When a little nurse came over, she also saw people standing in the courtyard, so she quietly asked me, "Are you from the underworld?" I shook my head and said, "No, what's wrong?" The little nurse said, "No, it's just scary to see you." I wondered even more: "Why? "I wonder if these people are not doing anything wrong in the hospital. The little nurse said: "I don't know dào, but I feel that you are different from others, and you have that feeling of not being angry and arrogant, which makes people respect and fear." ”

I didn't expect that I would be described as "not angry and self-righteous", if I usually laughed out loud, but now I feel quite helpless. The little nurse said, "It's time for the visitation in a moment, so let's see who goes in, or only three people." I looked at Qi Siyu who was kneeling at the door and said, "Let's let her in." "This is the last chance. Whether Ye Zhan can wake up or not, success or failure is here. Ye Zhan's parents next to him gasped slightly, obviously starting to get nervous.

When the time came, when the three of them went inside, Ye Mu's legs shook and she almost fell to the ground. With the support of Qi Siyu and Ye's father, Ye's mother stood up again. The three of them walked in together, and the door to the monitoring room slammed shut. An hour, only an hour of time. If Ye Zhan doesn't wake up, we won't be able to hear his voice or smile anymore.

At the moment when the door closed, the emotions that had been pent up for a few days suddenly exploded. I looked restless, got up and paced down the hallway, and began to think about a question I had never thought of before. If Ye Zhan really can't wake up, what will he do in the future? I looked out the window, and they were all still standing motionless in the yard, everyone waiting for this critical moment.

The attending doctor who operated on Ye Zhan before also came over and asked me why I didn't go in to visit, and I said that another friend had gone in. The attending doctor sat on the row of chairs, sighed, and said, "I'll wait a while to see if a miracle is possible." I hurriedly asked, "Doctor, is there any precedent for waking up at the last minute?" The doctor said, "Of course there are, but there are very few cases, and it still depends on the patient's own physical fitness and will to survive." "I thought to myself, Ye Zhan's physical fitness is not bad, he even survived such a serious injury before, and now he refuses to wake up because his will to survive is not strong enough?

If that's the case, then why doesn't Ye Zhan want to wake up? I was lost in thought, what was he running away from? Such a sunny and kind boy should be full of enthusiasm for life, but when he began to escape from this world, why? I asked the doctor next to me, "Did the last patients wake up say what was going on in their minds when they were unconscious?" "Theoretically, their brains don't want anything, and their nerve centers under the cerebral cortex are severely damaged and they completely lose their autonomous consciousness," the doctor said. I was particularly speechless and said, "What about the real jì on?" ”

"I remember a patient who was in a car accident told me that his last impression before he fell unconscious was when he saw the truck with its snow-white headlights coming towards him, and then he didn't know anything," the doctor said. So I thought that this patient's reluctance to wake up was probably a harm to see the truck with its snow-white headlights again, which was simply an escape from reality and a state of self-preservation. It's like when we wake up after a nightmare, you deliberately stop going to sleep, drink water, watch TV, etc., to prevent yourself from falling into that nightmare again. And these people who have been seriously injured and passed out in a coma, even after the surgery, are still unable to wake up, they are in a state of self-protection, and they see the scene of being hurt again. ”

I nodded, probably understanding what the doctor meant. When did Ye Zhan pass into a coma? Beaten up in the classroom by those bastard students, or hung by them over the lecture hall? If you beat him, there should be nothing that a student like Ye Zhan who has been fighting since childhood can't bear shòu, that is, when he is hung above the lecture hall, four or five hundred students laugh around him, and that kind of pressure should not be something that ordinary people can bear. According to this doctor's analysis, Ye Zhan was afraid to wake up and see this kind of scene again, so he didn't want to wake up. I asked him again, "How can we tell the patient that the danger has passed, and that he can wake up boldly and with confidence?" ”

The doctor shook his head: "If I knew dào, I don't know how many vegetative people I would have woken up......"

I said with some indignation: "Ye Xian is not a vegetative person yet!" It's not the last minute, so you can't just jump to conclusions! ”

"Good, good." The doctor said, "It's not a vegetative state yet." But what does it mean for you to know that the nerve centers under the cerebral cortex are severely damaged, that the ability to consciousness, the ability to think, the ability to hear, and the ability to hear are all lost, completely cut off from the world...... Hey, why am I talking to you so much? Don't talk about it, it's the seventh day, and there's basically no hope. ”

I was even more indignant: "You have been doing this for a long time, are you all very numb?" ”

"What doctor is not willing to save the patients in his hands?" The doctor let out a long sigh.

I was stunned for a moment, with mixed feelings in my heart.

As the minutes ticked by, and five minutes before the visitation was over, I was almost suffocating with nervousness. The doctor also rubbed his hands together from time to time, hoping that the visit would be miraculous. My fists were clenched, and I didn't dare to have the slightest thought of "what if Ye Zhan couldn't wake up" in my mind. Ye Zhan will definitely wake up, he will!

I only heard a "click", and the door to the monitoring room finally opened. The doctor and I stood up at the same time and looked nervously into the door. Ye Zhan's parents and Qi Siyu walked out, their eyes were red and swollen, and their faces were full of despair and helplessness. I immediately understood what was going on, but I still had a little bit of hope in my heart, just a little bit, a little bit. I asked tremblingly, "How is Ye Zhan?" Father Ye shook his head and sighed, and a middle-aged man choked silently. And Ye Mu stumbled and fell directly to the ground. "Auntie!" Qi Siyu cried and shouted to help her. Mother Ye patted the floor with her hand and cried bitterly: "My hard-working son...... Father Ye squatted on the ground and wiped his tears, it was really desperate.

My heart had sunk to the bottom, as if the whole world had lost its color. I trembled to the door of the intensive care unit and fell to my knees without a word, tears rolling down my cheeks. There is no hope, there is no hope!

God, do you really not want a miracle to happen? I rubbed against the door of the custody room, I couldn't cry anymore, I only attended Yang Mengying's funeral yesterday, and today I got the bad news that Ye Zhan will never wake up again. God, how the hell are you going to torture me to get it done? I banged my head on the door of the intensive care unit, and I didn't feel any pain at all, it was far from the pain in my heart.

God, what do you want me to do to let such a kind boy go?

I'm willing to kneel down for a long time, and change him with a warm smile, how, how?

Tears were rolling down my face, I've cried so many times these days, and I've never been so desperate as I am now.

Several nurses told us not to be too upset, but no one listened to them, and they were all crying in despair. And they in the courtyard still don't know dào, Ye Zhan will never wake up.

"Don't be too upset." The doctor sighed and said, "According to our professor, it is that vegetative people live in the safest place they have built themselves, and no one can harm them in any way. It can be said that they like that place and feel happy to live there, so they don't want to wake up. If you want to open some, he lives happily and happily in another world, otherwise he would have woken up a long time ago. ”

When Ye Zhan's parents heard these words, their cries were a little quieter. Yes, isn't it a good thing for Ye Zhan to live in a place where he thinks he is happy and safe? Then the doctor said, "The world he has built must be more beautiful than this world." You should be happy for him, because he will no longer have sorrows, troubles, or ......sorrows."

Hearing this, my heart suddenly trembled, the world that can make Ye Zhan reluctant to wake up, is ...... Be......

I stood up and said tremblingly, "Doctor, can you let me in again?" ”

The doctor looked at me suspiciously and said, "No, the hospital has a rule that you can only visit at the allowed time." ”

I walked over, desperately suppressing my emotions, and said, "Doctor, please, let me go in once, I want to talk to him again, maybe ...... Maybe......" I don't dare to say the words behind "maybe", I'm afraid that Ye Zhan's parents will have hope after hearing it, and if their hope is disappointed in the end, it will hit them too hard.

"This ......" the doctor was still a little embarrassed.

"Please!" I knelt down in front of the doctor, tears welling up again: "After today, he's completely vegetative, isn't he?" Let me talk to him again, please, please! ”

"Hey, don't." The doctor immediately helped me up: "Go in, go in, you can't kneel." Alas, then you go and go back quickly, if something happens, I can't take responsibility. Then he beckoned a nurse next to him and asked her to take me in.

In the cubicle in the intensive care unit, I put on a mask, a hat, a disposable sterile gown, and shoe covers, and walked tremblingly towards Ye Zhan's hospital bed. The ventilator was still operating steadily, and Ye Zhan's eyes were still closed, and his face was pale.

"Ye Zhan......" I called softly, bent down, knelt down in front of his bed, looked at his face, and said, "Can you hear my voice?" I'm Wang Hao. Ye Zhan was motionless, completely unresponsive, and seemed to have been isolated from this world.

"Ye Zhan, I know that you can hear me." I breathed heavily, but I was able to soften my voice: "Besides, I know where you are." I've been to that place too, right? ”

Ye Zhan was still motionless. I followed xù and said, "In front of you is the blue, calm, endless sea, and under your feet are white flowers and soft sand. The sun is shining warmly on you, the breeze is gently brushing your cheeks, the whole world is empty, and you are the only one here. You can sing, run and jump here, and no one can hurt you anymore, and no one can come near you anymore. Isn't that right, are you in a place like this? ”

It was hot in the ICU and I was sweating after a while. Ye Zhan still didn't react, and I said, "You hid here alone, did you forget me?" Didn't you say, I'm the one you trust in the world? I've been looking for you for a long, long time, riding the wind and waves, wading through mountains and rivers. Ye Zhan, did you see it? The lonely boat on the ocean, I stepped on the deck of that boat, and was riding the wind steadily towards you. Ye Zhan, you can avoid everyone, but you can't avoid me. ”

"Ye Zhan, you said that we would be good brothers for life, so how could you leave me alone and hide here? Now I'm on the shore and gently jumping off the beach. Ye Zhan, look at me, I searched for a long time to find you. How happy am I now, don't you want to talk to me? ”

"Ye Zhan, talk to me. I am your best brother in this world, and I am willing to bear all the hardships and sorrows with you......" I stared at Ye Zhan nervously. I don't know if it will work if it will work, but I will have to give it a try.

"Ye Zhan, I'm so tired, I've been adrift at sea for seven days and seven nights, just to find you and talk to you. Don't you want to ignore me? You sit on the beach, enjoying the sun and the breeze, don't you want to share these with me? ”

"Hmm......" Ye Zhan's mouth suddenly moved. My heart suddenly sped up several times faster!

"You...... Want to eat coconut? Ye Zhan said softly.

Tears welled up in my eyes, my blood boiled all over my body, and my hands and feet even trembled.

I couldn't wait to say, "Eat, of course." I will eat as much as you pick for me, and if you have the ability, you will support me to death! ”