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Life has been sad since ancient times. Zhong Shan wants to leave his parents who raised him for 20 years, leave Qingshan, where he grew up, and go to Jiangcheng, thousands of miles away, to go to college. Zhong Shulin and Li Chunhua didn't sleep well the night before.

Li Chunhua opened his son's suitcase for a while and rummaged through it, for fear that he would leave something important and not bring it. After a while, he walked to the door of his son's room and listened to the sound, caring about whether his son had slept peacefully. I had already turned off the lights and went to bed, and suddenly I remembered something, sat up busily, got out of bed, put on my slippers, and gently pushed open the door of my husband's room.

Zhong Shulin didn't sleep at this time, turned off the lights, leaned against the head of the bed, and smoked in the dark. In the past, Li Chunhua would say that smoking in the room and being careful burned the sheets and quilts. But this time, she didn't say anything, just sat quietly by her husband's bed. After a while, he whispered: "Do you say that the quilt I made for the child is too thick, Jiangcheng is not as cold as Qingshan, and it won't be so cold in winter." ”

"It's better to be thick than thin. I lived in Jiangcheng for a while when I was a soldier, and the winter was also very cold, even colder than in our north. I was wearing so thin clothes that I couldn't sleep at night. ”

"No matter how cold you are, you are always in the army, and you can be regarded as an organized person, you are always better than me. When I was a teenager, I fled with my mother, and I was still wearing tattered jackets in the winter, and my shoes were full of holes. My body may be the fault that fell at that time. ”

Zhong Shulin extinguished the smoke in the glass ashtray in the dark, and took Li Chunhua's hand.

"Didn't you recognize our mother later, and still have me? We have Xiaoshanzi again, and it can be regarded as a complete family of three, do you still feel lonely and cold? ”

Li Chunhua tilted her head on her husband's shoulder and said, "This time, Xiaoshanzi is really going to fly away." Since he was a child, his son has never left us. Sneaking away from his uncle's house that year scared me to death, and now I am scared when I think about it. ”

"When my son grows up, he always has to go out into the world by himself. I didn't go to Kannai to participate in the revolution behind my mother's back, but I stayed in the countryside and planted for the rest of my life like my eldest brother. What's more, Shanzi is going to college, and after graduation, the country is allotted, and the future is limitless. ”

"However, I still can't bear it, I've always been flustered in the past two days, feeling that the child's wings are stiff, and he won't come back if he flies away."

"Nonsense, no matter how hard the wings are, no matter how far they fly, this is also his lair, and we are also his parents."

"When a child grows up, his heart grows bigger. I always feel that in the past two years, he has been talking to me less and less. If you marry a daughter-in-law in the future, you won't have a mother in your heart. ”

"No, boys grow up like this, they have it in their hearts, but they don't want to express it in their mouths. When I was younger, I did the same to my mother. ”

From childhood to youth, from parents to common children, from current life to future vision...... Before I knew it, I was sleepy and slept with each other. As soon as I slept, the birds outside chirped, and it was already dawn.

When she woke up, she saw her husband who was still asleep with her hands on her, Li Chunhua had some strange emotions, as if she was an uninvited guest in this room, and it was not her husband who slept next to her last night, but some other man who had nothing to do with it.

She gently removed her husband's hand, got up, crept out of the door, closed it softly, and went to the kitchen, where she prepared breakfast for the three as usual. She also boiled 10 tea eggs for her son to eat on the road.

I drank a lot of wine last night, and this night, Zhong Shan slept soundly. When I woke up, it was already three strokes a day, and the rice porridge for breakfast was cold.

Getting out of bed, he realized that he was leaving home today. Like a soldier whose steel gun has been polished and his clothes have been sitted, he is just waiting for the trumpet to blow and go to the battlefield.