Li Shi sealed the envelope, handed the letter to Song Niange, and then continued to return to the original seat, staring at the rain outside the window in a daze, maybe sitting here, even watching the rain has become a kind of enjoyment.

I stared at the letter with complicated eyes for a long time, and then wanted to reach out to get it, but Song Niange slapped his hand quietly.

The atmosphere was a little awkward because of Song Niange's refusal, and in order to relieve the embarrassment, I lowered my voice and laughed: "Sister, even I can't make an exception?" ”

Song Niange nodded, and the embarrassment caused by stealing the letter was temporarily brought over, but Song Niange seemed to know that this scene might be repeated later, picked up Li Shi's letter, carefully sandwiched it in the folder, and then put it in the cabinet.

Taking advantage of Li Shi's inattention, I pleaded: "Sister, just show me the letter!" ”

I have known Song Niange for a long time, she has always been very righteous, and she is absolutely unambiguous in what she can help, but this time the request made to her seems to be very taboo to her, and she directly refused: "You still don't talk about this kind of thing." ”

"And what if I'm the one who answers her letters?"

"Even then, you'll have to wait until the afternoon of the day after tomorrow at the earliest."

I can't break the rules because of my voyeurism, so I compromised: "Then you must help me keep this letter, I will listen to your arrangement, and come over the afternoon after tomorrow to read it." ”

Song Niange nodded by default, took out some melon seeds from under the counter, took two bottles of beer, and motioned for me to sit on the sofa opposite the bar.

Eating melon seeds and drinking beer in such an aura place is quite beautiful to think about, but Song Niange, who doesn't seem to eat fireworks in the world, just lives life as it should be.

I opened the two beers, reached out and grabbed a handful of melon seeds, and took a sip, and Li Shi didn't care about the movement on our side, she enjoyed the silence, at least I didn't keep talking in her ear for the moment.

"You are so worried about working hard for the sake of the hostel, saying that you will be replaced if you say that you will be replaced?"

I threw the melon seed shells accumulated in the palm of my hand into the trash can beside me, took a sip of beer, and had no words, and felt an indescribable depression in my heart, because at this time, the fate of me and the hostel was being controlled by Lao Gou and Li Shi, and I could only watch as a bystander, but I was powerless to change any of the status quo......

I didn't hide it, but said very vaguely: "I'm afraid the fate of the hostel is out of my hands." ”

Song Niange seemed to understand something, but he didn't pick it out, and said for a while: "I know your feelings for the hostel, and I have also seen your efforts over the years, but since life has other arrangements for you, just go, with your ability, you can make money anywhere." ”

After a long silence, I finally asked Song Niange, "Niange, you don't think there's any need for me to persevere, do you?" ”

Song Niange didn't answer me again, and continued to swallow melon seeds, at this time, the mobile phone prompt in my pocket sounded, I subconsciously took it out and looked at it, it was sent by Jing Qi, asking me if I was "busy" now, and I immediately replied to her with a "not busy".

After I sent the message to Jing Qi indicating that I was free, she immediately called back, which surprised me a little, because since the last time I received a call from Shen Hao, there has always been a tacit understanding between us: we will not contact directly by phone for things that are not particularly important.

I answered the phone and didn't say anything, just waiting for the other party to speak first, I was afraid that it would cause unnecessary trouble.

"Guess why I'm looking for you?"

As soon as I heard Jing Qi's excited voice, I almost blurted out: "Miss me!" ”

Jing Qi didn't bother with me, smiled and changed the topic, and said, "Flim tongue, continue to guess." ”

I smiled helplessly, this seemingly very distracting sentence was my most sincere expression.

Actually, I was also very concerned about the news, but I deliberately pretended not to care, which was obviously more interesting, and I was just about to open my mouth to continue to tease a few words, but I vaguely heard her assistant on the other end of the phone reminding her that she was ready to go on stage.

At this time, Jing Qi accelerated her tone, but still said with a smile: "Forget it, don't guess and pull down, the next news to tell you, the man was silent when he heard it, and the woman was in tears when he heard it......"

I asked tentatively in a joking tone, "I have a bad heart, but you can reveal something to me?" ”

"The last time you took that set of photos passed, now you can show off your skills."

"I've been dismissed and no longer belong to Youtu Youth Hostel......"

"Don't be joking! It's not fun at all. ”

I was silent, and Jing Qi was silent......

For a long time, Jing Qi didn't speak, so I took the words over and said, "I didn't expect you to guess this bridge, but this opportunity is really dispensable for me, when will I return your bank card to you, after all, I won't need this money, it's time to return to Zhao." ”

"Do you have any money to spend now?"

I didn't hide it from Jing Qi at all and said: "In addition to the money for Mengmeng's treatment is saved regularly, the rest of the money is enough for me to live." ”

Jing Qi on the other end of the phone fell silent again, but my words were from the bottom of my heart, and I clearly understood that I didn't need this money to support the hostel or work......

Jing Qi was silent for a long time, sighed lightly, and muttered: "The cooperation that I talked about so hard is no longer needed...... I won't need that card for the time being, so I'll put it in your place and keep it in case I need it! ”

I didn't want to let her feel down any longer, so I changed the subject and said to her: "Didn't the assistant remind you to go on stage, sort out your emotions and go to work!" ”

"Hmm."

After ending the call with Jingqi, I picked up the wine bottle and took a sip of wine, then lay on my back on the sofa, and fell into despair again, in this unstoppable despair, staring at Li Shi, and she seemed to hear the conversation and looked over to me......

Her expression was darker than before, and she was silent for a long time, and I was left speechless.

……

Jing Qi's tone of frustration just now is the source of my bad mood, in order to win this event for me, she must have been going around a lot, and finally seemed to have done useless work, which made people discouraged and sad, over the years, in addition to my parents, she may be the only one who cares about me the most.

I couldn't stop sneezing, who was talking about me? may echo my depressed mood, or Jing Qi, presumably she is still indulging in loss and can't extricate herself! So in addition to friendship, do I still need to treat her with a grateful heart, it was she who worked so hard to save my life that I thought was a mess.

At this time, Li Shi didn't seem to want to stay here any longer, she stood up and looked at me, but I didn't want to go, so I waved her hand, and she was quiet from beginning to end, until it was time to leave first, she didn't make a sound......

My thoughts did not stagnate with Li Shi leaving, and continued to think about the bits and pieces after I met Jing Qi, at this time, I somehow asked on a whim: "Nian Ge, what does it feel like to love someone?" ”

Song Niange had a thoughtful expression on her face, and I didn't urge it, because I felt in my heart that she would give good advice.

Time passed little by little in her thoughts, and I lit a cigarette because I had nothing to do, although there was a no-smoking sign hanging above my head, but it was also a coincidence that no one was around, so the square inch where I was also became blurred, as if echoing the loneliness of the whole café.

When I smoked half of the cigarette, Song Niange smiled and finally said to me: "You go to the movies with three or five friends, you think, how good it should be for her to sit next to you, will she like this movie?" Will she be amused by this shot? The theater is so dark, can I see her dimples clearly? The movie is so loud that I can hear her laughing? No, her smile, like a silver bell, rings a few times in your head, I'm afraid you won't be able to keep up with the plot of the film...... You walk alone on the street, the wind sends passers-by a few words, and every time you pass through so many interesting scenes, you think, she must have walked through this street too, she must have seen these funny things, is she wearing a dress, or is she wearing a double ponytail? Thinking about it, the pedestrians on the side of the road suddenly became so slow and slow, bustling, none of their business, planning to think that she wanted to go to spring...... You lie in the bed with insomnia, you will stay and think about her, when it rains and wonder if she is unhappy again, when the wind blows, you wonder if she is blinking again...... The chaos is like a star, this one is missing you No. 1, this one is missing you No. 2, I can't count them all! You're stupid again, how can you count the stars, but you know, the brighter the day, the less you think about her. You can only force yourself to go to bed early, and on every sleepy night, fold the night in half and pack the stars...... No matter who or what happens, even if you don't get along, you will turn a few corners in your mind, and you will go to her in the opposite direction. So, what does love feel like? Naturally, it is uncontrollable to miss it......"

I tilted my head and stared at the ceiling in a daze, but in my heart I thought about the scene described from Song Niange's mouth, and sighed: "It turned out to be so beautiful! ”

Thinking about it, a picture immediately appeared in my mind: a beautiful woman snuggled up to me, I stroked her wind-blown sideburns, my heart was full of joy, this joy made me forget all the joys and sorrows before, in a desert island full of flowers, found the purest beauty of life......

This seems to be a simple life that can't be simpler, but it is what I dreamed of, so I was immersed in this fictional scene in a trance, and after a long time, Song Niange knocked on the table and said: "After listening to the beauty, do you want to hear the tragedy I personally experienced?" ”

I sighed again in helplessness: "I rarely have a beautiful hallucination, you just let me sink in it, get drunk once!" ”

Although Song Niange was surprised by my attitude, she didn't ask the reason, and I was not in a hurry to listen, in my subconscious, her story was too sad, and an unrequited love like mine would eventually be full of scars...... The reason for refusing at this moment is that I subconsciously think that one day, I will hear her story, so our conversation stopped there.

Contrary to my depressed state of mind, this rainy afternoon, when the sun shines into the house, I seem to see again in the northwest city of Xi'an, there is a barren coast, where overgrown weeds, extremely barren, no one wants to approach, only I am alone with a sickle, I want to harvest in autumn, sow in spring, I am willing to work hard until it is full of flowers......