is affectionate, which is vividly displayed in this sentence.

She doesn't need to be rotten, she doesn't care about eternity, she doesn't ask for any vows and returns, she just gives everything for the people she loves.

She doesn't even care about her career, just to help him.

"I'm married, and I don't want a divorce." Zhang Wending said this, and then, the rest of the words were swallowed in his stomach.

He felt that he had said it very clearly, and he had said it too cruelly, and there was no way to say the rest of his words.

"I know." Bai Shanshan smiled again, "Look, I'm just afraid that you won't see me, so I didn't dare to make an appointment at the hotel, nor did I dare to make an appointment to meet at my home." ”

Without waiting for Zhang Wending to answer, she continued: "Actually, I don't want to get married at all. Before...... Forget it, let's not talk about the past. Anyway, since you helped me get rid of him that time, I know that I will never fall in love with any other man in my life except for you. ”

Zhang Wending knew that what she said was that when she was in Suijiang, she was subjected to domestic violence, and then, it was he who came forward to help her withstand the pressure, and recommended her to Mu Hibiscus as a secretary, and then she was out of control.

It's just, what is this!

You Bai Shanshan is my old subordinate, when it comes to things, I don't make decisions for you, who will be the masters for you? Don't say that your ex-boyfriend's mother is only the deputy director of the Suijiang City Tourism Bureau, and his father is only the deputy director of the Suijiang City People's Congress, even if they are all big names in the province, I have to help you get ahead!

"You're grateful, not emotional." Zhang Wending was powerless to defend himself.

"You think it's gratitude, I think it's feelings." Bai Shanshan nodded, "Perhaps, there is a sense of gratitude in it, but I still have a clear understanding of my feelings." You're too good to me, and you're so good that if you compare you to any man in the future, you'll compare him to you, and then, basically, it's over before you even start. ”

This is a very rational analysis.

Zhang Wending had no way to refute this analysis, so he could only smile bitterly: "Life is not for comparing with others." If I really want to compare myself with others everywhere, I am also inferior to others everywhere! ”

"It's true that life is not meant to be compared to others." Bai Shanshan nodded and said, "According to what you say, that relationship is not analyzed with reason. I like you, this has nothing to do with reason, I just like you. ”

Well, Zhang Wending felt that he was trapped by what he had just said.

Seeing that Zhang Wending didn't speak, Bai Shanshan said again: "Why don't you accept me?" Is there only one more of me? ”

Zhang Wending understood the meaning of this statement.

Bai Shanshan knew that he Zhang Wending had several women, so he didn't say much about her, but he didn't say it explicitly.

"I don't want to lose your friend." Zhang Wending didn't dare to look at her eyes, and his words were a little weak.

"Do you think that after having a relationship, two people can't be friends?" Bai Shanshan snorted coldly, "I don't know where you heard this fallacy. I won't pester you, and even when there's nothing to do, I won't look for you, we can be a couple and friends, and there are more elements of being friends. ”

"I can't be that selfish." Zhang Wending said, "You will have your life in the future, you will have your own marriage, you will have your own family, and you will have ......."

"Enough!" Bai Shanshan suddenly interrupted Zhang Wending's words, and her emotions became a little excited, "Others, aren't you afraid of disturbing their lives, their marriages, their families?" Can you be selfish with them? Can't be selfish to me? ”

Zhang Wending didn't expect Bai Shanshan to suddenly break out, and he couldn't answer any of these questions.

There are some questions that don't need to be answered.

She just needs to vent her emotions that have been suppressed for too long.

Seeing that Zhang Wending didn't speak, Bai Shanshan's mood eased slightly, and then said faintly: "It's not that you can't be selfish, you are very selfish." You are so selfish that you don't care about my feelings at all because you are afraid that we won't be friends in the future, and you only care about your own feelings. ”

Zhang Wending was speechless.

From this point of view, he is indeed selfish enough.

"......" Zhang Wending opened his mouth, wanting to admit that he was selfish, but in the end he didn't say anything.

Now in this situation, no matter what she says, it will stimulate her, so she can only say nothing and let her calm down her emotions.

Judging from Bai Shanshan's experience, Zhang Wending believes that her emotions will soon calm down.

However, Zhang Wending guessed wrong.

Bai Shanshan's mood was not only not calm, but was about to collapse.

She bit her lip, the resentful look on her face gradually disappeared, replaced by sadness and fear, her teeth couldn't bite her lips anymore, tears dripped from her eyes, and her voice choked up: "If you don't come today, I'm going to go to Burning Wings tomorrow...... I'm so scared. I'm so afraid that something will happen to you this time, I'm so scared...... I just want to see you......"

Speaking of this, she couldn't go on anymore, and cried vigorously, crying very suppressively.

Zhang Wending wanted to hold her in his arms and comfort her, but his body was motionless.

He just looked at her, not speaking, his eyes full of pain.

He told himself that he couldn't take her into his arms now, and once he hugged her, then she would make a few requests, and even if they lived together tonight, he would not be able to refuse.

However, he was scolding himself in his heart, was he too cruel to Bai Shanshan?

Did she take such a big risk to see herself, and she was stingy with even a comfort?

Fortunately, Bai Shanshan only cried for about ten seconds before she stopped crying, and then raised her eyes to look at the upper reaches of the river, quiet like a sculpture.

Zhang Wending could feel her sadness, a pain in his heart, and finally couldn't help it, sighed lightly, grabbed one of her hands, and said, "You're right, I shouldn't be selfish." ”

Bai Shanshan came back to her senses, looked at him, and didn't speak.

Zhang Wending met her gaze and said again: "I shouldn't be selfish. It's all up to you. ”

The muscles on Bai Shanshan's face began to beat, her lips began to tremble, and then, the tears that had been stopped slipped down again, and her nose kept shrinking.

"Okay, stop crying." Zhang Wending wiped tears from her face with his other hand.

Bai Shanshan tilted her head and let go, her tears were still flowing, but the expression on her face was already smiling: "Who is crying, there is sand in my eyes." ”

Zhang Wending couldn't cry or laugh: "This blue sky is thousands of miles, the river water is clear, where does the sand come from?" ”

Bai Shanshan: "You care so much, that's what the heroine of the TV series says when she cries......"