I have never known the value and meaning of my life, or rather, my whole life has been controlled by Pei Tingqing, and I have never planned anything in the past 20 years, nor have I ever set my own goals and ideals.

I numbly accepted the life arranged for me by Pei Tingqing, never disobeyed Pei Tingqing, and never tried to change, but even so, I don't think I'm weak, but I'm very content with the status quo.

My state of mind changed after two years of getting along with Pei Yanqiao, and what Pei Yanqiao and I did in those two years, looking back carefully, there was actually nothing meaningful.

However, during that time on Infernal Island, when I looked up lonely at the geese flying south in the sky, and when I looked through the transparent glass window after being injured to save Wei Wei, I was thinking about Pei Yanqiao.

I probably summed it up, the two years before I fell in love with him were the happiest times between me and him.

When I was 21 years old, Pei Yanqiao was only 20 years old, and he still went out early and returned late, but the number of visits to me at night changed from every other month to half a month, then to a week, and finally to once every three days.

Before going to me in the evening, he called me to ask if I had returned, and if I was still at school, he would pick me up at the right time.

He ate the food I cooked, took a shower and wore the dressing gown I bought for him, and let me wash the clothes he took off as a matter of course, and we were about the same size, and the next morning he would leave in clothes that I didn't tear off the tags and didn't wear, so much so that later I even got into the habit of buying clothes for him.

After a long time, my closet was full of his clothes, and with a change of clothes, he never wore mine again, and when one day I suddenly discovered this fact, I felt unprecedented loss.

I explained that Pei Yanqiao's behavior was strange, and after staying with him for a long time, my thinking became very weird. If not, it's just a trivial matter of whether or not to wear my clothes, how can I struggle with it for so long?

Later, for a period of time, about half a month, Pei Yanqiao did not go to my residence again, nor did he call me again, and I just didn't go to Pei Shuyi's house during that time, so I couldn't know where Pei Yanqiao went and what he was doing during this time, so I began to panic.

I don't know why I panicked, I felt like I was abandoned and left out, this emotion scared me, I didn't let myself dwell on this issue after I woke up, but in those few nights whenever I was lying alone in bed, I always thought of Pei Yanqiao.

What I want to know most is why he suddenly cut off contact with me, is my big brother not even qualified to let him call and say hello on weekdays? The result of my cranky thoughts was tossing and turning and I couldn't sleep.

In a month, he seemed to disappear from my world, we used to meet every day, eat together, sleep together in the same bed, such a huge contrast is difficult for anyone to accept, not to mention that I am still his eldest brother?

So after a long psychological struggle, I didn't even say hello, so I took my girlfriend to Pei Shuyi's house.

I know that Pei Yanqiao is very filial to Pei Shuyi, no matter what he does, he will go home once a day, not surprisingly when I walked into the living room, Pei Yanqiao was sitting on the sofa casually watching boring TV programs.

My girlfriend went to the kitchen with Pei Shuyi, and after I sat down on the sofa opposite Pei Yanqiao, I went straight to the point, "Where have you been and what have you done recently?" ”

Pei Yanqiao's slender and handsome eyebrows furrowed, he seemed to be a little unhappy, he glanced at me obliquely, and asked me in a lazy tone: "What's the matter with you?" ”

I heard his non-business, and felt that it was a waste of time for me to care so much about him these days, and it hurt my self-esteem a lot.

I was furious, crossed my arms and stared at Pei Yanqiao with a cold face, and reminded him seriously and unquestionably, "I am your eldest brother, and I have the right to inquire about your whereabouts." ”