Chapter 38 had hoped that he would die, and now it has come true

With a big hand around Qin Huan's waist, Fu Chengjue said loudly, "Let's go." ”

Ye Rongzhen looked at the backs of Fu Chengjue and Qin Huan walking side by side, a touch of loss crossed his eyes, for so long, he has not dared to go to Hong Kong, in fact, he is afraid to see this scene, even if he knows that she is happy, but he will be sad.

The group came to the front of Qin Zhenghai's ward, just in time for the special guard to come out of it, and when they saw the group of people in front of the door, the special guard was stunned for a moment, and then called out to Ye Rongzhen, "Mr. Ye." ”

Ye Rongzhen snorted, and then said, "How's it going?" ”

The special guard replied, "I just changed Uncle Qin's medicine, and he is awake. ”

Ye Rongzhen said to Qin Huan, "Go in." ”

Qin Huan subconsciously said, "You don't go in?" ”

Ye Rongzhen said, "You go in and talk to your uncle for a while, and we'll wait outside." ”

Qin Huan hesitated a little, and Fu Chengjue also said, "It's okay, I'll wait for you here." ”

It took Qin Huan a lot of effort to muster up his courage, reach out and press the doorknob, and then dodge in.

Walking through a small corridor, Qin Huan saw Qin Zhenghai sitting on the hospital bed, he was lowering his head and a photo album on his lap.

The sunlight shone in from the outside, hitting the white hospital bed and sheets, covering Qin Zhenghai's body with a layer of pearl-colored halo.

Qin Huan looked at the man quietly, and there was a moment of illusion, she realized that after so many years, she had not even taken a good look at this man, this man who had been her father for almost thirty years.

The room was very quiet, only the subtle sound made by Qin Zhenghai when he looked through the album, Qin Huan was not very close to him, at such a distance, she couldn't see the characters on the album clearly, she could only see the corners of Qin Zhenghai's lips sometimes hooked, and sometimes raised his hand to wipe his tears.

In his impression, Qin Zhenghai almost never cried, and Qin Huan never knew that this man still had a side that could cry when he saw something.

Qin Zhenghai flipped through the album and looked at it several times, maybe he was a little tired, he closed the album, wanted to lie down, and when he looked up, he faced Qin Huan who was standing at the entrance of the corridor.

Qin Huan was distracted just now, and this look at each other was also a little caught off guard, and she didn't even have time to look away.

The two looked at each other for a few seconds, and in the end, it was Qin Zhenghai who spoke up first, "Huanhuan? ”

Qin Huan tried hard to make her expression look very ordinary, and when she walked over, she said loudly, "What have you been looking at for so long?" ”

Qin Zhenghai saw Qin Huan coming over, with obvious surprise on his face, the photo album that was originally closed was opened by him again, he said with a smile, "Rong Zhen said that he was afraid that I would be bored in the hospital alone, so he showed me the photo albums of you and Arnold in the past few years, and I have seen them many times." ”

The album was opened, Qin Huan took a look, every photo on it was her and Arnold, Arnold from the next birth to not long ago, almost four years, Ye Rongzhen asked people to take tens of thousands of photos, all of which were selected and put in the album.

Qin Zhenghai saw that Qin Huan didn't speak, he lifted the quilt and made a gesture to get out of bed, Qin Huan saw his exposed arm, why was it so thin, almost subconsciously frowned, Qin Huan blocked it, and then said, "What are you doing when you get out of bed?" ”

Qin Zhenghai said, "I'll go and get you other photo albums to see." ”

Qin Huan wanted to say, could she have not seen the photos of her and Arnold? But when the words came to her lips, she said, "You lie down, where is it, I'll get it." ”

Qin Zhenghai smiled, then stretched out his hand and pointed to the cabinet opposite.

Qin Huan walked over and opened the cabinet to see that she couldn't help but be taken aback, the photo albums were stacked half a meter high.

With so many albums, Qin Huan had to pick up a few copies casually, and walked back to the hospital bed, Qin Zhenghai stretched out his hand to take them, and he said loudly, "Arnold was so cute when he was a child, that little face was round, and those who didn't know thought it was a girl." ”

Qin Huan sat on the stool next to the hospital bed, listening to Qin Zhenghai talking to herself, and suddenly at a certain moment, when the sun shone through Qin Zhenghai's hair and Qin Huan's eyes, she suddenly realized that Qin Zhenghai already had a lot of gray hair on his head, and he was old.

I can't say what it tastes like in my heart, salty, salty, astringent.

"You see you and Arnold wearing mother-son clothes, this is Rong Zhen's photo, I just saw the last one is your group photo......"

"When did you know you were sick?"

Qin Huan opened his mouth, Qin Zhenghai's words were interrupted, the smile on his face paused slightly, and then a bigger smile followed, and he said casually, "It's not a big deal, the hospital is good to eat and live, and it will be fine after a while." ”

Qin Huan frowned slightly, and subconsciously said, "Cancer is not a big deal?" What is a big deal in your heart?! ”

Her voice rose unconsciously, with a hint of trepidation that she was not aware of.

Qin Zhenghai paused, then slowly looked sideways at Qin Huan, Qin Huan's eyes were red, and his eyelids were swollen, obviously he had cried last night.

Qin Zhenghai looked at Qin Huan, he was old, his face was wrinkled by the years, his eyes were not as sharp as before, with the turbidity of the lamp that was about to run out, he slowly spoke, Qin Zhenghai said loudly, "You know." ”

A very light sentence, Qin Huan clenched her fists, she resisted the urge to cry, looked at Qin Zhenghai and said, "You are sick, why did you never tell me?" Qin Zhenghai said, "What can I change, but it just makes you worry." ”

Qin Huan was uncomfortable by Qin Zhenghai, she looked away slightly, and said in a low voice, "You think too much, who is worried about you." ”

Qin Zhenghai curled the corners of his lips, revealing a self-deprecating smile, and he said loudly, "Yes, you are right, in this life, I seem to be destined to disturb your family, you, your mother, and your brother are all affected by me...... So sometimes I wonder if I've been running around all my life, I'm living in no fixed place, I'm getting old, I'm getting cancer, ha, is this God's punishment for me, so that I can't die. ”

Qin Huan clenched his fists, and his chest felt like a big stone had been pressed, weighing a thousand pounds.

Qin Zhenghai looked at Qin Huan and said with a smile, "Huanhuan, you have also thought more than once, if one day, I die and am gone, so that you don't have to be affected by me, right?" ”

Qin Huan lowered his gaze, and a large tear fell on his lap.

Qin Zhenghai wanted to reach out and help Qin Huan wipe away his tears, but his fingers moved, he didn't raise his hand after all, he just said loudly, "It's okay now, I'm really going to die, and in the future, I won't trouble you anymore......"

Qin Huan's tears rushed out, and when she raised her head, she glared at Qin Zhenghai angrily, and said loudly, "Do you think you are a hero?" Do you think that if you die like this, you owe me nothing? Why can you be so selfish? In the past, you could leave our family behind for your own sake, but now that your mother and brother are gone, do you still want to leave me?! ”

Qin Huan trembled angrily, how could he be like this, how could he be like this...... If he doesn't even want her anymore, then she will really be alone in the future.

Qin Zhenghai looked at Qin Huan sitting not far from him, crying like a child, he was stunned for a long time, then he slowly raised his head and covered the top of Qin Huan's head, he didn't know how to get along with children, and his contact with Qin Huan when he was a child was also often beaten and scolded.

It turned out that her hair was so soft and warm, Qin Zhenghai's cloudy eyes welled up with tears, and he said in a hoarse voice, "Huanhuan, can you forgive Dad?" ”