What is Despair?

Despair is the sudden appearance of a great hope, which makes the fire of life burn, and then it is poured out with a basin of cold water, and then it floods everything.

The military advisor told me that as early as half a month ago, they received an email from my father, which was a long letter, a suicide note to be precise, and the last words my father left me.

"I'm sorry!" The military advisor apologized again: "I hid all this, I just don't want you to be affected and hurt. I knew it was selfish, but I had no choice. Now that the dust has fallen, now that you already know, it's time for you to write this letter. ”

The advisor handed me a few pages of white paper, densely packed with words, apparently the advisor had printed out the email and kept it on his body.

I took it with trembling hands, it was a bit hypocritical to say, after countless life and death struggles, I was a little scared, I was afraid to see my father's letter from the other side of the ocean, but I was excited and wanted to open it inexplicably.

See the words as they are:

Hello! Light rain!

I'm your dad, a man you've never met. You are twenty-seven years old, twenty-eight years old, your birthday is September 6th, and your blood type is O. When you were born, you weighed seven pounds, and you were very troublesome, and I still have a few pictures of you at that time.

Don't get me wrong, I wasn't there when you were born, these things and photos were all given to me by Xiaoyun, maybe you're more used to calling her mom.

I've always been sorry that you haven't been there for you at all stages of your life. In fact, I am not without time, nor is I without ability, for a long time, I want to take you to live with you in the United States, to give you a long-lost father's love, but also to make up for my guilt.

But I gave up, I was scared, very scared. Once the captain of the Thousand Blades Brigade, the fearless king of soldiers, and the hero in the eyes of the world, he was afraid!

I'm so scared!

I'm afraid that I don't have the ability to protect you, I have too many enemies, and I'm too weak. Even if I can protect you, even train you to be a strong person, I'm still afraid, I'm afraid of losing you.

Light rain! Dad just wants you to be an ordinary person, although now you are very accomplished, and even become a big man, far more than Dad.

But I still want you to be an ordinary person, ordinary, and I hope you can let go of everything and be a good gentleman who simply takes care of your family.

When you read this letter, Dad is dead, a real physical destruction, never to be in this world again.

As for why and who to seek revenge on, you don't have to care about these things anymore, let go of everything, end everything, and be an ordinary person!

I shouldn't have written this letter, let alone bothered you, but in the end I decided to write it down and send it to you.

Maybe this letter won't reach you, or maybe it will be annihilated in the torrent of data, but no matter what, no matter who is reading this letter, please remember that you or Xiaoyu have a father, even if I don't stand by and watch your life, there is. Xiaoyu, you are not an orphan, Dad will always love you.

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I held the electronically printed letter, my eyes moistened, and I bowed my head. I finally understood why the military advisor didn't tell me all this. Because it's just a clueless letter, and there is not even a single useful message in it except apologies.

This letter did not allow me to find my father, not even his body, he only wrote to inform me of the bad news.

Even if the military advisor had given me the letter at the time, it would have been of no use. Nothing but upset me and make things worse.

"Even now we don't have any clues." The military advisor reminded me.

I put the envelope away and nodded. We really don't have any clues, and even if we know that the MK Group is headquartered in Satha and that my father is facing a catastrophe, there is nothing we can do.

Because Sa City is too big for us, we can't find any clues on our own.

"And it's been half a month since this letter." The military advisor continued.

I nodded, of course understanding her subtext, which was nothing more than saying that my father had suffered a crisis half a month ago, or even longer.

And now it's all very likely that the dust has fallen, everything is over, and my father's body is even decomposing.

But, no matter what, I'm still going, even if I go to collect the body, I'm going to go.

"Inform the brothers that you are ready to leave the Golden Triangle and go to Sa City." I said to the military advisor.

The military advisor nodded and said, "The smuggling boat may be a little slow, and it will be night, so you have to wait a little." ”

"Hmm!" I didn't say anything more, now we're all wanted, and it's a bit of a hassle to get out of the country, but it's okay to get out of Thailand.

The military advisor patted me on the shoulder, comforted me a few words, and went to prepare. I sat in the corner, leaning against the wall, silent.

Yaoyao walked over, and she was also sitting in the corner, leaning on my shoulder, also silent.

The two of us snuggled up to each other, like two frozen people using each other's body heat to keep warm, and later, the two of us actually fell asleep, perhaps because we were both too tired.

When we woke up, the military advisor had already done everything, although it was a little troublesome, but because the military advisor had been thinking about this matter and was also preparing, it was a matter of course in the end.

All of us got on the boat, and Tony and Kunka were ready to come and say they were helping us, but I refused. They were puzzled and even angry, but no matter what they said, I ordered the boatman to sail and leave very resolutely.

They were also puzzled, thinking that Tony and Kunka were extremely good helpers, and besides, our opponent was very strong, it was the MK Group, and it was the time to employ people.

But no matter how much they tried to persuade me, I was very resolute and said no, resolutely no. When the military advisor and others saw this, they stopped talking.

Our boat sailed along the Chao Phraya River, into the sea, and then along the channel into the country. Heading north in China, we enter Kunming Airport, where we prepare for a direct flight to the United States.

In the locomotive hotel lounge, I avoided everyone. Packed all his personal weapons and put them in a suitcase.

In the suitcase, in addition to the old and new daggers and my silver revolver, there are many things that have followed me for a long time, which can almost be said to be a record of the first half of my life, and of course, a letter to Yaoyao and my brothers.

While they were resting, I quietly left and went to the room where Rainbow was being held. Rainbow was also sleeping, and I woke her up and took her away.

She didn't understand my intentions at first, but when she saw the huge plane and understood everything, she sneered at me and said, "A lone hero? ”

I laughed to myself, lit a cigarette, and said, "No." ”

"Aren't you going to see your lover again?" Hong teased: "What is Yaoyao's name?" ”

I took a deep puff of my cigarette and shook my head. If I don't go, I'm afraid I'll be reluctant to see each other.

"Leave something behind if you don't see it, right?" Rainbow continued.

I looked up at the flickering light of the pilot light, slowly exhaling the smoke from my lungs. Leave something behind? There was nothing left behind, except for a letter, and a few small things.

"Goodbye!" I waved my hand back and said goodbye to the air. The wind in Spring City was very warm, but for some reason, it was very cold and cold to my bones.

After a route of more than 20 hours, the plane finally landed, and the rainbow was teasing me and even mocking me all the way. Ask me why I am a lone hero, why don't you let those brothers come with me.

I didn't answer, but the moment I got off the plane, I still replied, "Because I don't want my brothers to die for me and my family!" ”

"You are truly a virgin!" Hongdao: "People should be selfish. ”

"Perhaps!" I walked down the registration building.

Rainbow didn't say anything more and followed me down. But she immediately couldn't stop talking: "Think about what you think will happen if I tell the police now that you illegally detained me?" ”

I turned my head to look at her, for a long time, and said lightly: "You won't!" ”

"Why?" Rainbow asked rhetorically.

"If you wanted to make things worse, you should have screamed when you were in the country, and then I would not only be arrested, but my brothers would not be spared." I stared at the rainbow and said, "But you didn't!" ”

"You're so confident!" Hong Dao: "I don't trust the Chinese police, what if you have a nest of snakes and rats?" ”

"Really?" I smiled faintly and didn't discuss with him the merits of the police at home and abroad, but just continued to move forward.

Seeing this, Hong gritted her teeth angrily and stomped her feet to chase after her. Although I didn't have a long back eye, I could hear his extreme anger from the sound.

"What are you going to do?" Hong Dao: "It's impossible for you to win the MK Group alone, let alone rescue your father." ”

I didn't answer her, and I really didn't have a clue. I can only take one step at a time and find out the situation first, besides, my father is very likely to be dead, and even the body is no longer there.

"This is not Sa City!" Hong walked out of the airport, looked around and said, "This is not Sa City at all!" ”

I nodded, who said this is Sa City?

"Scheming!" Hong scolded: "No wonder you bought me a first-class cabin, no wonder you have been denied access to people outside, no wonder you are not afraid of me calling the police." Because this is not Sa, it's not my territory, it's your lair! It's your lair, isn't it? ”

"This is Auckland." I looked at Hong with strange eyes, and she was too emotional, didn't I just not tell her the real destination?

Besides, I don't have to think about it, I won't go directly to Sa Cheng, first, there are no clues, and second, it is easy to be exposed and used.

As for the lair that Hong said, there is really none. Auckland does have a bit of a relationship with me, but it's not a lair, even though Auckland is also the head of the MK Group.

To be precise, I came to Auckland to meet Mr. L, who is the senior executive of the MK Group and the only one I know.

And after I returned to China, he also took the initiative to contact me, gave me a lot of help, and also asked me to become the eastern agent of MK Group.

Although it didn't really help me in general, it showed enough kindness and kindness to me in the end.

As for whether he knew who my father was, or whether he was in an animosity with my father, it was not known.

However, although it was a bit risky, I decided to ask him out and use Mr. L as a breakthrough to understand the current situation and original appearance of the entire MK Group.

I dialed the phone number that Mr. L had left for me and told him what I was going to do, and he was surprised that I was going to call him out of the blue.

However, after being surprised, he still told me very politely that he was busy with things, and I was afraid that he would not be able to see me for a while, so he could only send a person with full authority to talk to me.

I said yes, he said the address, and hung up the phone. After hanging up, I frowned suspiciously.

Mr. L's attitude was very ordinary and did not give me special treatment, which made me feel very relieved, as if he did not know that I was Lin Huai'an's son.

Of course, it's possible that everything is pretended, but it's just trying to seduce me. Out of vigilance, I arrived at the place agreed upon by Mr. L early.

We made an appointment at a fast-food restaurant with a lot of people, and we were not afraid that Mr. L would send a group of people to arrest us.

Rainbow shook the black Coke in the cup and said to me with a smile, "Do you know what Mr. L's nickname is in the MK Group?" ”

I chewed on the burger, tried to look like a normal diner, and shook my head and said I didn't know.

"Bald!" Hong said: "Mr. L's nickname is bald, which means that he has always cut the grass and eradicated the roots, leaving no trouble. ”

"And then?" I finished my burger and looked around without a trace.

"He's going to kill you and wipe everything out of you." Rainbow said coldly.

"You mean Mr. L knows who I am, and is in a hostile relationship with my dad?" I looked at Hongdao.

Rainbow slowly approached me with a straw in her mouth, and whispered to me in her ear, "The entire MK Group is hostile to your father. ”

My pupils condensed slightly, and I looked at the rainbow. Hong smiled proudly and said, "Do you know why I didn't leave?" I'm just here to watch you, to watch you be tortured to death. ”

"Then do you know why I want you to follow me?" I asked rhetorically, "Looks like a cumbersome you?" ”

Hong frowned slightly, obviously not understanding.

I smiled and reminded, "You represent the Double Lions Group, you know?" ”

Hong's face changed slightly, she does represent the Double Lion Group, and she can even be regarded as the middle-level leader of the Double Lion Group, and she must have a record in the MK Group.

And the fact that she was so unsuspecting with me shows an extremely important message that the management of Double Lions Group has some kind of connection with me.

It's all fake, but it's enough to confuse the people who are spying on me, if any.

"You're smart." Rainbow looked at me and said, "As a bonus, I can tell you that this restaurant belongs to the MK Group. ”