiness is also your business, does it have anything to do with me?" ”

I'm trying to forget about these things, but he's reminding me over and over again.

In my cold words, he finally fell silent, and his face was dejected.

I leaned weakly on the sofa, buried my head in the soft sofa and said coldly, "Get out!" ”

My voice was still hoarse and couldn't make a sound, but I think Gong Wenxuan should be able to hear it.

It was quiet in the room, and I didn't hear him leaving, so I knew he wasn't leaving.

I felt impatient, didn't look at him, and said again, "You go!" ”

"I'm sorry." After saying this to me, he finally left.

Listening to the sound of his departing footsteps, knowing that he had left my house, for fear that he would come back, I jumped up without hesitation and went barefoot to close the door.

Dejectedly, I sat back on the couch and thought about what had happened tonight.

From Li Lu's words, I got an important information, that is, after that incident, after I followed Hua Xu, he seemed to be acting out for me.

I don't know if he was standing up for me, or if it was because of some other reason, or if it was just because we had a similar experience, so it aroused the disgust in his heart, so he punished those people, not for me.

After all, Huaxu wasn't good to me at that time, was it?

It was then that I finally understood why I never saw them again.

I was even glad I didn't see them, because I didn't have the courage to face that person. ad_250_left();

But whether he's standing up for me or not, I'm grateful to him and for what he's done for me.

Over the years, these things have never left in my heart, and I have been cursing them for those people, hoping that they will not die well.

Picking up the phone, I wanted to call and say thank you to Hua Xu, but in the end I still didn't call.

This night, I couldn't sleep all night, I didn't sleep all night.

I didn't want to see Gong Wenxuan again, and I was afraid that Li Lu would come again, so I didn't dare to live alone anymore, so I went to my mother's side with two dark circles under my eyes early the next morning.

Seeing that I was not in good spirits, she asked me worriedly what was wrong.

I shook my head weakly and said I was fine.

After thinking about it, I felt that it was not safe here, and it seemed like I was running away from something, so I said to my mother, "Mom, shall we live in another place?" ”

Hearing my hoarse voice, she frowned and asked me worriedly, "What's wrong with your voice?" Do you have a cold? Have you taken your medicine? ”

With that, she turned around and went through the drawer to get me medicine.

I grabbed her: "I'm fine, Mom, listen to me." ”

I grabbed her arm and told her to stop looking for medicine and listen to me: "Shall we live in a different place?" ”

She wondered me and asked me, "Tell Mom, is there something going on?" ”

I shook my head and didn't plan to say anything, but asked her urgently, "Shall we live in a different place?" ”

Afraid that she would refuse and ask more, I said, "Change places, change environments, and start over, haven't you always hoped that I could start again?" ”

She stared at me for a long time, then finally took my hand and nodded, "Okay, whatever you say is what you say." ”

Hearing my mother say this, I hugged her with emotion: "Mom, you are so good." ”

I think that at the beginning, I bought a house for her to live in, but she didn't want to live or die.

She patted me on the back and sighed, "Although I don't know what happened, if you don't want to say Mom, don't ask, Mom doesn't ask anything else, she just wants you to be happy." ”

I sniffed and nodded with red eyes.

Since Li Lu can find my home, presumably he will also be able to find my mother's place, so I asked my mother not to pack her luggage, and went out directly after packing some changes of clothes.

On the way, we met a neighbor leader and asked us where we were going, and I sent them all away as a tourist.

I didn't drive my own car, I took a taxi.

On the way, I arranged some things for Xiao Zhao, and I asked her to sell my car and house.

Because of what happened last night, I don't want to go back to that house.

Xiao Zhao asked me why, I didn't say much, just told her to let her sell it for me.

Xiao Zhao asked me where I was going, and I said I didn't know yet, I just wanted to leave the house, that place, and some people first.

Seeing that I had no direction myself, Xiao Zhao told me that her home was in a small town in the west of the city, and that she had an aunt who had a house in the town and had never rented it out, and asked me if I wanted to rent it.

I thought this was good, so I immediately answered her.

So Xiao Zhao gave me her aunt's number, and just like that, I went to the town that Xiao Zhao said.

I met with Aunt Zhao at the address she had given, and she took us to the town to see the house.

It was an old house, two floors, just down the street and a shop on the first floor, which had been rented out and opened a fruit shop.

Behind the house is a kindergarten, next door to the kindergarten is the primary school, although the school is not as luxurious as the city, but it looks very good.

Although this house is a little old, this three-bedroom house, a kitchen and a bathroom house is very good, and it has been simply renovated inside, and it is very clean and atmospheric.

When Xiao Zhao's aunt showed us the house, she said, "My eldest son has already got married, and he bought a house in the city, and my younger son also went to the city to go to junior high school, so we also bought the house in the city, and this place is empty." ”

Because of my voice, I nodded and didn't speak, it was my mother talking to Xiao Zhao's aunt.

Xiao Zhao's aunt said that for the sake of us and Xiao Zhao being friends, she wouldn't want such a high rent, six hundred a month.

I think compared to the rent in the city, 600 a month is really cheap, and I want it.

In fact, when I came, I saw it, this town, half a day's drive, far from the city, is not a very developed place, this house is still a little high 600 a month, but I think it is worth it.

And just like that, we stayed here.

From east to west, although it is a city, it is separated by a long distance.

In the afternoon, we bought some belongings and bought all the things that were lacking in the house.

New quilts, new dishes and chopsticks, new curtains, looking at this new room, I feel relieved, and my heart is finally no longer so scared and panicked.

The market was at the back of the building across from us, and in the morning, my mom would buy it and make me breakfast.

Now I don't have to film, I don't have to shoot advertisements, I don't have to rush to catch up with announcements, I live a leisurely life every day, like a rice worm, eating and sleeping, sleeping and eating, or I just go out and wander around.

Although my heart is a little empty and not very happy, I am fat.

After living here for less than a week, my mother, who wasted all her time making soup and cooking, got herself a job as a cook in a kindergarten.

So she got busy, and when she woke up in the morning, she had to go to the vegetable market to buy ingredients, and then go back to the kindergarten kitchen to get busy, and sadly, my lunch was gone.

Eventually, my mom talked to the principal of the kindergarten, and my lunch time turned into eating and drinking in the kindergarten cafeteria.

Some people also said that I looked very similar to a certain star, but I was vague about it.

After all, I had makeup when I was on the screen, but now that I don't have makeup, it's still a little different.

When I was younger, I liked to play the piano, and I studied it for a while, but I didn't know how to do it, and when I quieted down, I remembered it.

I bought a piano and came back and practiced at home every day when I had nothing to do.

But in the past few days, I haven't practiced very well, and I don't know what is wrong with my body, I always feel chest tightness, nausea and want to vomit.

I didn't throw up for days, but today I finally threw up.

The nausea quickly set in, and I threw up uncomfortably as soon as I ran to the bathroom.

After this time, I smelled the smell of oil smoke coming from the kitchen at night, and I couldn't help but vomit again.

I just frowned and thought deeply, my mother walked in with a spatula, and her voice came: "Xiaojing, are you pregnant?" ”

I was stunned for a moment, feeling a little uncertain.

Since the last time Hua Xu saw me taking birth control pills, I didn't take it the next time and the time I was in my apartment that day, first, I didn't care about it, and second, I got sick that night, and when I woke up again, it was several days later.

In fact, I had a guess in my mind long before my mother came in, and I just thought I was not feeling well, and then I started to think about it.

After spitting up, I rinsed my mouth and said, "I don't know." ”

My mom was silent: "Let's go to the hospital tomorrow." ”

After saying this, she walked out of the bathroom without saying anything.

Watching her walk into the kitchen, with her somewhat rickety back, I had mixed feelings.

I know that she should be unhappy and unhappy that I am pregnant.

I was pregnant at this time, and I didn't have to think about it to know whose child it was.

She doesn't like Hua Xu so much, she doesn't like me to have anything to do with him, and she naturally won't be happy that I am pregnant with his child.

My mother and I ate in silence at this dinner, and I looked at her several times, but I couldn't see any emotion when I saw her calm appearance.

I couldn't hold my breath anymore while she was washing the dishes, and I hesitated to cross to the kitchen door and asked, "Mom, if I am really pregnant, will you want me to kill this child?" ”

She didn't speak, but I could clearly see her pause as she washed her hands.

She didn't answer my question directly, nor did she look at me, but just avoided the important and said, "Don't think too much, sleep well tonight, and go to the hospital tomorrow for a check-up, maybe you just ate bad stomach." ”

Her refusal to answer my questions directly, and her behavior, made me feel more and more uncertain.

At night, I lay on the bed with my hands on my stomach, although I hadn't checked it yet, but I seemed to have sensed that there was already a child conceived here, not that my stomach had been spoiled.

Even if I've never been pregnant, I've acted in such a play, and I'm still more or less clear about what happened and how I reacted in this regard, isn't that what I look like at this time?

Thinking of my mother's attitude, I became solemn.

I calmly looked at the ceiling and thought, if I am really pregnant, I will give birth to this child, it has nothing to do with Hua Xu, just because he is my child, I want him, and I will not abandon him.

After coming here for a month, I felt very calm, I never saw Hua Xu again, and Gong Wenxuan and Li Lu seemed to have disappeared from my life.

Xiao Zhao came to see me twice, and brought some news from that city.

Regarding the audit, Huaxu's company found out the problem, but in the end, Xiao Zhao did not give me the final news.

Maybe I was scared, maybe I was worried, but I had mixed feelings, I wanted to know the final result, and I was afraid to know the final result.

Therefore, I didn't deliberately inquire or pay attention to the affairs of Huaxu Company, I don't know if we can meet again, I think that in the near future, Xiao Zhao will finally tell the final result.

The next morning, my mother took me to the town health center for a check-up, and sure enough, I was pregnant, just over a month old.

For this sudden little life, it did not bring us joy, but more heaviness.

My mom was silent, and in the silence, I took the courage to say, "Mom, I want this child, he is mine, my own." ”

I had red eyes and pleaded with my mom with such words, hoping that she would not object, that she would support me.

My life has been broken and rotten, and I want to pick up something beautiful and worth remembering.