Chapter 174: Pain into the Bone Marrow Add more to the crystal shoes of the cat in the water.
The kitchen is also extremely simple, with only simple dishes and chopsticks and two pots. There are some noodles on the kitchen counter next to it, and a few packets of instant noodles that I don't know when I bought them.
Aside from the occasional compromise, this should be the first time he has lived in such a humble place. It was already dinner time, but he didn't go to the kitchen, but stood down at the window on the side of the living room.
Outside should be the vegetable patch left by the previous owner. For a long time, no one took care of it, and there were many wild grass and vines. In this hot summer day, it is even more crazy, and some have already climbed to the wall.
Cheng Rongjian couldn't control it and lit it again, when he was with the little guy, he didn't have a bit of a cigarette addiction. But alone here, his addiction to smoking is very big.
Just like the two nights when Guo Shu was there, he almost kept his cigarette burning until dawn. My mind was very clear, and I wasn't sleepy at all.
Cheng Rongjian stood for a while and dusted off the cigarette ash in his hand, and suddenly remembered the scene when he saw the little guy for the first time.
Seeing her holding the little one, his head exploded. His first reaction was his son at that time.
When she got pregnant, he didn't even know at all. He's up to now. Still don't dare to think about it, how did she come here alone?
In his mind, the affection revealed in the milky voice of the little guy when he called Guo Shu Guo's father came to his mind. His chest suddenly ached, but he couldn't have cleared it. It is not Guo Shu who is standing between him and her now.
Before Cheng Rongjian finished the cigarette in his hand, the mobile phone rang again. He looked at it, it was still Anan calling, he snuffed out the cigarette butt, picked it up, and asked, "What's the matter?" ”
Anan hesitated on the phone for a moment, and then said, "Miss Ding doesn't know where she heard the news of your return, saying that she wanted to see you. ”
Cheng Rongjian held the phone and didn't move, hung up the phone after a while, took his coat and hat and went out.
Probably because I made an appointment with Cheng Rongjian to come over. Jiang Guangguang coaxed the little guy to bed early. The little one was particularly energetic tonight, and his throat was almost dry when she told bedtime stories, and he fell asleep.
Jiang Guangguang took his phone and looked at the time. It's only 8:40. She looked at the little one again, and then gently got up and went out to close the door.
The living room was quiet, and she was a little empty. Standing and exuding a sigh, thinking about how to talk to Cheng Rong Jian later.
She stood for about ten minutes before she opened the door and went out. Outside. She subconsciously looked towards the door.
The time has not yet come, but Cheng Rongjian is already standing outside the door, it should have been a while, leaning aside and smoking.
Jiang Guangguang didn't say a word, walked over, and opened the door.
Cheng Rongjian turned around when he heard her footsteps, he was carrying some pastries in his hands, which should have been bought at the pastry shop that often queued up.
Jiang Guangguang only glanced at it, and said in a low voice, "Come in, you can sit over there." As she spoke, she pointed to a stone bench not far away.
Cheng Rongjian answered with a hoarse voice, and handed the pastry in his hand to Jiang Guangguang. Jiang Guangguang looked at it, and finally took it. After saying thank you, he walked towards the house.
Cheng Rongjian had just sat down on the stone bench, and she took a cup and poured a cup of tea. put it in front of Cheng Rongjian.
Cheng Rongjian wanted to say thank you like her, but she couldn't say it, so she was silent.
This is undoubtedly strange and alienating. Jiang Guangguang was in a trance for a moment. Obviously, there is a lot to say, but at this moment, not a word can be spoken.
After a while, she looked at Cheng Rongjian and said, "I came to you to talk about making trouble." ”
Mention of the little one. Cheng Rongjian's body stiffened. He originally thought that Jiang Guangguang would deny that the little guy was his son. But it didn't.
She smiled faintly and said seriously, "His arrival." Just an accident. I gave birth to him, not because of anyone, but because he was my child, and that's it. After a slight pause, she continued, "So, you don't have to think about what to bear. He's my child. I don't need anyone to be responsible. ”
When she said this, her tone softened slightly, and she continued, "You are related by blood. This is a fact that cannot be erased. I don't have the authority to make any decisions for him, so I thought about it. You can come and see him or take him out to play. But, the premise of these. is not to affect our lives. ”
Every word she said was like a sharp blade, dissecting Cheng Rongjian to the point where it was incomplete.
His addiction to cigarettes is back at this point. I tried to reach for the cigarette and get it out, but I didn't move. After a long time, he answered in a hoarse voice.
Jiang Guangguang looked at him. He smiled faintly and said, "You are affecting our lives now." ”
Cheng Rongjian should have expected her turning point here, so she didn't speak. After a while. He said, "I just want to accompany him." ”
The smile on Jiang Guangguang's face faded, and a little indifference appeared, and he said, "I said you could accompany him." Yes now, and it will be possible in the future. But you come every day, and after a long time, he will inevitably develop a dependence on you. After a pause, she said lightly: "It's good here, I don't want to move again." ”
The final move is obviously a reminder to Cheng Rongjian. She can not accept what she says, but she can move, she can get out of the way.
She has considered all of these. Cheng Rongjian already has his own family, and he can't stay with the little guy for a long time.
There are many things that she is powerless. All she can do is minimize the damage to the little one. Long-term companionship, get along with feelings and then separate. It was undoubtedly cruel to him. Occasional companionship, like playmates and friends, can be sad to be separated, but at least it won't be so painful and heartbreaking.
She has always been decisive, and she never hesitates to make decisions when it is time to do so. Cheng Rongjian didn't know what he was feeling in his heart, his eyes stayed on Jiang Guangguang's body, and after a while, a faint smile appeared on his face, and he nodded in response.
After a slight pause, he asked, "When can I see him?" ”
Jiang Guangguang didn't know why he was laughing, but he quickly calmed down. She had already thought about it, and said, "Once a week, Saturday or Sunday." See the timing of the time. You can come over on a Saturday and I'll let you know in advance if there's anything going on. ”
Cheng Rongjian hummed, paused slightly, and said, "My number hasn't changed." ”