"So what? Am I an outcast? ”

I pointed at myself, with a smile on the corner of my mouth, but there was a wave of anger boiling in my body, I was bleeding and sweating for the top, struggling on the edge of life and death several times, and even almost lost my beloved woman because of this, and finally recorded the evidence of that person's crime, but Song Jiayin told me that the boss was just playing with me, and they didn't intend to move each other at all.

Oh, I've been so thoroughly used!

Standing there blankly, my heart was full of mixed tastes, and my whole body was not a taste. There were so many things that happened on this day, first knowing that my parents were different, and now being told that the people I owe allegiance to and the people who were going to kill me were going to 'live together peacefully', it was funny, it was funny! I couldn't help laughing, my body was cold, but where could this coldness compare to the three-point coldness in my heart?

Uncle Er put his hand on my shoulder and shouted guiltily: "Xiao Ming, I know that you are very angry and sad, in fact, I am also wronged for you, old man, but sometimes, even if you want to clean up a person, you have to consider what impact that person's death can bring to the country and the people." In this world, there are always a few people who can live 'freely' without the control of the state apparatus, and that person, what he has in his hands is enough to make him fearless. And once he gets what he has, it will be a great joy for the benefit of the country and the people. So ......"

"So...... A person like me, who can't contribute to the country and society in life, deserves to be used as a chess piece, as a bait, and to be played around? I looked at Uncle Ear funny, he looked like he was ten years old at this time, I knew that I shouldn't lose my temper with an old man if I was angry, so I couldn't help squatting down and covering my face with my hands.

I know I can't change anything, what's the use of being strong? My name is just a clown in front of the country, those people let me be cannon fodder, I have to be cannon fodder, let me be a chess piece, I have to be a chess piece, and now, they have given up using me, and I have to regard this as a gift. I couldn't help but think of my father, who was called a 'traitor', my mother's conviction of his innocence, and the regret of the lieutenant general when he mentioned him, I couldn't help but wonder if he was really wronged. My father, how could he be a traitor?

Thinking of this, I remembered the conversation between Su Ruoshui and that man, he said that as long as Su Ruoshui was willing to help them, they were willing to help my father wash away his grievances, does this prove that my father may really be wronged?

A fragrant breeze blew, a pair of high heels stood in front of me, I slowly raised my head and looked at Song Jiayin, she looked at me at this time, full of compassion like a bodhisattva, but I felt that her compassion was very ironic. I slowly stood up and asked, "When did you find out about this?" ”

Song Jiayin pursed her lips and said, "I just received the notice." ”

"You talk nonsense!" I roared angrily, pointed at her and said, "You are in a group with those old foxes, from the beginning you went to Nanjin to save me, just to use me, and you knew from the beginning that I would be discarded by you sooner or later, just like a dog!" So no matter how much I do, no matter how much I get into the play, I will never be able to move you, because you have always been the one who makes up the drama and watches the play! ”

Speaking of this, my nose was sour, I thought I had hated her before, until I fell into the river just now, and I thought of her, at that time I even thought, I shouldn't blame her, she Song Jiayin has her own mission and responsibility, she lives for the country, itself is a rare thing with a high wind and bright festival, I should forgive her.

Understanding? Hehe, I forgive her, who forgives me?

Song Jiayin's eyes were red, this was the first time I saw her teary eyes, in the past, my heart must have been pinched together, I would definitely blame myself for not being gentle, but now, I don't feel it at all, because I have despaired of her.

She said categorically: "I know it's hard for you to believe my words, but what I'm saying is the truth, and I didn't expect a sudden change of heart from above." ”

"You don't know?" I shouted at the top of my voice, "Is there anything in this world that you Song Jiayin doesn't know?" Aren't you smart? Don't you know everything? At the end of the day, you want to fool me with a sentence that you don't know? Song Jiayin, am I so stupid and so easy to deceive? You've played me over and over again, and now, I'm gone, haven't you had enough? ”

Uncle Er said in a deep voice: "Chen Ming, things are not what you think. ”

I raised my hand and motioned him not to speak, I clenched my fists and said, "Song Jiayin, I hope that after returning to Nanjin, you can completely disappear from my life, and I will try to forget you completely." Also, tell your superiors that next time they want to use me, they will marry Sister Shui to me, as for you, you have lost the qualification to dominate me! ”

After speaking, I slammed my coat to the ground and passed by Song Jiayin.

The cold wind was howling, the leaves were rattling, and the poisonous mosquitoes were shouting happily around people, and I walked towards the plane step by step in the cold wind, and her once gentle and beautiful voice came to my ears.

"My Song Jiayin's man must be single-minded."

"I'll give you half a year to see if you change me, or if I change you."

"Chen Ming, there will be a period later."

"I'm waiting for you to jump from Nanjin to the higher world, and when the time comes, I'll wait for you to accompany me in my world to see the scenery there......"

……

Every word she said, I still have it in my ears, her amorous style, her eccentric, her steady domineering, her playful and lovely, every side of her is like a treasure I treasure in my heart, I regard her as the pearl of the world, in my heart to preach how great she is, but in her eyes? I'm not just a pawn, I'm an outcast! She played with me thoroughly, and her greatness was built on my pain, what kind of greatness is that? This is nothing but selfishness and cruelty!

Behind him, Song Jiayin suddenly shouted loudly: "Chen Ming! ”

I stood there straight and didn't look back.

Song Jiayin's voice changed tone, and she asked, "Do you really not believe me?" ”

I laughed, and now what do you say to believe or not believe?

Song Jiayin asked in a stern tone: "I'll ask you one last time, do you really not believe me?" ”

I clenched my fists tightly, and a voice in my heart said to me, "Trust her once", and I just thought it was my own unproductive voice, and I muttered, "Do you remember what you said to me when we first met?" You say, 'Ten of me is not enough for the world to play', you say, 'Our world will not intersect', you say, 'There will be no time in the future', I believe so many of your later words, and now I realize that what I should believe most is your original words. My Chen Ming is just a small person, how can I be worthy of your high-ranking Miss Song? Will there be no time after that? Hahahaha, there will be no time after a good one! ”

With that, I rushed to the plane and found a remote corner to huddle there. After a long time, Song Jiayin and Uncle Er came up, Song Jiayin sat in the front, and Uncle Er came to my side, and soon, the plane took off, I closed my eyes sleepily, feeling cold and hot on my body, very uncomfortable.

Uncle Er pondered for a long time and said: "Chen Ming, I know you are very angry, but I hope you don't be impulsive, people, you have to think on the bright side, you think, you are at least free now, don't you say?" ”

I didn't speak, Uncle Er sighed and said, "When you get to Nanjin, I will help you make a comeback." ”

"Comeback?" I couldn't help but laugh and said, "That person is like a poisonous snake biting me to death, not to mention the comeback, I don't know when I will die." ”

Uncle Er hurriedly said: "No, the boss has already negotiated with that person, and he shouldn't touch you in a short time." ”

"Is this compensation for my pawn?" I couldn't help but laugh, but my heart was very cold.

Uncle Er didn't speak, just sighed deeply.

I opened my eyes abruptly and said, "I'm going back to the capital." ”

Uncle Er was embarrassed and said, "Chen Ming, the boss has ordered us to send you to Nanjin." ”

"Why?" I stood up and yelled, "I'm going to see my mom, I'm going to ask her, am I really her baby?" I'm going to ask her......"

Why doesn't she want me anymore?

She loves my father so much, and keeps the past love wholeheartedly, why do she let others take me away and refuse to support me for a day?

Uncle Er lowered his head and said in annoyance, "Your mother won't see you." ”

"Why? Isn't it enough that I have been abandoned by the whole world, but also by my mother? Or is I just a pawn in her eyes? I said in despair.

At this moment, I feel like I am fragile like a piece of glass that could easily shatter.

Uncle Er shook his head and said, "Chen Ming, don't think like this, your mother loves you more than anyone else, and the reason why she doesn't recognize you is because she doesn't want you to be charged as a traitor's son." What's more, she didn't have a choice at all. ”

What does it mean to not have a choice? I looked at Uncle Er, he looked at me, his eyes were full of sadness, I understood what he meant, I smiled helplessly, I asked weakly, "Does she know that I am her son?" ”

"Yes." Uncle Er said helplessly.

She ...... Do you really like me? ”

Thinking of the woman I didn't know very well, the nervous look she had when she saw me for the first time, the tenderness and sadness she felt when she saw me the second time, I felt like my heart was about to break, my father died unjustly, my mother was 'controlled' and couldn't recognize me, the woman I loved was still lying in bed unconscious, and my best brother was apologizing for me, locked up in the little dark room of Rausch.

My Chen Ming is really an out-and-out disaster star!

"Old man, you stay in the capital, Sister Shui still has to ask you to take care of it, besides, please help me keep an eye on my sister Chen Wei, who is studying at Beijing Normal University, and Bao Wen who is by her side. As for Nanjin, I'll do my best. "I stopped talking.

Uncle Er said in a deep voice: "How can this be? ”

I said, "I have made up my mind, old man, and I hope you will grant me this request." ”

Uncle Ear looked at me, was silent for a long time, sighed helplessly, and said, "I understand." ”

Then there was nothing to say all the way, and when the sky was slightly bright, the plane landed under a remote mountain, and I dragged my heavy body off the plane, and said without looking back: "No need to send it." ”

After saying that, I strode towards the mountain, I climbed to the top of the mountain, and then stood on a high place and looked at the ancient city, thinking with some sadness, I have come back, but I still have nothing.

But so what? From today onwards, I want to use these hands to get back everything that belongs to me!