After stuffing Sun Simian into the back seat of Qiao Xiang's car, Xu Hui closed the door and became the co-pilot in front.

"Where are you going to send him?" Xu Hui asked.

"Where else can I go?"

"Aren't you going to send it home?"

Qiao Xiang had already started the car, "Forget it, let his father see him like this, and he will inevitably be scolded when he gets up tomorrow morning." ”

Xu Hui saw that she was still thinking about him, and she almost wanted to poke her in the head, "You have Yan Ruisen, don't worry about him anymore." ”

"Where did you go?"

Speaking of Yan Ruisen, Qiao Xiang missed it a little in his heart.

The man had been in Hong Kong for almost a week, and she had called him several times, all of which were picked up by his secretary, Xiao Tan.

Sometimes he would come back, and sometimes he would be too busy, and he didn't come back.

When Aunt Lin sent Canaan to school, she mentioned to her that Mr. Yan often travels on business, sometimes for a long time, and the little guy misses his father too much at home, so he will be in a bad mood, and he has a good appetite, but he can't eat much.

Qiao Xiang felt that the little guy was still quite pitiful, he had no mother since he was a child, and even his father was often not at home, so he received too little love and care.

When they arrived home half an hour later, Qiao Xiang and Xu Hui wasted a lot of effort to put Sun Simian on Qiao Xiang's bed.

Qiao Xiang can only squeeze with Xu Hui tonight.

Xu Hui watched Qiao Xiang roll up his sleeves and go to the bathroom to get a basin of hot water, and a trace of consternation flashed on her face, "What are you doing, get him back and wait for washing?" You're! ”

Qiao Xiang glanced at her, "He is uncomfortable sleeping like this, clean him." ”

"President Yan knows about it, be careful of your life!"

“……”

Xu Hui is about to become a fan of Yan Ruisen, and after becoming the head of Yan Ruisen, Qiao Xiang does anything under her nose, and she is very likely to make a small report with Yan Ruisen, like a dog.

Sun Simian was 1.84 meters tall, tall and strong, and his body size was not much different from Yan Ruisen, and it was not easy for Qiao Xiang to move him to the middle of the bed.

When he wiped his face, Qiao Xiang saw that the corners of his eyes were moist and his heart went into cardiac arrest for a few seconds, and then he heard his muddled voice saying, "I'm sorry, Xiangxiang ......"

Qiao Xiang's hand holding the hot towel stopped in mid-air.

"It's me who is not good enough, Xiangxiang, all the faults are me."

"Si Mian ......"

Qiao Xiang felt very uncomfortable, although he didn't know what happened to him, so he would go drinking alone, and he would say these words when he was drunk, but Qiao Xiang knew that after that incident back then, Sun Simian had always felt guilty about her.

She didn't blame him for a long time, the relationship between people, if it can't go on, then it will end, if there is no deep hatred, why make it incompatible, so over the years, Qiao Xiang and Sun Simian have always been safe and sound, whether they become confidants, they will not become a joke in their mouths.

Qiao Xiang packed up Sun Simian, covered him with a quilt, turned off the lights and walked out of the room.

I went to the bathroom to take a shower, and then looked at the time, it was almost eleven o'clock.

Xu Hui sat on the bed reading a book and waited for her, and as soon as she came, Xu Hui moved to the side a little, leaving her a wider position.

"Sleep, it's not early."

Qiao Xiang took the book in her hand and put it on the bedside table, Xu Hui hummed, and the two lay down together.

Xu Hui turned off the bedside floor lamp.

"Xiangxiang."

In the dark, Xu Hui rubbed over and hugged Qiao Xiang's warm body.

"What's wrong?"

"Actually, I've always wanted to know where you went when you were separated from Sun Simian for more than a year."

Xu Hui asked her, raised her neck in the dark to look at her expression, looked at her calm face, and asked, "Later, you came back and stayed at home all the time, and you didn't come out to see me and Liang Wenhui...... I'm wondering if something happened to you. But if you don't mention it, we don't dare to ask, because we are afraid that if we ask something that we shouldn't ask, it will make you uncomfortable. ”

After a pause, Xu Hui let go of Qiao Xiang, lay back in her original position, looked at the ceiling and exhaled a long breath, "Xiangxiang, you have a lot of secrets in your heart, I don't want to peep, but sometimes I see you alone in a daze, knowing that you can't help you if you have something on your mind, I will also be unhappy with you." ”

Qiao Xiang didn't respond for a long time. It's not that she doesn't know, Xu Hui has been with her all these years, it's not that she doesn't want to ask her, she doesn't speak, it's as a respect for her friends, but she is obviously a friend, but she doesn't know anything about her, and she feels frustrated when she thinks about it.

Qiao Xiang turned around and faced Xu Hui, his hands pillowed under the side of his face, "Xiaohui, I'm not as glamorous as you see, in the unknown two years, I have experienced things that I don't want to experience again in my life." I've had men and children, but at the end of the day, I don't have anything. ”

Xu Hui was stunned, and when Qiao Xiang said these words calmly, she was shocked, but Qiao Xiang held her hand tightly.

"I've thought about death, I've experienced despair over and over again in my life, and there's nothing I look forward to more than death. But I didn't, I still wanted to live, I wanted to go through the rest of my life quietly, not because I didn't have the courage to die, but I just didn't want to disappoint the people around me.

I can't care less about my adoptive parents' twenty years of nurturing and nurturing me, I can't not care about the sadness and pain of the people I care about for a long time after my death, a person in this world, will always play his due role, and I, what I want to do, is a good daughter, a good sister.

My uncle found me the best psychiatrist and cured me, and that's when I realized that it was better to be alive than dead. I want to live, I want to live well, so I pull myself together, go to school, graduate, and work.

Xiaohui, it's not that I don't treat you as a friend, it's not that I don't want to talk to you about those things, it's just that I'm alive and well now, and there's no point in mentioning those past things. ”

Xu Hui's eyes were already red, she couldn't imagine that Qiao Xiang had spent those times, huddled alone in a lifeless room, only facing a glimmer of light through the window every day, she closed herself off, isolated from the outside world, pale face, skinny body...... Xu Hui choked up and asked her, "Your parents, aren't they biological parents?" ”

Qiao Xiang shook his head, "My mother's first child didn't breathe when she was born, and it just so happened that I was abandoned in the hospital, so she and my dad took me home. ”

When listening to Qiao Xiang say these things, Xu Hui could hear the indifference in her tone, "When did you find out?" ”

"Not long after I broke up with Simian, I remember that school was about to start, and when I went back from outside that night, I heard my parents casually mention it when I passed by their room."

"That'...... That kid ......"

"Nope."

Qiao Xiang closed his eyes and put one arm on his forehead, "When I was seven months old, my mother brought several bodyguards to tie me up to the hospital, she told me while crying, she said Xiangxiang, you can't have this child, you can't hurt yourself, you can't ruin your life." ”

Xu Hui clenched her fists, "Auntie, how can she be ...... like this?"

Qiao Xiang smiled, "If not, what else can it be?" ”

"But the children are seven months old."

"At first, I hated her, but as I grew older, I began to understand a mother's concerns, in the final analysis, she was also for my good, she was nothing more than considering that I was just twenty years old at the time, and I had a child before graduating from college at the age of twenty, and my reputation was naturally bad, which serious man would dare to ask me in the future?"

"Who is the father of the child?"

"Who's ......?"

Qiao Xiang thought of that name, that handsome man's face, and when he said it, even he was in a trance.

"I said it's Yan Ruisen, do you think it's a fantasy?"

Qiao Xiang pursed his lips and smiled, and soon, a touch of bitterness appeared on the corners of his lips, "When I met him, I was only nineteen years old, and I couldn't accept the fact that I was not the biological son of the Qiao family, so I ran away from home and went to New York, where I met him, and then we were together, and then we had children." ”

"Does he know you've had children?"

"I didn't tell him."

Qiao Xiang shook his head, "I don't dare to tell him, besides, he has Canaan now, and he doesn't necessarily care about the child who has long since disappeared." ”

"You think he's ...... to you Not seriously? ”

"Who knows what he's up to."

Adult men and women, like to with you. Bed, can also be called like, this kind of like is too far away from marriage and a lifetime, Qiao Xiang doesn't dare to have any unrealistic extravagant hopes.

Xu Hui was silent.

I remembered that when Yan Ruisen said "I love my girlfriend very much" in the interview that day, although he was being interviewed, his words and deeds did not seem to be just coping.

But after listening to Qiao Xiang say so many things, Xu Hui couldn't tell how true the words of the man who showed his nobility were true, in the upper class, he was used to acting on the spot, and it was not impossible to say a few sweet words to make women happy.

Xu Hui felt that she might have to re-examine a man like Yan Ruisen.

"What have you been through between you, since you both have children, how can you leave him?"

Facing Xu Hui's question, Qiao Xiang frowned and pondered, she didn't know how to explain the reason, she just shook her head and didn't answer.

But Xu Hui knew a little bit in her heart, it was nothing more than that the second young man of the Yan family had failed Qiao Xiang, otherwise how could Qiao Xiang be so painful, and he even thought of death.

Xu Hui asked her, "Why did you choose to be with him?" Xiangxiang, there are many men who like you. ”

"Like him."

Qiao Xiang did not hide his admiration for Yan Ruisen at all, and even in his tone, there was a woman's lingering attitude towards a man.

"He is the kind of man who makes women have no resistance, knowing that there may be an abyss in front of him, I have controlled myself, but I can't control it, like a rope strangling my neck, strangled too tightly and breathlessly, I can only give up."

"Are you ready for him to leave you suddenly?"

"Probably not now, he seems to like to be very fond of ...... with me Above. Bed. ”

"Xiangxiang ......"

Xu Hui was very worried about her, but she had a calm face, "I'm fine, it's instinct to have a relationship with someone I like, he is the only person I am willing to give to him." ”

"Even with Sun Simian I haven't been like that?"

"Nope."

At that time, I was with Sun Simian, each other was simple, even a simple kiss seemed jerky and immature, Qiao Xiang's sexual experience was all from Yan Ruisen, and she had no one else except him.

Qiao Xiang picked up the mobile phone on the bedside table and glanced at it, "Sleep, if you don't sleep again, you won't be able to get up tomorrow." ”

"Okay."

Xu Hui was exceptionally quiet tonight, and Qiao Xiang said that after she fell asleep, she didn't pestering her to ask this and that.

couldn't help but reach out and hug Qiao Xiang, Qiao Xiang opened her hand, she laughed, "Okay, I know that there is no Yan Ruisen who feels like holding you." ”

“……”