When Xiao Jinxuan and the others rushed back to Beijing, there were only a few drops of drizzle falling sporadically in the sky

But it didn't take much time, and looking at the weather outside, it was already thundering, lightning and thunder, and the storm was wrapped in black and oppressive clouds, pouring down ragingly.

But on such a dark and rainy night with thunder and lightning, Xiao Jinxuan sat on the open ground in front of the imperial study, crying and tearing her heart and lungs.

And Xiao Jinxuan's hoarse cry was exhausted by the muffled thunder as soon as it came out of her mouth.

Even Xiao Jinxuan, the hot tears were washed away by the ruthless cold rain, just like everything between her and Zhou Xianyu, there will be nothing left after tonight.

never thought that the life and death parting between the two would come without any warning.

This is undoubtedly a blow that can completely crush Xiao Jinxuan, and she is really sad and painful now

Originally, I saw Xiao Jinxuan enter the imperial study, and Xiangping, who was quietly waiting outside the corridor.

She didn't expect that Xiao Jinxuan, who was in good shape before entering the imperial study, would have such an abnormal reaction after rushing out, so Xiangping was even a little frightened.

And when Xiangping came back to her senses, she couldn't care about the heavy rain and the thunderous sound that made her tremble.

Xiangping also knelt down beside Xiao Jinxuan, using his strength to eat, hoping to pull the other party up from the ground quickly, and said in distress and anxiety:

"Jinxuan, don't be like this, even if the seventh brother is gone, but if he has a spirit in the sky, he will never want to see you so sad and sad for him. I'll help you up, and your body won't be able to survive like this. ”

People with madness can only reduce the possibility of developing the disease if they control it on a daily basis.

Therefore, although Xiao Jinxuan and Concubine Liang couldn't bear to tell Xiangping the truth, they finally told her the truth because the other party's condition was not deteriorating.

And that meeting can be said to be the most fearful and difficult stage for Xiangping, it was because of Xiao Jinxuan's stay in the palace day and night that she gradually came out of the fear of the patient.

And everyone at the beginning was squeezed and persecuted Mo Linzhi because of their status.

Even when Xiang Ping was sneering and sarcastic, it was also Xiao Jinxuan and Zhou Xianyu who extended a helping hand in time and secretly helped her, so that she could meet Mo Linzhi before entering the palace again.

Therefore, seeing that now is the most painful time for Xiao Jinxuan, let alone calling Xiangping rain, even if it is a lightning bolt on her body, she will not abandon the other party.

This thunderous and rainy day, plus it was the second half of the night, so I wanted to find a palace maid and eunuch to help, but Xiangping couldn't find anyone.

And now, although they are in front of the palace of the imperial study, the forbidden army under the corridor is to protect the safety of Emperor Ming, even if someone dies in front of them, they will only stick to their positions.

Therefore, seeing that there was no helper around, Xiangping didn't dare to rush into the imperial study to start, so after trying a few times, he couldn't pull Xiao Jinxuan.

Immediately saw Xiangping, and suddenly raised her right hand, and slapped Xiao Jinxuan's right cheek hard, and then she cried with tears:

"Xiao Jinxuan, look at what you have become now, you just cried to death today, you were hacked to death by thunder, and my seventh brother can't come back. His death has nothing to do with you, if you do this to yourself, you will only make those who wish you die secretly laugh. ”

Xiao Jinxuan, who was sitting on the ground and was already crying hoarsely, even if Xiangping gave her a slap, she didn't seem to feel any pain.

Instead, he grabbed Xiangping's shoulders with a backhand, and then Xiao Jinxuan stared at her red eyes, and repeated like a demon in her mouth:

"No, no, his death is because of me, it was I who harmed Xianyu. If he hadn't met me, he wouldn't have died in this year. It's all my fault, I killed him with my own hands. ”

As soon as she finished saying this, Xiao Jinxuan didn't know where she got so much strength, so she pushed it with both hands, and threw Xiangping, who was about to continue to support her, directly to the ground.

As for Xiao Jinxuan herself, she staggered to her feet, and then spread her hands to the sides, letting the torrential rain hit her without hindrance.

But Xiao Jinxuan raised her head, and then her eyes were wrapped in tears, and she shouted in a miserable voice full of endless pain:

"God, if one of them is destined to die between me and Xianyu, then you can take my life and let him live well. Anyway, I'm also a person who died once, and I don't care if you take this life. But please give me back the Emperor, I am willing to exchange my life for a life, and I only hope that he can come back safely. ”

Above the dark clouds were shocking lightning, but Xiao Jinxuan stared at the sky without fear.

Even if she wanted a great thunderbolt to fall, as she wished, it would completely turn her into ashes.

If this is the case, it can change Zhou Xianyu's fate and let the other party regain his vitality safely, then it will be a catastrophe, and Xiao Jinxuan will definitely have no regrets.

But Xiao Jinxuan, who had a rebirth experience, did not agree to her request again this time.

Xiao Jinxuan, who had been waiting in the rain for a long time, saw that she was still unscathed, so she immediately put down her flat arms in a decadent manner, and then whispered:

"Why don't you kill me, why can't you bring Xianyu back to life. Then why did he ask me to be reborn in the first place, if he hadn't met me, he would have lived longer. If you know that the result of meeting him, wanting to love, and staying together is to tamper with the trajectory of his fate, then I, Xiao Jinxuan, would rather never meet you. Xianyu, do you know that my heart is really painful now, hundreds of times more painful than when my heart was stripped away, I really miss you Xianyu. ”

Speaking in such a low voice, Xiao Jinxuan looked in a trance and walked alone to the courtyard of the palace in the imperial study.

And Xiangping on the side wanted to stop the other party, but she was so tired as she was today.

So although Xiangping had the heart to chase, but his body couldn't stand up at all, and later when Deng Chang came out to take a look at it uneasily, he ordered someone to send her back to Yanqing Palace.

Speaking of Xiao Jinxuan, without Xiangping's care, and she was not very familiar with the environment in the palace, she walked aimlessly in the rain for a long time.

Before she knew it, she had come around to a lake of colored koi fish in a garden.

This lake full of carp, if viewed under the clear moonlight, it really has a poetic beauty.

But now on this dark thunderstorm night, standing outside, I can't help but feel depressed and panicked.

And Xiao Jinxuan was so good that she sat down curled up on a low rock by the lake.

It's also a pity that no one will pass by here in the middle of the night, otherwise if you see Xiao Jinxuan now, I'm afraid there will be a rumor in this palace, similar to the unjust death of the palace maid throwing herself into the lake, and the ghost appearing at night.

And this will be wet by the rain, Xiao Jinxuan, who is already numb and doesn't know the cold, is talking to the lake in front of her in a low voice with a light smile on the corner of her mouth.

"Xianyu, do you still remember the first time you returned to Beijing, you just wanted to put a river lantern for Concubine Rou Niangniang with me on the shore of Yingyue Lake, but I cruelly rejected you."

It seems that her thoughts are all immersed in memories, Xiao Jinxuan's eyes have always been clear and wise, but they will be in a daze.

"And you know, if you're giving me a chance, even if you're jumping into the lake and picking up the brocade with my name embroidered on it. But I will never be emotionally attached to you, because my **** turned out to be a poison that urged you to die. Why didn't I abandon my love, if I had let go earlier, you would definitely not have the disaster you have today. ”

In fact, this time, Xiao Jinxuan, although she was reluctant to give up when Zhou Xianyu set out on the expedition, was not very worried in her heart.

In the final analysis, the reason was because she knew that the other party had died on the battlefield of Emperor Ming in the forty-seventh year of Emperor Ming in his previous life.

And now it is the forty-third year of Emperor Ming, so according to the previous life, Zhou Xianyu should have no obstacle in this year.

But now Xiao Jinxuan knows that she is really wrong, because the fate of the other party has changed more than once because she is changing.

And this time Beirong came to attack, Zhou Xianyu did not go on the expedition in his previous life, Xiao Jinxuan did not know, but in this life, the other party really did not plan to go in person.

In the end, because he wanted to protect her and not let her become a bargaining chip to go to Beirong, Zhou Xianyu personally put on his armor and went into battle.

So no matter how she thought about it, Xiao Jinxuan felt more and more that the reason why the other party died this time was all caused by her.

I think of the words of the old Tao who looks sloppy on the outside but is like a god in the daytime.

Xiao Jinxuan even felt that she was a harmful disaster star, and she personally sent Zhou Xianyu to die.

Deeply immersed in self-blame and the double torture of missing Zhou Xianyu, Xiao Jinxuan suddenly felt that perhaps only death would be a permanent relief for her.

Standing up from the stone she was sitting on, Xiao Jinxuan looked at the front with an expressionless face, which should be a wide lake several meters deep.

"Do you remember that we were among the cliffs of Rabbit Ridge, before we fell down the cliffs. We have promised each other that we will stay together in this life and this life, and we will live and die together. So you should walk slowly on the Huangquan Road, and I will accompany you. Don't leave me alone to live, I don't want to turn back into the lonely ghost sealed in my heart in the days without you. ”

As soon as she finished speaking, Xiao Jinxuan stood on the edge of Liyu Lake, and then she closed her eyes with a smile.

Then I only heard a "plop", and Xiao Jinxuan's slender figure in the rain fell into the lake without the slightest hesitation.

A ripple rippled on the surface of the lake, and the surrounding fish were also frightened and swam away, but Xiao Jinxuan's figure completely disappeared into the lake, and there was no trace of it.