When the familiar environment was presented in front of him, Li Shi finally breathed a sigh of relief, and stopped all the way, from the misty rainy alley, to the neon city, and finally returned to this quiet scenic spot, all the way down as if walking the four seasons, because of the topic trouble, in the second half of the journey, Li Shi and I have a tacit understanding, and have kept not talking about any topics.

The car finally stopped at the door of the store, and neither Li Shi nor I immediately got out of the car, but looked at the small bridge and flowing water under the light, and fell into a state of silence again, this silence has nothing to do with the scenery at this time, more like the helplessness of escaping reality, at least I am like this.

When we are far away from the hostel, we can still be considered friends, but when we get closer, we become "enemies" with different positions.

It was already 10 o'clock in the night, and this state of distraction did not last long, so Li Shi picked up the handbag beside him and said to me: "I'm tired after a busy day's work, don't toss with me tonight, I want to have a good rest." ”

As soon as she said this, I remembered that after getting up in the afternoon, I saw her busy scene by herself, even if she didn't admit it directly, now it seems that she did all the things she cleaned up today, and I was dragged to the bar despite my exhaustion.

"Okay, I won't bother you, have a good rest, and call me anytime if you have something."

Li Shi turned her head and looked at me with some confusion, as if I couldn't say such a serious thing.

"Don't look at me like that, you see, I don't feel comfortable playing the role of a scumbag again."

I was so self-deprecating and cowardly, but it made Li Shi "poof" smile, in so many days together, this is the second time to see her smile so openly, at this moment she is cheerful, more and more beautiful and moving, I asked her again: "Will you accompany me tomorrow night?" ”

"I don't know how I'm feeling tomorrow, so I can't give you an answer for the time being." Li Shi gave me an ambiguous answer.

I said to her sincerely: "If you have time, go ahead, at least you have to teach me a lesson, and tell Shen Hao's grandson not to live so freely." ”

"While I really don't like the way he speaks, I don't have much interest in teaching him how to behave!" Li Shi still didn't give me a positive answer, so she threw me the car keys and motioned for me to park the car, while she opened the door and walked in before me.

Her attitude made me feel a little more at ease in my apprehension, I don't understand, we are obviously on the same page, why she wants to kill everything, and leave me a little leeway, I really don't understand......

……

Even though it was late at night, after washing, I still didn't feel sleepy, put on a coat, held an umbrella and walked to the wooden bridge not far from the hostel, standing at the guardrail, looking at the turbulent river under the bridge, I lost my mind for a while, although I knew that tomorrow would be a sunny day, but I still longed for rain tomorrow, so I didn't go out There is a rhetoric.

I was trapped by loneliness, but fortunately, the phone rang suddenly, and I took out my mobile phone to see that it was Jing Qi's call coming in again, but this time, I was a little hesitant and didn't want to answer, because I didn't know if the person who called was Jing Qi himself or Shen Hao.

After a while, I finally chose to connect the phone, Jing Qi's voice came from the other end of the phone, and she asked with concern: "It took so long to answer the phone, did you fall asleep, did I disturb your rest?" ”

"No, I haven't slept yet."

Jingqi seemed to feel the emotions in my heart, she fell into silence, and didn't know how to respond to me for a while, I said again: "You usually have a very regular schedule, why don't you sleep so late today?" ”

"Can't sleep...... Give you a call, I want to ask you, did Shen Hao call you? ”

I replied quietly, "Well, it's done." ”

Jing Qi fell into silence again, and I inadvertently touched the cigarette case from my pocket, so I lit a cigarette for myself, I have always rarely smoked, but at the moment I rely on it, I can't wait to spit out the loneliness and grievances in my heart with the smoke in my mouth, and then show it in front of Jing Qi in the most real appearance, but this is just to think about it, if Jing Qi doesn't know what happened, I won't admit it, let alone do it, some things I just carry alone.

"Listen to Shen Hao, you will come to the dinner tomorrow......"

"He's told you all...... I have to thank him for the invitation, the opportunity to eat and drink for free, I must go! ”

"Tell me, did Shen Hao force you? After all, I lied first and got you in trouble. ”

"Why can't I understand a word of what you're saying? Rest assured! No one can force me, everything I do is what I want to do from the bottom of my heart......"

Jing Qi seemed to want to speak and stopped, just as she was about to speak, there was a sound of the door opening on the other end of the phone, and then she was heard whispering: "I'll hang up first, you go to bed early!" ”

I listened to the hanging up sound on the phone at a loss, but I couldn't slow down, and fell into an indescribable incomprehension again, I really don't understand why Jing Qi is so deliberately with Shen Hao, maybe, in the face of love, people are really inferior, once they fall in love, this inferiority complex will swell rapidly, think about it, even if a man's self-esteem will make her seriously hurt, she can face the past, Zhou Yu hit Huang Gai, what else can I say?

After the end of the call with Jingqi, I have been standing on the bridge with an umbrella, and in this long time, my mind has never stopped, thinking about those career and emotional things over and over again, until a cigarette goes out, I stopped these thoughts, but looking at the rushing river under my feet, I suddenly felt that time was flowing, so I fell into the loneliness of a person again.

At this time, how much I hope to have a woman who has been loved by my side deeply, we can talk about life, talk about career, we can also tell a joke, and make fun of each other, which is also a kind of fulfillment away from loneliness, but now I am not in a position to plan these, not to mention that there is no object, even the current situation of the hostel, I am not in the mood to fall in love...... To comfort myself, I lit another cigarette, which was one of the few times I smoked two cigarettes in a row......

This night was the worst night I complained about alone, but I still believe that one day I will get rid of this damn everything in a chic manner and find the joy of life again. No matter how much chicken soup is boiled, I still don't know how to face this tricky thing tomorrow, so my heart is so restless again, it seems that everything tomorrow can only depend on Li Shi......

Before entering, I took the last puff of my cigarette, thinking that the uneasy emotion would be exhaled with the smoke and let the wind blow away, but it didn't.

……

This morning, after two days of rain, I finally ushered in a sunny day and the temperature skyrocketed, I put on a plaid shirt and sat at the counter for a long time, thinking a lot about the current operation of the hostel, until it was almost noon, I made myself a cup of strong tea and stood in front of the store, looking at the city surrounded by dazzling lights.

Presumably Li Shi was really tired last night, and didn't get up until noon, and when she got up, she had long hair in a shawl and squinted in the yard as if she was sleepwalking. She walked back and forth with her eyes closed, full of childishness, and I just stood on the counter and watched, until she sat down, and then I made a cup of coffee and brought it to her.

Li Shi looked at me, didn't want to speak, yawned as if no one was around, but I inadvertently saw the truest appearance of her life, at this time she was not angry at all, some were just simple and beautiful.

I gently placed the coffee on the table, which didn't seem to attract her attention, and I handed the cup in front of me in a flattering manner, and she finally picked it up from the table, took a sip, and opened her eyes to look at me.

"Look at my thoughtful service, it's like serving Lafayette."

"Have you served Lafayette?"

I didn't care, and asked with concern: "After enough sleep, are you in a good mood?" ”

"Don't try to fool me."

I nodded, not wanting to overcomplicate the matter, and after a little silence, I put it simply: "You have to say whether you can help tonight, you just go out to eat." ”

Li Shi pulled the hair scattered on her shoulders, pinned it behind her, and then held her chin and stared at me, time seemed to stand still at this moment, but the real wind was still blowing, and the sun fell on our bodies a little hot, after a while, she got up and prepared to leave, and I didn't give up, pulled her at the first time, and didn't let her leave, whether it was good or bad, I hope she can give me a result at this moment.

Eager for an answer, her strength was slightly overused under inertia, and as soon as she pulled it, her body immediately lost distance from me, and the hair that had just been gathered behind her floated on my shoulders like a black waterfall...... I don't know whose hand touched the coffee on the table, and we immediately took a step back, but Li Shi was so angry that she looked at me like a thorn, I avoided her gaze, and shrugged my shoulders as usual.

Li Shi tried her best to calm the anger in her heart, and finally said to me: "Can you do less of this brainless behavior?" ”

"I'm used to making a fool of myself, how can I cover up my embarrassment if I don't do something brainless?"

Li Shi, who has always been strong, was stunned by my words and didn't say anything for a while...... At this time, I picked up the cup and motioned to make her another cup of coffee, but she said jokingly, "You're going to make a fool of yourself tonight, right?" ”

I was a little embarrassed by her question, so I could only look at her dumbly, and I didn't quite know how to answer......