Chapter 18 There is no way to go
"Uncle Xia, you have something to say." Huo Tianyu's tone was steady, but Qin Mengshi saw the two hands on his thighs and tightened slightly. It seems that he really believes in Uncle Xia's hexagram.
Xia Chuan sighed, "You are not the first couple I counted, but it is the first time that I hope that my hexagram is not accurate. In the past, this good fate and bad fate can be understood by my hexagram. But today, I counted it twice, but it's still hard to determine. I didn't want to put a burden on you by saying it, but I decided to tell you that I hope that in the future, if you really encounter any difficult difficulties, you will think about today and think about your determination today. Right and wrong, it's all in one thought. ”
Qiushui interrupted Xia Chuan, "Old man, tell me the result quickly, I'm going to die in a hurry." ”
"The life trajectory of the two of you has too many entanglements, and it has long been entangled together. It is difficult to judge which is right and which is wrong. Everything is too much, the fate between you is too deep, love and hatred, grievances and grievances, the further you go, the more messy it becomes. When everything comes to light, it's up to your own hearts to decide where to go. ”
Qin Mengshi didn't want to get married to Huo Tianyu so soon, originally Xia Chuan's words gave Qin Mengshi a very good reason, if she refused to hold the wedding so soon, I believe Huo Tianyu would not say anything. But hearing Xia Chuan's words, Qin Mengshi's first reaction was not to be happy, and her heart sank for no reason.
The chaotic heart made Qin Mengshi forget to think about how early Xia Chuan's sentence "The trajectory of life has long been entangled".
Qin Mengshi didn't know why she was so upset. Until she returned home, Qin Mengshi still didn't say a word, because she didn't know what to say. Along the way, Huo Tianyu didn't ask Qin Mengshi anything, because he knew that no matter what Qin Mengshi said, he would not cancel the wedding. It's better to keep your mouth shut than to break up unhappily.
In fact, Huo Tianyu didn't know why he was so stubborn and why he had to marry Qin Mengshi.
Love? Love.
After all, since he met her as a teenager, he has never forgotten it, and after looking for her for so many years, he just wanted to give her happiness and give her a home she longed for the most.
But is this love between a man and a woman?
Before that night, the little girl in his memory, Huo Tianyu never had the idea of marrying her. He just wanted to be good to her, and as for which kind of good, he didn't think about it. After that night, they had a relationship, of course he was responsible for her, and the best way to be responsible was to get married, and he would take care of her for the rest of his life.
Since they are husband and wife, he kisses her, hugs her, spoils her, and eats the wrong and domineering, all of which should be. But is this all from love, or because she is the girl she used to be. Huo Tianyu didn't want to think about it, the result was the same anyway, wasn't it? Whatever the reason, she is his, and he will be good to her, and that is enough.
Qin Mengshi didn't know that Huo Tianyu was the boy who lived in her house when she was a child, but she could feel that everything Huo Tianyu did to her, all the good, was not because of his indispensable love. That's why Qin Mengshi panicked and wanted to escape, because it was good for no reason, and she was afraid that one day she would suddenly disappear. I'm afraid that one day the reason behind this will be revealed, and it is a situation that she can't accept.
I'm afraid that one day her moth will sink into the fire, but he will leave intact.
These are what Qin Mengshi understood after listening to Xia Chuan's words today. It turned out that this was the reason why she didn't want to marry Huo Tianyu, not because she was afraid of being imprisoned, but because she didn't dare to touch love easily.
remembered Huo Tianyu's sentence when he left, "No matter what happens in the future, she is the wife I recognize, and she will not change from the beginning to the end." ”
Qin Mengshi decided that she couldn't go on like this anymore, she had to make it clear to Huo Tianyu. Because there is no woman who has no expectations for love, and no woman will willingly accept an inexplicable marriage.
"Huo Tianyu, let's talk."
Huo Tianyu raised his head in the newspaper, looked at Qin Mengshi at the door, thought for two seconds, folded the newspaper and said lightly: "Come in." ”
Qin Mengshi walked inside while raising her eyes to look at the furnishings in the room, "This is the first time I've entered your study." ”
"How does it feel?"
"Well, like the scripture pavilion in the temple in the TV series, the strong smell of books is blowing in my face, and I dare not approach it a little!" Qin Mengshi stuck out her tongue.
It's not that she is exaggerating, it's Huo Tianyu who has arranged the study in an antique way, just like entering the study of an ancient famous nobleman, and the European-style decoration of the living room are completely two extremes.
Qin Mengshi doesn't understand wood, but she can smell the fragrance of plants and trees, there are seven or eight rows of dark red bookcases, only the first row of books, "Sun Tzu's Art of War", "Zizhi Tongjian", "Twenty-four History", etc., Qin Mengshi has only seen it in bookstores, and has never opened it. For her, these things were too obscure, too esoteric, for her to understand.
Huo Tianyu smiled, "It's just that there are too many books, how can they be as sacred as you say." ”
"Have you read all these books?" Qin Mengshi sat down on the solid wood chair opposite Huo Tianyu and looked at Huo Tianyu with a wink.
Somehow, Huo Tianyu's "half" to his mouth, after the exit, it became "probably." ”
While spitting on his lying behavior in his heart, he accepted Qin Mengshi's worship without changing his face. Huo Tianyu found out for the first time that he could still be so shameless.
"You're amazing!"
My mother told Qin Mengshi since she was a child that girls should read more, books can calm their hearts and boost their spirits. Books can teach people a lot of truths, life is too short, when you can't travel thousands of miles, you have to read thousands of books, and books will make a girl have a proud backbone. Even if you are poor, no matter how many temptations there are, you can see the sunshine and find your way forward.
Qin Mengshi has always believed in her mother's words, because she can feel from her mother's body what it means to have poetry and books in her belly, and the most important thing is that the fragrance of books can go far. It's a pity that she couldn't fulfill her mother's wish to be a bookish girl.
She reads a lot of books, but she can be wise, but she has few pitiful.
The more admiration in Qin Mengshi's eyes, the more uncomfortable Huo Tianyu became, and quickly changed the topic, "What do you want to talk about?" ”
Who knew that as soon as these words came out, Qin Mengshi's expression, which was still relaxed just now, immediately tensed. Huo Tianyu regretted it a little, since Qin Mengshi had forgotten, he shouldn't have mentioned it.
After thinking about it for a long time, Qin Mengshi still opened her mouth euphemistically, "How long have you known Uncle Xia and Aunt Qiu?" I can see that you have a good relationship. ”
"It's been a long time, it should have been twenty years, and they treat me like their own son."
"Don't they have children?" Qin Mengshi was puzzled, it seemed that she hadn't heard them mention a word about the second old child today.
"Yes, he was the same age as me, but died five years ago." Now that he mentions this matter, Huo Tianyu is no longer so sad. The feelings are still there, but they are buried in the bottom of their hearts, and they will not be exposed again.
Sacrifice? It turned out that Uncle Xia and Aunt Qiu were the hero's family.
Referring to Huo Tianyu's sadness, Qin Mengshi felt a little guilty, "I'm sorry, are Uncle Xia and Aunt Qiu living so far away because of this?" ”
Although the environment and air there are very good, after all, it is sparsely populated, and the two old people are old, even if they are tough, it is difficult to guarantee that there will be no emergencies. Qin Mengshi thinks that with Huo Tianyu's relationship with the second elder, he should not let it go, but will take the second elder to take care of it.
"Buried there in the summer. I'll tell you about him slowly when I have a chance in the future. Huo Tianyu knew that Qin Mengshi came to him at night, and he definitely didn't want to know about Uncle Xia's family.
If you want to explain the summer things clearly, it is inevitable to mention the car accident, as well as the events after the car accident, Huo Tianyu felt that now was not the best time to let Qin Mengshi know, so he decided to find a chance to tell Qin Meng in the future.
Qin Mengshi nodded, although she still had a lot of questions, but obviously Huo Tianyu didn't want to tell her now, she understood. Recalling a sad thing is to tear a scar once, and she can't force others to tear the wound open to show her.
"Actually, I want to ask you, do you believe what Uncle Xia said?"
Huo Tianyu stared at a pen on the table and paused for a moment before speaking, "I believe it." ”
"Then you still ......" Qin Mengshi didn't say the next words, but she believed that Huo Tianyu could understand.
Huo Tianyu didn't answer Qin Mengshi's question, but asked rhetorically, "What are you afraid of?" ”
Qin Mengshi was originally quite nervous, but after hearing this question, she smiled, "Aren't you afraid?" Yes, life is unpredictable and unpredictable, and I don't know which one will come first, tomorrow or the accident. But I was not afraid, because no one had told me about the dangers that might come in the future. Huo Tianyu, if a doctor tells me that you will definitely get a tumor in the future, malignant or benign, it all depends on how you take care of your body. In the days to come, even if I live the healthiest life, I will still think crankily every day, I will be afraid that I will not do enough, I will be afraid that I will be unlucky enough to be caught up by me with only one in a thousand bad chances, I am afraid of ......"
"Don't say it, I understand." Huo Tianyu spoke up to stop Qin Mengshi's words, "I'm sorry, I just wanted to pick a good day, but I didn't expect it to bring you so much pressure." Do you know why I believe in Uncle Xia's hexagram so much? Because five years ago, before the summer mission, Uncle Xia calculated a hexagram for the summer. ”
Qin Mengshi looked at Huo Tianyu, she suddenly didn't want to listen to Huo Tianyu, but Huo Tianyu's melancholy voice still got into her ears.
"Because the hexagram shows that there is no way to go."