This night, after returning to the scenic spot, I didn't go back to the hostel immediately, in front of a familiar barbecue stall, drunk myself with wine, those who wanted to put aside right and wrong, but took advantage of my lax consciousness all poured out.

Xi'an in July is hot and dry, a person drinks and is particularly easy to get drunk, the hot wind blows people in a panic, I staggered away from the barbecue stall, did not take a few steps, the accumulated wine suddenly rushed up, with only consciousness, I hurriedly walked back.

Urging small steps, when I saw the sign of the hostel, my nerves finally relaxed, but my head became more and more dizzy, my body suddenly softened, and I fell to the ground and fell asleep.

When I woke up, I was lying on a cement slab outside the small yard, with a washcloth on my forehead and a bottle of yogurt beside me.

With a splitting headache, I lay motionless, staring blankly at the twinkling stars in the sky......

The neon lights in front of the courtyard were unusually bright, and the shadows of the trees falling on the ground swayed in the wind, I sat up and shook my head vigorously, the blurred world gradually became real, and the tourists around me looked at me strangely.

I was trying to stand up from the stone slab with my hands propped up, when a comfortable woman's fragrance drifted into my nostrils with the night wind, and I turned my head to see that it was Li Shi, who seemed to have just returned from shopping at a small supermarket nearby.

After standing up from the stone slab, I tried my best to maintain my balance, pointed at Li Shi and said, "You put the towel on my head, right?" This man is coming and going, why don't you help me into the house! ”

"I don't know what you're talking about."

"Don't pretend, it's clear that you're not righteous."

"I thought someone was going to drive you in a car and take you away?"

I was nervous, and I said, "What are you saying, I don't understand......"

"What's the difference between understanding and not understanding?" With that, Li Shi walked towards the courtyard.

I grabbed her arm, pulled her back, and said word by word in an explanatory tone: "What an accident today, I didn't know she would come to me." ”

Li Shi pushed my hand away, rubbed his arm and said, "There's nothing to explain, I see that you are in a good mood, you have drunk so much wine and eaten with beautiful women, you are happy in your heart, right?" ”

"I really don't know why she came to me, and I drank by myself, if you don't believe it, you can go to the barbecue stall owner to confirm it."

Li Shi still said indifferently: "Do you think I will pay attention to your private life?" ”

"You're obviously disgusted with me eating with other people, aren't you?"

Li Shi glanced at me but didn't answer, just tuddled her loose hair, obviously unwilling to answer my boring question.

"I won't."

"Won't anything? Won't you be so drunk, or won't you be drunk and lie in front of this store? ”

"I'm really not drunk, you see I didn't take a catwalk, I didn't spin in place, if you're interested, I can give you a square dance."

"Since you're not drunk, I'll tell you about it, what if I'm now the general manager and sell the hostel to the turnover business?"

"Are you kidding?"

"Do you think I'm joking?"

I pointed at Li Shi angrily, with the disappointment of being teased, and laughed angrily: "Compared to you, a young lady, driving a luxury car, with a wave of your hand, you can buy a store that others may not necessarily win for half their lives." In life, you can tease a little person like me as much as you want, I don't care about this, because you are rich! But you, how can you gamble on other people's futures, to achieve your worthless selfish desires, do you think it's fun for me to rely on this hostel every day? If you want me to repeat the old saying, that's good! The store didn't receive an order for a month, and I had to pay seven or eight thousand property fees every month, and hearing the word "sold" was more terrible than death...... Having said this, I just want to tell you, don't play with one's future with your willfulness! ”

Li Shi looked at me, her eyes clear and mysterious, but I couldn't be sure if her soul was also repenting, but I wouldn't forget that she in front of me firmly said that she would drive the hostel down.

"Don't you want to be quiet? I have granted your wish, and I will move out of here. From tonight onwards, even if you live on the streets, don't be cheeky and stay here, why don't you go to the hotel opposite! ”

"Let's go!"

After speaking, I turned around and left Li Shi behind me quickly, without looking back.

In the night, I thought as I walked, asking myself: Is this the truth I insist on? Perhaps, this is not the truth, it is the self-deprecation and stubbornness after being overdrawn by life, and the helplessness of the world......

I am getting farther and farther away from the hostel, but I am not really relaxed because of this, the people on the streets of the scenic spot come and go, and the laughter and laughter still set off my loneliness and helplessness in this city.

After going around, I subconsciously returned to the hostel, and sat on the steps in front of the door again, feeling irritable, the source of irritability came from the hostel that was about to be sold again, and the job that could be lost at any time.

I'm ridiculous, I never seem to be able to decide my own life, and often other people's three moves and two ways will shatter my love, work and life, such as Lao Gou, such as Jiang Laiyue, such as Li Shi......

……

Originally, I thought I would be so irritable, but as the drunkenness slowly subsided, I became more and more sober, habitually looked around, and thought carefully about Li Shi's words, and always felt that she seemed to be negative before saying this, it is now the peak season, no matter how bad the hostel is, it is also profitable, how could she choose to sell it at this time?

After hesitating for a moment, I cautiously walked through the antechamber, slowing down as much as I could, and sneaking back to my cabin with a thief's heart, only to find that the door of my room was ajar, and the light had suddenly gone out again.

I turned on the flash of my mobile phone, pushed the door open, and the scene in front of me was too terrifying, I lost my soul, and I was so frightened that I slammed the door and retreated, almost falling behind......

In the hut, Li Shi was wearing white pajamas, squatting on the ground with a mobile phone flash, and when I pushed the door in, she instinctively turned her head, her scattered hair and black mask, the picture was too weird.

I leaned in the doorway and asked, "Are you ...... What are you doing in my room? ”

"Where's your room?"

"Don't talk to me about it, what are you doing squatting here without turning on the lights?"

"You didn't see that the light was just broken, I just came over for a routine check to see if you had any contraband hidden, you are a young man who has been running rent all year round, what qualifications do you have to care what I do?"

"You go to a single man's room to look for contraband, I'm afraid that my heart won't be able to bear what you find."

"Oh, yes, how scary?" Li Shi asked rhetorically.

I sneered: "At this point in the topic, is it time to enter the bridge of the new store manager driving people again?" ”

"You're thinking too much, I want to talk to you."

Li Shi replied unexpectedly, I pointed to myself, and said in disbelief: "You, take the initiative to talk to me?" ”

This incredible thing was confirmed by her nod again, Li Shi's mobile phone flash shone on the document in her hand, and said: "It's not about talking about the heart, it's about this theme photography plan." ”

Li Shi held the preliminary plan I had made in the afternoon, and before I had time to listen to her revisions, I followed Jiang Laiyue and sneaked away.

"Go get a light bulb in the storage room and put it on, I'll wait for you in my room to talk about my thoughts on this project."

"Why are you so weird, jealous?"

Li Shi didn't know why, and came to say: "Inexplicable." ”

I said forcefully: "If you are either jealous, or you have a guilty conscience, why don't you ask about Jiang Laiyue's visit tonight and my dependence?" ”

"You're really a wicked person to sue first, don't be narcissistic, I'm not interested in your private life, I only care about Amy's filming progress now, and the company's upcoming business peak, as for you and others "ouch", "hehe", I don't pay attention to anything. ”

"I don't understand, why do you have to think so badly of me?"

"Don't you think it's a blessing in misfortune that you can stand in your room and talk to me?"

"I should be grateful to you for that."

"No need." Li Shi took the opportunity to answer me in three words.

Me: "......"

……

After changing the light bulb, I went to Li Shi's room, where she sat at her desk and looked at my plan.

She seemed to be used to my rudeness, and did not react to me entering the room without her permission.

I walked up behind her, glanced at her and asked, "What do you think of it after watching it for a long time?" ”

Li Shi ignored me, and her attention was still on the documents she was reading.

I just stood like this, but I was thinking about how to take the opportunity to tell Li Shi about my intention to continue living here, after all, such an opportunity to communicate calmly is rare.

"Do you think it's appropriate to stand behind a woman in the dead of night?" Li Shi asked me coldly.

"Look, what you're saying is too outrageous, I'm not afraid of disturbing you." I hurriedly said.

"Straight to the point!"

"Oh......" I replied, and asked flatteringly, "By the way, have you had dinner today?" ”

Li Shi closed the file and looked at me with a frown, and said, "Do you think you will starve to death if I leave you?" ”

"Look at what you said, just after you finished talking about it, you see that you are digressing again, tell me how about my theme planning!"

"I'm afraid you don't want to hear it."

"Then don't talk about it."

Li Shi looked at me with displeasure.

I hurriedly made a joking expression and motioned for her to continue.

Putting the planning aside, Li Shi didn't want to pay much attention to my playfulness, and kept calm: "You named the theme of your travel copywriting "Banished to the Distance by Happiness", which is a good idea, but I just communicated with Amy, and she said that from a photographer's point of view, the scene planned in your copy does not seem to have any innovative thinking. ”

"With a single sentence, she completely denied all my core content, this person is really arbitrary and rogue."

"What did you say?"

I immediately got down to business, folded my arms over my chest, leaned on the desk, and said, "It seems that you are full of thoughts, so you can talk about it." ”

Li Shi didn't care about my tone, picked up the pen and circled a text: "I really have a lot of ideas, for example, this idea of shooting next to a dilapidated ship might as well be replaced with a coastline as a background." The blue water and clear sky, the sound of the waves in the sea and the chirping of seagulls in the air, the white waves on the bow of the ship and the endless water in front of the ship are intertwined with the eternal romantic scene of the sea and sailing. At this time, a boat appears in the picture, and the boat not only means transportation, but also means opening up a new life, which highlights the idea of the word "exile", and on the other hand, shooting a boat can also allow the photographer to be creative and make a new interpretation of angle, composition, and exposure. ”

I stood up straight, looked at Li Shi in surprise, and my perception of her at this moment: from a cold and beautiful appearance in an instant, it extended to a deep inner cultivation temperament, and the ideas she came up with were no less than the planning made by the top copywriters of advertising companies.

"No wonder you are so good at painting, you have such an insight into the laws of aesthetics, then you can help me see how this "road" theme is doing. ”

Li Shi's slender fingers slowly tapped on the tabletop, and said unhurriedly: "It's no problem to help you see, but you have to promise me one thing." ”

"I'm also working for the company, who is helping whom?"

"Then I don't care."

I looked at her calmly, and I always felt that the calmer she became, the more she was trapping me, and if I opened my mouth and let me completely disappear in this hostel, how should I answer this?

"You say it first, and then I'll think about whether to say yes."