Shangguan Yu's sudden death made Chiba feel a kind of grief for the loss of his relatives. It doesn't matter whether this old man has anything to do with chocolate or not, he takes away all the sorrows of this life, but he leaves despair for the world.

Knowing the details of Shangguan's tragedy, Chiba couldn't help but put himself and Shangguan Yu in the same category, and the lives in this category do not exist because of themselves, but grow with the hatred of their relatives being killed, suffer together, and perish together.

In Shangguan Yu's eyes, she had read a different kind of emotion, which was the most unfamiliar emotion she had ever had vaguely existed in her deep consciousness - fatherly love, tolerant and generous, firm and profound.

Of course, this is only the fatherly love she understands, not the one she once had. The impression left by her father Yang Huaili can only be described in two words, and it can not be compared with Shangguan Yu's true feelings.

The vulgar abuse, the tyranny of fists and feet at every turn, the sound of clanging bells and beating the house, the helpless crying of her mother - everything related to Yang Huaili was unbearable, and she even felt that the tragedy of her whole life came from it.

So she hated him.

Before she knew it, the ground was wet, and she hadn't cried like this for a long time, even if someone knocked on the door, and the phone rang even more deafly.

In a hurry, Song Yingchen had no choice but to use the key to open the door, and as soon as she walked in, she saw her sitting on the ground, shattered.

"What's wrong?" He hurriedly asked.

Complex emotions blocked her throat, and Chiba couldn't say anything. When Song Yingchen raised one arm sympathetically, she threw herself into this one-half embrace, completely collapsing.

Ren's chest was soaked with tears, Song Yingchen didn't say anything or ask anything, just hugged her with one hand, feeling her tremble in her chest. Even if there is a cone pain in the injured area, he does not move.

After crying for a long time, almost drying up her tears, Chiba slowly retracted. Realizing the gaffe, the first sentence he opened his mouth said sorry.

"Are you better?" Song Yingchen asked with a smile, half of his arm was already numb.

Out of a woman's nature, Chiba ran to the side to hastily clean up the remnants, and after a few deep breaths, she finally calmed down, poured water and walked out.

"Why are you here?" She put the water in front of Song Yingchen, but Song Yingchen pushed it back to her.

"You should have refilled some water and shed so many tears." He half-jokingly said, "I knocked on the door and didn't open the phone or answer the phone, and I heard it as if I was crying inside, so I came in directly." ”

"I didn't hear you, I'm sorry...... Did your shoulders get better, didn't it hurt you just now? ”

"It hurts, it feels like this side is broken." Song Yingchen shrugged his normal shoulder mischievously.

She burst into tears and smiled.

"I thought I was depressed enough and wanted to come and talk to you, it seems that I have to appease you today."

"Why are you depressed again, are you still angry with Aunt Lu?"

Song Yingchen nodded, and lightly brought his question over: "The situation is a bit complicated, let's talk about it later." Let's talk about you first, what happened to me so sad that scared me stupid. ”

Feeling that her eyes were moist again, Chiba hurriedly raised her head to breathe and forced her tears back.

"An old man died, very suddenly. He I met when I was working in a children's clothing store, and he helped me a lot, and I have always been grateful to him. ”

"Birth, old age, sickness and death are natural laws, just cry and cry, don't get too entangled."

"He's suicidal."

This answer obviously made Song Yingchen feel stunned.

"Suicide?"

Chiba nodded: "He has been trapped in a tragedy and can't get out, he suffered from a terminal illness before, he is completely desperate, and life has lost its meaning to him." ”

"You know him well?"

"No, I don't know him, I just hear his story from others."

"Hey, let's not talk about tragedy or tragedy, when people get sick, once the quality of life declines, it is easy to have world-weary feelings."

"But I don't think he died because he was sick, he was a very strong man, and illness could torment him but couldn't crush him. Or was it because of that tragedy that forced him to be disheartened and do stupid things...... I can understand. ”

Song Yingchen was puzzled: "If you don't understand, how can you understand?" ”

She got up and walked to the window, clasped her hands, and looked at the Lujiang River in the distance.

"Because I had similar experiences and had similar thoughts."

Song Yingchen realized that this girl was going to tell her heart about her hidden past, and quickly pricked up her ears.

"You've had thoughts of suicide too?"

She nodded slightly and told the story.

"He lived in tragedy, and so did I, he committed suicide in his later years, I did it when I was a child, but it didn't work out, so I can understand it. Seventeen years ago, my mother fell from the roof of a building and became a vegetative person, and everyone said that she accidentally fell down, but I didn't believe it. I was five years old at the time, and I heard the shouts and hurried up to the roof, and saw with my own eyes a dark figure slipping down the pipe, and she had already fallen. If it wasn't grass underneath, if it wasn't for the softening of the soil because I was watering the flowers, she might have died on the spot. ”

Hearing this, Song Yingchen couldn't help frowning.

"In the past 17 years, I have almost always been alone from the welfare home to the school to the society, and I have no friends. It's not that I'm withdrawn, it's that I'm afraid that people will laugh at me when they know about it, or take pity on me. Either attitude is a reminder to me that I am back to the terrible day again...... Do you know why I know why I obviously took advantage of Aunt Lu, and I still have the cheekiness to live here? It's not because the environment here is good, or I'm greedy for enjoyment, it's because I can't rent a house in Lucheng for a few hundred yuan. I now have a stable income, but I can only raise the rent to more than 1,000 and pay the rest to a nursing home. Because my mother had to rely on the money to buy nutrient solution, she couldn't live without it. That's why you asked me why I work during the day and go to the gym at night. ”

Song Yingchen handed over the water, looking sorry. Chiba took it and took a sip.

"I'm sorry, you quit the gym because of the hospitalization before, it turns out that this is the reason......"

"I don't blame you, now that the company has enough income, I decided not to go to the gym myself. In fact, I envy the people around me, including you. You have your own hobbies, your dreams, but I don't. There was only one doubt in my mind that had to be solved before I could do anything else, and that was who had harmed my mother. So I understand the old man, I don't know if he ever thought about revenge, but he has nothing in his life except infinite guilt for the endless thoughts of his relatives. He had already put himself down, so how could he suddenly not think about it because of his illness. ”

"You mean he was tormented by longing to the point that he couldn't bear it, that's why he ......"

"I think it should be like this."

"Then you came to Lucheng to find your mother's murderer?"

For the first time, Chiba looked directly at Song Yingchen with a firm gaze, as devout as a believer.

"Yes."

Song Yingchen paused and looked at her with a deeply touched expression.

"Why are you willing to tell me this?"

A gust of wind blew the curtains up, and Chiba ignored his doubts and closed his eyes in obsession.

Song Yingchen licked his somewhat dry lips.

"Chiba, I didn't expect you to come over like this in your childhood, I'm very surprised. I'm so grateful that you said this to me and proved that you trusted me. To be honest, I don't know how to persuade you, and it can't be comforted by a sentence or two, but I will support you, support you without hesitation, and I will appear as long as you need it. ”

Chiba opened her eyes, and there was a warm current in her heart.

However, what she didn't expect was that Song Yingchen then threw out a question that she didn't know how to answer.

"Then my mom and your mom aren't old friends, are they?"

"I'm sorry......" she blushed and her mind went blank, pretending to fiddle with the curtains unintentionally.

Song Yingchen understood it in his heart, and waved his hand relaxedly. "Actually, it doesn't matter, maybe you don't know, right? Besides, we are friends, I only recognize you and me, what do you say? ”

"Thank you, thank you for your understanding."

"You can understand the old man, and of course I can understand you, and, of course, my mother. She also thinks about revenge all day long, and she is the same as you. Now there are a lot of weird QQ groups on the Internet, post bars or something, maybe you and she met in a certain 'Avengers', right? ”

"Think so."

"Are you sharing resources or working together?"

"It's neither, don't guess, it's not a movie."

"It's definitely about exchanging ideas and encouraging each other from time to time...... Well, it must be like that. Song Yingchen patted his head and muttered to himself, as if he had helped himself solve his doubts.

Chiba smiled helplessly, noncommittal.

"If there is anything you need help with, just ask, you accompany me every day when I am hospitalized, and I haven't thanked you yet."

"I didn't think I wanted to thank you."

Song Yingchen suddenly smiled evilly: "That's why, don't you like me?" ”

"What nonsense." She was so anxious that she blushed to her neck.

"Heh, I'm going to be funny to you. Let's go, I'll invite you to dinner, don't think about unhappy things at home. ”

Before Chiba could respond, his mobile phone rang, and when he saw that it was Lu Meiqin, he immediately looked embarrassed.

"Aunt Lu? Pick it up. ”

He nodded, walked over to listen to the phone, and came back later.

"I'm sorry I have to go back, but I have to make another appointment another day."

"It's okay, another day, I don't want to go out today."

"Okay, don't be sad to hear it, people can't be resurrected after death, I will pray for that old man."

"Well, I'm so much more comfortable to tell you so much. Let's go, I'll send you out. ”

Delivered to the door, Song Yingchen said again: "Don't worry, I won't tell anyone what you told me today." ”

"Naturally, I'm telling you because I believe me."

The two looked at each other and smiled, saying goodbye to each other.

But after Song Yingchen left, Chiba's heart was empty. She didn't have anything to give him, the only thing she could give was trust—the only way she could express her liking.

She has long known this truth, people are inherently insecure, and once they are happy, they will always worry and not be able to enjoy themselves. Song Yingchen is indeed beautiful, but she is too ordinary, not only in appearance, but also in talent. Besides, her background is even more barren, and the most inferior sentence of others is that her family background is ordinary for her, because she doesn't even have a home.

But she still wants to forget everything and say the love in her heart out loud.

For some reason, when she was imagining Song Yingchen and doubting herself, He Yina's figure appeared in front of her.

If she could have half of Heina's charm, she would never be so timid.

And if she had everything, it would be amazing, she not only had the courage to go to battle, but also the courage not to fight.