In January, it's a cold winter.

The snow-capped mountains in the cold winter season are like a lying fairy covered with a white robe.

The whole world seems to be pure white.

Those two peaks are also surrounded by white mist.

At the foot of the rugged mountain road at the end of the five peaks, a wisp of green smoke rose from the nunnery. This time was approaching lunch, and the female disciples in the nunnery were all taking turns to take care of the meal. Today's turn has already begun to get busy.

The nunnery eats every day on time, so every time, Xiao Miaoyu will come to the dining room.

"Miaoyu, are you here to bring lunch to my aunt again?" A senior sister asked with a smile.

I don't know when it began, all the female disciples in the nunnery also used to call the female pilgrim who came to escape the world "Senior Aunt", perhaps because Xiao Miaoyu always shouted like this. As the days went by, the crowd shouted as she did.

It's just that to this day, the female disciples still don't know what the name of that aunt is, and none of them have spoken to that aunt. Although my aunt has been here, it has been nearly a year. However, the female disciples were fortunate to see the true face of their aunt one after another, and they couldn't describe it in words.

According to Xiao Miaoyu, it really looks like the fairy in the painting in Shitai's meditation room.

Under the peach blossom tree outside the floating tower, my aunt likes to sit in that place. Sometimes, the peach blossom wine sent by the villagers is drunk. Sometimes, just sit there and sleep. Sometimes, she has a Buddhist scripture in her hand, and she can read it for an afternoon when she looks at it.

My aunt never made a sound, and when she saw others passing by, she didn't say hello, she just did her own thing alone. It seems that everything in the outside world has nothing to do with her, and she is even more extraordinary than these female disciples.

Occasionally, a female disciple couldn't help but be curious and stepped forward to talk to her, but the senior aunt could only smile and go directly into the floating tower.

Because of this, another Dingxian master in the nunnery will occasionally mention that the monks are pure and have no desires and desires, and they will not be disturbed by the outside world when they worship the Buddha, and this quiet qualification is not as good as this aunt.

The female disciples were ashamed, and after a long time, when they saw this senior aunt again, no one dared to offend easily, but they had a little respect in their hearts.

At this moment, Xiao Miaoyu nodded and said, "Amitabha, senior sister, are you ready for today's lunch?" ”

"It's been prepared for a long time, I'll put it in the food box for you!" The senior sister smiled and went to prepare.

Xiao Miaoyu naturally waited beside her.

Every now and then, several other senior sisters would joke with Xiao Miaoyu, and one of them asked, "Miaoyu, did my aunt speak today?" ”

"Nope." Xiao Miaoyu replied as usual.

"Again, again." The female disciples no longer felt lost and surprised, as if this was a normal thing.

It's just that some people are confused, "Maybe my aunt really can't speak." ”

Maybe my aunt is actually a mute.

Otherwise, nearly a year will pass, how can we do without saying a word.

There is some truth for the female disciples to think about it, but Xiao Miaoyu said seriously, "Senior aunt can speak!" ”

Everyone had asked Miaoyu before, so they knew from her mouth that the senior aunt had also spoken, but only once.

"Miaoyu, could it be that you heard it wrong." The senior sister smiled and said, thinking that Miaoyu was still young, it was normal to mishear.

Miaoyu shook her head, "When Senior Aunt spoke that day, Mrs. Shi was also there, could it be that Mrs. Shi would have misheard?" Amitabha, monks don't speak! ”

"Amitabha!" When it comes to Shitai, the female disciples are respected and loved by everyone, and they dare not have any objections.

The other senior sister had already prepared the food box for her, and Xiao Miaoyu reached out to lift it, thanked her and turned away.

Everyone watched as the small figure disappeared at the end, and the floating tower stood majestically in the mountains and forests.

The sky is so vast that this year's snow is heavier than usual.

……

Xiao Miaoyu carried the food box, and after leaving the nunnery, she went straight to the floating tower.

Early in the morning, someone had already swept across the stone path, and the sun was shining, and it had already dried up. Immediately a road was vacated, Xiao Miaoyu had long been accustomed to this road, and came to the tower happily.

The little man stepped forward, raised his hand and knocked on the door, and shouted again, "Amitabha, aunt, I'm here to bring you food." ”

After waiting for a while, there was no response, but the door opened from the inside.

After the woman opened the door, Xiao Miaoyu immediately thanked her and slipped in.

It's very warm inside the tower, and there is a stove in the tower, and the charcoal fire is baked, so it doesn't get cold.

Xiao Miaoyu rubbed her hands and put down the food box, "Senior aunt, you can eat quickly, otherwise it won't taste good if it's cold." ”

As he spoke, he opened the food box for her and laid out the food one by one. The woman approached suddenly, took her hand, and put it in front of her eyes.

Xiao Miaoyu saw that her hands were already red, probably because they were frozen by the wind on the road when she came.

Afraid that she would be worried, Xiao Miaoyu immediately said, "Senior aunt, I don't hurt at all." ”

The woman took her hand and sat her down by the fire to warm her hands.

Xiao Miaoyu didn't move anymore, but still shouted, "Senior aunt, then you have to take the food yourself, if there is left, the Bodhisattva will be unhappy if he knows it." ”

The woman sat down in a chair and began to eat quietly.

Xiao Miaoyu smiled happily when she saw that she was really obedient to eat. When she was idle when she was warming her hands, she liked to talk about those interesting things, such as the scenery around the nunnery, "The two mountains of Cangdou Peak and Yequan Peak are frozen, and the fairy snow mountain has also closed the road." The Chinese New Year is coming soon, Chinese New Year's Eve night, will my aunt chant the scriptures with us until dawn......"

This kind of self-talk is a common thing, Xiao Miaoyu only speaks, and women only listen.

I don't know how long it took, the meal had been eaten, Xiao Miaoyu also put it away, saw that the dishes were clean, and replied, "Now the Bodhisattva will not be unhappy." ”

The end of the year is approaching, and a mountain road has been blocked by snow.

Another mountain road leading to the village is walkable, and the villagers bring a lot of vegetables and fruits to supply the nunnery for the winter.

Every year on Chinese New Year's Eve, Master Dinghui will take a group of female disciples to chant sutras and keep vigil.

And on this night this year, Mrs. Dinghui led everyone to chant the scriptures until 11 o'clock in the evening, and her sister Mrs. Dingxian continued to lead the chanting.

Out of the nunnery, Master Dinghui took the lamp and went to the Floating Life Tower silently alone.

In the courtyard in front of the tower, the peach blossoms have been empty, but the plum blossoms are cold and beautiful.

Under the flower tree, there is an extra snowman.

I don't know who piled it up, and when Shitai entered the tower, I saw that Xiao Miaoyu had fallen asleep on that bed. And the woman leaned against the window, looking at the snow outside, and at the snowman.

Shitai stepped forward and sat down, just turning the Buddhist beads and silently chanting the scriptures.

But suddenly, I heard the woman suddenly speak, "Do you want to hear it, what happened to that story?" ”

After nearly a year, she finally spoke up again, and she also took the initiative to tell her, and the teacher smiled.

In the snowy night, she said leisurely, "Later, he also used to build a snowman with me......"

The fireworks that year were so beautiful.

More beautiful than any flower in this world.

……

In the floating tower, the stove is warm, and the world is sprinkled with snow on a winter night, such a beautiful flying snow, falling on the world that is already covered in silver.

Mrs. Shi listened quietly, listening to her tell everything that followed, "A lot of people were there that day, but in fact, I didn't pile it up with him, we just watched from the sidelines." When the snowman was built, there was a snowball fight......"

"He accompanied me to practice, coached me, and took me to buy fireworks, and he bought a whole store of fireworks, and he lit them one by one in the yard. Mother Zhao was still worried about the money at that time, and asked why we bought so much, but he actually lied and said that I wanted to buy ......"

She muttered about the pleasant things, and suddenly said, "But the fireworks were so short-lived, and he left suddenly, obviously he told me, let me wait for him ......"

How long is the process of waiting, just like waiting for a beginner's school in Rui Nian, waiting for the eyes to wear it.

She was silent, the smile on the corner of her mouth suddenly faded, and those beautiful moments disappeared in an instant, and she said again, "I waited, but he taught me a truth - soldiers are not tired of cheating!" ”

"I was fooled myself, and I had to go to him......" she said, "When I see him again, he is already such a high-ranking man, so far away from me......"

"Actually, I've always felt that he was far away from me, but sometimes I felt that he was very close. When I thought about it later, I guess it was my own delusion......"

Speaking of this, Mrs. Shi finally said, "Everything, it will not be delusional. ”

"yes......" the woman replied, "not a delusion, in fact he approached me for a purpose, but I couldn't help but approach him again, even though I kept telling myself that it shouldn't be ......"

"At that time, I didn't think that there would be results, I didn't think that he and I would have to achieve results......" Her whispered words, like the sound of the wind on a snowy night, whistled and swept through the bottom of her heart.

"But we've been through so many things together, and I can count every single one......" Her voice became longer and longer, as if she was recalling the past in the long river of years, and suddenly she couldn't look at it directly, because in the end, she only gave birth to an empty one.

"He and I will have a son, and that child will be me and his child......" Her beautiful and clear eyes were blank, but also with a trace of irrepressible joy.

Shi Tai continued, "Everything in the world has a cause and must have an effect, and people are the same. ”

"You're right, it's the cause I planted, and it's the ......fruit of my harvest," she replied, her gaze becoming infatuated, "So, I hurt that child, I hurt my child, I'm a sinner......"

Seeing that she was in such pain, Shitai immediately said, "Amitabha, God has the virtue of a good life, and since it is conceived and born, it will not be a sin, but the beginning of life." Since you have given life, you have given hope. ”

"Is that so......" the woman muttered.

"Poor Ni has seen many female pilgrims come to pray for the safety and health of their children, and they will not hesitate to exchange their lives for the sake of their children, and the mother's love is really touching." Shi Tai responded slowly.

The woman was stunned for a long time, moved her lips and said, "I originally wanted to give the child a happy home, and do everything I can to give him a happy home." But this thought, because of his betrayal and abandonment, was shattered like this. ”

"I almost became his wife...... she smiled, but the smile on her face did not smile, only a long loneliness remained, "I tried everything to marry him and be with him, but in the end I was only betrayed......"

It's almost impossible to hide, and it peeks out deep from the bottom of the eye.

How deep the love once was, that hatred will be unforgettable.

……

Mrs. Shi looked at her, the candle flame was still faintly burning, it was a faint warmth, but she looked sad, and said to herself, "Even my mother, my father, I thought they were people who could be approached, but they were just hiding their sympathy and taking advantage of ......."

"My mother, since I was a child, told me not to fight or fight, I just listen to her, I just want her to be happy, as long as she is at ease. My father, who hated me since I was a child, didn't like me, I thought I was not good enough, and desperately tried to make myself the best ......"

"I have a big brother who I have known since I was a child, and I always remember all the kindness he had to me, but he pushed him into the abyss......"

"Later, I met a lot of people, and each of them either ridiculed or ridiculed, as if I was a person who always owed them and owed a lot of ......"

"When he was about to leave me, I confessed, I really did, I thought about starting my life again with my children, going back to my own city and ......starting over," she said this, her throat seemed to choke, "but when I thought I could start over, I found that my world had been turned upside down." ”

"My father is no longer a father, my home is not home, I am actually the daughter of a mother and a stranger......" she hesitated, her smile almost like crying, "my child, my former mother turned out to be my half-sister, my father is actually his enemy, they all have to fight for the child, I have become a pawn again!" ”

She spoke freely, but because it was too messy, she was incoherent, and she didn't know if others understood, but she kept talking.

Shi Tai moved the Buddha beads peacefully, her eyes were always soft, and she looked at the woman in pain in front of her. Seeing her caught in the whirlpool, she covered her face with her hands, unable to face it......

Shitai stopped the beads, her hand reached out to her, and gently landed on her head, like a Buddha loving the world.

She looked up, her eyes couldn't tell who was who, the world had already turned black and white upside down, and she asked, wanting to seek a result, "Why are they doing this to me!" Why did he treat me like this? Why should a person's sincerity be let down like this? Could it be that I exist to accept the betrayal of all this! ”

"Where is the Buddha compassionate! The Buddha was too cruel to me——! She said sharply, but she was so helpless, like a person who climbed mountains and waded through rivers to seek scriptures, but never reached the other side.

Shitai just stared at her with soft eyes, "Do you understand now?" ”

Understand what?

Understand what is going on?

She wants to be so miserable, betrayed by her loved ones, and abandoned by this world......

For a moment, she was stunned, and she began to think about all of them, and even more so of them......

If she could have foreseen today's outcome when she first met, she would have understood.

The end of the story, and later on, she knew-

It turns out that they don't love, they just don't love you.

It turns out that he doesn't love you, he just doesn't love you.

……

On this night's Chinese New Year's Eve, Shi Tai stayed in the floating tower and never left.

It was not until the first day of the next day that Shi Taifang left.

None of the female disciples knew why Shi Tai went there last night, and why she stayed all night without leaving.

Only when asked about Miaoyu, only she was included at the time.

Early in the morning, Xiao Miaoyu yawned, and she replied in a daze, "Amitabha, it seems that the senior aunt and the senior lady have been talking all night......

"How do you know?" The senior sister asked in confusion.

Xiao Miaoyu replied, "When I woke up in the middle of sleep, I heard my aunt's voice, and my aunt was talking to her......

Mrs. Shi has always been kind, but it is rare to talk about Tianming with someone late at night. Traditionally, the teacher will let those who are in pain fall asleep first. When a person sleeps peacefully, he will be at peace, and only in this way can a heart rest for a while. But Mrs. Shi would make an exception, I am afraid that it was because the person had a heart of great hatred and could not let go.

What kind of past can make that aunt talk in such pain and not stop all night?

Everyone asked again, but where would Xiao Miaoyu know this, she slept in a daze, and occasionally woke up and only vaguely heard a few words.

But he didn't listen to it at all, so he changed his position and continued to sleep.

"Amitabha, I don't know, I really don't know......" Xiao Miaoyu could only answer the senior sisters like this, and when she was asked again, she had to say, "Next time my aunt talks to my sister again, I will wake up immediately, listen to them well, and then tell the senior sisters everything I heard......"

How dare you!

Committing the taboo of the monks, it is even more offensive to the teacher!

In fact, the female disciples also cared about the senior aunt, and always felt that she was lonely and alone.

Xiao Miaoyu seemed to be in a sunny mood, "Amitabha, senior sisters, I didn't lie, my aunt can speak!" ”

Everyone thought about it again, and it was a good thing that my aunt was willing to speak.

Xiao Miaoyu spread out a pair of small hands, the female disciples were a little stunned, and the little girl showed a sweet smile and said, "Senior sisters owe me bean paste buns, when will they give it to me?" ”

Only then did the female disciples remember that because their aunt couldn't speak, they jokingly said that when they opened their mouths, they would give her bean paste buns. Just because Xiao Miaoyu is greedy, but bean paste buns are not easy to get.

During the Chinese New Year, I finally got some bean paste, and the female disciples made sweet buns, which were all given to her.

Xiao Miaoyu is very clever, she comes every day to ask for two, one for herself, and the other for her aunt, "My aunt loves to eat peach blossom cakes, and she also likes to eat bean paste buns." ”

Xiao Miaoyu held the bun and went to the Floating Tower.

In winter, the sun hung high in the sky, and it was warm during the day, and Xiao Miaoyu saw her aunt out of the tower.

After the peach blossoms do not bloom, the plum blossoms bloom for another season.

Xiao Miaoyu saw that the two seemed to be talking, so she didn't dare to come forward to disturb, so she stood quietly. It's just that from this position, she can also hear the voice of the senior aunt, and she moved her steps, wanting to get closer to the senior aunt......

Then, I heard my aunt say, "Please forgive me, I only recognize one master in my life, although it is no longer so, but I don't want to recognize the second one." ”

Mrs. Shi wants to recognize her aunt as an apprentice? Xiao Miaoyu felt a little curious, and Mrs. Shi was already safe, "Since this is the case, I won't force you." It's just that if you live here, you have to have a name. ”

Xiao Miaoyu thought about it again, her aunt has been here for so long, she still doesn't know what her aunt's name is!

In the next second, the senior aunt had already said, "Please give me a name." ”

Mrs. Shi thought for a while and said, "You have been bumpy and worried for half of your life, I hope you will live a peaceful life for the rest of your life, and you will be worry-free in the future." ”

"Thank you, Mrs. Shi." She thanked her in response.

Xiao Miaoyu rolled her dark eyes and shouted with a smile, "My aunt's name turned out to be worry-free!" ”

……

"Who are your bean paste buns for?" She turned around to ask, and Mrs. Shi also smiled at Miaoyu.

Xiao Miaoyu heard her aunt take the initiative to talk to her, she was a little nervous all of a sudden, and stepped forward happily, "My aunt likes to eat steamed buns!" ”

Mrs. Shi knows that the little girl loves sweets, "Do you like to eat, or do your aunts like to eat?" ”

Xiao Miaoyu didn't dare to lie, "Doesn't my aunt like to eat?" ”

She reached out and took one of them and bit it down.

Seeing this, Mrs. Shi smiled and went down the mountain.

Xiao Miaoyu was still by her aunt's side, and the two brought two wooden chairs together, sitting in the sun, eating bean paste buns, "Auntie, is it delicious?" ”

"Hmm."

"Auntie, your name is so nice."

"Really?"

"Hmm!" Xiao Miaoyu nodded, and smiled when she saw her aunt again, "Yu'er's name is also very good." ”

Xiao Miaoyu was overjoyed now, and her aunt smiled at her again!

But after a while, the bean paste bun had been eaten, and Xiao Miaoyu asked, "Senior aunt, does your back still hurt?" ”

"It doesn't hurt anymore." She replied.

"Why doesn't my aunt recognize my master as my master? Who is my aunt's master? Xiao Miaoyu still remembered the matter of Fang Cai, and finally asked.

But I saw that my aunt was looking at the plum tree in front of me, and there might be a fairy on the tree, so my aunt was so attentive.

Xiao Miaoyu heard her say, "I don't have a master anymore." ”

Why not?

Xiao Miaoyu still wanted to ask, but the senior aunt said to her, "Yu'er, let's pick the plum blossoms and make plum blossom cakes to eat!" ”

……

The plum blossom cake in winter is made very well by my aunt.

In the small kitchen in the floating tower, the senior aunt took care of it alone, and Xiao Miaoyu accompanied her, and the two studied while studying. Finally made the first plum blossom cake, Xiao Miaoyu immediately held it and tasted it, and her aunt sat beside her.

Throughout the end of winter, the two of them made pastries one by one, and when spring came, all the plum blossoms were picked.

Xiao Miaoyu held the plum blossom cake and sent it to the senior sisters to try it, and everyone tasted it, and it was really praised.

Who would have thought that the craftsmanship of the senior aunt was so good, so she asked Xiao Miaoyu to bring some more.

Xiao Miaoyu went back and forth between the temple and the floating tower, and she was also a little proud in her heart, this is the pastry she made with her aunt.

When I came to the small kitchen, I told my aunt about it, and my aunt took the food box and filled it with a lot of plum cakes for her to send to the nunnery.

Xiao Miaoyu was about to leave, and after walking a few steps, she stopped and turned back.

Puzzled, she asked, "What's wrong?" ”

Xiao Miaoyu stood in front of her and said to her seriously, "My aunt's master must treat you badly, so my aunt doesn't want him, right?" ”

She was slightly stunned, and Xiao Miaoyu said again, "Don't be afraid, auntie, I'll come to talk to you." ”

In this world, is there really reincarnation?

One person loses the other, but there is always another person who warms people's hearts.

God may not be too cold to her.

……

The plum blossoms fall in one year, and the peach blossoms bloom one after another.

Everything is business as usual in the nunnery, but there are also things that are different from the past.

For example, the carefree aunt who lives in the floating life tower will smile when she sees people. Although he is still silent, he is no longer lonely. The pastries she made were delicious, and since the plum blossom cake, the peach blossom cake has also been very good.

When the women in the village came to give peach blossom wine and peach blossom cakes, they also tasted a portion brought by Xiao Miaoyu, and they couldn't help but praise it again and again.

When the woman wanted to taste another piece, Xiao Miaoyu said with a smile, "Amitabha, the main thing for the female Shi is to taste it again, so please exchange it for peach blossom wine." ”

Everyone was stunned when they heard this, the little girl asked for peach blossom wine?

This wine is used to sacrifice to the god of flowers, and what is she going to do when she wants it?

As a result, Xiao Miaoyu said, "My aunt asked me to ask for it." ”

The female disciples realized that it was the carefree master who ordered Xiao Miaoyu to come. It's hard to say at the moment, she is the aunt who has never been accepted by the teacher, but has personally given her name.

The woman couldn't stop Xiao Miaoyu's cuteness, and immediately gave her peach blossom wine, but Xiao Miaoyu didn't agree, "Amitabha, my aunt said, the same for the same, you can't take it for nothing." ”

Xiao Miaoyu asked for peach blossom wine, and rushed to find her aunt.

The aunt got the wine and sat under the peach blossom tree to drink.

But this time she didn't get drunk again, just watched the peach blossoms fall, and the pot of wine was drunk.

In this year's peach blossom season, some good men and women came here to complain of their sorrows, and the female disciples greeted them with kindness and opened the door of convenience.

However, in the lobby of that temple, behind the curtain, there was another person besides Shitai.

It was the first time she left the Floating Life Pagoda and came to the nunnery.

The aunt wore a hat, the white veil fell to cover her face, and she was dressed in a plain green coat, and she came quietly every time.

After arriving, she accompanied Shitai in the temple to listen to the sorrowful hearts of good men and women. There are so many sad people in the world, and although their stories are not the same, the ending seems to be the same.

At the end of each day, Mrs. Shi would ask back, "What are your thoughts today?" ”

She replied silently, "Those who hurt them are all negative people, and all of them value interests, and they take their feelings so lightly. ”

The cycle of listening continued for months, from the peach blossom season to the summer.

Mrs. Shi asks the same question every day, and her answers are similar, sighing for those good men and women, and hating the world's unkindness.

Until one day, a woman who was abandoned by her husband came to cry and cry, it was really desolate.

Finally, she couldn't help but speak, and spoke up behind the curtain, "Since you think he treats you badly, and you hate him like this, why do you still come to ask, do you want to go back and take care of him now?" ”

It turned out that the woman's husband had become seriously ill after abandoning his wife and children. The woman's family members all ordered warnings against her to give her private money to the man. But the woman thought about it, but she couldn't let it go.

At this moment, the strange woman cried and shouted, "Although I hate him, I always remember the time when he treated me well. My family said that he had always been so cruel to me, but I just couldn't help him when he was about to die......"

"Bodhisattva mercy, the Buddha save me, Shitai, please show me a clear path......" The woman kept kowtowing, mistaking her for Dinghui Shitai.

She finally lost her voice, this time it was Mrs. Shi's voice that sounded, "Everything is as you like, everything is from the heart, you are at ease in your heart, everything is at ease." ”

"Feel free...... "The woman read these four words, but she still couldn't sit still. When I left, I was still obsessed with saving or not saving.

After the female benefactor left, Mrs. Shi still asked, "What do you think about today?" ”

She was silent for a long time, but she asked rhetorically, "Mrs. Shi, why did she still save him?" ”

Although the female benefactor did not express the final decision in her heart, in fact, the result was already clear, she just came to ask for peace of mind, to get a little guidance from the Buddha, to seek a little comfort from the teacher, so that she could help without hesitation.

Mrs. Shi smiled and said, "You see that water is water, you see that water is not water, in fact, water is still the same, it depends on how you look at it." What others saw was the ruthlessness of the female benefactor's husband, but what she saw was that her husband had treated her well. ”

Can you deny it because of the ending, and there has never been a trace of good before?

She was silent, but began to ponder the question.

But suddenly, there was a glimmer of clarity, from the depths of her heart, and she said softly, "It used to really exist." ”

Those bits and pieces can't stop the attack on my heart. The happy expectations that once existed were offset and dissipated by great trauma.

But in fact, it really existed.

……

When September of this year came, Xiao Miaoyu came to tell her aunt something, "Auntie, my wife said that I was going down the mountain to study." ”

She looked at Xiao Miaoyu, a pink face that was half bright and half melancholy, and she couldn't help but smile and ask, "Are you happy or unhappy?" ”

"Happy, not happy......" replied Miaoyu.

She seemed to be able to understand the happiness of the little girl, after all, she was still young, and Hongchen was full of yearning for everything, "Why aren't you happy?" ”

"If I go to school, there will be no one to talk to my aunt." Xiao Miaoyu said with a pout.

She smiled, gently pulled her little hand up and promised, "Senior Aunt is here waiting for you to come back." ”

Xiao Miaoyu raised a smile at this time, she looked at the child's innocent appearance, and suddenly another equally innocent face appeared in her mind, "Xiaobao should also start school......"

"Senior aunt, who is Xiaobao?" This is the first time Xiao Miaoyu has heard of it, and she said smartly, "I know, Xiaobao is my aunt's child!" ”

She was a little stunned, and then smiled, "How do you know everything?" What did the Buddha tell me? ”

"I heard my aunt say that I have children......" Xiao Miaoyu said truthfully, and asked again, "Auntie, Xiaobao's little donor also wants to study?" ”

"Of course."

"Is the little donor a male or female donor?"

"It's not like you."

"Then you can't come to live in the nunnery." Xiao Miaoyu felt a little regretful, and asked more and more curiously, "Does he look as good-looking as his aunt?" ”

Are you good-looking......

Suddenly, the child's face was clearly reflected, and it was a facial feature that had not been fully opened despite his youth.

But with a pair of heroic phoenix eyes and two thick eyebrows into the sideburns, he is indeed a rare beautiful boy in the world.

In fact, in terms of appearance alone, it does not resemble her, but resembles the person......

The memory came back, she looked at Xiao Miaoyu, but heard the child decide, "It must be beautiful!" ”

At this moment, no longer hiding and evading, she admitted with a smile.

……

When September came, Xiao Miaoyu followed the village women down the mountain to study.

Since the temple is far from the village, the school is lived in from Monday to Friday. The villagers in the village are very simple and treat Xiao Miaoyu very well. Waiting for Saturday morning, Xiao Miaoyu immediately rushed back to the nunnery.

The children, who have been circling in the mountains since childhood, walk no less than adults, and walk non-stop on the road for more than half a day, and arrive at the nunnery in the afternoon.

After Xiao Miaoyu returned to the nunnery, she first went to bow to Shitai, and then immediately went to see Shinan.

In the floating tower, Xiao Miaoyu's favorite pastries were already on the table.

Xiao Miaoyu held the white sugar cake while walking out of the ancient pagoda, and in the autumn, the aunt was sitting under the tree reading the Buddhist scriptures. She didn't make a sound, only held the white sugar cake, sat on the threshold of the entrance and exit of the ancient pagoda, quietly glanced at her aunt, and ate another bite of the pastry.

After eating the pastries, Xiao Miaoyu held the schoolbag that Shitai made for her, and also sat down at the stone table in the courtyard and began to do her homework.

After quietly doing her homework for a while, Xiao Miaoyu couldn't help but start biting the tip of her pen.

She inadvertently glanced sideways, glanced at the little girl, and saw that she looked serious but puzzled. Gently walked over, came to her side and asked, "What's wrong?" ”

Xiao Miaoyu was finally discouraged and said, "Amitabha, aunt, this math problem is so difficult. ”

It made her stunned, Buddhism is pure, and she has not heard of these for a long time, let alone math problems. It will make people feel a little out of place, but the little Miaoyu in front of her is distressed by this.

She looked down and looked, it was just a simple calculation, but for Xiao Miaoyu, who had never been in kindergarten, it might be a little difficult.

She stretched out her hand and pointed to the title of the workbook, "Think about it in a different way......

"......" Xiao Miaoyu listened carefully to her aunt's lecture, and she understood it at once, she was surprised, "Auntie, I understand!" ”

Immediately solved the answer to the question and wrote it in the notebook, and when she looked up again, Xiao Miaoyu's eyes were full of admiration, "Senior aunt, your math is good!" ”

"......," she smiled, her fingers tapping lightly on the tabletop, "keep doing." ”

Miaoyu nodded, and she sat back down under the tree.

This time, Xiao Miaoyu put down the math problem and picked up another answer book. As a result, in the middle, I was confused again, I didn't know how to pronounce the word, and I tried to make a sound, but I just couldn't pronounce it.

finally made a sound, but a female voice corrected it, and Xiao Miaoyu was surprised, "Senior aunt!" You pronounce the words as well as our English teachers! ”

The senior aunt just smiled there, and Xiao Miaoyu immediately picked up the book and ran to the senior aunt's side, "Senior aunt, you teach me to read." ”

As a result, the leisurely weekend afternoon became a private temporary lesson. After reading all the words in a section, Xiao Miaoyu reassured, "Amitabha, when I go down the mountain and go back to school tomorrow, the little donors won't laugh at me." ”

She picked up a feather fan and fanned Xiao Miaoyu.

Although it is autumn, the weather still carries a trace of residual heat.

"Auntie, why do you know everything?" Xiao Miaoyu asked excitedly again, "It must be that the senior aunt used to teach Xiaobao a donor, right?" ”

But my aunt said, "Xiaobao never needs me to teach." ”

Xiao Miaoyu was extremely surprised, and said in some frustration, "Amitabha, I'm so stupid." ”

She smiled.

Xiao Miaoyu was a little sleepy after studying, and she fell asleep on the blanket spread out above the grass, "Senior aunt, do you want to be a little donor?" ”

The little girl asked, and as soon as her eyes were closed, she had already fallen asleep.

A thin glow fell from the shade of the trees, and she looked up at the clear sky, but the thought had already flown across the sky.

Repeat the cycle until the end.

……

Soon, the third year ushered in -

In the spring of the third year, Aunt Wu was invited by her wife to come to the nunnery to listen to the sufferings of good men and women.

On this day, a mediocre-looking man came to the nunnery, and the man was over fifty. Most of the days of his life have passed, and he said in such a lonely male voice, "Mrs. Shi, my life has been so far today, it is really too bland......"

"I didn't do anything, I didn't have any ability, I didn't get married and didn't have children, I didn't love anyone and didn't hate anyone......" The male donor told about the first half of his life, it was really as plain and mediocre as he said, and even a little bleak, "How I want to, I can love once, even if I hate once......"

Behind the curtain, the master listened to the grief of the male benefactor.

She heard it, too.

The male benefactor kept asking, "What is the point of being alive like me?" What's the point? ”

"The poor nun also wants to ask the benefactor a question, why are there so many regrets in this world?" Mrs. Shi asked out loud.

The male benefactor thought about it for a long time, but he couldn't think of a reason, so he finally had to ask, "Please tell me." ”

"It's a world of babbling, and it's a pity. There are no regrets, and no matter how much happiness you give, you will not experience happiness. Mrs. Shi replied with a smile.

And she sat on the sidelines, but she was already stunned.

At some point, the man had already left.

I don't know when, there was no figure in front of the curtain, and when she came back to her senses, she only heard Mrs. Shi asking, "What do you have learned today?" ”

But she was thinking, thinking about everything, thinking about the person just now, why did she still want to get this love and hate......

She sat there and asked softly, "Master, why do people have love and hate?" ”

Even though she wanted to escape thousands of times, wanted to no longer be at the mercy of emotions, wanted to forget everything, and wanted not to exist in this world, but in the end she found that in fact, she loved and hated into the bone marrow......

Shi Tai smiled lightly, "When people from all over the world come to ask the Buddha, they all want to seek a liberation." In fact, letting go is not without love and hate. In life, if you love, you will love, and if you hate, you will hate, this is all creation. ”

Yes, love is love, hate is hate.

Mansheng closed her eyes, and she bowed sincerely, "I am willing to accompany the Buddha's voice for the rest of my life, and ask Shitai to shave for me." ”

The flowers covered by the years bloom, everything is like a white horse passing through a gap to achieve a life.

The thousands of mountains and rivers in life are left to say goodbye one by one.

In this life, it doesn't matter if you can't forget it, or if you can't let it go.

They just, didn't love you to the end.

He also just, didn't love you to the end.