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What am I waiting for? Xue Ke couldn't answer.

Everyone has some vague secrets in their hearts.

These secrets are hidden in our hearts for a long time, and we will occasionally inadvertently skim our consciousness and show ourselves the answer to its mystery, while we often only isolate it when we touch the mystery, just like holding a fruit in our hands, we only think it is an apple, and do not further develop the association, and explore what it may be.

Over time, even if the mystery is unfolded before our eyes, we still won't be involved with the secret in our hearts.

In this way, we can't reveal too much hidden in our hearts.

Perhaps, at some point, Xue Ke saw the answer, and now, she can't find the answer she wants.

This is perhaps the time when she feels the emptiest in life.

Living alone in this world, you should have something to look forward to the future, right? When you understand what you are looking forward to, you have a direction in your heart that you can grasp, so you go through some ups and downs, and take a piece of life to make it happen.

This is the fullness of life.

Xue Ke in "What am I waiting for?" "Wandering on the footsteps, it is natural to feel that life is very empty.

So, she couldn't help but feel a little inexplicably lost.

Is this my life right now? She thought, how do I feel like I'm in the water, the pressure on my body is so great, and the temperature on my skin is so cold? Also, when I open my eyes and look at everything, everything is so blurry?

Her heart couldn't help but stir.

She had the urge to struggle to break free from everything, and this urge boiled her blood, and made her heart suddenly swollen with a very large courage.

She said to herself, "You may do what ever you want to do!" A famous person was also quoted as saying, "Aways bear in mind that your own resolution to success is moreimport than anyone thing." ”

However, as soon as she had the courage, she was discouraged again, because she did not know what she wanted, that is, what kind of life she wanted.

That is, what she was waiting for, she did not know.

So, her life has always been quiet, and she can't tear off the quiet skin and put on a completely different face for herself.

Sometimes, she admires Sheng Xia and yearns for her outgoing personality, thinking that the life she lives is very beautiful and has a unique scenery.

Some of the time, she was indeed lonely, and she could feel it very kindly.

And more time, she has been very quiet, she wanders in her two likes, weaves a beautiful spiritual hut for herself, and lives in it, enjoying herself, and dreaming her own little dreams

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Xue Ke didn't know what boredom was, because it was also an unsolvable mystery in her heart.

Therefore, when she casually said the word boring, and Sheng Xia said "yes, I'm so bored", she couldn't feel that Sheng Xia was hiding something in her heart.

In addition to going to class and eating, and other small things that need to be done every day, she spends almost every day in the two places she likes.

In the book she has another world to be in, and in the side street she has a spiritual world to blend into, both of which are small but enough to satisfy the little happiness she wants.

That's enough, she doesn't want too much, just a little bit, she can be happy all day, like an ant only needs a grain of rice to eat for half a year, she just has the "appetite of an ant" to treat life.

People who don't have too much luxury are rarely bored, and anyone can feel that life is fulfilling without any boredom.

This principle is very suitable for Xue Ke himself.

But Sheng Xia is a person who demands too much from life. Not only is she asking too much, she is asking too much.

Sheng Xia believes that youth is not to be wasted, she should take it to do something more meaningful to herself, that is, in addition to learning what should be learned, she should do something suitable for young people, such as falling in love.

Of course, it's not just about falling in love, there's something else, and judging from what she thinks, it seems that this point occupies the dominant position of "meaningful things".

And it's no wonder, because she's already living a boring life.

And she is so demanding about falling in love. This inevitably left her alone alone.

Loneliness is a bag of boredom, so she easily blurted out: "yes, I'm so bored." ”

In general, boredom is basically self-inflicted, and she only needs to lower the idea of choosing a boyfriend a little, for example, she can do this: she doesn't care about how long it lasts, she only cares about what she once had.

As long as she does this, she will look at it and feel that the good boy can choose at her own discretion.

It's easy to fall in love, but it's too hard to find someone who really likes you and you really like. She thought.

So, she still falls asleep with boredom and wakes up with boredom every day.

“Time is a storyteller。” The paper of her life is full of boredom, how can it be told? Even if it can be told, to whom?

-_-，-_-，-_-

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