In the noisy street of coffee shops, Dai Le and I stood in an awkward atmosphere, the cold wind around us was just like a cold mood, and the Christmas atmosphere was getting stronger, and many shops were decorated at the door.

After the stalemate, Dai Le said to me, "Regent Street is quite far from here, so it's okay to go after this cup of coffee, right?" ”

"You tell me the route, go there yourself!"

Dai Le seemed to be reluctant, and at this moment I received another message from a stranger telling me that Li Shi had left Regent Street, and that I did not know where she had gone.

I was a little lost in my inexplicable nervousness and joy, the only thing I was thankful for was that I knew that Li Shi was in London, maybe we would meet on a street corner one day, how romantic and gratifying, but this probability is really small.

With nowhere else to go, I accepted Dai Le's suggestion that instead of forcibly working in depression and pain, it would be better to find a café place to relax and reflect on my messy life.

In the box of the coffee shop, Dai Le asked for a pot of coffee, and then touched his chin and looked out the window, his consumption level was very high, and the window of the box looked out, which was the most prosperous street.

After a while, Dai Le seemed to see through my mood at the moment, smiled and asked, "Mr. Yu, I don't think you really want to go back, right?" ”

I was a little embarrassed, so I took a sip of the coffee in front of me unnaturally, and asked, "What do I think...... Is it that important? ”

Dai Le smiled and nodded: "You usually drink coffee and don't like to add fresh milk or sugar cubes, is it a habit to drink so bitterly?" ”

After a moment of silence, I replied, "Fortunately, I didn't notice it, and I really noticed what you said." But life is hard to get used to, this bit of bitterness is also used to it, the essence of bitter things, forcibly change its original taste, although it becomes delicious, but a little bit more than worth the loss. ”

"Then tell me, what have you suffered for your feelings?"

"I don't have a recognized relationship yet, no, I'm working hard."

Dai Le was not in a hurry to answer, and asked rhetorically like me: "If you find Li Shi, can you be sure that she can really go back with you?" If she is unwilling, but she endures for the life you envision, will it become a hidden danger between you in the future, and besides, are you sure what kind of life you can bring her? ”

"I ......" only said one word, and I was stuck.

Seeing that I was speechless, Dai Le said again: "Mr. Yu, imagination is one thing, life is another, there is a boundary between the two, have you ever thought about what kind of character Li Shi is?" ”

"What kind of character is she?"

Dai Le took a sip of coffee next to him again, and then said: "Li Shi has lived in the UK since she was a child, she longs for family life, a woman with a particularly strong maternal nature is more attached to the family than you can imagine, I have known her for many years, I know every sad thing about her, her life is cold, even she said that she is invincible, I have never seen her have anything particularly sad, but after returning to the UK this time, I found that her personality has changed dramatically, she is more depressed and lost than before, I asked her but refused to say, Obviously I went back to China to look for relatives, but in the end I came back alone, and her mother had a few verbal arguments, and now I don't even go home, when Amy said that someone came to her, I felt a glimmer of hope, but after contacting you, I found that you didn't seem to be able to bring her the ideal life......"

I was touched by his words, and fell into a long silence that seemed to be a powerless response......

Dale tapped his fingers on the table, waiting for me to respond to his words, but I never spoke again!

"If you can give her a happy life and take her out of the sad place of the UK, of course I welcome it, but you can't seem to change all this, since you can't change it, then don't meddle, instead of making a mess of life, it's better to let it go sooner, you go your way, she has her new life."

I finally opened my mouth to retort: "The reason why life is interesting is because it is not easy to come by, some things can be lacking, but it will not affect the final result, what I can't give now doesn't mean that I can't give it in the future." ”

Dai Le smiled and said, "Really? Then you pay for this coffee! If you can, you can reimburse me for all my expenses these days, after all, you are not short of this money. ”

"You don't need to detain these word games with me, my cognition has always been very clear, if Li Shi feels that returning to China is a hurdle that she can't overcome, I can completely follow her heart and let her do what she wants to do, I won't stop her ......"

Dai Le interrupted me: "Anyone will say this kind of thing, I'm afraid that you may not know Li Shi's industry in the UK, her wealth is beyond your imagination, do you think if she really lives with you, you will be willing to see her smile bitterly and say that I don't use cosmetics, don't buy clothes, don't buy bags, and can't even afford a new lipstick, are you willing to give him such a day?" Even if Li Shi can live such a life with you, what about your future? ”

I gritted my teeth and looked at Dai Le, but there was no way to refute it......

"Mr. Yu, I can tell you something related to the impermanence of the world right now, even if Li Shi is with you, what about the family behind her? Will her relatives agree? If you still have thoughts and only self-knowledge, I don't think it's hard to judge that these are extremely ridiculous things, right? ”

"Who are the members of Li Shi's family?"

Dai Le shook his head and said: "This involves Li Shi's personal privacy, she doesn't seem to want to talk about her family in front of you, of course I don't have the right to say too much for her, just to give you a reminder., Li Shi She is not an ordinary woman, you design a life for her is incredible, if you feel that you still have some strength, just continue to look for it, if you feel that life has to continue to move forward, then give up as soon as possible!" Thinking about my words, I'll take a step away. ”

……

After finishing the conversation with Dale Le, I sat in the café until dusk, and during this long time, my mind never stopped, thinking about those career and emotional things over and over again, until the street lights came on, I stopped these thoughts, but looking at the people and vehicles coming and going on the foreign street, I fell into the loneliness of a person again.

At this time, how I hope that there is a woman who has been loved by me, to accompany me to walk in such a street full of culture and humanity, we can talk about life, talk about career, can also tell a joke, and make fun of each other, that is also a kind of fulfillment away from loneliness, but now I am not qualified to enjoy these, so I comfort myself again, one day, I will get rid of this damn everything in a chic manner, and find the joy of living in life again.

After settling the bill, I walked out of the coffee shop, as Dai Le said, this coffee is quite expensive, but I can't afford to drink it, people live in the world to fight for breath, don't they?

The pocket of the mobile phone sent a message prompt again, I wiped my hands heavily from my face, and after gradually calming down, I finally took out my phone and flipped to the text message sent by a stranger: "Near the London Eye, you can look for it, tomorrow night is Christmas, tonight's Christmas Eve I wish you all the best." ”

I was a little stunned, but I immediately got up and went to the place where Li Shi was, whether it was true or not, I had to test it.