Chapter 5 Sense of Security (2)
He stretched out his arm, hugged her waist tightly, his lips were close to her ear, and whispered, "Why don't we give birth to one?" ”
An Nianchu shook her head, although she didn't know why she mentioned the topic of children just now, but there was still a shadow about children in her heart, which was the first flesh and blood to flow from her body, and she would feel distressed when she thought about it.
"I see you like the way children look like children."
"I didn't expect so much just now, and I'm still young, so it's too early to be a mother now."
Qin Muchen put her head on his shoulder, "An An, I know why you are sad, I was also sad to let you miscarry that time, and I won't in the future." ”
An Nianchu closed his eyes and didn't say a word, but he still hugged him tightly.
How much she loved to keep that child, to have a little connection between them, but she never told him about it. The moment the child left her body, she really felt that a piece of flesh and blood in her body was cut off, and she couldn't forget the bloody and painful picture.
She looked up at Qin Muchen, it was the man in front of her who made her experience everything, but relying on him, she would feel very relieved, she would feel very warm, and even the painful pictures that always appeared in front of her eyes before were very rare now.
"What to do? Can't eat anymore? This was the first meal you'd worked so hard to cook for me. ”
Qin Muchen hugged her to the bed and kissed her forehead, "When you want to eat, I'll make it for you." If you're sad, close your eyes and sleep for a while. Do you need me to hold you? ”
"Where am I so weak, go and do your business, I know you have a lot of work."
An Nianchu closed his eyes, but he couldn't sleep. There were already a lot of taboos between them, as if they touched, she was like a hedgehog, Rao was by her side, she felt like she was being scalded by boiling water, and she was in pain.
But she has to learn to forget, but she has to learn to erase the pain in her heart, because she doesn't want him to always see her painful side. Since she has chosen to be by his side, how can she always show a painful expression, she should be happy and happy with him, shouldn't she?
She should be happy, she should smile.
When I woke up, it was dawn. An Nianchu didn't know when she fell asleep, just looking at the empty room, she suddenly felt tired, this was the first time in this time that she opened her eyes and couldn't see Qin Muchen.
She listened attentively to the movement in the room, but it was silent, and she was suddenly frightened. After enjoying the sweetness, she always worried that it was a dream, and when she woke up from the dream, she was still alone, as if now, she sat up against the edge of the bed and looked at the empty room alone.
With a silent sigh, she closed her eyes and smiled wryly.
She felt that she was beginning to suffer from gains and losses, although she had known that there would be such a result, after all, he had his job, and Rao had been by her side for a while before, but just like she had her own schoolwork, he also had his own work to be busy, which was a fact that could not be changed, how could she think that they would be healed again, and he would completely change the pace of life?
She's a fool, she knows it's going to be like this, but she still has expectations, and she deserves to be disappointed. In the past, she could be with him all day long, because she worked in the same place during the day, but now, she is no longer his employee, but a student, her mission is to study hard, and his mission is to work hard. But she still wanted to see him as soon as she opened her eyes, or she wanted to be with him all the time.
I'm so tired, why does she feel so tired just after waking up?
Because her tiredness is not physical, but psychological, for him, she obviously doesn't want to ask too much, but as long as he is good to her, she will want to covet him very well. Love is supposed to be sweet, but she always has bitter feelings.
Maybe she shouldn't have given him a chance before, in that case, she wouldn't ask for so much, she wouldn't always think about greedy for his good, now she is so sensitive that she can't do it, and a little thing can touch her heart. That way, she wouldn't be so upset.
Tears unconsciously slipped down the corners of his eyes, condensing into waves of heat.
She didn't feel like crying, but why couldn't she stop crying?
Hate to cry, she reached out to wipe the tears from the corners of her eyes.
Suddenly, she heard the sound of the door unlocking in the living room, and she was stunned for a moment, and she climbed up from the bed and sat up suspiciously.
Who? Is that him?
An Nianchu turned his head and glanced at the alarm clock next to the bedside - nine :15.
At this time, he should have already arrived at the company, how could he come back? Is it because you forgot to bring something and turned back halfway to get it?
After making sure that all the tears on her face had been wiped away, she got up and got out of bed and was about to walk outside the door to take a look, but before she could reach the door, the door was opened first, and Qin Muchen, who was wearing a light suit, suddenly appeared in front of her.
She froze, but he smiled warmly at her.
"Awake? I just came back from buying breakfast and it was just right to eat it while it was hot. He walked over to her, then bowed his head and kissed her, then took her hand and walked out of the room.
An Nianchu let him take her away in a daze, her head was blank, completely useless, until he sat on the sofa, stuffed a xiaolongbao between her hands, and her head slowly regained the function of thinking.
Seeing him in casual clothes, his hair was still curled up from sleeping, and his leisurely posture didn't look like he was going to work at all, because he forgot that things were turned back halfway......
No, what did he just tell her?
Just bought breakfast and came back?
The evidence was now in her hands.
So he didn't just go to work, but to buy breakfast?
But is that right? Isn't he supposed to go to work, and he actually bought her xiaolongbao? She'd done it once or twice before, but she didn't expect him to remember, but wasn't he the least fond of going to a street stall? It's so unusual.
"You bought this?" Putting down the bun in her hand, she couldn't help but ask.
"I remember you saying you liked this, or did I buy the wrong one? There are a lot of different flavors out there, and I pick them randomly. He said to her with a smile, An Nianchu shook his head, but his eyes were a little moist. Bought it right, it was delicious. ”
Qin Muchen rubbed her hair and found the red eyes that were half-covered by her bangs, "Why are your eyes red?" Crying? ”