As soon as Song Li entered the car wash with the fruit he had just bought, he knew that Chang'an was not there, Xiaoru flicked the earrings, didn't say anything, and continued to watch the Korean drama seriously. It's always been like this in the past few months, often can't find Ran Changan, Song Li looked at the part-time students who were busy in the car wash and sat on the stool at the door, it was too hot, and the electric fan behind him was blowing hot air, Song Li touched it in the bag, and wanted to find a tissue to wipe his sweat, but found that when it ran out, he turned around and asked Xiao Ru, the little girl didn't hear it with headphones, and it was embarrassing to sit there anyway, Song Li took the bag and went to the small store across the road to buy a pack of tissues.

Waiting behind two or three aunts who bought soy sauce and vinegar, Song Li just lowered his head and played with his mobile phone when he heard what the aunts waiting for change said in front of him.

"Did you see that yesterday? I was waiting to cross the road at the intersection in front of me with my grandson in my arms, and it was really scary. ”

"I heard from the person at the fruit stall that the car passed by in a flash, but fortunately it didn't hit anyone, otherwise it would have been a real accident, and the people are really crazy now."

"That's it, if you have money, you can't joke with your life, you should call the police and let the police arrest their turtle grandchildren!"

"You still say, those sports cars drove like they didn't want to die in the second half of last night, and they didn't scare me to death." The proprietress of the small shop who was looking for change pouted, "Once in a few days, once in a few days, scared to death, no one cares, see if they dare to run like this in Chang'an City?!" ”

"One piece." The proprietress glanced at the pack of tissues in Song Li's hand.

After paying the money and leaving the shop, Song Li waited on the side of the road with his mobile phone to cross the road, not caring at all about the content of the aunts' chat just now.

Song Li didn't wait for Ran Changan until dark, Xiaoru called takeout, sat in front of the computer, found a change for washing the car, and began to watch TV series and eat dinner, Song Li put the fruit he bought in front of Xiaoru's computer desk, and then got on the last bus of the night to go home. At the door of the family area, Song Li stood in place and did not move.

Chen Xi saw the person he was waiting for in the rearview mirror, opened the car door, and got out of the car.

"I'll go back to the United States tomorrow." Chen Xi lowered his head and put his hands in his pockets.

"Oh, that's good." Song Li's reaction was expected by Chen Xi.

"Sorry that day."

Song Li looked at Chen Xi and knew what day he was talking about, so he tried to smile and say, "A game, so why do you take it seriously." ”

Chen Xi paused and looked at Song Li seriously, "Game? Yes, the game, huh. After speaking, he smiled awkwardly, "Song Li, have you ever thought about going abroad to study again?" ”

Song Li was stunned for a moment, and then replied, "My dad didn't think about it before the accident, but he didn't think about it after the accident." ”

"If I say I can help you ······"

"No need, Chen Xi, I understand what you mean, and I think you should understand what I mean. I'm here to guard my mother, my father, and Chang'an, and I'm not going anywhere. I don't need that kind of gorgeous identity and future, now the salary of a temporary worker of more than 2,000 yuan a month is enough for me and my mother to spend, I have enjoyed the good days, I have survived the bad days, and now I don't want to have any more redundant and unnecessary relationships with the previous life circle. Chen Xi, Ran Changan and I are both accessories that were eliminated in that circle, because we were kicked out incidentally before we really participated, do you think, will we go back? Or do you think we can go back? Song Li paused and continued, "Didn't you ask me to tell Chang'an that the farther away you are, the better?" We hid, and now you're asking me to go back, can you tell me why? ”

"Song Li, do you love Ran Changan so much?"

Song Li looked at Chen Xi's eyes and replied for a while, "How much you like me, how much I love Chang'an, or even more." Chen Xi, I hope you don't do those boring things to get me to leave Chang'an, or let Chang'an leave me. Because we have nothing to lose, we will not hold back because of anything. You respect me, I respect you, don't make me feel disgusting. Tomorrow, be careful on the road. After Song Li finished speaking, he passed by Chen Xi's side.

Almost instantly, Song Li didn't react, he was tightly imprisoned in his arms by a pair of hands, Song Li only felt that the world was spinning, and then pushed away the person in front of him with all his strength.

"What is that person Ran Chang'an?" Chen Xi had tears in his eyes, and he had just kissed Song Li's lips and finally asked the sentence in his heart.

"And why me?" Song Li stood opposite Chen Xi with two lines of tears on his face.

The matter of feelings can never be explained, Chen Xi doesn't know why he loves Song Li so much, just like Song Li, he doesn't know why he loves Chang'an so much.

Closing the bedroom door, Song Li was lying in the quilt, and there was a Japanese movie "The Life of the Disgusted Matsuko" in the laptop next to him, in the movie, Matsuko's first writer boyfriend finally chose Osamu Dazai-style death, Song Li didn't know when he started crying, looking at the sentence "Born as a human, I'm sorry" and crying breathlessly.

At three o'clock in the morning, Ran Changan handed the car key to Seventh Brother, "Seventh Brother, you promised me that you would let me go after this time." ”

Seventh Brother looked at Chang'an and smiled, "Okay, when the car is sold, I will take back all the money, and you can leave." ”

Chang'an went up to the second floor, saw a bag of fruit at the door, bent down and lifted it, entered the house, closed the door, didn't even take a bath, and fell down on the bed, the night was very deep, unlike the silent city, he couldn't sleep in bed, turned on the computer casually, and there was a movie in the computer that had not been deleted for five years. That movie has been played for a long time, Chang'an stared straight at the screen, watching the writer being hit by a speeding train on a rainy night, Chang'an's mouth read the familiar line, "Born as a human being, I'm sorry." ”