In July, I stood in the dwarf village, watching the lights in front of the bridge, Mi Xiang and I released the Kong Ming lantern in our hands, and this was our third Valentine's Day.

The wind was blowing quietly, I saw Mi Xiang's drunken eyeliner, I kissed Mi Xiang gently, and I said, Xiangxiang, please let me take you home.

The last time I saw Qiao Yang was on a midsummer afternoon, Qiao Yang was wearing a T-shirt with a James Brown portrait, holding a large glass of Coke in his hand, looking at me happily and laughing, he said, Yunchen didn't expect to see you here again, Qiao Yang is just like five years ago, tall, thin figure, and likes to wear ripped jeans and sneakers as before, generally James generations. I like to have long bangs, I like to look at you, laugh happily, I like to sigh with me, and sometimes I am very happy, Qiao Yang He is Qiao Yang after all, if it weren't for the rice fragrance, Qiao Yang and I would still be born and died.

Mi Xiang lowered her head and stood in front of me, "Yunchen, you should know, I've always liked Qiao Yang," she whispered in front of me, "But, you don't know, I like you more" They were entangled with each other, but it had always been my life with Mi Xiang and Qiao Yang.

Qiao Yang looked at me, smiling happily, this seems to be the clearest scene, in my mind, in my ideological life, Qiao Yang just looked at us, smiled happily, I seemed to hear him say to me again, "Yunchen, be happy" and then said to Mi Xiang, "Mi Xiang, remember to be happy" This emotional idiot, always thinking of others, even if he dies one day, it is indeed for the people who love him, I said that he is an idiot, I said, Qiao Yang He is an idiot.

Mi Xiang said, to come to the last dwarf village, in 2009 we successfully graduated from Jishou University, I and Qiao Yang and Mi Xiang, wearing bachelor's uniforms, looking at the scene of the dwarf village, smiling happily, our bicycle carries our youth, leisurely drifting away, Mi Xiang kissed me gently, I know, Qiao Yang is quietly crying.

Qiao Yang said that in this life, if he doesn't even have Mi Xiang anymore, then he will have no motivation to live, of course I know he is joking, but when you think Qiao Yang is joking, he is often in earnest, so the ending is very simple, when we are about to leave Xiangxi, Qiao Yang and he jumped off the building.

I met Mi Xiang and Qiao Yang on an early summer afternoon, Qiao Yang was a short little flat head at that time, and the way he smiled gave people a very sunny feeling, and this sunny feeling was still clearly visible until the year when Qiao Yang finally died.

Mi Xiang and I left Xiangxi after Qiao Yang's funeral, Qiao Yang's mother, for some reason, held her son's urn, the white hair on the sideburns was clearly visible, Mi Xiang walked over, gently hugged the middle-aged old woman who lost her child, Qiao Yang never told us, he was born in a single-parent family, Mi Xiang kept saying, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry. And the middle-aged woman, looking at us with a blank face, tears had already buried a trace of her yearning for her son.

Mi Xiang said that she wanted to take care of the middle-aged woman, she said, she would feel guilty when she saw Qiao Yang's family, her heart hurt so much, in fact, good girl, how could no one like it, besides, all we like is Mi Xiang, but if Mi Xiang doesn't like me, I won't go so far.

Smoke willows in July, painted bridges in August, clouds and winds in September, covered bridges in October. Our youth swings at will, unconsciously but for many years, Mi Xiang found a decent job in a magazine store, and I have already surrounded most of China, turned around a few times, and later, my studio, a photographer, I have seen many well-known people, have made videos, and then some photos, edited into postcards, sent to Mi Xiang, I know she will be very happy to see it, I will write a letter every month to send it, I know this is what Mi Xiang wants to see.

Mi Xiang's boss was going to go on a business trip abroad with Mi Xiang, and he went for two whole months, and then Mi Xiang came back and said Yunchen, I'm sorry for you, when she took the pregnancy test report and gave it to me, my world seemed to turn from solid to liquid, I felt that the whole world began to sink, and I couldn't breathe air in fear. The whole world was disintegrating, turning into molecules, atoms, smaller substances, and I knew that from this moment on, my life with Mixiang was over, and Mixiang said that she really didn't want to lose her child.