Chapter 180: Trying to Get Closer
is still rehearsing the drama as usual, excluding those prejudices, Director Zhang's style when filming is still very good, he is very serious at a glance, and the director who treats the script so seriously, it is no wonder that the dramas he shoots are all high-quality products.
The show itself is Hollywood-style, full of flashy action and fights, and full of American humor.
Gu Yingge was in English throughout the filming, and he was handsome and had nothing to add.
Lu Xiao still doesn't have many shots, and after shooting it all at once, Lu Xiao hurriedly returned to China, and Gu Yingge's life seemed to be back on track at that moment.
The results of Bai Yuchen's consultation came down, and it was suspected that it was PTSD, the sequelae left by the trauma, Gu Yingge checked a lot of information, but he couldn't figure out why Bai Yuchen, who was injured by the explosion, would be so similar to the sequelae of this kind of veteran's combat disease, but no matter what, Gu Yingge still couldn't visit Bai Yuchen.
For a while, Gu Yingge took advantage of the filming interval to ask for a leave and ran over thousands of miles, but Bai Yuchen did not react.
How nervous you are when you enter the door, how helpless you are when you leave.
If Bai Yuchen's attitude towards others is still as gentle and polite as ever, but he is more alienated, then for Gu Yingge, it is like he is about to explode in the next second.
He was completely resistant, resisting Gu Yingge's approach, resisting Gu Yingge's every word, Gu Yingge stayed in the ward for twenty minutes, but he didn't say a complete word. Bai Yuchen was so resistant to his presence and appearance, as if he was about to be furious in the next second.
This is the first time Gu Yingge has seen such a Bai Yuchen, he is indifferent and paranoid, and the most unacceptable thing for Gu Yingge is that Bai Yuchen's gaze at him is so unfamiliar, more strange than looking at anyone.
It was as if he didn't know himself at all, or that he was the one he wanted to forget the most.
In the end, the doctor came in and led Gu Yingge out in silence.
At one last glance, Gu Yingge looked in through the door glass and saw that Bai Yuchen had quieted down again and was drinking porridge in silence. He is still the same, so handsome and good-looking, although there are injuries on his body, it will not affect Bai Yuchen's demeanor in the slightest.
However, all this is based on the absence of its own conditions.
The doctor hesitated for a long time, but still forbade Gu Yingge to approach further, it was Ling Xiao who sent Gu Yingge out that day, and there was silence all the way. Originally, Ling Xiao was not a talkative person, but now that Gu Yingge didn't speak, Ling Xiao was left silent.
"Miss Gu...... Although I don't want to say this, I still ask Miss Gu not to come over recently. In the end, Ling Xiao said.
Gu Yingge smiled bitterly and nodded: "I understand." β
"Bai Shao will get better." Ling Xiao suddenly said as if he didn't know how to comfort people.
Gu Yingge said this sentence to herself countless times in her heart, and she also said it countless times, no matter what Bai Yuchen became, she would not hesitate to be by his side, but Gu Yingge didn't expect anything to say anything, it was not what Bai Yuchen had become, but that Bai Yuchen now no longer needed herself. He no longer needs a person named Gu Yingge to be by his side, he hasn't changed anything since he was injured, the only thing that has changed is that he no longer likes Gu Yingge.
He quietly made Gu Yingge panic, and he didn't even know what to do in the next second.
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The filming of the scene in the United States was completed quickly, and before leaving, Gu Yingge hesitated for a long time, but still went to the hospital to see Bai Yuchen.
At that time, Bai Yuchen was in the garden, when Gu Yingge went, Ling Xiao was watching from a distance, Bai Yuchen was sitting quietly on the bench, and for a while, Gu Yingge felt that Bai Yuchen seemed to be growing in reverse. He sat quietly like that, as if he were a boy of seventeen or eighteen. Gu Yingge looked at Bai Yuchen for a long time, until Ling Xiao said lightly: "Is Miss Gu going back to China?" β
Gu Yingge was silent for a moment and nodded.
Ling Xiao said, "Miss Gu wants to go over and have a look?" Bai Shao's mood has been stable recently. β
This time, Gu Yingge's fingers trembled slightly, and he whispered, "Is it okay?" β
I don't know when it started, even getting close has become a luxury, Gu Yingge stood there, and felt that the whole world had become himself and Bai Yuchen. It's so close, but it's so far away in a trance.
Ling Xiao suddenly felt that such Gu Yingge and Bai Yuchen were so out of reach.
"Please." Ling Xiao said softly, he had seen Gu Yingge's many expressions, but he had never seen Gu Yingge like this, she was quiet and silent, as if she was going to leave in silence.
The current Gu Yingge is Bai Yuchen's only source of emotions. Ling Xiao had stayed by Bai Yuchen's side for so long, and it was the first time he felt such a deep loneliness and despair. Bai Yuchen was still gentle, he was very rational with all people and things, and he was more appropriate when doing things than before, but Ling Xiao always felt that Bai Yuchen had changed. His changes were so obvious that people couldn't see Bai Yuchen's heart more and more clearly. White Feather Dust...... It's as if there's only a shell left.
Ling Xiao didn't know what that explosion had woken up Bai Yuchen, he never refused to expose his wounds in front of others, and sometimes when Bai Yuchen was distracted, Ling Xiao didn't even dare to approach, because Bai Yuchen at that moment had a terrifying look in his eyes.
Gu Yingge took a breath and slowly approached the past.
However, before Gu Yingge could get close to him, he saw Bai Yuchen raise his head. He looked at Gu Yingge, who was getting closer and closer, and his brows furrowed obviously.
Gu Yingge has never been afraid of Bai Yuchen, but this kind of white feather dust makes Gu Yingge so unfamiliar.
"I ...... Well, I'm going back to China, and I'm thinking of coming over to see you. Gu Yingge smiled awkwardly, and took a step forward, one step further, until he stood in front of Bai Yuchen.
Bai Yuchen's breathing was very light, and he could hardly hear the slightest sound from him, and after a long time, Bai Yuchen looked at Gu Yingge and asked, "Do you and I know each other?" β
His voice was so indifferent, indifferent that Gu Yingge was completely stunned.
This time, Bai Yuchen was not hysterical, nor was he paranoid to give people a headache, but his words made Gu Yingge's heart completely cold.
"Do you remember when we got engaged?" Gu Yingge's voice trembled a little.
Bai Yuchen looked at her quietly and shook his head: "But I can imagine." β
"What?" Gu Yingge was stunned.
"We should have been engaged." Bai Yuchen turned his head sideways, his expression extremely quiet.
Obviously he should be happy, but at this moment, Gu Yingge's tears crackled down: "Besides me, have you forgotten anything?" β
Seeing Gu Yingge's tears, Bai Yuchen was obviously stunned, and after a long time, he shook his head hesitantly: "I don't remember." β
Gu Yingge knew that Bai Yuchen was lying, he remembered everything, he even took the report about the Bai family and watched it carefully, for Ling Xiao, he never forgot it at all, and even the previous mode of getting along was clear. Gu Yingge didn't even know that Bai Yuchen's words were a little true and a little false.
Does he really not remember himself? Or is it ...... Just don't want to remember?
"Well, re-introduction, I'm Gu Yingge, your former fiancΓ©e, the reason why I said it was because of ...... You wanted to find your childhood sweetheart, and I lied to you, so we separated. Gu Yingge tried to control his emotions and said with a forced smile.
Bai Yuchen looked at Gu Yingge for a moment and nodded: "I understand." β
"I'm an actor, and I'm also managing the Heavenly Oracle now, well, how can I say it......" Gu Yingge struggled to find a suitable word, but his eyes stopped for a moment.
At the other end, Bai Yuchen opened the next page of the newspaper, and suddenly looked up and asked, "This?" β
The newspaper is a report about Gu Yingge and Bai Yuchen, and the language on it is simply unbearable, most of them are "Bai Shao decided to break up, Gu Yingge is entangled" and the like.
Gu Yingge stared at the newspaper for a long time, and smiled bitterly: "Yes, I am Gu Yingge." β
Bai Yuchen's gaze wandered between Gu Yingge and the newspaper, and suddenly smiled: "I probably really liked you." β
He looked so good when he smiled, but it was completely different from before, not like the clean appearance he used to be, Bai Yuchen's smile was a little more wanton, a little more amorous.
Gu Yingge looked at him, almost not knowing how to blink. After a long time, Gu Yingge sighed: "I'm sorry, I bothered you." But I think I always felt that we had a lot of misunderstandings at that time, and if I could, I wanted to explain it to you, but I never thought that you had amnesia. β
Bai Yuchen's expression was still quiet.
"Well, it's nothing, I'll tell you about it again if I have a chance in the future." Gu Yingge gritted his teeth and said, "Only one of those things in the newspaper is true, I lied to you, many things." β
When she said this, her eyes darkened.
However, after waiting for a long, long time, Gu Yingge didn't wait for Bai Yuchen's reply, he just sat on the bench like that, looking at the necklace around Gu Yingge's neck attentively.
Gu Yingge noticed his gaze, couldn't help but rub it lightly, and smiled: "This is the token of love you once gave me, because you kept it when you were injured, so I had the luxury of expecting it...... We can go on. β
"I'll be back home in a few days." Bai Yuchen said suddenly.
Gu Yingge was stunned: "Huh? β
"I'll meet you when I get the chance." Bai Yuchen said lightly and lowered his eyes.
is so indifferent and alienated, Gu Yingge doesn't know how she should feel in her heart.
However, what Gu Yingge knew was that she had no way to say a word "no", even if it was such a simple word, Gu Yingge couldn't say anything.
is obviously indifferent, but he still can't help but want to get closer, want to get close to the lonely back.
Wholeheartedly, I want to warm the person who was not so indifferent before.
Sometimes, the most painful thing may not be the separation, but the fact that you have been so close, that you have known each other so well, that you breathe so well, and now you are so strange.