I took Angel to a nearby convenience store, bought a lot of snacks and beer, and drove to the top floor of a building.

I jumped on the guardrail, sat down on the guardrail, patted the empty seat next to me and said to Angel, "Do you dare to sit up?" ”

Angel came to the guardrail and looked, the cars and pedestrians passing through the city below all turned into miniatures, I smiled again and asked Angel, "Do you dare to come up?" ”

Angel didn't answer, but handed me her hand, and I pulled her up the guardrail as well, and we looked at each other and smiled, and together we blew the wind howling by, overlooking the city full of emptiness and glitz, drowning in the night!

Under the guardrail is a huge billboard of Maxwell, and neon lights flicker alternately around the billboard, shaking the city in front of us even more blurred and illusory.....

I tore open a can of beer and handed it to Angel, I tore another can myself, took a sip of it, but asked Angel next to me softly: "So high, are you afraid?" ”

Angel looked down again, shook her head, and as I took a sip of beer, the wind that had stopped rose again, blowing our hair messy!

I looked into the distance at night, my emotions seemed to be empty, at this moment I was not sad or happy, I said to Angel in the most indifferent tone: "In this city, I have experienced setbacks in love, failures in career, and lows in life..... Some people bully me for being incompetent, some people laugh at me for being a waste, yes! I'm incompetent and waste, I've struggled for years, but I can't get myself a tiny house in this city full of skyscrapers! Many times, I was dazed, miserable, lonely, but there was nowhere to vent, so I fell in love with the wind and the wine here...... Sometimes I even think, just drunk like mud, falling from this high altitude, even if I fall to pieces, I Zhang Yixi earned it! At least you die unconsciously, and you don't have to care about the contemptuous eyes of others......."

Angel looked at me, her beautiful eyes flashed with surprise, she may never have thought: Zhang Yixi, who seems to be stinky and poor, seems optimistic, and is often bored, has such a side!

I drank all the beer in the bottle, and then continued: "Since the day we were born, we can't choose gender, appearance, height, family environment, living environment, but when to die, this kind of choice, I'm not happy, I'm not happy, then I'll die, as long as you want to die, no one will stop you, but in fact, we don't even have the right to choose death, because we will be saddled with a coward, no sense of responsibility notorious, people, never live for themselves!" Since you can't die, then you have to live secretly, but even if you live secretly, you have to give yourself a little thought, right? ”

After I finished speaking, I looked at Angel, who agreed with my deviant words, she nodded, and asked, "Then what are your thoughts?" ”

"My thoughts? My dream is to have my own house in this city...... Tell you, I'm going to have the house of my dreams soon, but I'm not happy, do you know why? ”

Angel shook her head and said, "I don't know ......"

"Of course you don't know, because we have never stood in the same place to see the scenery of this world, you know, the scenery in my Zhang Yixi's eyes is all gray tones, and it is not gray only at night, because it is all dark!" I said and tore open a can of beer, drank half of it in one sip, and then said slowly: "The house is there, which means that my thoughts are gone, and I have to go to the next thought with all my heart, I am tired, but I am afraid of the emptiness after the thought, I can only grit my teeth to look for it, but except to find vanity, indifference, misunderstanding, and oppression, I have found nothing......"

"Is it because you want too much?" Angel asked me softly.

"I never dare to ask for too much, just wait for how much the world will give me." I flatly denied Angel's claim, in fact, I didn't want much, just a thought that would allow me to continue to live! But this thought seems so unattainable now!

After a long silence, I finally said to Angel: "I'm done venting, it's your turn....."

"I don't need to .....vent," Angel replied softly, but drank all the beer in the can.

"No one doesn't need to vent, you believe me, when venting is done, you will be happy!"

An Qi smiled with a blank look on her face and said, "Then you vented so much, are you happy now?" ”

"Well, happy, I'm waiting for you, when you're done, we'll all be happy, how complete!" I said with a look of anticipation.

Angel looked at me, but the wind blew at a sudden and she subconsciously closed her eyes, until the wind blew, she said slowly: "Today is my birthday, and it is also the third year that I have celebrated my birthday alone." ”

"Three years! You've been celebrating your birthday alone for three years? What about your family and friends? I asked, surprised.

Angel looked bitter, she didn't speak, but tore open a can of beer and drank it.

"Look, the wind is so free, why can't you vent it freely?" I felt the wind howling by and said to the silent Angel.

An Qi smiled again and said, "Actually, I don't need to vent, I'm happy at the moment, so we're all happy now!" ”

I asked with a suspicious look on my face, "Are you sure that you are happy with so many unhappiness and so many complaints hidden in your heart?" ”

"I'm sure!"

"Why is your happiness so easy?"

Angel looked at me and said with a smile, "You're happy, so I'm happy!" ”

"Come on, do we have such a deep friendship? I think the reason why you are reluctant to vent is because you are afraid that I will know your secret, or your secret is too perverted to speak, so you dare not vent in front of me! ”

"Hey, Zhang Yixi, when you say that, you are deliberately revenge for the last time I said that you were a pervert, right?" Angel patted me and said.

"That's right, I just want to know your perverted secrets, so I'll have balance in my heart!"

"Villain!" Angel glared at me and said. The topic of venting unhappiness, but so inadvertently, was brought over by her, and when I realized it, I couldn't talk about the topic again, in desperation, I had to believe that we are all happy at the moment, because Angel and I have returned to the rhythm of getting along, although we belittle each other, but there is no lack of laughter.

......

"Zhang Yixi, why are you going to buy a house so soon, do you have a girlfriend?" Angel asked me suddenly.

I sighed and said, "This matter is complicated, Chen Qingyi, do you remember?" ”

"Of course I do." Angel's face changed slightly before she said.

"Here's the thing, two days ago, my grandfather was critically ill and hospitalized, and the old man always hoped that I would get married as soon as possible, so I took Chen Qingyi ..... "I patiently told Anqi the beginning and end of this matter.

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