When I woke up, I found myself in a white hospital room. The head and chest, and even the hands and feet were covered with bandages, a bit like a mummy. The room was quiet, except for a woman in a dress sitting on a small stool and falling asleep on the edge of the bed.

She has a delicate and moving face, her black and silky hair half-covers her face, and when she sleeps, her eyebrows are still tightly twisted together, faintly with a touch of melancholy, and her eyelashes flutter from time to time, indicating that she is not sleeping well.

I woke up and opened my eyes for the first time and saw Zhang Qingqing waiting by my bedside, and I couldn't help but feel a soft touch in my heart, I stretched out a hand with difficulty to touch her face, but accidentally touched the wound on my body, and I couldn't help frowning.

Zhang Qingqing slept unsteadily, and woke up immediately after hearing the movement, she saw me wake up, and hurriedly came over to ask me how I felt?

I shook my head and said it was okay, so she went out and called the doctor on duty, and the doctor checked on me and said that I was seriously injured, and if it weren't for the fact that my body was good enough and my physique was strong enough, I might be in danger of my life if I was so bad. At the same time, he also asked me a very serious question, such as whether I am dizzy or not, and he said: "You have been hit hard in the head continuously, fortunately it is only a slight concussion now, and whether there will be sequelae will continue to be observed." ”

The doctor told me some details and what to look out for, and then left with the nurse.

There were only two people left in the ward, Zhang Qingqing and me, she didn't take the initiative to speak, and I didn't dare to squeak, and the atmosphere suddenly became a little embarrassing and strange.

I used to fight a lot, but Zhang Qingqing would be very angry every time and ask me what was going on, but like this time I was injured so badly, and even almost lost my life, this is an unprecedented situation, judging from Zhang Qingqing's complicated eyes, she is undoubtedly disappointed in me now, I have been injured and hospitalized again and again these days, and she has been worried and scared again and again, she said before that I have changed, in fact, it is not unreasonable.

I looked at her pretty face full of sadness, disappointment and worry, and couldn't help but move my lips and said, "Qingqing, in fact, this time the incident ......"

"No need to explain" Zhang Qingqing stood up and walked to the windowsill, leaving me with a lonely back, she said faintly: "Chen Yu, when did you become like this, fighting, drinking, making trouble, declining grades, and even now you almost lost your life." ”

I bit my lip to explain: "I ......"

Zhang Qingqing interrupted me and said, "Do you know, when I came to the hospital at night and saw you lying on an emergency stretcher covered in blood and being carried into the emergency room by the staff, do you know how worried and scared I was?" ”

I felt very guilty when I heard this, and whispered weakly, "I'm sorry ......"

"Don't say I'm sorry, you're like a wayward child, always scared and scared, always don't listen, every time I see you being chased with a knife, or covered in blood and too close to the emergency room. I'm really scared, I'm really tired, why are you like this, isn't it nice to be as obedient as you used to be? ”

I lay weak on the hospital bed, feeling more vulnerable than ever, and muttered, "I don't know why I did this, and I don't want to be like this, I'm sorry...... Sorry ......"

Zhang Qingqing didn't speak again, and there was a dead silence in the ward, and after a long time, Zhang Qingqing said slowly: "Yesterday afternoon, the leader of the Education Bureau talked to me once, and the leader intended to transfer me to an ordinary primary school in the countryside as the vice principal, and after a year of training, I was asked to be the principal of that primary school after the old principal of that school retired. ”

I was stunned when I heard this, and asked, "That township?" ”

Zhang Qingqing said: "Heilin Township, Qianhe Town, Anping County. ”

I disagreed, saying: "We have jurisdiction over one of the most remote counties in Lihai City, or the most remote towns and villages, the mountain roads are rugged and difficult, and it takes a day to drive back and forth by ourselves, so if you go there to teach, it is very difficult for us to meet once." ”

Zhang Qingqing said: "The leader of the Education Bureau said that this semester is almost over, so I am not in a hurry to reply to him, and I can reply to him before the start of the next semester." I was reluctant to leave No. 2 Middle School, but when I saw you like this tonight, I felt like I wanted to leave here and find a place to calm down. ”

I was just half killed by Jiang Haowen and others tonight, and I was forced to kneel, it was the most fragile time in my heart, but Zhang Qingqing told me that she couldn't stand this kind of life, she couldn't stand the days when she was worried about me day and night, she wanted to escape, she wanted to find a place to be quiet. This made me even more hurt and disappointed, my eyes looked at the white ceiling, and I said to myself: "It's all my fault, let's go, let's go, you all go, this path is my own choice, even if I kneel, I have to go down." ”

Listening to my words, Zhang Qingqing's shoulders couldn't help but tremble. Maybe, she said that she was leaving, just to get my retention and promise that she would not mix again, but I didn't expect me to be so stubborn and break through the south wall and not look back.

She turned, despair in her eyes, and said to get off to rest early, and then she walked out of the room.

When the door of the ward clicked shut, my tears fell, the serious injury of my body, the humiliation of my personality, and the departure of my beloved woman, completely crushed my emotions, so that my tears remained silently, who told me to meet the woman I wanted to protect the most at the most incapable age......

What I didn't know was that after Zhang Qingqing came out of the ward, she also squatted alone in the corridor covering her face and crying secretly.

In the distance, the nurse's duty room faintly floated the singing voice of SHE's classic song "He Still Don't Understand": Why didn't he come to hold me when I pushed the door open, he still didn't understand, he still didn't understand, he just wanted to be retained, love can definitely shake me......

I stared at the ceiling from my hospital bed for a long time, thinking about the past few days. Wang Huaqiang used Zhang Qingqing to threaten me, forced me to bow my head and compromise and sell my land; Tonight, Jiang Haowen found Yang Peng again, not only beat me to a serious injury, but also forced me to kneel; Now, even Zhang Qingqing has witnessed my accidents again and again, and finally can't bear to leave me to be quiet.

said a thousand things and ten thousand, all because I was not strong enough, I couldn't protect my property, I couldn't protect my brothers and friends, I couldn't protect my women, and I couldn't even protect myself. After a huge physical and psychological blow, I finally made a decision: I want to be stronger, I have already knelt for women, I have also knelt for my brothers, and from now on, only others will kneel in front of me, and no one else will kneel without me!

When the sky was just dawning, I picked up my mobile phone with difficulty and made a call to Li Mengting, my voice was still very weak, but it was very resolute: "Sister Ting, I want to go to hell!" ”

"Hell?" Li Mengting was stunned for a moment, then laughed and said, "Stupid, that's Infernal Purgatory, not hell." ”

I said slowly, "It doesn't matter if it's purgatory or hell, I want to become stronger, I want to participate in this tempering." ”

Li Mengting was a little surprised that I, who had never been interested in going to Infernal Purgatory, would suddenly find her and say that she wanted to participate in the tempering, and she asked curiously: "Are you stimulated, where are you now, I will come to you immediately." ”

I told Li Mengting the address of the hospital where I lived, and half an hour later, Li Mengting, who was dressed up in a bewitching and moving manner, appeared in my ward, and she was also taken aback when she saw my miserable appearance, and asked me if I was okay?

I shook my head and said, "I can't die." ”

Li Mengting asked me about my situation and said to me very seriously: "Are you really sure that you are going to Infernal Purgatory, I hope you make a decision after much thought, because the people who step there have only a 50% chance of coming back alive, and I don't want you to lose your life because of the reckless decision you made out of a moment of anger." ”

I said with a blank face, "I'm sure I'm going, and I'm convinced I'm more sober and sane now than ever." ”