"How early?" Pei Leng unconsciously followed Lu Qingxia and muttered, he chuckled to himself, "I'm afraid that even I don't know how early it is, right?" ”

Even he didn't know how early?

Lu Qingxia was even more shocked, "How is this possible?" ”

"yes, how is that possible?" Pei stared at her, his eyes became deeper and deeper, and his thoughts were pulled back to the memory of a long time ago, "I remember, at that time, the person who was most suspicious of my hidden feelings was your brother, your brother had asked me countless times, what kind of feelings did he have for you, and I also firmly replied to him more than once, there is no emotion!" ”

"Now that I think about it, I hid my mind so much that I almost deceived myself, so how dare you believe that I rejected it in a hurtful way, in fact, from the beginning, I liked you!"

She stared at him in shock, looking at him without flashing, for fear of missing something that she would need to remember for the rest of her life, and the deepest feelings in his eyes.

"At that time, you were young, and I only regarded you as your dearest sister, until that past incident happened, my mother's attitude towards you changed from dislike at the beginning to complete hatred, what else could I do?" Recalling the past, Pei Leng seemed to have drunk the most bitter medicine, and even the taste at the corners of his mouth was bitter, and he hooked it slightly, it was all painful.

"I can only continue to alienate you from that time, keep rejecting you, although you were still young at that time, and your feelings for me may only be out of attachment to your brother, but then you grew up, you became more and more obsessed, and because of the support of your grandfather, you became more and more unscrupulous, what can I do?"

He asked repeatedly, what could he do?

The dignified eldest grandson of the Pei family, the captain of the cold leopard, he couldn't do anything, but he only recalled a short paragraph, and his tone was only full of helplessness and endless pain, and he really didn't seem to know what to do.

"So, under the pressure of Aunt Shen Qing, and because I was young at that time, you had already learned to hide it completely before I could see my mind clearly, you lied to others, lied to yourself, such a lie was swayed, others believed it, even you believed it, right?" Lu Qingxia stared at him, distressed and couldn't suppress excitement and asked.

He nodded, and let out a long sigh of relief, "I'm really afraid that you won't believe me, or you won't understand me, but what I'm most afraid of is that you hate me!" ”

"You ask me, what is the relationship with Song Ying, you ask me, did you come to you because of any problems with Song Ying, you are wrong, just the opposite!" Pei Leng stared at her, smiling bitterly and helplessly, "How hot you were at that time, chasing me all over the world, facing a person who was already fatally attracted to me, and being so active, how could I refuse you, what to use to reject you?" ”

"At that time, Song Ying who surrounded me became my best weapon, I pretended to be good to her, so as to make you retreat, and it just so happened that my mother liked her, and I could also use her to block my mother's mouth that kept breaking thoughts in my ears, she and you are classmates, I am close to her, sometimes I can take a look at you by the way, and I have the best of both worlds!"

"So, this method has been used for ten years, and I have been deceiving myself for too long, I almost thought that it was impossible for me to be with you, and I would end up with Song Ying, but where did I get my love for her from men and women?"

"But you're so good to her!" Lu Qingxia stared, thinking of his accommodation and intimate care for Song Ying, she couldn't help but be jealous and envious!

"I'm good to her, one is to get angry with you, and the other is because of guilt, I shouldn't use her, so I kept my distance from her, I sent her step by step to the high platform she wanted to climb, and it turned out that such a high platform also sent her to the point of no return."

"She has become a star in the limelight, and at the same time, she has been tied hand and foot, shopping and traveling, all of which you can do, have become extravagant hopes for her, so why every time I am besieged by the media, I choose to protect her, because I am guilty, and I can only wronged you at that time."

Pei Leng caressed her face, remembering every time he hurt her in the past, that kind of pain was like a sharp blade, slashing at his heart, making him bloody, and there was nowhere to complain of pain, so he could only bear it silently.

"When you were in Huaixiu, you ......" Regarding their intimacy, Lu Qingxia couldn't say anything, just pointed.

Pei Leng smiled bitterly, "The most intimate thing I have with her is that she kissed me on the side of the face, which is the kind last time you ran away in anger, and that night in her room, it was just an ordinary hug, and there was no other intimate thing, do you believe me?" ”

She believed it, because Pei Leng really didn't lie, but because of her affairs, he told such a big lie to himself, to her, to everyone, and deceived everyone, including her and him!

He said that he didn't love her, he hated her, he hated her, it turned out that it was all because he liked her, he cared about her, he loved her, what is the truth?

Lu Qingxia didn't know whether she should laugh at her luck in being loved by Pei Leng, or cry for being loved but not being pity?

For a while, both Pei Leng and Lu Qingxia fell into silence, this huge information, Lu Qingxia needs to digest it, and needs to accept it slowly, Pei Leng's mood of finally getting catharsis also needs to be slowly calmed down.

The night breeze of early autumn blows gently from the rooftop, with the thin chill of early autumn, the clouds disperse, and the starry sky becomes more and more bright, shimmering with sporadic luster, accompanying the beauty of the night sky.

There seemed to be a faint fragrance of flowers coming from the garden downstairs, Pei Leng took a deep breath, felt that his chest was filled with the fragrance of flowers, and gradually spit it out, with a secret, completely released in the air, and dissipated the depression.

"Pei Leng, you said you liked me for a long time, right?"

For a long time, Lu Qingxia, who had been silent, suddenly lowered her voice and turned her head to ask her, her rippling eyes oozed a little tears, I don't know whether she was wronged or happy.

With such complicated eyes, Pei Leng's heart softened, and he gently hugged her into his arms, he put his chin on the top of her head, sniffed her hair, and stroked her face with his hands with pity, the guilt in his heart was a little indescribable, "We missed it for too long!" ”

"I almost missed you, almost!" He was afraid when he thought about it, if he was a little more sluggish, if he deceived himself a little more, could he still hug Lu Qingxia like this at this moment and confide his most sincere heart to her?

"I won't miss you again, no matter what happened in the past, no matter how many obstacles, I won't let go of your hand again, so many years, enough, really enough!"

This kind of miss is enough to torture the two of them all over the body, he can't hurt himself anymore, let alone hurt her anymore, she is the most innocent one!