Angel drove the car as fast as I could, and in my half-drunk, half-conscious, we soon came to the ancient bridge, I opened the car door and walked towards the bridge, Angel parked the car and followed me.

I stood by the guardrail, closed my eyes, and felt the breeze blow past me, but my heart was a glorious and dejected soul......

Maybe I shouldn't have drunk, because I was once again forced out of my truest thoughts by the alternative sobriety of drunkenness...... I am scheming in the workplace, I am deceitful in the shopping mall, and one day I will stand at the top of the pyramid because of my ugliness, my meanness, and my madness, but will I be happy at that time? Is that really the life I want Zhang Yixi to live?

.......

Dignity, dignity has been reduced to a subordinate work in my case...... Love, but love withers quickly after blooming..... Hehe, why do I Zhang Yixi still live, because of bondage? Because of anger? Because of loss? Because of the pain? ......

I climbed over the guardrail, facing the dark and boundless river, and screamed, "Unbreakable bondage...... Pent-up anger...... The Lost ..... to Find Unanswered Pain ...... Haha~~~~ There is also ~~~ impossible love....... Haha......"

"Zhang Yixi, you drank too much, you hurry down, it's too dangerous!" Angel behind me grabbed the corner of my clothes.

"Leave me alone, I didn't drink much..... I'm just ~~~ just a little sad! I said as I stood on a foot-wide guardrail and staggered, surrounded by exclamations.

"Don't get drunk, okay?" Angel's tone was anxious, and she pulled me off the guardrail.

I staggered and yelled at Anqi: "You put ~~ one hundred and twenty hearts, I won't die, why should I die~~~!" I'm so happy, so happy. ”

Angel bit her lip and looked at me, but I pushed her and said, "Don't you still have a job~~ Hurry back, I'll go around by myself and go back..... Promise to the crickets, promise ~~ not to lie to you. ”

Angel raised her hand and looked at her watch, and said, "Let's go back together, don't make trouble." ”

"I'm fine, I'm fine...... As long as you hurry back, I will call you Sister Angel..... Hit or not? It's okay if you don't call Aunt Angel, what do you say, do you want to be in it? ”

"Are you sure you'll be able to go back later?"

"I can go back, the way home~~ I remember." I patted my chest and said.

"Okay, I'll call you in an hour, don't turn off your phone, if you can't go back, I'll pick you up, okay?" Angel said anxiously.

"Hmm." I quickly nodded.

"Remember, don't get drunk, find a place to sit obediently." After a pause, she added, "You have to promise that I won't get a call from 110 for a while!" ”

"No, I'm afraid to die..... I'm scared! ”

Angel nodded, looked at me again, and then left, in fact, she didn't have to worry about me, she was done, it would be fine...... Even just now I had no intention of dying.

......

Late at night, I sat on the riverbank, lit a cigarette, and let the emptiness and loneliness accompany me.

I lay on the grass with my head resting on my arm, my other hand pinching a cigarette, and staring blankly at the sky...... There aren't even stars in the sky, it's full of dark clouds, and there may be a heavy rain later, but does it matter to me, at most it's just to extinguish the smoke in my hand.

After a long time, I pulled out my gloves and scarf from my briefcase...... It's a change of seasons that I've experienced, from autumn, to winter, to spring, and now it's summer...... Mo Han didn't need this pair of gloves and scarves anymore, so she gave them back to me, hehe~~ Maybe everything is just an unreal dream I experienced, in fact, there has never been Mo Han, there is no love, only the changes of autumn, winter, spring and summer, this pair of scarves and gloves have not left me, but I have forgotten them in the corner of the briefcase.

I put the scarf over my face, but I smelled the smell of laundry detergent...... If I forget it for a long time, where does the fragrance of laundry detergent come from, it turns out that what I experienced is not a dream, but a pain!!

In the darkness, I slipped my hand into the glove, and I imagined that it might have been washed by Mo Han himself not long ago, and when I touched the glove, we had an indirect connection..... And the last contact.

......

My heart seemed to be pierced by a burst of electricity, and I panicked and removed the scarf covering my face, and my fingertips trembled uncontrollably and pulled the foreign object out of my glove—a note.

I took out my phone and read the note with the help of the light of the screen: "I really loved you too....."

My whole body trembled uncontrollably, this is Mo Han's handwriting, she really loved me? Have you ever really loved it?

I was busy digging through the missed phone call records that I had ignored last night, 2 of which were from colleagues, one from a friend, and one was ..... Mohan's.

She must have called me to say something...... But I didn't give her that chance!!

There was a faint sound of thunder in the distance, it was going to rain..... It's going to be a rainstorm....

I hurriedly dialed Mo Han's phone, but I had already prompted that the number had been cancelled, and then I called Tian Tian's phone, but what I got was that she couldn't contact Mo Han.

......

Love is full of doubts...... Mutual distrust in doubt! I didn't trust Mo Han, I didn't trust her to love me, I didn't give her any chance to explain, I questioned her aggressively, I ruthlessly abandoned her on the ancient bridge.....

This time, she really left me, she left because she was disappointed in me, and like me, she was afraid that she would be hurt again.

Love is doubt, love is jealousy, love is selfishness, selfish resistance to each other, selfish doubt of each other, selfish fear of pain..... But even if we are selfish, we have truly loved.

I thought: Mo Han didn't expect me to see this note, otherwise she wouldn't have hidden it in her gloves, I already have a new glove, and if it weren't for today's accident, this note might be hidden in this pair of gloves, forever dusty in my locker.

The reason why she wrote this note, maybe ~~ was just because there was nowhere to vent after being misunderstood......

......

The thunder grew clear..... A flash of lightning pierced the sky, "Bang~~!" A thunderclap sounded in my ears, and I lay quietly on the grass, closing my eyes, waiting for the storm to come.

......

"Zhang Yixi, why are you lying here, it's going to rain." A very feminine but anxious voice rang in my ears.

(2nd Update)