We were all shocked when we heard what he said, and asked him, what's wrong, what's sick?

He shook his head, straightened up, straightened his chest, and said, "Dude, stabbed someone to death." ”

Several of our faces changed instantly, and we scolded him and said, "Grass, it's really fake, don't fucking joke about this kind of thing." ”

Chen Fang said he wasn't joking, really.

We asked him what was going on, and Chubby said that he wasn't okay the other two days.

Chen Fang sighed, tears slid down his face, his mouth was flattened, and he seemed to have made up a lot of determination before he spoke: "It's quite embarrassing to say this, I was cuckolded, and I stabbed that person." ”

After listening to this, Chubby scolded angrily, and slammed the bottle in his hand to the ground, making a "pop" sound, startling the people around him.

Chubby took out a cigarette, lit it, took two puffs, and scolded: "Grass, I said it a long time ago, that woman is not a good woman." ”

I was quite calm at the time, and asked Chen Fang when it was, and he said that it was at noon today, and he went back to the dormitory after stabbing someone.

I said what are you going to do next?

Chen Fang said, I went to turn myself in, in fact, when I stabbed that person, I was determined to die together.

I looked at him, was a little speechless for a while, paused, and then slowly spoke: "Brother, is it worth it for you to do this?" Have you ever thought about your parents and your family? Have you ever thought about our brothers? ”

Chen Fang looked at me, tears burst out of his eyes, and he said, "I just can't swallow this breath." ”

We didn't know what to tell him at the time, and I told him that turning himself in was the best solution, that he was not yet 18 years old, and that he should not be sentenced to death, but that he might have to go in for a few years, and if he was reformed, maybe he would be able to come out sooner.

A few of us drank a lot that night, because we knew that no matter what the sentence was, we and Chen Fang might be the last time we drank together.

When we separated, I said to him, no matter how long you stay in it, remember to look for me when you come out, no matter how time changes, I am your brother.

Chen Fang hugged my head and cried loudly.

The next day, Chen Fang went to the police station to surrender himself, and then we are not very clear about the specific verdict, but we know that he must not be sentenced to death, and finally it seems that he went to the juvenile detention center, but I don't know how long he will stay.

After Chen Fang was arrested, several of us never returned to the happy and happy time before, as if life was shrouded in a layer of gray haze, lingering and indestructible.

The year is over quickly, and in a blink of an eye it is June, I didn't want to take the college entrance examination, but my mother didn't allow it, saying that I had to take the exam, even if I couldn't go to college, I had to go to a junior college, if I didn't take the exam, she wouldn't recognize me as a son.

In the end, I couldn't help it, and I couldn't make my mother angry, so I took the college entrance examination.

During the exam, I tried my best to write down everything I knew and cover everything I couldn't.

The time when I was waiting for grades was the most boring, so I would spend my days at home playing games and occasionally going out for drinks with chubby them.

At that time, my social circle was very small, and I kind of missed the time when I was back home.

In the end, the results came out, and I scored more than 200 points, but I didn't get to 300, so I was angry with my mother, saying that even if I took the test more than 300, it would be fine.

My uncle comforted my mom vigorously, saying that other people's children who don't go to college are also very good.

After my cousin had a vacation, my uncle let us go on a trip, and when I came back, he said that he had found a good school, it was a specialized college, in a neighboring province, it seemed to be called a medical school, I said I didn't want to be a doctor, my mother scolded me, saying that it was good to have a school, and I was picky.

I had my eighteenth birthday before the first school started, and my mother told me that I would be an adult after I was eighteen, and that I would learn to be responsible in the future, and I couldn't let her be scared anymore.

I nodded vigorously and said yes.

My mom was going to see me off with my uncle and help me pack all my things.

However, just the day before we were leaving, I suddenly received a call from Brother Xiaowu, who was on the other end of the phone with a serious crying tone in his tone, and shouted eagerly: "Xiaoyu, Brother Haiyang, Brother Haiyang, he ......"

As soon as I heard his tone, I knew it was not good, my heart sank suddenly, and I asked loudly: "What's wrong with Brother Haiyang?!" ”

Eventually, I got on the train, but not in the direction of university, but in the direction of my hometown, which was the first time I had been back in nearly three years since I had been away from home, and I looked out the window at the flashing green trees, and my eyes were full of tears.

Brother Ocean is dead.

I stared blankly into the distance, my mind kept echoing the words of Brother Xiaowu just now, I felt as if I was dreaming, everything was so unreal, I couldn't believe that Brother Haiyang, who was on the phone a few days ago, has now become a cold corpse.

I suddenly felt the impermanence of life, the impermanence of the person who smiled and waved goodbye to you in the last second, may have withdrawn from your life forever below, forever.

I shrunk back and buried my head in the crook of my arm, as hopeless and sad as a child who had lost all his toys.

After I arrived at the station, Brother Xiaowu picked me up, his eyes were red and swollen, his face was haggard, and tears flowed out of him the moment he saw me.

Brother Xiao Wu told me that Brother Haiyang's funeral had been held yesterday, and many people came.

On the way, I didn't speak, looking at the extremely familiar scenery around me, this place where I was born and raised, after three years of absence, I didn't expect to come back in this situation.

I asked Brother Xiaowu to take me to buy a bouquet of flowers, and then we went to Brother Haiyang's cemetery together.

It is a large cemetery group, the cemetery is also very expensive, are some rich people buried here, the whole cemetery is quiet and deep, the surrounding trees are also glowing with a symbol of aging brownish, the wind passes, the yellow leaves fall in a row, a few crows sound from time to time, adding a bit of gloomy atmosphere.

Brother Xiaowu took me to Brother Ocean's tomb, I put down the flowers, lit a cigarette, put it in front of Brother Ocean's tombstone, stood up, looked at the black and white photos on the tombstone, Brother Ocean's expression on the photo was indifferent, as if it was covered with a layer of black clouds, and the eyebrows and eyes seemed to reveal reluctance and unwillingness to this world.

I swallowed my saliva, my throat felt uncomfortable, my hand touched the tombstone, and whispered, "Brother Haiyang, I'm late." ”

At this time, I realized that my voice had become completely hoarse, and it seemed that I had a little trouble even speaking.

I stood in front of Brother Haiyang's tomb for a long time, until the sun went down and the black slowly invaded, and Brother Xiaowu whispered to me: "Xiaoyu, it's not early, let's go back, Brother Long is still waiting for you." ”

I nodded and said, Brother Ocean, I'll come to see you another day.

After I returned to Brother Long with Brother Xiaowu, I saw Brother Long cleaning up the fruit stall.

I haven't seen Brother Long for a long time, he seems to be a lot older, and the white hair on his sideburns is dotted, which is particularly eye-catching.

He didn't see me at the time, so I walked over and shouted softly, Brother Long.

The moment Brother Long heard my voice, his body trembled obviously, and he looked up at me with a complicated expression, with a joy in his eyebrows, but more of a deep sadness.

He worked hard for a long time before he squeezed out a smile and said, "I'm back." ”

I choked up a little and walked up to him, only to realize that I was almost as tall as him.

Brother Long, who has always had a resolute face and his emotions are not easily shown on his face, actually had tears in his eyes at this moment, looking at me, his eyes were full of love, and his voice trembled slightly: "I haven't seen you for a few years, but I have grown up." ”

I smiled hard at him, tears welling up in my eyes.

When I ate at Brother Long's place in the evening, he kept giving me vegetables and asking me to eat more, without mentioning Brother Haiyang's matter at all.

In the end, I couldn't help it, and said, "Brother Long, how did Brother Haiyang die?" ”

After I asked, Brother Long suddenly fell silent and put down his chopsticks.

I looked at him, and after a while, he slowly spoke, "I am to blame for the death of the ocean." ”

With tears in his eyes, he said, "If I had held on a little longer when I had stopped him from coming back, he wouldn't have died." ”