I didn't pay any more attention to Li Shi's words, and continued to look at the painting, thinking about my own thoughts and unfulfilled wishes in life.

My world is old like an old wall clock, running too methodically, except that it is slow to respond to new people and new things, like a numb bystander. However, it was as if another restless voice was screaming hysterically in the bottom of my heart, disturbing the picture I had painstakingly managed, and in an instant, those happiness and beauty were annihilated into dust in fragmentation, and the pain was so painful that I couldn't feel the pain!

Li Shi's hand waved in front of my eyes, awakening me from my distraction, and I realized that the dinner that had been eaten for nearly an hour was still going on, and in the bitterness, I picked up the beer can again, and drank the rest of the draft beer in the glass, but still sober.

Dinner continued, but Li Shi didn't discuss the painting with me again, and I opened another can of beer, not to get myself drunk, and beer was not intoxicating, but to use this cold liquor to make myself more "real", so as not to fall into the illusion of pain.

"After eating this meal, I'll make an exception and give you the painting."

I was a little incredulous, Li Shi's request made me unprepared, and said for a while: "Really? ”

Li Shi looked at me and said with a serious face: "I don't like to joke. ”

"I think you're kidding right now."

Li Shi didn't mind, she shook her head and smiled helplessly, which reassured me a little, after all, she was still in the mood to make this kind of joke with me, and she didn't seem to be angry.

……

The next time, I ate quietly, at least this life is more like home, after a full meal, I drank the remaining pork rib soup in the bowl, and saw that a light bulb in the corner did not turn on, but it was an inexplicable loss of mind, after losing consciousness, I quickly got up to help Li Shi tidy up the dishes, put the leftovers in the refrigerator, and then carried the ladder from the tool room.

"What are you going to do?"

"The light bulb in the East Corner is broken, haven't you noticed? I'll help you put it on, and you'll have to find someone when you can save it. ”

"Actually, I didn't know there was a light bulb there......"

As I adjusted the ladder, I sighed, "You've only been here for a few days, not to mention these bits and pieces, I know how many mice there are in the yard." ”

Li Shi looked at me suspiciously, and asked as if debunked, "You put the rats, right?" ”

"It's wrong, it's they come to me every day to report the number."

"The more I look at you, the more you look like a pounder (from a Shanghai buzzword in the 90s, meaning very bragging, eloquent or funny)."

I don't know what she means, so it's hard to answer.

Turn off the switch, the emergency light is in the aisle, and it can't illuminate the corner of the light, so I asked Li Shi to help me hold the ladder while turning on her mobile phone flash to shine on me.

Carefully climbed to the top of the ladder, dragged the stainless steel anti-theft window, paced to the balcony, tested it with a voltage tester, and then replaced the bulb with confidence, and was just about to remind Li Shi that I was going down, but she moved the ladder to the side with great difficulty.

"Hey, what are you doing?"

"I just wanted to ask you a few simple questions."

"Just wait for me to go down, stand on the ground and ask again, you make me panic like this!"

Li Shi turned off the flashlight, and even in the bright moonlight, I couldn't see her face......

In the darkness, we were like people wearing masks, carefully hiding our emotions, at this time, Li Shi asked in a voice that couldn't hear emotions: "You were so resistant when we met for the first time, why did you sign the contract so calmly today?" ”

I wanted to roar, but my feet on the balcony were like a cliff, and my hand grabbing the burglar window couldn't vacate it, so I could only express myself calmly and say to myself into the night: "Have you ever given me a way out since you came here?" I'm bold, but I know what the law is, and what would it be like if I forced you to open the safe? For this hostel, I dare to say that no one loves it more than me, but my love is wishful thinking, this kind of love also makes me selfish and selfish, blocking your way to make a fortune, so today I figured it out, rather than spending here to be bullied by you, it is better for me to go by myself, even if you don't let me sign the contract, I won't go back to the headquarters, who the is not alive! ”

"If you want to do the math, settle this account on my head!"

I said indignantly, "Count your head, what can I do to you?" So be it! I'm also exhausted.,Mengmeng's state is much worse than the previous few times.,It's good if you forcibly take away the hostel.,Lest I can't let it go myself.,So that I can accompany Mengmeng more.。 ”

"Meng Meng needs a lot of money to treat her illness, do you have a good future if you don't do this job?"

Thinking of the meeting with Jiang Laiyue in the afternoon, I felt aggrieved for a while, but I still said stubbornly: "Why can Lao Gou tolerate me for so long, you should know well, I can eat with my ability, I can make money anywhere, you better run the hostel for me, otherwise I will definitely find a way to take it back." ”

Li Shi turned on the flash again, watched me stick to the window like a gecko, and laboriously moved the ladder next to me, after making sure it was stable, and then stepped on the ladder to fix it for me, I walked slowly down the ladder, but she said bluntly: "I said at the beginning, I have no interest in this hostel, but I must complete the task assigned by Mr. Gou, thank you for changing the light bulb for me." ”

When there were still two steps down the ladder, I stopped, deftly flipped over on the ladder, turned on my mobile phone flash, and looked at her condescendingly.

Li Shi, who has always been indifferent and indifferent, has red eyes at the moment, her face is full of guilt, this sadness is no less than when I lost the hostel, we are silent together, like two people who are up and down in life, exhausted and standing in place.

Looking at her gloomy expression, I didn't blame again, maybe she was facing no less situation than me, otherwise she wouldn't have to be so angry with me and insist on staying......

……

Lying in bed, I couldn't sleep, so one by one, I flipped through the photos taken with Meng Meng the day before yesterday in the mobile phone, in the photos she looked very bad, all the pain and torture, all the pain and torture, gave this child who should enjoy the beauty of childhood, but she is very strong, every time she endures pain, but also strong smile, this attitude towards life, the courage to deal with illness, is the spiritual belief that our family never gives up.

I swiped my hand across the screen and suddenly saw the last time I ate barbecue, I stole . took a photo of Li Shi's walking posture, and then I knew that the co-shooting with Meng Meng had been browsed, and this photo of Li Shi must have been accidentally deleted last time.

She has a unique temperament, walks in a good posture, even in the not bright light, still radiant, I feel uncomfortable when I see her, this discomfort is completely natural reaction, and is not under my control.

I exhaled heavily and raised my hand to delete the photos, but the ghost made me endure it.

This tiring day, coupled with the effect of alcohol, should have made me drowsy, but I couldn't sleep, a moment later, the mobile phone on the bedside table rang, I turned over, picked up the phone from the table, looked at my father's number, called so late, made me have a premonition of fear, trembling hands to answer the phone, said: "Hey, Dad, what's wrong......"

"I told you before I left, Mengmeng went to Beijing for treatment today, and she couldn't sleep at night, and now she is clamoring to see the Xi'an city wall, and she can't be persuaded to do so."

Before I could react, I suddenly heard my mother's voice, and she blamed: "Tell the child everything, his place is so remote, how can he go to the city?" The child is tired from work for a day, what do you let him toss, quickly hang up and let him rest. ”

After a burst of snatching, the phone was hung up, and for a long time, my heart was still shaking......

After hesitating for a while, I quickly got dressed, put the phone in my pocket, knocked on Li Shi's door and said, "Can you lend me the car key?" ”

After a while, there was a sound of footsteps in the house, and she leaned against the door and asked, "Where are you going so late, take some responsibility for your own life, how can you drive after drinking so much beer?" ”

The corners of my mouth twitched, did she care about me?

After hesitating for a moment, I told her the truth, and she said something that touched me again: "When I change my clothes, I'll drive you over!" ”

I answered, sat on the stone bench and waited, and after a while, Li Shi came out of the room, her clothes were very thin, just a white T-shirt, with slightly loose black slacks, her hair was very simple, she was dressed very casually, but she was still shining.

"It's cool at night, your body is thin, you should wear more."

Li Shi looked at me, nodded very obediently, went back to the house and put on another gray and white knit sweater, and came out with my broken wooden guitar in his hand.

"Can I bring your guitar?"

"Before I compensate you for the guitar, this guitar is at your disposal, if you are free tomorrow, you can go to Lin Ke's bar with me, and I will pick one for you, which is compensation!"

"Good!"

……

I looked at the time, it is now nearly eight o'clock, there are many gates of the city wall of Xi'an, different gates, their opening hours are different, according to the opening hours of the city wall, only the south gate is still open before ten o'clock.

I reversed the car out of the parking space, Li Shi also happened to lock the door of the store, she drove, I showed the way, take the most time-saving route, normally it can be about forty minutes, leaving us to go to the city, nearly an hour and a half.

If you are a tourist to Xi'an, in fact, it is most suitable to go up at dusk, and the feeling of climbing high and beckoning has a different taste. Last year was also this season, I took Meng Meng to go once, that time it was the evening, the sunset gilded the sky with a layer of gold, people passing by there, I am afraid that they will never forget.

Last time, I verbally promised to take Li Shi to the city wall for a walk, and this time it can be regarded as fulfilled.