Because I was eager to know the answer, I asked without a hint of drag: "Do you have any handle in Shen Hao's hands?" ”

Jing Qi was silent for a moment, then smiled and said: "He is such a character, I'll just choose a new camera and give it to him in the next two days, you don't have to worry about me." ”

Jing Qi on the other end of the phone seemed to give me a reasonable explanation, but I still asked with some doubts: "What are you accommodating him for, tell me, what are you afraid of?" ”

"Let me tell you a story! Many years ago, when the first year of high school started, the girl met a few of her best friends, and when chatting, she said: There are handsome guys, watch the door.

The girl turned back with the gesture, and when she saw him, it was like an old friend who had known him for a long time, all the background was darkened, and only his figure was left in the field of vision, indescribably cordial, and for some reason her heart suddenly softened, warm and warm. After arranging the seating chart, the girl sat behind him, front and back tables. At that time, I thought that such a coincidence was fate.

At that time, the girl experienced an inexplicable loss, others may not understand very well, too, each individual person, is unable to get the understanding of other individuals, all the happiness is happy, all the sadness is sad, no one can share, the essence of people is the loneliness that cannot be eliminated. When talking to his long-loved him, it was like seeing him for the first time, and there was such a light in the darkness, he could empathize with her.

Because there are many things that they love the same and share each other's happiness, one happiness becomes two, because there is the same experience, sharing sadness, and one sadness becomes half, the girl actually feels no longer lonely for the first time after understanding loneliness.

That year, the girl's depression also came through in the communication with him.

Later, they all became better than before, open-minded, less resentful and less sad, more expected of life, treated people and things more maturely, and seemed to be more courageous than before.

The girl is very grateful to him, for allowing her to have so many memories, for making her so happy, for making her better. He is also a little more optimistic than before, bringing joy to the girl.

Later, the girl heard that he had an unhappy family, and that his father had deceived his mother and gave birth to him, and only then did he inform him that he had a daughter before marriage, the half-sister, which made the relationship between his parents very tense, so that the relationship between him and his father was also very bad. Almost the entire family life has been spent in negative emotions for as long as they can remember.

The girl and his experience are very cliché, those three years of high school, under the girl's wishful pursuit, rejected, pursued, rejected, pursued, rejected...... Once the relationship was stiff, and I didn't speak for half a year.

After graduating, the girl left the south to go to school in the north, and he stayed there to repeat his studies, and became friends again during the holiday after graduation, and resumed contact.

That year, they were together, they never got along, the girl liked to read, he liked it, the girl liked to travel, he liked it, he liked photography, the girl became his model, they had the same opinion on many things, they dealt with it the same way, they loved each other for eight years, but it didn't come to fruition......"

"So, you're the girl you're infatuated with?"

"I'm not, on the contrary, it's me who caused him to have nothing again, to lose everything, and everything he does today is rightfully deserved, and this is what I owe him......"

"You're related to the girl you said you were talking about? Where is she now? ”

Jingqi: "......"

"I don't care what happened between you, if he really broke the news this time, it will be a harmful blow to you, which may ruin your career and future."

"The entertainment industry has always been a Vanity Fair full of rules, and the sacrifices that need to be made if you want to stand out in this Vanity Fair are unimaginable to ordinary people, and this is also to blame me, maybe I really shouldn't have entered this circle......"

"If he really wants to torture you, you can't do any work,"

In silence, Jing Qi said to me again: "Yu Hang, let's not talk about it first, I have something to do with the agent looking for someone, let's talk later." ”

"Okay, then I won't bother you."

I thought Jing Qi would hang up the phone, but she was silent on the phone, and said to me for a long time: "Don't be angry with anyone because of me, I still like the way you are happy every day, and you have your own beliefs among the children, it is good to be a simple literary and artistic youth, and thank you for caring about me so much." ”

"What I pursue is not the life of a literary and artistic youth, just like laughter, not necessarily happiness!"

After Jing Qi was silent for a long time, he said, "Then what are you pursuing?" ”

"Those who are emotional are probably seemingly lonely, but in fact they are free, crying and laughing freely, like to read books alone, watch movies alone, travel alone, and pursue inner peace and detachment from the world. However, after a long time, you will find that this is just a normal life, there is nothing to envy, as long as you want, it is also your ideal way of life......"

"My ideal married life is: two people have their own careers, go home from work and get tired of sitting on the sofa, spending time with their children or watching TV, cooking together, cleaning their rooms together, smiling at each other, hugging each other to sleep at night, kissing each other goodbye to work in the morning, traveling together, watching movies together, shopping together, and what they say to each other first, simple and clean, like a freshly washed white shirt. However, the real love is a white shirt that is constantly washed and worn, after a love has gone through various hardships and sufferings, the two will cherish each other more, and then usher in new tribulations, like a beloved white shirt, wearing, washing, washing and drying, until one day the suffering no longer comes, the white shirt is yellow, and the feelings are like repeatedly scrubbing the collar, and they can no longer be ironed and smooth. ”

"You're living too pessimistic."

"If I can't get it, I can only think about it......"

Jing Qi didn't give me a chance to speak again, and she hung up the phone after she finished speaking, and I was a little distracted.

Perhaps at this point she had chosen her own path, redeeming herself in a way that only hurt herself and did not hurt others, although I don't know what she did wrong.

With a light sigh, I put the phone back in my pocket, the last ray of light in the sky is about to hide, I walk along the fleeting light to the prosperity in the distance, in the overlap of darkness and light and shadow, the world gradually becomes a giant pyramid, people are desperately climbing up, but at the top of the tower, only a small group of people are allowed to stand, and finally, the partners who originally walked hand in hand and encouraged each other suddenly became the criminal black hand that could push you down at any time, who can comment on right and wrong......

……

I walked along the river, to say that the friendship between Shuma and my cousin was really inexplicable, and last night they had a big fight for fart, at this moment, they had moved the small bench in unison, with the same bait, flicked the hook in unison, and stretched their necks in unison and began to focus on fishing seriously, and from time to time they began to discuss skills and praise each other, and of course, self-praise.

I stretched out my head and looked, and sure enough, there was quite a tacit understanding, they were all empty barrels.

After dinner, it was nearly eight o'clock, I was sitting in front of the computer doing the accounts, and Li Shi was hand-drawing some samples of commemorative cards, intending to use them as souvenirs for this group of tourists in Fujian.

The shop was quiet, making people always feel that something was missing, and Li Shi also expressed the same doubt, I had found the fishing rod in the corner of the wall without raising my head, and said: "Two environmental enthusiasts have fed the fish again!" ”