Life is a little busy, it's a little hard to persevere, close one eye, light a cigarette, and this is a simple night when I get home

Pipsqueak was taken back to the town yesterday by her aunt because she had gone on winter vacation, so she lay on the big bed, and I only saw the lonely window

Pillowed on one of my arms, I lit another cigarette to kill my loneliness, a privilege I would have had since Pipsqueak was gone, and if I had smoked a cigarette, I would have had to endure the cold wind

After a cigarette, I turned off all the lights in the room, and everything in the room became the same

......

I've never felt that missing is so tormented, and at this moment Angel occupies all my imagination, and I wish I could lie in the same bed with her, and do nothing, even if it's just a few whispers, and the dream will turn colorful

I couldn't hold back my thoughts anymore I picked up my phone on the cabinet and sent her a message

"Did you sleep?"

After a while, Angel sent me a message back: "Not yet" Although it was only two words, this time it was very unexpected to add punctuation

I stared at this contentless message for a long time, and comforted myself: just think she's reserved As a man, I'd better take the initiative

I didn't immediately message Angel, lit another cigarette, took a slow puff, closed my eyes, and let the memories swirl in my brain

I love the way she puts her arm around me and smiles, and I love the intimacy of her sitting on top of me and her face to face......

I miss you so much, I miss you so much" I couldn't help but convey my truest emotions to Angel through text messages

Five minutes later, Angel messaged me back: "...... Don't say that."

I'm a little lost, maybe it's really loneliness that makes people blind, my thoughts make people panic, my thoughts can't get a response from Angel, I really panic, I can't control the panic

I still can't hold back my thoughts, but I don't know how to express it, and I don't know how to reply to her somewhat indifferent message

I finally became a lonely and inferior man in the midst of gains and losses, I have never been like this, can love really completely subvert a person, I don't know, but missing makes people so difficult

Want to drink some wine, blow some wind and liberate yourself

Turn on the light again, take a bottle of red wine from the wine cabinet, and pour a full glass

I turned off the lights again, and the room was dark, and it was lonely, and I hurried away, and I placed myself on the balcony with a wine glass, and the cold breeze was blowing

......

The night was so blurry, and after taking a sip of wine, I looked a little distracted, and the thousand piles of snow that had not yet melted seemed to turn into faces, laughing at my loneliness and emptiness

I smiled self-deprecatingly and took another sip of half of the wine

I comforted myself, "Zhang Yixi, you are a chic gentleman, how could you betray your chic because of a piece of information?"

But it was really hard in my heart...... It turns out that a man in love will also be sensual and hearty

It wasn't until there was a knock on the door that I woke up from my loss and melancholy

I put the glass on the cabinet, and I turned on the light, and I opened the door, and it was Lin Xi standing outside the door

.......

"Can you go in and sit down" Lin Xi asked me with a smile

Of course, "I didn't refuse, Lin Xi and I are not very traditional people, we are not averse to the visit in the dead of night, and more importantly, we have been completely open to each other

Lin Xi sat down on the couch in the room, and I went and closed the door to the balcony, and then closed the curtains, and the wind couldn't blow in

Lin Xi looked at me and said, "I'm here to say goodbye to you, I'll go back to Ireland tomorrow."

"Oh...... I wish you a smooth journey "I said No wonder Lin Xi will be staying in Han Feng and Ye Yiyi's villa today

Lin Xi nodded, and then we fell into a brief silence

Finally, Lin Xi asked me, "Is there anything for me to transfer to Qingyi?"

"I hope she's all right," I only said these 8 words for a while, and we were wrongly combined, and then left the most painful ones to each other, and I wanted to say too much, but there was no need to say it, and I could only send a blessing to the end

Lin Xi shook his head and said, "Actually, she is not good, so she did not return to China this time....... Since the last time she came back to Ireland from China, she was like a different person, often sitting alone by the sea in a daze, from noon to dusk......"

Lin Xi didn't say any more, but I already knew how bad Chen Qingyi's situation was, but what else could I do for her

I felt a little guilty and uncomfortable, because we were husband and wife, and I was the one who gave her these hurts

Lin Xi seemed to see through my thoughts, and she said, "Actually, you don't have to blame yourself, it's just that Qingyi can't see it herself...... You've been married for more than a year, who doesn't know that you seem to be safe on the surface, but there are too many hidden wounds, who doesn't know that the woman you love has always been Angel, not her...... You have your fault, Qingyi also has Qingyi's fault...... Since it's wrong, there will always be people who have to bear the pain of the mistake I think you've come out of the pain of the mistake Qingyi will come out one day...... So your blessing I will definitely bring "

I'm silent..... A thousand words are blocked in my chest, but I can't say them

Lin Xi got up, patted me on the shoulder and said, "Okay...... I'm not saying this to make you feel guilty, but I just feel the need to let you know about Qingyi's condition, after all, you were once husband and wife...... In fact, Qingyi and I should be grateful to you, at least you gave us a lifetime of worry-free food and clothing, but I suffered the pain of the bankruptcy of Seaview Coffee From a point of view, you are a good person, a responsible man......"

I'm still silent

Lin Xi shook his head, stood up, hugged me gently, stroked my hair and said, "Don't be sad, your choice now is right, Anqi is a woman worthy of your pursuit, so cherish her well, and I sincerely wish you happiness."

I looked up at Lin Xi, and her eyes were so sincere and blessed

Lin Xi let go of me, closed his eyes, took a deep breath, and then smiled and said to me: "It's late at night, I won't bother Qingyi, don't worry, Colin and I have already discussed it, and after this year, we will take her with us to drive SRX and walk Route 66 again in search of uninhibited freedom..... She'll definitely be on Route 66."

I nodded heavily: "Then please."

.......

After Lin Xi left, I drank the rest of the red wine in the glass in one gulp, turned off the light again, and lay on the bed, the room is still this room, the huge bed, the lonely window

In a daze, the text message rings again, and after I don't know how to reply to Angel's message, she gives me another reply

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