New Year's Day.

It was still early in the morning, and there was a faint noise in the house.

Nian An lay on the bed, touching the empty beside him, and remembered in his chaotic mind that Gu Junyan got up not long ago, and when he got up, he said to her and let her sleep for a while.

But he got up, Nian'an slept for a while, and felt that the quilt was hot before it was.

Nian An reached out and took the mobile phone on the side and looked at it, I wanted to see what time it was, but when I opened the lock screen, I saw a bunch of unread messages, most of which were New Year's greetings.

glanced at the unread information, Nian An didn't bother to reply, this kind of mass New Year's text message, forwarded back and forth, Nian An felt very bored.

Just as I was about to put down my phone, I received a new text message.

Nian An's hand clicked unconsciously and was stunned.

It's a text message from Agawa.

Just a few short words, I wish her a happy new year.

Nian'an's finger stayed on the screen, hesitated for a while, and she called him.

"Got up?" Ji Beichuan's voice sounded faintly. It's still hard to hear any emotion.

"Well, Happy New Year, Achuan." Nian An called him, his tone was as brisk as possible, but when he called his name, there was a sour feeling in his heart.

She thought of his emaciated figure and emotionless face, even when he was in a time like the Chinese New Year, he was afraid that he was also sitting there alone.

"Happy New Year." He replied to her, and then fell silent again.

Nian An thought for a while and said, "Ah Chuan, didn't you go out for a walk today?" ”

"Get out in a moment." He was silent for a moment and returned.

"Ah Chuan, will you go to the capital after the New Year?"

"You want to see me, huh?" Ji Beichuan asked.

It seemed as if as soon as she spoke, he could see what she wanted to do.

"yes, I haven't seen you in a long time, I want to see you...... Let's see if you're going to lose weight again, it's really bad to lose weight, don't lose weight anymore, okay? Nian An's words said softly with some coquettishness.

Ji Beichuan listened to those words, but was silent for a while. Speechless.

He thought, Nian An had already thought about it.

She should have made the decision.

Perhaps, that will be the last time he will see Nian'an.

"Okay." Ji Beichuan only replied with one word.

Just one word, but he said it so hard.

Nian An instructed him a few more words to take care of himself, and hung up the phone.

Holding the phone, Nian An buried his head in the pillow, and there was an indescribable dull sadness in his heart.

She once thought that she would be the most gorgeous light shining into Ah Chuan's heart, but in the end, she could only become the most painful scar on his body.

Nian An, who buried his head in the pillow, felt uncomfortable in his heart, and didn't notice the figure standing outside the room.

Gu Junyan stood there, and through the crack in the door, she could see her exposed arms, hugging the pillow, as if she was crying.

Gu Junyan's hand holding the doorknob tightened, he stood there for a while, and finally just silently closed the door softly, turned around and went downstairs.

By the time Nian'an sorted out her mood and changed her clothes and went downstairs, Gu Junyan was no longer in the house.

The mother-in-law said that he went to the compound with Jun Yi and Guoguo to greet the New Year.

"It's rare for the two brothers to come back, although the people who live in the compound are not very familiar with each other, but there are also many people who have watched the two brothers grow up, and they finally come back, so they naturally have to go to the door."

The mother-in-law said as she brought her porridge.

"Isn't it bad if I don't go?" Nian'an listened to her mother-in-law's words, a little embarrassed, her daughter-in-law got up so late in the New Year, Jun Yi took Yumei and Guoguo with her, but Gu Junyan was alone, and those elders must love to ask.

"It's okay, you slept so late last night, and you're pregnant with a child, so it's inevitable that you'll be lethargic. As for Xiao Yan's mouth, are you still afraid that he won't be able to deal with it? The mother-in-law could see her thoughts at a glance.

Nian An didn't say anything after listening to her mother-in-law's words, she knew that her mother-in-law was so reasonable now, all because she was pregnant with a child.

If it was in previous years, every New Year, she would get up very early to welcome guests with her mother-in-law, or go out with Gu Junyan to greet the neighbors.

This year, I don't know if it's really because of the child, or if I slept too late last night and slept a little deeply. When Gu Junyan got up, although she knew it in a daze, she fell asleep again after a while.

"Drink some porridge and eat some dumplings." The mother-in-law brought out the dumplings, and it looked like the ones they had made yesterday afternoon.

"In the morning, Xiao Yan also said that he wanted to pick the dumplings you wrapped and eat, and I said that I could tell them there." My mother-in-law looked at me and said with a smile.

Nian An smiled when he heard that, thinking that this was something he could do.

After dinner, it didn't take long for another guest to come to the door.

Nian An opened the door and saw that it was Guo Maomao who he met in the mall one day.

"Aunt Mei is good, Sister An An is good." Guo Maomao wears a cute pink beanie, a pale yellow cotton coat, accompanied by a cashmere skirt and long boots, which looks cute and very fashionable.

"Yo, isn't this Maomao, drive in and sit." The mother-in-law greeted.

Guo Maomao just winked at Nian'an and said, "Just now, Brother Jun Yi and Brother Jun Yan came to my house, so I said why Sister An An didn't come, it turned out to be ...... With a baby! ”

Guo Maomao said and glanced at Nian'an's stomach, Nian'an looked at her eyes, and got up a little embarrassed to pour her tea.

"Sister An'an, don't be busy, I'm here to send you this." Guo Maomao said and pulled her over, and took out a small rectangular gift box from the bag she was carrying.

"Didn't you say it before...... Say let me make a sweater chain for you, I hope you don't dislike it. Guo Maomao said and handed the gift box to Nian An.

Nian'an said it casually that day, but she didn't expect her to remember it in her heart, and she bought a gift box to put it in.

Nian An opened the gift box, looked at it, and said with a smile: "It's very beautiful, I'll wear it and try it." ”

With that, Nian An went to the bathroom, looked in the mirror of the bathroom, and Nian An hung the blue-blue-green sweater chain around his neck.

Accompanying her in this red sweater dress, it looks good.

The green one should be jadeite stone, which looks very good in color.

It's just that I want to give her something back, Nian An is a little worried.

"I'll see, it's so pretty." Guo Maomao also followed, and the two were crowded in the bathroom, a little crowded.

Nian An turned his head to look at Guo Maomao, who looked innocent and cute, and said, "Maomao, when I return to the capital, will I give you a dress?" ”

Guo Maomao listened to that, thought about it and nodded with a smile: "Okay, Sister An An must look good for me." ”

Hearing her say this, Nian An was about to go out with her with a smile, but Guo Maomao pulled her and turned around to close the door of the bathroom.

"Sister An'an, I'm a little ...... I want to whisper to you. Guo Maomao looked at Nian An as if he had plucked up a lot of courage.

Nian An was a little puzzled when she looked at her actions, but when she heard her words, she was even more puzzled, whispering? They're not that familiar, are they?

"Sister An An, actually...... In fact, since I was a child, when I first met Second Brother Gu at the Gu family, I ...... I just like him. ”

"......" Nian'an was stunned when he heard Guo Maomao's words.

Another rival in love?

But Guo Maomao's attitude towards her doesn't want to be very hostile!

"I ...... I know I'm telling you a little bit of ...... It's a little sudden, but it's ......" Guo Maomao said in a slurred voice, and she sighed as she spoke.

"Sister An'an, do you know, in fact, when Second Brother Gu got married, I was very sad and sad, at that time, my mother originally said that she would go to tell Aunt Mei, but who knows...... Who knows that the person who Second Brother Gu married in the end is still not me. ”

"The first time I saw you in real person was at Second Brother Gu's wedding, when I watched you standing with him, everyone around me praised you for your talent and beauty, you are a match made in heaven, but what I was thinking in my heart was, in addition to your good looks, what is it that attracts Second Brother Gu? But later my mother told me that you are not only good-looking, but also very good and capable, so you are worthy of Second Brother Gu, and I ...... And I'm just a child who hasn't grown up, and Second Brother Gu won't like a little girl like me at all. ”

Originally, I was still very unconvinced, sad and sad, but then I ...... I've seen your costumes and jewelry, and they're really good, so look at myself......"

Guo Maomao said and looked at the sweater chain hanging around Nian'an's neck, she would also have these simple combinations, compared to Nian'an, she won so many achievements at such a young age, she is indeed inferior to her.

"Maomao, you're fine, you don't need to compare with me." Nian An listened to her long words, and her heart was actually very complicated.

"No, Sister An An, you listen to me. I'm not telling you this to destroy you and Second Brother Gu anything, I'm just ...... I just sincerely hope that you and Second Brother Gu can be happy. Mom said that if you like someone, you don't have to get it, that kind of love is selfish and will ruin yourself, so even if I like Second Brother Gu, I won't do something nasty. ”

"Maomao, you have a good mother." Nian An said with some emotion in his heart.

Guo Maomao's words make people have an indescribable emotion in their hearts, think about Jin Luoer, she has also liked Gu Junyan for many years, but in the end she failed to get what she wanted, but compared to Jin Luoer, Nian'an believes that Guo Maomao must have been painful, unwilling, and sad, but in the end she chose to let go and choose to be relieved.

It should have something to do with her mother, who is a good mother and knows how to enlighten her and teach her is the best for her.

Therefore, she can gradually let go of the obsession in her heart.

"Mao Mao, do you still like Gu Junyan now?" Nian An looked at her somewhat red eyes, knowing that she must be sad when she talked about these things.

Guo Maomao listened to Nian'an's words, bit his lip and hesitated for a while, then nodded, "I'...... I thought I was ...... I can forget him and let him go, but when I see him, I still can't stop feeling a little ...... There was some random jumping, and I couldn't control it at all. Sister An An, what do you say...... Am I like this...... Isn't it annoying, knowing that he is married, and now he even has children ......"

Guo Maomao looked at Nian An's lower abdomen.

"And what do you see me? Think I'm annoying? Or is it disgusting? Nian An listened to Guo Maomao's words and admired her honesty.

"When I saw you in the mall that day, I just thought you were so good-looking, and when I saw Second Brother Gu's eyes full of you, I ...... I deliberately got intimate with you, but when I go home, I think about the way Second Brother Gu looks at you and looks at me, I know...... Mom was right. I'm here to tell you this today, too...... I really want to make up my mind to forget about him. I hated you before, I secretly collected photos of you attending the event with Second Brother Gu, and I secretly ...... Isn't it ridiculous to sneak through your same dress? ”

"However, Sister An An, I don't hate you now, because I still hope that you and Second Brother Gu can be happy in my heart."

Guo Maomao's words were a little messy, but Nian'an still heard from her scattered words how she had secretly had a crush on Gu Junyan over the years, and she couldn't let go of it if she couldn't get it. It must be torturous.

"Sister An'an, you and Second Brother Gu will be happy, right?" After Guo Maomao finished saying those words, he turned around and washed his face at the washstand, and after wiping it with a tissue, she turned her head to look at her and asked.

Nian An looked at Guo Maomao's serious and clear eyes, and didn't know how to speak for a while.

If Guo Maomao knew that her marriage to Gu Junyan was just like a business negotiation, I am afraid that she would be sad and crazy.

"Yes."

In the end, Nian An still smiled and nodded.

Falling in love with Gu Junyan is already a difficult wound for a girl like Guo Maomao, how can Nian An bear to let her wound deepen and fester.

What's more, she's ready to put it down. With such a big determination, Nian An naturally couldn't bear to tell her the truth about those hurtful people.

But who knows if she and Gu Junyan will be happy in the end.

……

After sending Guo Maomao away, Nian An helped her mother-in-law entertain the guests who came one after another at home, and in the evening, a room of guests came.

Nian An wanted to help her mother-in-law cook, but her mother-in-law was afraid that she would be tired, and she was afraid that the smell of the kitchen would make her stomach uncomfortable, so she vomited again. So he kicked her out.

"Why didn't this Xiao Yan and Jun Yi come back for a day?" When my mother-in-law read it, she always felt a little strange.

"Naturally, I was left there to eat." Nian An felt that it was nothing, after all, his father-in-law was now in this position, Gu Junyan and Jun Yi rarely came back, and now Jun Yi has done well in the army, and Jun Yi has also done a big job, and there are naturally many people who are stammering, and it is estimated that they have to stay and not let them go.

"But Xiao Yan was like a shadow with you in the days before, but today my heart is bigger."

Nian'an said, Deng Huimei naturally knew that the two brothers would definitely be kept to eat when they were outside, but since Jun Yan knew that Nian'an was pregnant, she followed Nian'an every step of the way, that is, Nian'an went to the supermarket with her to buy something, and they followed it tightly, and now Nian'an didn't get up in the New Year, she followed Jun Yi and them out, not to mention, and now it's 90 o'clock in the evening and she hasn't come back.

"Probably left there for a drink."

In the New Year, where to go is not to drink in the dark.

But when Nian'an said this, he seemed to have a faint sense that something was wrong in his heart.

Since she got up, Gu Junyan didn't even send her a phone call or text message.

After a room of guests left, it was already past ten o'clock.

The house is in a mess, Nian An is cleaning up the house and teacups in the living room, and her mother-in-law is cleaning up in the kitchen.

After Nian'an cleaned up the teacups and card tables in the living room and swept the floor, Jun Yi and Yumei came back.

Nian An looked at Jun Yi holding Guoguo, who was already asleep in his arms, and looked behind them with some doubts......

"Jun Yan drank a little too much, and went out to play with Lao Li and Lao Guo and their gang of boys, I saw that he was a little drunk, and it would be a disaster for you to come back, so I went with him."

Jun Yi saw Nian'an's eyes and explained.

"Oh." Nian An listened to the words and responded.

"An An, you go to sleep early, put this place here first, wait for Jun Yi to come down for a while, and let him drag it out." Yu Mei saw that Nian An was sweeping the floor with a broom in her hand, and asked her to go back to the room to rest first.

Nian An was tired for a day, and his calves were a little sore, so he nodded and prepared to go upstairs.

Back in the bedroom, Nian An looked at this small bedroom where she and Gu Junyan had lived for some time, compared to their bedroom in the capital, this one was really much smaller, at first even she was a little uncomfortable, but now that she has lived here for a while, she also thinks that it is good to be smaller, at least it will not seem empty when she is alone.

Nian An took her clothes and went to take a bath, and when she came back from the bath, her mother-in-law happened to come up with a bowl of bird's nest, "I see that you are helping to greet guests at night, but you haven't eaten anything, and you may be hungry again in a while." ”

The mother-in-law put the bird's nest on the small table in the bedroom, and said with a smile: "I drank and rested early, I was tired after a busy day, it didn't matter if Gu Junyan's kid didn't come back, he probably came back with a smell of alcohol." ”

Nian An nodded after listening to her mother-in-law's words, but didn't say anything.

After the mother-in-law went out, Nian An sighed.

On the first day of the new year, I had to spend it alone.

Nian An sat on the sofa with a spoon and stirred it in the bowl, looking at the bird's nest and not having much appetite.

When Gu Junyan came back, it was about five o'clock in the morning.

It wasn't very bright yet, and it was dark inside and out.

After he entered the door, he didn't turn on the light, and quietly went upstairs and went back to his room in the dark.

When he returned to the room, although the room was dark, he could still see Nian An lying on the bed at a glance.

She lay on her side, hunched up.

Gu Junyan stood there for a long time before approaching the bed.

I saw a bowl of unfinished bird's nest on the bedside table next to the bed, where was it cold.

Gu Junyan frowned slightly, why didn't he finish such a small bowl.

He stood by the bed for a moment, then changed into his pajamas and lay down on the bed.

He took a bath in the hotel room, and the sound insulation at home was not good, and he would inevitably wake up his mother or Nian'an when he went to take a bath.

After Gu Junyan lay down, she skillfully gently pulled Nian An into her arms, and she moved in his arms while she was asleep, leaning comfortably on his chest, and soon she was honestly stable again.

In the dark, Gu Junyan looked at Nian An lying in his arms, but he didn't feel sleepy at all.

In the evening, his mother called him and reprimanded him for not coming home on the first day of the new year.

Gu Junyan was playing cards in the hotel with a few young people who were quite familiar with each other in City C at that time. deliberately pretended to be drunk and didn't wake up, and dealt with a few words casually.

Mom said that Nian'an is now pregnant with a child, and he has to be more considerate of her, and don't spend all day drinking outside.

But he is not inconsiderate of her, Gu Junyan thinks that he is considerate enough to her these days.

But so what, what she was thinking about in her heart was not the man.

No matter how considerate he is and treats her well, she is afraid that there will not be much place for him in her heart.

Gu Junyan originally thought that when they had a child, Nian'an would be a little different from him, but when she heard the phone call between her and Ji Beichuan this morning, her voice was gentle and a little painful...... The soft words, the sour and sour words, made him feel as if he had been slashed or stabbed with an arrow, and he was extremely uncomfortable.

On the first day of the new year, she was thinking about Ji Beichuan, she wanted to see him, even if she had his child, her heart would never change, right?

This cognition made the closeness and sweetness between Gu Junyan and her these days instantly fragmented.

made him think that he could be close to her, and he could be intimate with her, and he could slowly become ...... It's like her and the man, all this he thought turned into a joke in an instant!

A joke he thinks he's self-righteous!

It's his self-righteousness! It's he who has been deceiving himself!

Ji Beichuan said that he was never reluctant, and he, he forced her body, and now he forced her to have his child, but even so, he never forced her heart.

Her heart never belonged to him.

Even if she doesn't leave now, and she won't leave in the future, it's all for grandpa, why grandma, why the Shen family, and in the future, maybe for the children.

And he has always deceived himself like this, feeling that she will have him in her heart.

His self-confidence, his pride, this morning, at that moment, was crushed by the cruel reality.

He didn't know how to face Nian'an, and he didn't know how to continue to pretend not to know and pretend not to care about the self-deception and love with her.

He had no choice but to escape from his home and go outside to spend all his time drinking.

It's New Year, it's my father and mother, and he can't argue or quarrel with her here.

He didn't actually drink much outside, or he drank a lot, but his head was still sober and painful.

Playing cards with people is also boring, but I can't sleep alone in the hotel, and I always worry that she can't sleep well, and I always wonder if she will be afraid.

He really hated to slap himself, it was like this, he was still worried about her, and he still couldn't let go of her.

Gu Junyan turned on the lights in the hotel, and smoked almost a full pack of cigarettes one after another.

He thought a lot, even the worst.

If he let her go, the kid ......

The child has to give it to him, and he has to give it to him!

He let her go, and he and her children must follow him.

If you don't follow him, it's hard for his children to recognize Ji Beichuan as their father?

Amusing!

Originally, he thought about it, the child was given to him, and he let her go.

Instead of making her miserable, it would be better to do it simply.

But when he came back, he saw Nian'an's sleeping face and hugged her warm and soft body, and he couldn't bear it.

He thought he should keep her with him no matter what!

But his ears always rang, what Ji Beichuan once said to him, I still remember the man's calm tone, he said, he will not force An'an, he only hopes that Nian'an can live well. He will respect Nian'an's choice.

And what about him......

Compared to Ji Beichuan, is his love for Nian An too selfish?