On this sunny afternoon, Li Shi fulfilled my arrangement, and drove with me to Lin Ke's place to buy a guitar, and when the car passed by the "Yijian" café, Li Shi, who had been focusing on driving, couldn't help but look sideways, maybe it contained the most secret story in her heart.

The square in front of the café is a bit deserted, but that doesn't stop it, and it won't be long before it gets lively with the rush of students on vacation in the near future.

Li Shi and I have always been silent to get along, arrived at the "Road Ballad" bar, no matter how many times this bar comes, I feel shabby, poor and sour, but this does not affect the business enthusiasm of the bar owner Lin Ke, even if his parents, brothers and sisters have moved to the city, and even threatened with family affection, he still sticks to it, still has an attitude to make music, and still persistently retains the characteristics of the old Xi'an bar.

In front of the familiar dark red wooden door, a pile of empty beer bottles was neatly placed, and on the bottle was a black broken guitar case, in which a pile of CDs was placed, and the white cardboard box read: "Original CD, 20 yuan each".

For many years, the price of CDs has never changed; It's been a few years, and the CD still hasn't sold......

"Such good music, no matter what niche it is, durian is delicious, and not everyone likes to eat it."

"His music has a lot of attitude!"

I agreed: "He's also quite high, isn't it just personal charm in today's society?" Look at the little pigtails on his head, and you will know that this man is dissolute and loves freedom. ”

I teased, but Li Shi listened very seriously, and nodded thoughtfully, expressing his agreement.

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Passing through the courtyard, Li Shi and I walked into the dim bar, but we didn't see Lin Ke's figure, and when I was wondering, a voice came from behind me, which frightened Li Shi subconsciously leaned over to me, and said, "Don't you look up when you walk and only look at the ground?" ”

I walked out of the bar, covered the sun with my hand and squinted, and scolded for a moment: "The sun is so shining, what do you want to be a human being?" ”

Lin Ke chewed gum, his posture was chic, he put together the broken music score that he had used for many years, walked to the wall beside him in small steps, and was just about to jump, and hurriedly stabilized: "Quickly move a stool for me, I will be dizzy after sitting for a long time!" ”

"Yo, where did you go with that dashing energy just now?"

"You have to talk less nonsense, my liver trembles, you want you to jump up."

Li Shi couldn't help laughing, smiled and brought a chair from the house, and quickly put it at the base of the wall.

I simply regret what I just said, pushing him to such a high place, and now I feel like I can't get off the stage, and then look at the little pigtails on his head, with the monkey-like wall and legs reaching the stool, there is no charm at all......

After coming down, Lin Ke straightened out his old and wrinkled jacket as if no one was around, looked away from Li Shi, muttered to himself as if looking for something, and said to himself: "When did I suffer from hypoglycemia?" I also suffered from dizziness and fear of heights......"

Li Shi motioned for me to move the stool back, turned around and wanted to leave, but remembered something to me again, and said, "It's good, your friend really has a very good attitude!" ”

Me: "......"

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In the bar, Lin Ke fiddled with the guitar and ignored us, when he found us looking at him, his eyes widened, his Adam's apple kept squirming and swallowing saliva, as if what had just happened was still embarrassing him, and it was estimated that most of his embarrassment came from Li Shi, because I often saw him doing some self-defeating things.

"Linko, get me a rum Coke."

After I asked for a cocktail as if I was relieved, Lin Ke, who was still embarrassed a second ago, found an opportunity and became busy.

In fact, I want to tell Li Shi that Lin Ke is not the only one she sees, his bones are full of arrogance and uninhibitedness, even if he is already in his prime, there are really not many independent musicians who are pure and not confined to the world.

During the small talk, Lin Ke thoughtfully made a cup of flower tea for Li Shi, and we sat in the bright light by the window, while I drank wine and tapped my fingers on the table. Li Shi gently shook the steaming flower tea with her right hand, and held her chin with her left hand to quietly look at the spider plant potted plants hanging on the window.

After sitting for a while, Lin Ke seemed to be addicted to smoking, and after picking up a blue cloth bag from the counter, he squatted at the door alone, and I watched him through the window, only to see him take out a long white piece of paper from the cloth bag, dip it in saliva, and roll up a dry cigarette.

I took out the cigarette case from my pocket, walked to the door and said, "I still have a dozen cigarettes, you can take them and smoke them!" ”

"No, the cigarette leaves are also very good, the strength is big, it's choking, I'm almost used to it after a few days of smoking, I'm afraid I can't stand smoking in the house."

"To tell you the truth, I'm here to bring you business today."

Lin Ke turned his face to look at me, puffed on my face and said, "Don't toss me, you kid, how much can a customer spend, this is also business?" ”

"Why don't you do a small business, it's better than if you can't afford to buy cigarettes."

Lin Ke didn't know what I was choking on, he suddenly coughed violently, and after a moment he stopped palpitatingly, squinted his eyes and looked at the sun overhead, as if he felt that he was sitting on the roof again, looking for the place called far away......

I patted him on the shoulder and said, "Anyway, like this situation, if you don't want to find a way to change the situation, then there is really not much time left for the "road rumor", there is a purpose for bringing the girl today, I remember that you didn't have a Fender (Fanta), it's useless to put it aside anyway, it's better to take it out and sell it to my friend......"

Lin Ke didn't respond, he spit out the smoke in his mouth into the air until the smoke dissipated, then nodded, and said to me: "I think it's what you want, right?" How long have you been thinking about that guitar, I've said it many times, these four guitars are like flesh and blood that make up my whole life, all of them are indispensable, can you stop playing guitar ideas? ”

"You really misunderstood this time."

Lin Ke seemed to be annoyed by the tobacco leaves, shook his hand and threw the small cloth bag far away, looked at me in annoyance, took out a cigarette from the cigarette case I handed over and lit it, took a puff before saying: "I am a lonely person with no home and no love, the guitar is my life, don't let me lack arms and legs anymore, okay, skip this topic!" ”

His words made me feel very wrong, but I didn't want to figure out what was wrong, this guitar must be better in Li Shi's hands than here, I think Li Shi's singing voice can only be worthy of this Fanta, but I don't understand Lin Ke's so-called attitude, so I fell silent in the stalemate......

Lin Ke and I finished smoking a cigarette almost at the same time, and I snuffed out the cigarette butt first and stood up.

At this time, Li Shi seemed to have finished drinking the flower tea, walked out with her satchel, and said to me: "Yu Hang, let's go back!" ”

I looked at the waves on her always indifferent face, thinking that she must have heard the conversation between me and Lin Ke, and she just didn't want to embarrass Lin Ke, so she chose to get up and leave, and I fulfilled her and followed her out.

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Outside the store, Li Shi stood a meter away from me and looked around the bar, and said with a little worry in her tone: "The bar's funds are in crisis, and I don't know how long it will last here." ”

I still joked with her as before, trying to help her relieve her emotions and said, "Look at Lin Ke's persistent energy, this bar still has to last for three or five years, to say the least." ”

After finishing speaking, I looked at the bar with some distraction, and the reason for losing my mind was because Lin Ke, who was immersed in this perseverance, had really fallen into a crisis. In fact, I don't know how long Lin Ke can hold out here on his own......

My eyes were a little hot, and I remembered the days when I used to shout in this bar, playing music with my best buddies. But now, we can't be like before, those carefree years together are finally fixed in an untouchable time and space, used to remember, at least the current Lin Ke, the mentality seems to be much older!

On the way to the parking lot, Li Shi sighed: "I envy him, he lives a really chic life, he doesn't need to be restrained by anyone, unlike me, ......"

"Who are you bound by?"

"Some entangled past events can't be shaken off."

I looked at Li Shi, every time she talked about herself, she seemed to want to say something, what kind of burden did this girl have?

"What about you? Do you feel like you're having a good time? ”

As soon as Li Shi asked, the chic gesture I deliberately made just now suddenly fell apart, and I didn't know how to respond to her words for a while.

I looked at Li Shi, and at this time, deliberately keeping a distance from her seemed to me to be weak, so I said: "I feel chic!" ...... to me" Before I finished speaking, Lin Ke's shouting voice suddenly came from behind me, Li Shi pulled me and immediately ran towards the car, she quickly started the car, motioned for me to get in the car, and then drove along the road.

I looked at Lin Ke, who was still running under the scorching sun behind me, and hurriedly asked, "Why are you running?" ”

"I left a sum of money on the table, I was going to buy a guitar, since he is reluctant, I don't plan to bring the money back, so I should support his feelings!"

I looked at Lin Ke, who was still chasing in the rearview mirror, his body had been chasing in a forward posture, and the pigtails on the top of his head trembled in the wind, as if he was about to break away, and Li Shi seemed unwilling to see him chase down like this, and stepped on the accelerator in a better place on the road......

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The last picture that Lin Ke left us is kneeling on the ground with his legs on the ground, hanging his head, that picture is sad, he is too persistent, persistence saves him, and it also hurts him......

On the way back, when I passed by "Yijian", I motioned for Li Shi to stop and put me down, and Li Shi, who was almost speechless all the way, looked at me and asked, "Are you going to go down for a cup of coffee?" ”

How dare I respond to her casually, in fact, I came to Song Niange to pick up the letter she sent here the day before yesterday, if she followed it, there was almost no possibility of starting, so she said impatiently: "I'm in an irritable mood, I want to be alone and quiet, you can go back by yourself!" ”

"I'm quite lonely, and this coffee shop is perfect for me."

If she usually said this, out of gentlemanly demeanor, I would definitely ask her for a cup of coffee, but I was so curious about her secret that I couldn't wait for tomorrow, so I deliberately said with a straight face: "Why are you like this, do you have to be with me to be happy?" You forgot you just stole my hostel! ”

Li Shi was stunned for a moment, then smiled awkwardly, and I remained silent in silence, waiting for her reaction.

In silence, Li Shi reached out to unbuckle the seat belt for me, and opened the car door for me, and then pushed and shoved, eager to kick me down with his foot, I was very interesting, I climbed with a rolling belt, a stumble out of the car, in a heavy sound of closing the door, with a heavy step on the accelerator, Li Shi seemed to be angry, and the car quickly left my sight.

I wondered for a while, didn't she like to draw a line with me the most? Why are you so annoyed after hearing these words now?

Since I don't understand, I don't want to, I just pushed the door and walked into the store, Song Niange seemed to have waited for me for a long time, turned around and took out an envelope from the folder, put it on the bar, and then turned around and busied, I knew that she was deliberately avoiding, this kind of thing, she also made an exception for the first time.

Looking at the brown paper envelope on the bar, my heart beat sharply, what kind of content did this powerful woman who suddenly broke into my life, with a secret, write that made her cry at that time?

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