Whenever Zuo Zuo thought of Qin Mu, his heart began to ache like crazy.

part.1

Life goes on as it always does, just like those immutable laws. Our eyes will pretend to be more and more innocent, and our clear eyes are just another shadow of sadness.

Men and women are not allowed to joke about love, even if it is just a well-intentioned ambiguity.

Because, a woman's heart is soft, so soft that a sweet word or a sweet word can make a woman breed the germ called * love.

Zuozuo stood on the street with a lot of people, dressed in a loose and very hahan dress, and his russet hair was shaggy and messed up at the back of his head. He tilted his head proudly, as if he wanted to stop the tears that were about to fall. Thinking silently, everything that has happened these days, and the man named Qin Mu.

Cinderella's dance in the palace, will it really feel like all this is real? If happiness comes too easily, it can also make people feel pain and helplessness.

Happiness comes too quickly, and the pace of life will become longer and longer, just like those stories that have been forgotten for a while. Although time makes people forget the past for a while, the most real pain in the bottom of the heart is still firmly held by a ripple.

Looking back again, the thing called pain, if nothing had happened, would not have all ended like this? Then, the one called vanishing will not reappear.

A destined encounter, a destined separation. In fact, all the missed love is nothing more than two kinds, either I can't keep up with your footsteps, or you can't find my direction.

In the end, I was left behind by time, and then there was a deeper layer of pain, so real but uncontrollable. If we can still meet in the gap of time, then please hold my hand and don't be so stubborn when you go alone.

part.2

When I met Qin Mu, Zuo Zuo was 28 years old. In fact, Zuo Zuo is very beautiful, with a tall figure, delicate facial features, and even a wealthy family.

At the age of 28, it is an embarrassing age, because Zuo Zuo has never had a boyfriend. It's quiet like a shadow that has been ignored and will evaporate in the next second. Blank memories, confused pasts, and shadows that often appear in the mind.

In the quiet afternoon, walking on the deserted streets, looking indifferently at everything around me. Walking slowly, thinking about that painful dream, it was like a demon. The sad melody that suddenly broke in made my heart ach for a moment, and I looked for the direction of the melody and came to a piano shop called Bai Yueguang.

The ethereal house is only left with a sad melody beating, a lonely back, and a melancholy side face. You may be seated, the source of the sound is so desolate.

I never thought that music could show pain so perfectly, as if it were a real experience. Tears unconsciously confused the vision, the heart would be so painful, so painful that I couldn't help crying.

My name is Qin Mu, the voice came from the top of my head, looking in the direction of the sound, I was sucked in by a deep, deep melancholy. Such a soft face, but carved so clearly by the melancholy eyes, the pain seemed to be rooted and lingered.

Looking at this man named Qin Mu quietly, his heart hurt inexplicably, and he couldn't find the reason. This song is called Bai Yueguang, it is Yueyue's favorite song, Qin Mu's voice seems to come from a distant place, it is so pale and weak.

If grief can be replaced by music, then what kind of story is experienced in such a painful tune.

part.3

The rain, sliding down the curtains, quietly listened, the story of pain. That melancholy eyes and that pale voice are always around you, what kind of story does that man named Qin Mu have.

Looking at the sparse crowd outside the window, tears blurred my vision. Walking on that street again, I only heard the sound of rain quietly, and it was so strange to see all this.

The melody of sorrow, on such a rainy day, becomes more and more desolate. Unconsciously, he came to the place called Bai Yueguang again, standing outside the door and quietly listening to stories that had nothing to do with him.

The lonely rain, the silent heart, and the sad melody can soothe the pain in the heart. It's still that tune, it's still that heartbreaking melody, lingering throughout the rainy day, as if even the sound of the rain falling is full of pain.

If Qin Mu hadn't pulled himself in, maybe Zuo Zuo would have stood so stupidly, shedding inexplicable tears. I don't know if it's an illusion or what, when I received Qin Mu's gentle gaze, it was like looking at my beloved, and all the pain melted in an instant.

The warm coffee, the still wafting heat, looking at the hurried shadows outside the window, lost his mind for a moment, and his thoughts flew in an unknown country.

Gradually, I got used to it, and I had to come here every day, as if I was looking for everything I had lost, and like making up for the inexplicable panic in my heart. I don't know why, from the first time I saw Qin Mu, I had an inexplicable sense of intimacy, like I had known each other for a long time.

There is also such a melody, it is so familiar, when the music sounds, the heart will be inexplicably painful, and the confused figure that flashes will torment me so much.

part.4

Life still goes on, but there is one more man named Qin Mu in his life. Zuo Zuo often wonders, is this called destined, destined fate, destined encounter.

The dreams are becoming more and more frequent, the pain is becoming more and more real, who is the man who cried in the dream? What is the connection between that real pain and me, I really want to try to see what it looks like in my dreams, but every time I think about it, my head hurts more and more.

As soon as he came to Qin Mu's piano room, he was pulled out by a pair of strong hands. Qin Mu said, I will take you to a place, the warm feeling is so familiar, it seems that there was once such a warm hand leading me to run.

Shake off the shadow in your mind, and think left and right, is this called happiness? Holding those hands tightly and meeting Qin Mu's eyes, will you be my happiness.

In fact, Zuo Zuo's words about love are momentarily unfamiliar, and she often sits quietly alone.

Thinking about those love stories that have nothing to do with me, such beautiful and moving stories, what kind of existence exists in my world. There is often a warm and happy picture flashing in my mind, but the more I grasp it, the more I can't see it clearly.

The pungent aroma is blowing in the face, the yellow petals are sprinkled all over the sky, the end of summer and the beginning of autumn, the season of falling, but it is so beautiful. Looking at Qin Mu's emotional demeanor, the trance in an instant was as similar to the figure in the dream.

I still remember here, it was the beginning of my acquaintance with Yueyue, it was still such a season, and it was still such a fluttering petal. Qin Mu was intoxicated with his story, but it made Zuo Zuo feel so painful.

part.5

Looking at it, a strange but familiar place, his head ached violently, and he couldn't tell the difference between left and right, whether it was because of Yueyue in the story, or if it was really painful. Endure the pain, follow Qin Mu's shadow, and feel the happiness here.

Yueyue, she should be a very happy woman, only at this time Qin Mu will have brilliance in her eyes, and she can crush any woman's heart gently.

Severe pain, spreading to every corner of the body, tangled up my nerves. The picture in my mind is getting clearer and clearer, and the shadow is so familiar and warm.

The laughter of silver bells, the running figures, the voices of happiness grew closer, and when they were about to turn around, they were overwhelmed by the feeling of pain, and then darkness enveloped everything.

The pungent smell of soda and the noisy sound stimulated the messy nerves, and I wanted to open my eyes, but I was so powerless.

Doctor, why hasn't my daughter woken up yet, what happened to her Yueyue. The anxious voice of the father came, but he said Yueyue, who is it?

Mr. An, don't worry, Miss An's condition is very stable, and she lost her memory due to a car accident, which caused some pictures to appear in her mind from time to time, because Miss An recalled the past excessively, which would lead to a coma.

Amnesia, car accident, I actually lost my memory, but why didn't my dad tell me. Zuo Zuo struggled to think about all this, but he couldn't think of anything until Qin Mu's voice came.

Yueyue, how is Yueyue, the voice of anxiety and restlessness is interrupted by the sound of scolding.

, what are you doing here, you brute, aren't you enough to hurt my daughter? If it weren't for you, my daughter wouldn't have been in a car accident, let alone have lost her memory. The messy sound stimulates the pain, what the hell is going on.

part.6

The pain was like a flood, violently stimulating the nerves, and I wanted to ask all this, but I couldn't move, and then it became a deeper layer of pain and darkness.

In the end, I only heard Qin Mu's voice, as if it came from a distant place, Yueyue, don't you have anything to do, I'm sorry, it's all me who hurt you, it's all me.

When the last bit of sound is also obliterated by the darkness.

It seemed like centuries had passed, so long, and memories flooded into my mind like a tidal wave. The picture in the dream is so clear, and the happiness is still so far away, I feel like a moviegoer.

Xiao Mumu, you have to work hard, I want to fly very high, such Qin Mu, gentle smile, happy eyebrows, everything is so harmonious and serene. The girl's face turned to me, and it was exactly the same as mine.

The images flashed quickly, and they were all stories about happiness. The pain in my head became more and more painful, but the picture was still going on, and the happiness was still so clear.

The picture flashed for a long time, and the middle was frozen in that picture. The sound of whistles, noises, weepings, and bright red blood stained the left and right vision. I only heard a heart-rending cry, which made me so painful.

There were more and more people, and the blood on the ground was so dazzling. The man desperately hugged the woman in blood, but couldn't hear what it was until the police car arrived. The anxious voice, the messy steps, the moment the woman was lifted into the car, it was me.

Zuo Zuo's breathing became more and more rapid, his thoughts were messy and directionless, and he lost his memory, is it because of that car accident, then why is it because of Qin Mu.

part.7

There was no end to the darkness, as if it was about to swallow all the restlessness, and the feeling of pain struck, but it became clearer and clearer, and everything was clear.

It turns out that I am An Qianyue, and I am the moon and moon that Qin Mu said. Because of the car accident, he lost his memory, and he lost his memory in order to save Qin Mu, it turns out that we have known each other for a long time. The first acquaintance was at the beginning of that bleak autumn.

Because of the disparity in family background, my father's resolute opposition led to the conspiracy car accident. That afternoon, An Qianyue accidentally passed by her father's study and heard everything cruel.

In order to separate himself from Qin Mu, he hired a killer to design and kill Qin Mu, An Qianyue's heart stopped for a moment, and she ran frantically on the road, but when she saw Qin Mu, the car flew towards Qin Mu quickly, wanting to tell him to be careful, but the noisy sound covered everything.

When the pain hit, he was already lying in a pool of blood. Looking at Qin Mu who ran anxiously, he was so relieved, Qin Mu, I'm sorry, this is a car accident designed by my father, I don't want you to have anything to do, forgive him.

The warmth of the embrace became more and more blurred, only Qin Mu's heart-rending cry remained, and he could never forget Qin Mu's desperate eyes, so painful.

His life was saved, but he lost his memory, Qin Mu disappeared, and no one knew where he went. Everything was unraveled, why it hurt so much at first sight, why it was so familiar to hear that sad tune.

It turns out that all dreams are my remaining memories, and it turns out that what I have never been able to let go of is not only the memory, but also the painful past.

part.8

Running wildly through the familiar streets, it seems that every place has our memories. Tears ran wantonly on his face, Qin Mu, where are you, don't leave me. The pain is spreading, the fear is spreading, where are you. We've already lost each other once, don't let that be lost again, okay?

When he ran to Bai Yueguang, he still couldn't suppress the pain, and cried out loudly, facing himself with a closed door.

Sitting on the ground in despair, a message came from the mobile phone, Yueyue, silly girl, I'm sorry, I didn't expect my appearance to bring you so much pain.

You know, the moment you rushed out to block the car for me, my heart stopped, and I hated myself for letting you lose your life for me. I hate myself to death, guarding outside your hospital room every day, expecting you to wake up soon, but you sleep so deeply.

Blame yourself, hate yourself, you've been in a coma for a long time, and the doctor says your chances of surviving are almost zero. When I heard this, I wanted to die, but I still fantasized that you could wake up, spend every day in pain and fear, afraid that you would leave me, and stay in front of your window all day and night. Watching you wander between life and death every time you are thrilling, my heart is almost unbearable and suffocated.

My uncle came to me, and I was speechless in the face of his accusations, all because of me, if it weren't for me, you wouldn't be like this. In the face of so many punches and kicks, I couldn't feel the pain anymore because my heart was numb.

I know I'm not worthy of you, I just want to watch you wake up and see you live. That afternoon, you finally woke up, but you didn't remember anyone, the doctor said that the brain was traumatized, and you may never regain your memory for the rest of your life.

part.9

Perhaps, leaving will make you happy, so when you wake up, I will leave, away from everything here. In the past few years, I will always come back and look at you quietly, just looking at you from a distance is enough, as long as I see you happy.

But you've become so quiet, so quiet that sometimes when I'm standing behind you, you can't even feel it, and you're so worried.

Do you know, knowing that you are so happy that you are not married, you finally can't help it, come back here, and turn on the white moonlight in the place you pass by every day. It's your favorite song, and I hope you remember me.

Maybe you've grown up and don't like your Hahan-style clothes anymore, and you don't like your auburn color anymore. But there is a quiet beauty, but I didn't expect that my arrival would remind you of the past and make you so painful.

I'm sorry, maybe you don't remember me now, I should leave, and if I hadn't shown up, maybe all of it wouldn't have happened. Silly Yueyue, you will be happy, although I am not by your side, maybe you will not receive this text message, but I will sincerely wish you, you must be happy.

Pain is contagious, even if it's just a sentence, even if it's just a simple action, a familiar scene. Qin Mu, I remember you, I remember everything about you, but why are you leaving again, why.

Yueyue cried out heartbreakingly, why do you want me to bear all this, will I be happy if you leave. Tears spread, running frantically in every place I went. Don't miss it again, okay.

part.10

The familiar melody echoed through the streets, the sand lost its eyes, and tears drowned out its vision.

The crowd is surging, there is a feeling that Zuozuo can't find the direction, the sun is warm at the end of autumn, but at the moment Zuozuo feels so cold.

The lively city, where is the direction of the heart, I can't find any traces, I run without direction, just for the familiar figure.

After a shrill whistle, Zuozuo heard a sound of brakes, a note of recess with an elongated slip, a clanging bang, and the world boiled, screams, sighs.

When he turned his face and saw that anxious and relieved face, Zuo Zuo felt that he was out of gravity in an instant, like a lifeless butterfly, slowly sliding down.

The last words Qin Mu said were, Yueyue, finally let me protect you. Tears were falling frantically, why was this the result, holding the gradually cold body like crazy.

Qin Mu, you said that you would always be by my side, but why did you leave me first, if it was to repay the love I had saved you, then I would rather you never appear.

It was still a lively street, and a man dressed in a loose and very ha-han dress, with russet hair very fluffy and shaggy at the back of his head. Standing stubbornly in the middle of the street, Qin Mu, wait for me.

Afterword: Love, even if it is a forgotten past, will have the power to open it. Even life, in front of it, is so small. Tulip flower, meaning the end. A metaphor for a tragic fate