In the next ward.

Gu Junyan sat on the sofa and worked on the documents, but a document was held in his hand for a long time and he didn't turn it over.

"With your efficiency, how did Huazhu develop."

Gu Maohe, who was lying on the bed, also adjusted the bed at some point, lay up, and looked at Gu Junyan who was sitting there with his eyes open.

I saw that he didn't move a document in his hand for a long time, obviously absent-minded.

"Grandpa, can you not scare me, suddenly make a noise and scare people." Gu Junyan dropped the documents in his hand and glanced at his grandfather helplessly.

In this quiet ward, there was a sudden noise, which frightened him.

"Just your guts, don't say it's my Gu Maohe's grandson!" Gu Maohe glanced at him disdainfully when he heard Gu Junyan's words, and there were two big words of disgust written on his face.

“……”

Gu Junyan listened to those words and remained silent. With his head bowed slightly, he glanced at the door.

Gu Maohe looked at his actions, and said to himself: "An An is resting next door?" ”

Looking at his absent-minded appearance, I knew that An An must have paid little attention to him.

"Youjia is here, the two are talking next door." Gu Junyan's words replied lightly, as if he was a little sour.

Gu Maohe listened to his words for a moment, and then rolled his eyes at him speechlessly, "Youjia is here, why are you sad, you are not a rival in love!" ”

Look at this kid's life!

It's really embarrassing for him Gu Maohe more and more!

"Needless to say, the rival in love may be more effective than coming, just now I just suddenly thought of Nian An's joy to see Youjia......

Anyway, he had been with her for so long, and she hadn't smiled so happily in front of him.

Although Li Youjia is not a rival in love, in Nian Anxin, he may not be as good as Youjia.

Let's talk about this Ji Beichuan, the man is calm, but if he doesn't come, I'm afraid that Nian An will not be able to let him go.

Otherwise, he wouldn't be preoccupied by his side every day, and his eyes were also disgusted and helpless.

"Heh, you eat all this vinegar? Look at your appearance, it's really ......" Gu Maohe was stunned when he heard Gu Junyan's words, and his face was speechless for an instant.

"You kid is really getting more and more naïve!" Gu Maohe complained to Gu Junyan.

"It's natural for An An to be happy when she sees Youjia, as for being in front of you...... To put it bluntly, you did it yourself! Who told you to do all that kind of before? ”

Although Gu Maohe is sick, he is still full of breath, and he doesn't want to be a sick person when he listens to it!

"I'm not...... I'm not ......" Gu Junyan said and sighed, looking aggrieved.

"What is, if you want me to say, it's cowardice!" Gu Maohe glared at him angrily.

“……”

Gu Junyan listened to those words and remained silent. After a while, he said unconvinced: "I'm just ...... I just don't want to see Nian An so embarrassed! ”

"Now, Nian'an is not embarrassed?" Gu Maohe glared at this bastard boy.

“……”

"It's only going to be harder now." Gu Maohe stared at him for a while, and sighed helplessly.

"Between me and him, her heart ......"

Who will be more preferred.

Gu Junyan couldn't even be sure, just as his grandfather said, in this relationship, he sometimes didn't dare to think deeply about it.

"Xiao Yan, in your heart, do you think grandpa loves your grandma or ...... Or is it Grandma Nian who is in love? ”

The two were silent for a while, and Gu Maohe suddenly asked.

It's just that the words asked made Gu Junyan stunned.

He looked at Gu Maohe for a while, as if he didn't react, what did his grandfather just say.

"What do you ask?" Gu Maohe was a little irritated by Gu Junyan's eyes.

He is such an old person, and he still talks about love and love, but it seems to be ...... Very improper!

What's more, it's still ......

"Did Grandpa tell me the truth, or did he ......"

"Naturally, it's the truth! Why should I listen to lies! Gu Maohe listened to his slurring words and interrupted impatiently.

"Naturally, it's Grandma Nian'an, it's not ...... Not well known. Gu Junyan's words were a little stupid.

The children of the Gu family basically know some of the ...... between grandpa and Grandma Nian'an Those old days.

Although the specific situation, the children of their generation are not so clear, but most of them know that their grandfather is fond of Nian'an's grandmother, so they are so fond of Nian'an.

Grandpa's love for Nian'an surpassed all the children of the Gu family, and it also showed that grandpa's feelings for Nian'an's grandmother were very deep, because I heard that An'an actually looked like her grandmother when she was young, both in character and appearance.

So......

Gu Junyan looked at his grandfather's expression.

Although the Gu family knew about this, no one would dare to mention it in front of the old man.

If it weren't for Grandpa suddenly asking such a question by himself today, and he hadn't forced him to answer, he wouldn't have thought about it much.

"Yes, the entire Gu family thinks so, right?" Gu Maohe listened to Gu Junyan's words, and seemed to be a little talking to himself.

As he spoke, he couldn't help but smile self-deprecatingly.

"Ah Yan, if grandpa later found out that the person he really loved was not Grandma Nian'an, but your grandmother, would you believe it?" Gu Maohe withdrew his melancholy gaze looking at the white ceiling and looked towards Gu Junyan.

Gu Junyan's heart moved slightly at his grandfather's eyes, and his heart was beating a little chaotic for a while.

"Yes...... But grandma she ...... She ...... before she left."

Gu Junyan remembered the look in her grandmother's eyes when she went, and she looked at her grandfather and didn't know whether she was too sad or relieved to be finally relieved.

"This is also where grandpa I am sorry for your grandma, and I won't understand until she dies...... to see your own heart! Gu Maohe looked at the ceiling in a daze, his words were full of helplessness and melancholy, but his old and dark eyes were full of guilt and grief.

"Grandpa......"

Gu Junyan heard his grandfather talk about it for the first time...... Speaking of his feelings.

This kind of thing, no one in the Gu family dares to ask grandpa, and no one goes back to talk about it.

The older generation may have resentment in their hearts, but everyone understands in their hearts that feelings can't be reluctant.

They are all people of the new era who have received new ideas and new education, and they are not completely incomprehensible to grandpa's marriage and feelings at that time, and even my father occasionally sighs for grandpa, feeling that grandpa is too wrong in this life.

Therefore, for Nian'an, my father is also full of kindness and love.

"Your father and uncle all know, I have a deep love with Grandma Nian'an since childhood, she has stayed in the foreign country and has knowledge and thoughts, and all the girls I have seen are different, she is as dazzling as the new rising sun in the East, and when I see her, I seem to be full of inexhaustible strength. I just feel that the future is all good and hopeful. ”

"But I know that I am not worthy of her, I am a poor boy, when I went to join the army, the entanglement on the road was secretly stuffed to me by Grandma Nian'an, at that time everyone was not optimistic about us, but she thought that I would be successful in the future, she said that she waited for me to come back to marry her, and when she said this, she was not ashamed or embarrassed at all. But I couldn't say a word of cowardice, I was excited and afraid. I don't know if I have the life to come back, and I'm afraid that I will fail her. ”

Gu Maohe recalled that when he was young, the corners of his mouth occasionally rose, and his eyebrows occasionally frowned, making people feel that his grandfather was vividly at the moment as if he was back in his youth, like a young man, green and immature.

Later, when I went to the battlefield, the smoke of gunpowder was filled with bullets, and I was afraid that I would not be able to go back, but I was even more afraid that I would not have the face to go back to see her. But no one could have imagined that in a battle, I would be seriously wounded. I was buried in the pile of the dead, I was mistaken for a sacrifice, and I couldn't even find the corpse, I think Grandma An An must have been very sad when she heard the news of my death in battle. Political Commissar Shen, who was fighting with me at the time, went to her house in person to reassure her and tell her the news. ”

"This Shen political commissar is also Grandpa An An, Grandpa An An and I are comrades-in-arms, close comrades-in-arms, every time I communicate and send letters with Grandma An An, I can't write words, I don't understand words, I have to ask him, he also knows what I did with Grandma An An before, and always jokes about me, saying that I am curious about what the girl looks like, which makes my heart look like this, and I always blow Grandma An An like a fairy, which makes the Shen political commissar even more curious."

"Political Commissar Shen went to Qinmei's house, and after seeing her, he looked at Grandma Nian'an sadly and sadly, and he felt uncomfortable, and both of them are also knowledgeable people who have stayed abroad, I think compared to me, maybe Shen Yuechong understands her better than me, and has a common language. And every time I went to the battlefield, I also said that if I couldn't go back alive, I would ask him to help tell Grandma An An to take care of them, so gradually they walked together in sadness, and I can't blame them! It can only be said that providence makes people. ”

Speaking of this, Gu Maohe sighed helplessly, it has been so many years, but in retrospect, although there is no longer the heartbreaking in his heart, there is still this faint melancholy.

"Grandpa has been trapped in this pain for a long time and can't get out, just think about how hard he crawled out of the pile of dead people in his life, and returned to his hometown after a lot of hardships, originally wanted to tell her, I came back alive, I am still alive, I can marry her, but I don't want to ...... I don't want her to be married to someone else, and that person is still my best brother on the battlefield, this kind of pain...... tortured my grandfather for most of my life, and trapped my grandfather for most of my life, so that in the end, when I finally saw clearly and recognized that I had let go, I could ...... But your grandmother is gone. ”

He finally went back, but he didn't want the woman he loved the most to be with his best brother and get married......

At that moment, Gu Maohe only felt that his whole world had collapsed.

Gu Junyan listened to those pasts, those pasts that he had known, and he was already a little fascinated.

Although he has heard about the affairs between grandpa and Grandma Nian'an, grandpa and grandpa, they are all obscure and fragmentary rumors, and the adults in the family are silent about the love, love and hate of the older generation in front of their children.

Even the occasional talk behind the scenes is very subtle and cautious.

What's more, even the father may not know so much about these things.

Grandpa said what he said for so long, but Gu Junyan couldn't stop worrying and being shocked when he heard it.

He was surprised by the twists and turns of his relationship with his grandfather, and he also felt sorry for his grandfather......

He never thought that his grandfather's feelings would be such an experience, is this the so-called, is it providential?

"This incident once made me decadent and depressed for a long time, until I continued to plunge into the exciting battlefield, and since then on the battlefield, your grandfather and I have become the so-called single-handed demon king who is not afraid of death, and it is also because of this that I have made a meritorious service. If it weren't for the stimulation, I wouldn't have died unwanted. Gu Maohe couldn't help but smile when he said this.

But Gu Junyan looked at his grandfather's smile, but he only felt very sad.

Although Grandpa said it so lightly, he felt distressed when he thought about it.

At that time, the grandfather may have felt that his life had some value and meaning only when he was on the battlefield.

"Don't look like an old man, I'm going to die, I've already seen these things, grandpa." Gu Maohe looked at Gu Junyan's eyes that were about to turn red, and couldn't help but laugh.

"Look at your appearance, how can you still ...... How to coax my wife back! Gu Maohe said angrily.

"Grandpa, you said so much, shouldn't it be Grandma An An who you love deeply, why did you just ......"

In fact, when Gu Junyan listened to his grandfather's words for so long, he didn't blame his grandfather for thinking about Grandma Nian'an at all.

"Yes, all the people who know this relationship, all the people who know this past, including myself, feel that I love Qinmei in my life, after all, I have been so unforgettable, after all, I love so deeply but I regret it for a lifetime, but I know that later, after your grandmother died, I realized that for so many years, my heart has actually been let go, so many years ago, so unwilling, maybe just because I missed it, maybe just because I didn't get it, but after your grandma left, I really understood......"

"I understand that for so many years, in those days with your grandmother, some feelings have unconsciously invaded your life blood, but because she has always been, always in a place where you can touch and see, so she will always be ignored, I have not cared, I feel that my real feelings are not her, and my real love is not her, I and my grandmother were just a random match in the organization, she likes me, she has been actively chasing me, I know, but, At that time, I didn't care, and I felt that I couldn't get out of the previous relationship, but when I got old, my superiors were looking for a conversation, and I broke the jar, thinking about marrying whoever was not the same, not to mention that your grandmother was still a flower in the army at that time, and there were many people who liked it. I don't think it's a loss to marry. ”

"It turns out that at that time, my grandfather still regarded marriage as a business." Gu Junyan couldn't help but tease when he heard that. But my heart has been sullen and blocked.

can't say that grandpa is wrong, but in this relationship, it is really unfair to grandma.

"Yes, feelings are not a deal, in the end, my deal is not a loss, sometimes ah, no matter how smart a person is in the relationship, he will become sluggish, become wooden, become a tendon, will not be able to see his true heart, only in the ...... When you really lose, you will understand what you have lost, do you know Xiaoyan? ”

Gu Maohe looked at Gu Junyan and said with a heavy gaze.

Gu Junyan's eyes on his grandfather contained too much, remorse, helplessness, guilt, and hope......

That remorse is for grandma, that guilt is also for grandpa, and that hope is for him, grandpa hopes that he can ......

He can understand.

Gu Junyan and Gu Maohe looked at each other like this, and for a while, neither of them took their eyes off each other.

looked into the eyes of the other party, making him seem to have seen his grandfather confused, confused, remorseful and sad in his relationship over the years, and in the end, he could only regret it for life.

"Grandpa, you mean ......"

Gu Junyan and his grandfather looked at each other for a long time before he gradually came back to his senses.

His head was a little confused, and he tried hard to come to his senses, calm down, and think about what happened between himself and Nian'an.

The relationship between him and Nian'an.

The relationship between Nian An and Ji Beichuan.

The three of them, like a triangle, were entangled with each other, as if a good exit could free the three of them.

In these two relationships between him and Nian'an, Ji Beichuan and Nian'an.

Ji Beichuan and Nian'an are just like grandpa and Nian'an's grandmother.

Their acquaintance and love first opened, and the intense and vigorous love left a deep trace in the moment of each other's youth and growth.

Those traces, those strong and fiery feelings, those unforgettable love and pain, all left indelible memories on Nian An and Ji Beichuan.

This is also the reason why Nian An has been marrying him for so many years, and she has been blocking herself and locking herself in this painful pain.

Just because they used to love too strongly, how much they loved at the beginning, how much pain she has had over the years.

And these, he has always known, he knows so rationally how deep the relationship between her and Ji Beichuan is, so he will do such a stupid thing of letting go at the beginning of the year.

It was because he knew too well what Ji Beichuan and Nian An represented, so Gu Junyan couldn't let it go.

Maybe in the relationship between Nian'an and Ji Beichuan, the person who is really lingering and can't let go is not Nian'an, but him.

It's that he can't let go!

Therefore, after he discovered his feelings for Nian'an, he was sometimes angry and sometimes jealous.

Because he refused to admit it, and he didn't dare to admit it, he fell in love with Nian'an, but Nian'an was pretending to be another man in his heart, which was a great torture and heartache for him who was too possessive.

However, in her heart, does she really not let go?

Or did she not see it herself?

Just like her grandfather all these years, she hasn't seen her heart clearly?

Gu Junyan was still a little confused.

But what about Nian An and him?

Isn't it like grandpa and grandma over the years?

Their union was not out of love, and at first, there was not such a strong and deep affection between them.

Grandpa and grandma are just choices that have no choice.

And what about him and Nian'an?

He and she both knew very well that their marriage began with a transaction.

A loveless transaction with no feelings, only this mutual desire.

However, in the five years that he has been married to her, they have no love, but they are not really without any feelings.

At least he was tempted.

He, Gu Junyan, has never been a person who deceives himself.

From the moment he found out his feelings for Nian'an, he pressed step by step.

Because of fear, because of fear, he took possession of her body domineeringly.

Even if she hated him, he still did it.

It's just because he wants to know that he wants to possess her, and he wants to have her completely!

An An resisted at first.

Yes, she hated him and resisted him, but what about later......

Later her heart ......

Did you move too?

From the moment she saw him bring Yang Yuwei home.

From the moment she rushed out of Gu's house, from the time she left him, her heart ......

Thinking of this, Gu Junyan was suddenly stunned.

He suddenly thought, is it at this time, Nian'an's heart, she herself understands!

Gu Junyan, who was sitting there, suddenly had a frantic beating in his heart.

He seemed to understand what had happened during the time between him and Nian'an.

At that moment, Nian An understood it!

But......

But she understood herself, but she didn't fully understand him!

She thought that the woman in his heart was Yang Yuwei, not her, so the moment she saw him again in Beihe Village, Nian An was extremely angry.

She resisted him, but that resistance was not because she didn't love him or dislike him, but because she ......

She misunderstood him!

"Ayan ......"

Gu Maohe saw Gu Junyan sitting there, his expression changed a little worryingly, and he couldn't help but speak.

Grandpa opened his mouth to call him, interrupting Gu Junyan's chaotic and seemingly straightforward train of thought.

But......

But later, he explained it to her.

Is it that she doesn't believe it, or is it in her heart......

Ji Beichuan!

Or is it because of Ji Beichuan, isn't it.

Between the three of them, there are some things that can't be bypassed.

Even if she saw her heart clearly, she couldn't let go of Ji Beichuan from time to time.

Because when she felt that she was abandoned and was the most sad and sad, it was Ji Beichuan who was by her side, so she ......

So, she ...... Still can't let him go!

Gu Junyan, who was sitting there, suddenly clenched his palms and clenched them into fists.

It's him!

It was he who gave him another chance to give up between him and Ji Beichuan!

It's himself!

All this was actually caused by himself!

Thinking of this, Gu Junyan was trembling almost all over with remorse.

"Ah Yan!"

When Gu Maohe saw Gu Junyan like this, his heart became even more uneasy.

Gu Junyan was brought back to his senses by Gu Maohe's roar.

He looked at his grandfather's eyes with a glint of remorse.

Gu Maohe couldn't figure out if it was the words he just said that made him ...... for a while

Can't make a difference? Still can't accept it?

"Ah Yan, you and An An, it's not too late, grandpa told you so much, I just want to tell you, don't wait until you lose it...... only then did he come to his senses. ”