When Li Shi said this sentence "It is difficult to live affectionately in the world of love", my heart was extremely shocked, she is not so strong on the surface, and she will encounter things that have to compromise, but she rarely shows her vulnerable side in front of others, most of the time, she puts away her playfulness, fights against the cold life with indifference, and does not know her people and the world.

After packing up my belongings, Li Shi contacted the person in charge of the hostel, helped me call a car, and sent me to the airport, in fact, the ticket was bought a long time ago, fortunately I finally found her before leaving, as I thought earlier, I finally failed to take her away, just as she did when she left, everything was involuntarily.

Thinking of this, a wave of doubts haunted me again, who was the person who sent me the message, and how did he (she) know my address and all the dynamics of Li Shi?

After hesitating for a long time, I took out a text message to Li Shi and asked, "Do you know this person?" ”

Li Shi took the phone and looked at it, shook her head, and showed that she didn't know it. Come to think of it, this is obviously a trumpet used to hide my identity, how can it be easily recognized by me!

……

The snow-covered roads made the car drive unusually slow, which invisibly increased the time I spent with Li Shi, but it also meant that we had less and less time to say goodbye at the airport.

Looking out the window of the car slowly passing by, I was about to leave London, I felt a foreign scenery after the snow, as the navigation prompts closer and closer to the airport, I finally couldn't help but say: "If you have time, you can go back to China to see, even if it is a few days, send me a message in advance before you go back, I will keep the room for you, by the way, do you still use the previous WeChat?" ”

"Occasionally take a look at the messages you sent me, but I haven't been on it much lately."

"Why don't you brush the circle of friends diligently, I am updating you every day."

Li Shi looked at the end of the road and said softly: "The more I see, the more I want to go back, it's better not to look, as long as I know that you are all healthy, I will be very happy." ”

"Were you trapped by your family, or were you coerced?"

"Do you think there is still such a thing as coercion in a society governed by the rule of law? I lost the bet, and it was all a decision I made myself, and it had nothing to do with anyone else. ”

"With whom?"

"My mom."

"Why did you make a bet not to return to China?"

"There are too many complicated things in this, involving a relationship that is not favored, there are too many grievances and grievances that I can't explain, and I don't want to say it, I feel at ease when she is happy, and I can't disobey ......"

"This is not your character, I still like the one who used to tear apart without saying a word, real and personal!"

"You're masochistic, aren't you?"

"Of course not, you know I'm the kind of person who you throw my things, and I must throw your things out easily, no grace, no skin, and no cultivation, you don't know."

"Okay, if I have the chance to go back, I will definitely leave your suitcase outside the door of the hostel, and then have a big fight with you."

"It's a deal."

Li Shibi made an OK gesture, and then never spoke again, in the silence of the topic, there was a kind of sadness of parting, but this sadness was like the sun shining on the snow, there was not much temperature, but it melted into a hidden river, first slowly passed, and finally rushed to the point that it could not be stopped......

……

The driver didn't drop me off at the airport terminal completely, but just parked in the square in front of the airport and didn't even turn off the car to let us know that there was too much congestion ahead and we couldn't go any further.

I didn't let Li Shi get out of the car, I got out of the car and took my luggage, then knocked on the window, waited for her to put down the glass of the window, and said to her: "It's sad to send it, I'm leaving." ”

Her answer was succinct: "Yes." ”

I really couldn't pick up the second sentence, and I didn't want to continue to spread this sad atmosphere, so I looked at her, turned to leave, and at this time, she called out to me again: "Yu Hang, wait." ”

I turned to look at her, and she finally opened the car door, stood in front of me, untied the white scarf around her neck, put it on for me, and said, "It's going to be cold during the boarding time, so it'll be warmer." ”

I knew that this was Li Shi's comfort before parting, so I nodded and replied, "Thank you, I will carry this scarf all winter, do you have anything else to explain?" ”

"I greet everyone after returning to China, I have sent some gifts back to China around Christmas, please help me send them when the time comes, and there is a slow delivery letter for you, which should also be sent to the coffee shop where the song is read around New Year's Day, you remember to sign for it."

Looking at Li Shi in the cold wind, her fair face, under the background of the sun, seemed to be plated with a layer of white light, clear and beautiful...... I was a little dazed by the dazzling snow around me, looked at her carefully, then opened my arms and asked, "Learn some trends, pretend to be my girlfriend, and have a parting hug!" ”

"Why should I pretend?" After saying that, she looked at me with her chin slightly upturned, and took the initiative to come up and hug me.

Without waiting for me to react, Li Shi opened the car door, then sat in the car, and then instructed the driver to drive, so neatly and neatly parting so quickly, without any mud and water, standing in the huge airport, I didn't even have time to be sad.

I stood where I was, subconsciously took out a cigarette from my pocket and lit it, thinking in my heart about the words that Li Shi left when she left, in fact, I didn't need to over-interpret it, because the meaning was already obvious, but I didn't dare to think about the best.

Even if I comforted myself like this, I still saw Li Shi who was hiding her face the most helplessly at the moment when the car turned......

Sometimes, I am not afraid of the darkness, the terrible thing is that a person takes me to the light and then imprisons me in the abyss, if I don't have it, I don't care if I lose it, but once I get it, I never stop thinking about it......

I shook my head and smiled bitterly, and couldn't help but ask myself: what is fate? Why did I come to the UK when I couldn't explain it?

Perhaps, this feeling is just a kind of self-interrogation, some things can't be answered with a certain answer, in this ever-changing world, we are all different existences, we have all worked hard for love, but this drama is the same life, destined to us from the beginning of a play, to the end of a play, no one is the protagonist, and they are all bishops. Because the people on the stage interpret the loneliness, sorrow and joy of the people off the stage; And what the people in the audience saw was the scattered gathering of the people on the stage.

……

The plane passed through the clouds, and I finally felt myself flying from one place to another at this time, and when the two planes began to intersect, I felt an inexplicable sadness again, and in order to fill this sadness, I thought about the recent events over and over again, and then fell asleep in fatigue, but was trapped by a huge net in my dream, so the whole life suddenly stopped growing, and struggled in a net that became tighter and tighter......

In the evening of the next day, I returned to Xi'an, but I didn't go back to the hostel directly, put my luggage at Niange's coffee shop, and contacted Lin Ke in advance, asking him to put down what he was doing and get together at Niange's coffee shop.

On a cold winter evening, the air is still filled with the smell of dryness, and the coffee shop has been closed for a long time, and only one clerk is still maintaining it.

I wiped the table, lit a cigarette, thought for a long time, and inexplicably sang "September" that tortured Lin Ke for a long time, but the phone rang at the moment when I just plucked the guitar strings, so I was confined again, and I had to restrain the desire to sing and take out my mobile phone from my pocket.

I lowered my head and pressed the answer button, and Jing Qi's voice came from the phone: "I watched the dynamics of your circle of friends, are you kid back?" ”

"What's wrong?"

"Shen Hao said that he wanted to invite you to dinner tomorrow night, and I hope you can come, I think he is trying to resolve the previous unpleasantness with you!"

I was silent for a while, then I ended the conversation with Jing Qi, and my interest in playing and singing seemed to have been half removed, and I lay on my back in my chair, waiting for Lin Ke to arrive.

The sky gradually darkened, there was the reflection of the street lamp on the side of the road again, closed my eyes and rested for a while, and when I opened my eyes, I saw a graceful figure, carrying a roasted sweet potato, walking along the road to my side, I fixed my mind to see that it was Jiang Laiyue, and the clerk also reminded in a timely manner: "This Jiang girl has come to sit every day recently, and she sits for half an hour, and every time she is either silent or in a daze." ”

I didn't expect that she still retains the habit of coming to the coffee shop every day, which makes me feel that it is not easy for her now, and that heartbreaking day must still be pestering her, but even so, we still live in two worlds that will never intersect.

I nodded and smiled at her, and she responded with a smile, and when she wondered why she had become so reserved and deep, she patted me on the shoulder, and came up with a kick, and asked, "Young man, it's okay to mix lately, and I don't know how to say hello when I see this girl." ”

"Whew...... Jiang Laiyue, you donkey kicked the second fool in the head......"

Jiang Laiyue smiled innocently and said, "I haven't seen you for a long time, it's a meeting gift!" ”

I rubbed my legs and shouted, "Stick your neck over and let me strangle you goblin." ”

"What are you struggling with, don't humiliate yourself, you can't beat me, it's boring, I'll eat sweet potatoes."

……

On the bench on the side of the road, I looked down at the canvas shoes on Jiang Laiyue's feet, and said with some melancholy: "You are down after all, what kind of canvas shoes to wear in this winter, sitting on the side of the road and eating sweet potatoes, you are really completely transformed into a dick silk girl!" ”

Jiang Laiyue looked at the end of the road and said softly: "It's not terrible to be down, haven't you noticed that I'm enjoying such an identity now?" ”

I knew that this was Jiang Laiyue's self-comfort, nodded and replied, "I'm really happy that you think like this!" ”

Jiang Laiyue smiled and asked me: "I heard that you went to the UK to find Li Shi, but now I see that you came back alone, didn't you find it?" ”

"I found it, but I didn't come back with me!" I replied helplessly and frustratedly.

Jiang Laiyue suddenly put down the sweet potato in his hand, held my face with serious hands, stroked my hair again, and said softly: "It's okay, anyway, it's not a day since you were a single dog, wait a minute, someone will love you." ”

I smiled, gladly accepted her joke, got up and went to a nearby store to buy a pack of cigarettes, chatting with the boss about the warmth and coldness of people, while waiting for Lin Ke, while Jiang Laiyue was still sitting in place, eating sweet potatoes carefully, sometimes I really wonder, what kind of life can put elegance and violence on a person at the same time, and it is so harmonious......